Chapter 23: Jay Becomes a Policeman

That day, Geto Xia left his boss' office and went to the cemetery.

He personally arranged and took care of each one. He was busy there for a long time and only stopped after seeing that there were offerings in front of each one.

The lights in the cemetery were dim, only his blurry back could be clearly seen. His black suit was already covered in dust, and his hands were also stained with dirt.

He just looked at these names, some familiar and some unfamiliar, and it was hard to tell whether there was confusion or anger in his eyes.

Xia Youjie knew very well that there must be true light at the end of this road, when the criminals would be punished and the victims would be vindicated.

However, if this road is made of countless blood and corpses, and no one knows how long this road is, can he or they still go on?

He took a deep breath and covered his face with one hand. No one knew what he was thinking at this moment, and no one could see how vulnerable Xia Yujie was at this moment.

But soon, he put down his hands, bowed deeply to them, and turned his head without hesitation.

A week after he left, that stupid boss also became one of those tombstones.

Of course, he was not the one who did it. It was just that the other party had done too many evil things and had a lot of information in his hands. When he was reported to the higher-ups, he was assassinated by □□.

As for Geto, he just opened a channel a little bit to let more people know what he did.

The person who replaced his boss was Masamichi Yaga, the teacher who led Geto to become a police officer and remained consistent.

When he saw him, Xia Yujie was really relieved. At least, he was not really alone and there was not only garbage here.

But maybe he relaxed his tone too early. Ye Mo Zhengdao looked at him with a complicated expression, and after a long time he sighed and told him the secret.

Xia Yujie's face was stiff. He heard what the other party said and instantly understood what he meant.

All the files about Geto Kagome have been destroyed by his former boss, which completely confirmed Geto Kagome's resignation and even denied everything Geto Kagome had ever done.

In other words, his current undercover operations can only be private actions, which are completely meaningless and he is not qualified to do these things.

The vicious and stupid person will drag others into the water even at the last minute. His hands will not only strangle his neck, but also grab his limbs, wrap around his waist, and use all his strength to pull him into the dirty water.

The girl's soft whispers and the tinnitus that resonated through her soul seemed to echo in Xia Yujie's ears again.

He couldn't hear what Yega Zhengdao was saying, but he guessed that he was probably trying to comfort himself.

His body and soul seemed to be split into two. He heard himself speak, his voice still maintaining his usual gentle tone:

"It's okay. I will continue to do it. It has nothing to do with my identity. If possible, it would be nice to let me act as your informant."

Yes, it doesn’t matter. No matter who you are, the justice you uphold in your heart will not change.

...But why is there such bitterness and pain spreading from deep in my heart?

Afterwards, he could only barely remember what Ye Mo Zheng Dao said and turned away.

After walking a distance from the building, he looked back. The cherry blossom logo on the building was particularly eye-catching even in the dark.

He returned to the nearest safe house, after all, he no longer had a place that he could call home.

But when he was making the bed, he suddenly touched a cherry blossom badge. It was not a police emblem, but a souvenir that Gojo Satoru had once given him.

Gojo Satoru once patted him on the shoulder and said that they were the [strongest] combination of a superstar and a rising star in the police force.

But without knowing it, he and his friend had already walked different paths, and they were no longer on the same path.

But after seeing this, he suddenly understood what the unspeakable emotion in his heart was -

It's reluctance, it's regret, it's that maybe he can only be like a shadow in this life, and can't stand under the cherry blossoms as he most expected.

It doesn’t matter, he told himself this in his heart for the umpteenth time. No matter what, at least his actions in the future will not be the same as before.

The doorbell rang suddenly, and Xia Yujie came back to his senses suddenly. He felt the pain in the palm of his hand. It was the pin of the badge that pierced his palm.

He frowned slightly, pulled out the pin, lowered his eyes and stared at the blood-stained cherry blossom badge. He was silent for a while, and when the doorbell rang again, he threw it into the trash can with an expressionless face.

Xia Yujie casually took a tissue to cover the still bleeding wound, then stood up and went to the entrance.

After seeing clearly who it was through the cat's eyes, he took a deep breath and turned back to the bathroom to wash the blood off his hands bit by bit.

The stinging pain of water flowing through the wound only made him blink slowly, and only after making sure that there was no trace left did he turn off the faucet.

When he looked up and saw himself in the mirror, Xia Yujie was shocked by his pale and tired face.

This won't do. He frowned and slapped his face hard, then gave a gentle smile to the mirror.

In the mirror, Geto Suguru smiled with his eyebrows curved, his eyes narrowed, and his handsome features were outstanding. He looked like a simple and gentle young man.

He skillfully suppressed the fatigue that was rising from his heart, and when he looked at himself in the mirror, he actually felt a stranger.

Xia Yujie interrupted his thoughts and opened the door with a smile.

