Chapter 46 Okay, we'll talk about it after the New Year.
There was a long silence on the other end of the phone.
Yu Xue regretted it; she pinched her fingers.
She knew Lin Yinyin wouldn't, but she couldn't help worrying.
What if Lin Yinyin really minds?
She will lose her only friend.
Even though she wasn't her only friend, Yu Xue didn't want to lose her completely.
Lin Yinyin is like her sun; wherever you are, just thinking of her always inspires you.
"Don't tell anyone I'm telling you this," Lin Yinyin swallowed, as if she had made up her mind.
Yu Xue tilted her head after hearing this, unable to understand what could be so shocking that Lin Yinyin felt it was something she couldn't say.
Lin Yinyin said, "I genuinely feel that someone might be targeting you."
Yu Xue laughed: "No one is targeting me."
Lin Yinyin said, "To be honest, I've always felt that cyberbullying is pretty inexplicable. And I can't stand up against cyberbullying, right? If I do, they'll start cyberbullying me again, saying that I'm afraid of being criticized and that I raise the banner of justice to protect myself when I'm being criticized. But I honestly think that if you're doing something wrong, why can't I raise the banner of justice?"
She became more and more agitated as she spoke, slamming her hand on the table and standing up. She said, "Do you know why they all stopped talking as soon as you released your album? Because they're in the wrong! They've been paid! They're spouting nonsense about some inexplicable things! With a little encouragement, those people who are unhappy in life come rushing in and clinging to you. Now that you've stood up, they're in the wrong, so who dares to say anything?"
Yu Xue clutched the hem of her clothes.
She doesn't actually believe things like "being targeted" or "being paid," but honestly, in times like these, using those words to comfort herself can really alleviate some of the pain.
Spiritual victory is not good, but what can you do if it's not good? Are you just going to sigh at the dark and indifferent reality every day?
Is she going to jump off a building because she "accidentally laid the vegetables sideways"?
There wasn't enough room for everyone to stand on that rooftop.
Lin Yinyin spoke eloquently, "You're just too kind. Someone else might have taken a knife and chopped down everyone who insulted her before they died, regardless of whether they said one or two insults."
"I..." Yu Xue was interrupted before she could finish speaking.
You can vaguely hear someone calling Lin Yinyin on the other end of the phone.
Lin Yinyin: "Something's up, don't shout!"
Yu Xue quickly replied, "It's okay, I'm feeling much better now. You go ahead, it's not easy for you to travel abroad, don't let me hold you back. Remember to message me when you get back, let's go out for a meal."
"Okay," Lin Yinyin said. "Then I'll hang up now, bye-bye."
Yu Xue put down her phone and turned to look at Wen Feng.
The two were very close, and she knew that Wen Feng had heard everything.
Yu Xue placed her hand on his forearm and said with amusement, "Why are you staring straight ahead? You've already done everything, do you still need to be mindful of propriety?"
She knew her pajamas weren't buttoned up properly, and Wen Feng turned away embarrassedly.
She said that, but she still went to button up her pajamas. She had come to the balcony to get some fresh air because she was a little hot from the heating in the room, but now she was actually starting to feel cold.
Wen Feng unfolded the blanket from the swing and draped it over her, saying, "Are you still upset about the comments online?"
Yu Xue said, "I was a little upset just now, but Lin Yinyin comforted me, and I'm much better now. I haven't seen any negative comments lately, which is much better than before. I was just overthinking it."
Wen Feng tilted his head slightly toward her, almost touching it, and asked, "Why did you choose to become a singer?"
Yu Xue leaned closer to him, her head touching his: "I want to make money, and I love singing. I know that given my situation... I'm not qualified to talk about whether I like something or not. I should just choose the safest path. Luckily, I met my mother, otherwise I probably wouldn't have been able to continue."
Wen Feng intertwined his fingers with Yu Xue's and said, "No, Yu Xue, I think you can do anything well. Even if you don't choose to be a singer, you can definitely make a lot of money if you choose another profession."
"No, I'm not suitable," Yu Xue quickly said. "I know you're trying to comfort me, please don't, please don't say that." She was so embarrassed; she felt both happy and apprehensive upon hearing praise that didn't belong to her.
So she hasn't dared to go online lately.
Seeing negative comments makes me sad, and seeing overly positive comments makes me afraid; there's almost no solution to this.
Wen Feng: "I'm not lying to you, I'm serious. You're just sick right now, so you look dejected, like you can't do anything right. But you're not like that. You have guts. When you were a child, you stood out in that kind of learning environment and got into a top high school. After studying art, you were always at the top of your class. Now, even though you're sick, you've released an album and achieved such great success. Yu Xue, I've been attracted by your beauty countless times. Every word I'm saying is true."
Yu Xue put her hand on his shoulder, wanting to push him away, but she couldn't bear to.
She covered half her face, forced to listen to these words, a strange sense of embarrassment spreading from her toes to her neck, her body tingling as if she had been struck by an electric current.
Yu Xue said, "Please stop talking, I really don't feel well."
Wen Feng grabbed her hand, kneaded her knuckles, moved closer to her, and hugged her.
