Chapter 157
Nan Yan looked at the man with pale lips in front of her, and her mind unconsciously recalled that two days ago, Yu Liuyun suddenly came to see her. He said in a hoarse and trembling voice that he already knew who bullied her, and said that he would help him get revenge, and that a man like Zhao Xiuyan was not worthy of her marrying.
Nan Yan was naturally unwilling, and the two of them entangled for a while. Yu Liuyun refused to give up or leave, and finally he mentioned Zhao Xiuyan's fiancée.
Then I made a promise with her -
He said that if Zhao Xiuyan really cared about you and was willing to give up Lin Pianran for you, he would leave completely from then on and never disturb their peaceful life again. But if he could not let go of his fiancée, he would take her away without hesitation and never let Zhao Xiuyan see her again.
After hearing this, Nan Yan agreed helplessly, and then the current scene happened.
Nan Yan came out of her memories and her thoughts returned to reality. She knew that Yu Liuyun would not sit idly by after finding out who had ruined her innocence.
But no one expected that Yu Liuyun's first move would be so swift and decisive, almost cutting off all the escape routes for the two.
If she was really just a weak woman like the original owner, anyone would feel wronged and lost when seeing the man who was about to marry her, faced with such a choice between two options, finally abandon her and choose her ex, no matter how deep the other party's reasons were.
So after hearing the news brought by Yu Liuyun, Nan Yan's face immediately showed a look of loss and sadness, and tears rolled down her face like beads from a broken string.
Yu Liuyun looked at Nan Yan crying in front of him, and his heart was also bitter. He didn't know if Yan Yan liked Zhao Xiuyan so much now, so she became so painful and sad because of his choice.
His fingers trembled slightly, and he wanted to reach out and hold her in his arms, and wipe her tears for her. However, after he stretched out his hand, he dared not touch her. He really had no power to do anything to her now.
Yu Liuyun's voice became increasingly drier and hoarse, and he coaxed her in a low voice, "Yanyan, please stop crying, okay? Zhao Xiuyan is not worth your tears. People like him... have too heavy a sense of responsibility. He will give up on you for Lin Pianran now, but who knows if he will give up on you for someone else in the future. Don't be sad for him, okay? Let's... go back."
After hearing this, Nan Yan's whole body swayed as if she was unsteady. She held on to the table with one hand to steady herself, and used the other hand to push away his hand that he had subconsciously extended.
She pursed her lips, and her usually rosy lips were now pale, with only a hint of blood between her lips. She raised her eyes slightly, looked straight at him, and suddenly said loudly,
"You don't have to fool me. If he is really such a heartless, irresponsible and selfless man, how could I be with him?"
Yu Liuyun felt pain in his heart, especially when he saw her crying so helplessly and aggrieved, he felt his eyes slightly tearful, "Yes, you know him, you understand his difficulties. Everyone in this world has their own difficulties and reasons, it all depends on their own choices. I know you understand his difficulties, but isn't this what you care about? Otherwise, why are you so sad? Why... do you cry so sadly?"
Hearing this, Nan Yan's tears flowed down her face again. She closed her eyes. Yes, everyone in this world has their own difficulties and reasons. Just as he said, if I can give up on you for this person today, why can't I give up on you for someone else tomorrow?
So, it's one thing to understand this, but it's another thing to feel sad and conflicted about his choice.
However, she only admired Zhao Xiuyan's sense of responsibility. After all, people with too strong a sense of morality will definitely not be able to beat those who have no morals.
In fact, if she were in his position, she would definitely choose to save him. But even if she saved him, she would also have to bear the consequence of losing the other person. Otherwise, how could there be such a good thing in this world that would allow you to have the best of both worlds?
Yu Liuyun looked at her and suddenly whispered, "Yanyan, do you remember? You once asked me this question. If you and Lin Pianran were in danger at the same time, who would I choose to save? My words were never false. No matter what Lin Pianran was experiencing, no matter how critical her situation was, I would definitely choose to see you without hesitation. Yanyan, do you remember?"
After hearing this, Nan Yan couldn't help but raise her eyes again. Her eyes were still red from crying, and she looked even more fragile and pitiful. She looked at him with red eyes, not knowing whether she was blaming him or feeling pain. "Yes, you will choose me without hesitation!"