"Long time no see, Mr. Jay," the man with a seam on his forehead said with a smile, and asked with concern, "What happened?"

Xia Yujie's smile faded, but he still answered gently, "No, you came to see me so late, what's the matter?"

"Of course," Nozomi took a step forward and walked in naturally, smiling brightly at Geto, "Let's go in and discuss, Geto."

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Losing his identity as a police officer did not seem to have brought any changes to Geto.

He is still doing his job, collecting information about the noose and evidence of his crimes.

Every time Nozomi assigned him a mission that required killing people, Kagome Jie would perform perfectly and repay him. At least Nozomi can no longer capture or buy experimental subjects.

Masamichi Yaga is a very good boss. He always receives Geto Suguru's information perfectly and responds immediately.

Sometimes when he encounters an injury that he cannot treat alone, he will go to Ieiri Naoko, his good friend who always sighs at him, and she will always use the heaviest strength to treat him.

Finally, she warned him earnestly to be careful, although she knew that Geto Xia Yu would not listen because she said the same thing every time.

But he and Gojo Satoru never spoke to each other again.

They would occasionally meet, but at that time each of them had something to do personally, so they could only glance at each other briefly before turning away again.

Of course, he and Gojo Satoru still kept in touch, but I don’t know if it was the same tacit understanding, neither of them had ever sent a message or called the other.

They agreed to go the furthest and best on their own paths, and Gojo Satoru believed that the final destination of his and Geto's paths would be the same.

Xia Yujie was indeed so determined at the beginning, but now, when he realized that he was deliberately avoiding the other party, he finally realized what was wrong.

His mentality seemed to have changed unconsciously.

After realizing this, he looked back and wondered what he had done.

He even deliberately used the connections and power given to him by the noose to shake the positions of those people who were occupied by corrupt and collusive.

Those evil people he encountered during his missions, those who escaped legal judgment for various reasons, Xia Yujie did something more or less in his own way.

When he saw them being punished, he felt nothing in his heart, but when he saw those who were saved crying for joy, he felt genuinely happy.

And... a little bit of pride, as if he had become the so-called savior, saving these people from suffering, and that he had done the right thing.

This feeling made Xia Yujie ignore the strangeness in his heart, and he solved the bad guys in his own way time and time again.

He had never killed anyone outside of mission circumstances, and he thought that this was the way to protect his bottom line.

But there may still be only a few purely evil people in the world. He saw it, he saw those families that broke up because of the loss of family members, and even many people became short-sighted because of it.

They don’t know what their husbands and daughters, who they knew were good people, had done wrong. They only know that they died inexplicably and will never come back. The police cannot give them an answer and the law cannot redress their grievances.

When he saw a child he once knew, he numbly grabbed his sleeve with tears in his eyes and asked, "Did my father do something wrong? Why didn't the police arrest him? Why did he die like this?"

Why? He asked Geto the same question, but he still got no answer.

The illusion that had always felt so good was shattered at this moment, allowing Xia Youjie to see the real truth.

The fact that he did something wrong is that he, like the people he once hated, was doing what he thought was good in his own way.

Stupid, malicious, and selfish, just like the reasons why Geto Suguru attacked that group of people, he himself is such a ridiculous and pathetic person.

Xia Youjie returned to his room like a walking corpse. He staggered into the bathroom, and when he saw himself in the mirror, he couldn't help vomiting.

He leaned his hands on the sink. Since he hadn't eaten anything today, he could only vomit out some sour water, but he still couldn't stop the urge to vomit.

He is so disgusting like this.

After vomiting for a long time, he finally recovered. He raised his head and looked at himself with his face full of natural tears. He didn't know when his rubber band broke and his hair was disheveled.

It seemed that Xia Yujie only realized now that the purple circles under his eyes in the mirror could not hide his tired and haggard face.

How long ago did it start? Xia Yujie tried to recall, but a buzzing sound rang in his head.

He was sick, and Xia Yujie realized that both his mind and soul seemed to be rotting under the unlimited suppression of himself.

But he was ignorant and unaware, and only now realized that he was already terminally ill.

Xia Yujie really wanted to tell himself in his heart that it was okay, just like he had done countless times before.

But this time, no matter what, he couldn't say it didn't matter.

Perhaps it was an instinctive cry for help, Xia Yujie realized that something was wrong with him. He wanted to do something, but he didn't know what to do.

He stood in the bathroom like a confused child, staring at himself in a daze.

It will be fine when the day breaks, he told himself again, as if trying to comfort himself and force himself to suppress his emotions.

But the next second, the cell phone in his pocket started vibrating. Xia Yujie frowned, lowered his dull eyes and took out the cell phone.

But after seeing it clearly, he widened his eyes in surprise and stared at the name displayed on his phone without blinking:

——Gojo Satoru.