He was sad, he was heartbroken.
He understood that Yu Xue had a low sense of self-worth; she felt she didn't deserve much praise, and even if she truly did her best, she would feel ashamed and embarrassed when others stated the facts. Even if you jokingly said, "You're the most amazing woman I've ever met," she would smile, turn her head away, and ask you helplessly, "Really?"
So what? So what if she felt unworthy? So what if she was petty? She wasn't born into such a family, it wasn't her choice, and she wasn't allowed to stand tall, but she still stood up and left that family.
She met Wen Feng, but even if she hadn't met Wen Feng, Wen Feng believed that she would have found a way to survive on her own.
If she hadn't married him, perhaps she wouldn't have given up her job, wouldn't have stayed at home, and wouldn't have gotten so sick.
Everyone says you shouldn't romanticize a path you haven't walked, but Wen Feng couldn't help it. He couldn't help but dream of a better life for Yu Xue, and he couldn't help but blame himself for ignoring her for the past four years.
"Okay." Yu Xue stood up and threw the blanket back onto the swing. "I'll digest it myself, I'll be fine. It's nothing."
She walked to the door, pushed open the balcony door, and then turned back to ask, "It's nothing, right?"
Wen Feng stepped forward, followed behind her, and helped her open the balcony door. "It's nothing."
The balcony was cold, and it had started snowing outside. Yu Xue took a step forward, and the cold instantly disappeared, replaced by the warmth of the room.
One day, she will forget the wind and snow outside the window, just like in the lyrics.
She's only 24 years old, and her future is bright and promising.
Yu Xue agreed to accompany Wen Feng to his grandmother's house on the second day of the Lunar New Year. After all, he was an elder, and it was better to save face. Moreover, Wen Feng's father would also be there. Although Yu Xue and Wen Feng's father were not that close, she was deeply indebted to him for the kindness the Wen family had shown her. When she went back to her hometown, she often played chess with her father. She firmly sided with her mother, but she couldn't bring herself to hate her father.
On New Year's Eve, Yu Xue returned the diamond ring to Liu Xin. She had said she was going to give it to Wen Feng, but she was distracted and forgot.
Liu Xin didn't take it, saying, "Your father bought this. Take it back and give it to him."
"Okay." Yu Xue handed the ring to Wen Feng. "You should return it. It's not really appropriate for me to do it."
On the second day of the Lunar New Year, Wen Feng and Yu Xue arrived at their grandmother's house early.
Grandma remembered that Yu Xue was pregnant, so she specially asked the chef to prepare two tables of dishes and let Yu Xue sit at the other table to eat.
"This isn't appropriate," Wen Feng and Wen Yuan said in unison.
Wen Feng glanced at Wen Yuan; it was the first time he had heard his father contradict his grandmother's decision.
"Why is it inappropriate?" Grandma said calmly. "She's pregnant, and she can't drink alcohol, eat this or that. I'm just worried that she might have health problems from eating it."
Wen Yuan fell silent, staring at the dishes in front of her.
Wen Feng said, "Grandma, there aren't that many dishes that pregnant women can't eat. Just replace the wine on the table with juice."
Grandma said, "That won't do. You don't understand. You're not pregnant."
Wen Feng had nothing to say about not being able to get pregnant. He said, "Then I'll go sit with her over there. I can't let her sit there alone."
"Oh dear, oh dear, it's not that serious." Second Uncle stood up. "Your grandma didn't mean any harm. How about this, we'll split into two tables, the boys sit here and the girls sit there."
"No need, no need," Yu Xue quickly waved her hand.
Everyone was looking at her.
Yu Xue said, "I'm not pregnant." She was tired; she didn't want to lie anymore.
Grandpa had been looking at his phone, but he finally looked up when he heard that.
Yu Xue didn't want to make things too awkward, especially since it was the Lunar New Year and so many relatives were there. "I went to the hospital for another detailed check-up and found that the last check-up was wrong. I'm sorry."
Grandma squinted and pondered carefully: "You were just talking nonsense back then, weren't you? It was so sudden, without any beginning or end. Show me your first prenatal checkup report."
Grandpa sat up, looked up at Yu Xue with disdain, and said, "Tomorrow, we'll go to your house to pick it up and take you to the hospital for a checkup to see if you're sick or why you can't get pregnant."
"I've been sick lately," Yu Xue answered truthfully. "I'm not feeling well, so I don't plan to have children for the time being."
Grandma said, "Hey, how old are you? Why don't you have children yet? Waiting a few years will hurt your health. We're all doing this for your own good. Let's have one soon."
Wen Feng said, "Pregnancy is definitely bad for your health, but it's okay, Grandma. You don't need to worry about it. We'll discuss this ourselves."
"Fine, fine." Grandma held down Grandpa's hand, which was about to throw down the chopsticks. It was the same thing a few years ago; Grandpa threw down the chopsticks, and then Liu Xin overturned the table. Who knows if this granddaughter-in-law is just like Liu Xin? What a misfortune for the family.
Anyway, let's talk about it later.
Grandma said, "Let's eat."
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