"But if you don't love me, you will be more cruel than anyone else. You will abandon me without mercy. If it weren't for you, things wouldn't have turned out like this. It's all because of you. Everything is because of you. Why, why did you do this..."
When she said the latter sentence, Nan Yan's emotions suddenly became agitated, and she rushed forward as if she had suffered some shock.
"Yu Liuyun, do you hate me so much? Do you really hate me? I've already hidden far away from you, why, why do you still bother me?"
Her hands tightly grasped his collar, her tears soaking his collar. She didn't even finish her words before she could no longer hold on. Her face turned pale and her body fell backwards, falling into a complete coma.
"...Yanyan, what's wrong with you?"
Yu Liuyun was stunned by this sudden change, his face turned pale, and he subconsciously reached out to hug the person in his arms, carefully protecting her head with his palm.
He hurriedly grabbed the hand that fell limply, and felt the pulse. He was relieved after confirming that the other party had fallen into a coma due to excessive stimulation.
Yu Liuyun hugged the person in his arms tighter and tighter, tears rolling down the corners of his eyes. He knew it was all his fault, it was his mess, his stupidity, that turned everything that was originally good into what it is now, causing the only person in the world who loved him to suffer such pain and blow.
But he really couldn't bear to let go, Yanyan...
In the end, Yu Liuyun took Nan Yan away.
When Zhao Xiuyan finally stumbled back from the moat, the courtyard was empty. The girl who usually sat in the yard waiting for him was gone. The girl who usually jumped up to him and pulled his sleeves and called him "senior brother" whenever he came back was taken away.
Yanyan...
Zhao Xiuyan obviously found it difficult to control his emotions. He coughed violently and felt severe pain in his chest. He staggered from room to room looking for her, but he couldn't find her. He couldn't find Yanyan anywhere. She was really gone. She was really kidnapped.
At that moment, the pain in Zhao Xiuyan's chest became more and more intense. He was filled with panic, fear, and regret. He seemed to be stuck in an impossible dilemma, a chaotic dead end. He struggled and bumped around in it, getting his head broken and bleeding, but he couldn't find any way out.
But what to do? It was clearly his own choice. He chose to save Lin Pianran.
He was the one who let Yanyan go personally...
Looking at the empty courtyard, a feeling of endless despair gradually grew in Zhao Xiuyan's heart. There was no end in sight and he had no way to relieve it.
This despair seemed to reach its peak when he saw the jade lock that symbolized eternal love left on the gravel road in the yard.
Endless regret and pain climbed into Zhao Xiuyan's heart and spread from his limbs to every part of his body. It was as if millions of ants were madly gnawing at his body, making Zhao Xiuyan extremely painful. He didn't know what to do at all.
He was deceived...it was Yu Liuyun who deceived him.
Lin Pianran was fine. He went to save her just to save her life. He just couldn't stand by and watch her being bullied...
But he was deceived from the beginning to the end.
Zhao Xiuyan rushed over tremblingly and picked up the heart-shaped lock that was lost on the ground. It was the first token he gave to Yanyan. He held the jade lock tightly in his palm, and tears instantly rolled down his eyes.
I'm sorry...I'm sorry, it's my fault.
I failed to protect you.
Zhao Xiuyan was in pain and remorse at first, blaming himself for being so stupid and for being deceived, but later he was filled with hatred and despair, and the emotions that he had suppressed in his heart were finally out of control. He was almost driven crazy. It was Yu Liuyun who deceived him, and it was he who took Yanyan away.
Everything that happened now was caused by that madman. It was all Yu Liuyun's fault. He had gone against him time and time again, and he had hurt Yanyan time and time again.
When he wanted to force Pianran to marry him, he ignored the fact that Pianran was already engaged to him and used all means to snatch Pianran away from him, hurt him, imprisoned Pianran, and ruthlessly abandoned Yanyan, leaving her to be trampled and bullied at will. But now he regrets it and madly snatches Yanyan away from him again.
It's him! It's that lunatic.
It was all his fault from the beginning to the end. He harmed everyone and ruined everything that could have been perfect. Yanyan had clearly promised him, they were going to get married soon, and his wedding dress had already been embroidered, but on this last day, everything was ruined by him.
There were traces of vicious bloodshot in Zhao Xiuyan's eyes, and his cool and clear face was completely distorted. He no longer had the calm and rational look he once had. His hands were clenched tightly in his sleeves, and the veins on the back of his hands were bulging. He was almost out of control.
他是嫣嫣的丈夫，他才是嫣嫣的夫君，作為丈夫，他怎能看着心愛的妻子被人搶走而無動于衷，他可以不計較從前的任何事情，只有嫣嫣不行，唯獨一個嫣嫣，是他的，他不會就這麽放手的，不會放過他的。
這日之後，青州城原有的平靜好似被徹底打破了，原本趙家與林家退婚之後，又與一魔教女子成婚之事鬧得滿城風雨的，結果也不知怎麽了，這消息忽然就被壓下來了。
聽說那趙家公子洗心革面了，終于認清事實，明白事理之後徹底與那魔教女子劃清界線了，不僅取消了婚事，如今還拉攏江湖上各方勢力，隐隐有針對玄蒼教之勢。
短短半個月的時間，趙修言整個人宛如一柄經人磨砺之後的長劍，愈發鋒利剛直。
這位往日性情最是溫潤平和的趙家公子如今像是變了一個人似的，變得冷漠涼薄，行事作風愈發顯得不近人情，尤其對待魔教中人時，手段更是狠戾無情。
如若不是知道這位趙五公子是出身名門的正道人士，那些親眼見過他斬殺近日江湖上的魔教男子的人都會懷疑，這人才是殺人不眨眼的魔頭吧。
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而在另一邊的玄蒼教衆人還不知道這些事情，那一日，禦流雲帶着昏迷的南嫣回到了玄蒼教，回到了兩人的家。
可即便是帶着她回來了，如今的兩人好似再也回不到從前那種親近自然的狀态了。
從那日回來之後，南嫣便總是喜歡一個人靜靜地坐在院子裏，這庭院還是和從前一樣，屋裏的丫鬟都還是從前的那些人，幾乎沒什麽變化，唯一多了些不一祥的就是庭院內的那株海棠樹，是禦流雲讓人從青州移植回來的，海棠确實開花了，花瓣有時候會落在樹下那只新搭建的秋千上，确實挺美。
斑駁的樹影折射出金色的光線，細碎的光影随着樹葉在風中來回搖晃，花瓣會慢悠悠的落下，有時會落到南嫣的身上。
她就坐在不遠處的石凳上，努力找好角度，等着禦流雲過來找她，其實，對于禦流雲帶她回來，南嫣心底沒什麽太大的抵觸。
何況她這幾天确實被照顧的很周到，尤其看着從前在她面前嚣張放狠話，那個不可一世的教主大人如今在她面前小心翼翼卑微讨好的樣子，心中可算是舒坦了。
不過還得收斂一點，不能讓自己這個受害者的身份看起來好像很無動于衷，雖然事實也确實是如此。
她心裏計算着，估計也就這幾天了，這個世界差不多也要結束了。
于是等到禦流雲過來的時候，看到的就是南嫣安靜地坐在庭院裏石桌前，也不知道在想些什麽，烏黑的發絲被風微微吹起，映襯着那張面容愈發顯得白皙了。
她就靜靜地坐在那裏，眼神清清淡淡的，眉眼微垂，目光出神地望着不遠處的方向，好似在看那株海棠花，又好似透過那個方向在回憶着什麽，整個人仿佛與世間隔絕，跟身後所有人都隔絕開了一般。
看到嫣嫣這樣的眼神，禦流雲心口發緊，他幾乎是下意識地往前了一步，生怕自己一眨眼，眼前這人就會消失不見一樣。
這段時間，禦流雲一直讓丫鬟仔細注意其實着南嫣的動靜，他怕她遭受的打擊過重，會想不開，可是得到的消息永遠都是夫人什麽話都不肯說，胃口也不怎麽好，又是一個人安靜地在院子裏坐了一整天。
在得知南嫣又是一個人靜靜地坐在院子裏後，禦流雲根本無心去處理教中的事務，最後還是忍不住去見他了。
他知道她在為誰神傷，她已經喜歡上了趙修言，卻又因為趙修言的選擇而難過，她嘴上說着不在意，可是心底仍舊是難過的，他知道嫣嫣看似柔弱，其實下定決心之後就很難再去改變的，她明白趙修言的苦衷，卻仍舊會因為他的苦衷而感到失落。
禦流雲看着嫣嫣這副模樣，看着她手指輕輕撫弄着花瓣，看着她把整個人好似封閉起來的樣子，最後終于忍不住，從丫鬟手裏拿過披風，慢慢走到了她的身後。
禦流雲身子前傾，微微腰下腰身，将披風從背後蓋到了她的身上，上半身靠近，像是要将她整個人都環進自己的懷抱裏。
明明只是一個很簡單的動作，而南嫣卻在他靠上來的那一瞬間，身子便驟然繃緊僵硬了，好半晌，都放松不下來。
她在抗拒他的靠近。
禦流雲察覺到了她身體的僵硬，心中仿佛有止不住的苦澀，他有些不甘心，又有些絕望，明明從前那麽喜歡他的人，為什麽現在連他稍微的靠近都會不受控制地抗拒抵觸？
可是他又不能不顧及她的意願再強迫她做任何的事情了，他已經不能再讓她受到任何的傷害與逼迫了。
禦流雲深呼吸了一口氣，便緩慢将人放開，轉過來看她眼睫微垂，面色略有些蒼白的樣子，又忍不住心裏的擔心，輕聲詢問的句，“在外頭坐這麽久了，你冷不冷，要不要回屋躺一會兒？”
禦流雲說這話的時候，似乎是下意識地伸手去握她的手指想要試試她手上的溫度，他知道她一直都體寒的，尤其是小日子的這段時間，體溫總會比平日裏更低上一些。
結果剛伸手過去，就被南嫣下意識地避讓開了。
這下意識的避讓，便讓禦流雲的手指瞬間有些僵住。
一時間，二人之間的氣氛凝固僵滞。
禦流雲只覺得心口好似破了一個大洞，無盡的冷風跟寒意不停地灌進去，呼呼地刮着冷風，讓他心口又冷又疼。
南嫣似乎這才察覺到了有些不對勁，她輕輕搖了搖頭，像是有些不适應他的靠近，只低聲說了句，“我沒事，不用擔心了。”
禦流雲的嘴角扯了扯，手指僵硬着停在了半空中，最後又蜷縮着收回來了。
他竭力裝作若無其事的樣子，朝她露出一個微笑，然而心頭的酸楚幾乎快将他湮沒了，到底要怎麽樣……要怎麽樣才能回到從前？
他真的好後悔，是他的錯，是他混賬又自私，把所有的事情弄成了今天這個局面，可是他真的……沒辦法再放手了。
禦流雲後來還是牽着南嫣回屋了。
因為外頭天色漸漸晚了，院子裏也起風了，傍晚的涼風吹在人的臉上還是有一絲涼意的，看着南嫣的面色愈發蒼白，禦流雲猶豫了一瞬，還是小心翼翼的握住了她的手，然後一整個下午都在屋裏陪着嫣嫣。
其實嫣嫣是不怎麽搭理他的。
他說話的時候很少回應，禦流雲也不介意，他就這麽安靜地望着她，望着也能夠滿足了。
到了夜間休息的時候，他看着靠在床沿遲遲不肯休息的南嫣，心頭有些酸澀，但還是忍不住摸着她的頭發，輕聲安撫了句，“睡吧，你這幾日腹痛，夜裏可能會睡不安穩，我只是想幫你暖暖肚子而已，不會對你做那些你不願意的事情，別怕，放心睡吧。”
聽到他這樣說，南嫣微怔了片刻。
有那麽一瞬間，似乎想到了從前發生過的事情，眼睫輕顫了下，沉默了一瞬後，才點頭輕聲說了句，“謝謝……”
禦流雲低低“嗯”了一聲，他不知道兩人之間為何變得這樣生疏了，生疏到他幫她緩解疼痛，她都要跟他說聲謝謝，可是他們明明是夫妻，本該是這世上最親近的人。
南嫣得了他的保證後，這才靜靜地躺到床上，然後側過身去，背對着他睡着了，等到她呼吸徹底均勻之後，禦流雲這才小心翼翼地将人翻轉過來，看着她微微蹙眉的模樣，然後才小心翼翼的伸手貼上她的腹部。
那一瞬間，他覺得他們倆好似又回到了從前一樣，禦流雲就這麽靜靜地望着她，看着她原本輕蹙的眉眼細微舒展開來，又看着她身體漸漸放松下去，他另一只手輕緩摸過去，握住了她的手指，與她緊緊相扣着，仿佛他們之間從未發生過那些事情。
看着這樣的南嫣，禦流雲的眼眶好似不受控制地就彌漫了一層水霧。
他閉了閉眼，然後緩慢低下頭，在曾經的妻子額頭印下淺淺一吻，眼淚一不小心就滴落到了她的發絲上。
舍不掉又放不開，是紮進心頭的一根刺，拔除的話會痛苦不堪，不拔除的話就讓它慢慢跟皮肉融合在一起，這樣就不會痛苦了。
他想，如果能這樣，兩人就這麽相敬如賓的過一輩子也沒關系，他願意陪着她，守着他，就這麽靜靜地看着她一輩子也是可以的，他往後再也不會離開他了。
只可惜事與願違，有時候越是想要做好一件事情的時候越是做不好，現實總在不經意間給人致命一擊。
很快，江湖上要讨伐魔教的消息也終于傳出來了。
趙修言不知通過什麽手段集結不少江湖義士，準備進攻魔教，這些人大多是與從前的玄蒼教有過不少恩怨的人，還有一些亂七八糟的新仇舊恨全都一并算到了玄蒼教頭上的。
這大概也是兩方勢力之間的頭一次正面交鋒，前段時間玄蒼教勢大，但也只是小打小鬧，禦流雲從來沒有跟他們正面交戰過，所以正派人士也就忍了，而且這段時間玄蒼教似乎又安分了不少，江湖上已經很久沒有聽到那禦流雲興風作浪的消息了。
可如今卻是有人徹底跟這魔教撕破臉了，這事來的突然，卻又勢在必行。
其實兩方勢力最近一直都是井水不犯河水，正派人士不去管轄魔教的勢力範圍，魔教教衆也收斂行事不再幹擾正道休養生息，兩方勢力一直維持着某種表面上的和平。
但也不乏有人興風作浪，混水摸魚，如今這種和平假象徹底被打破，雖然其中不少盡是湊熱鬧的人，但聚集起來的這些江湖義士，也足夠對付魔教那些教衆了。
更何況趙修言此番讨伐魔教的目的也只有一個，那就是徹底殺了禦流雲，然後帶回自己的未婚妻。
他不在意那些人是不是正義的，是不是真心的，他如今在意的只有一個，那就是他的未婚妻。
江湖中流言紛争，衆人不知內情，不知道這兩人私底下的恩怨，但讨伐魔教的事情仍舊勢在必行。
而玄蒼教教衆聽到這個消息時，也的确是引起了一些慌亂，不過很快就被安撫下來了，畢竟這麽些年他們玄蒼教也不知遭遇過多少正派人士的追殺圍攻。
但只要玄蒼教教主不死，那些人就不會那麽輕易地侵占覆滅玄蒼教。
所以最近的禦流雲也很忙，忙着處理各種教中事物，還要強勢鎮壓那些趁機興風作浪的老輩殘留，只不過，這次恐怕真的沒那麽容易度過難關了，因為他的傷從青州城回來之後就一直沒徹底痊愈過。
禦流雲揉了揉眉心，不過這些煩心事卻是不能跟妻子說的，他将南嫣保護的很好，任何江湖上的消息都沒有傳進來。
只是有一件事情，還是被南嫣無意間知道了。
其實這次跟随他們一起回來的還有慕容拓，那日慕容拓也不知道禦流雲跟師兄之間到底發生了什麽事情？
他只知道在師兄救出翩然之後，就得知了嫣嫣被禦流雲帶回去的消息，聽到這個消息後，慕容拓當即不管不顧地就跟過來了，原本他想趁機帶走嫣嫣，卻還是不敵禦流雲，被發現後并被抓了起來，最後關進了玄蒼教的地宮。
而這件事情，南嫣也是後來才知道的。
當天晚上，禦流雲過來陪她吃飯的時候，她便随口問了一句，“你是不是把慕容拓關起來了？”
禦流雲輕笑了聲，一邊給她夾菜，一邊低聲解釋了句，“放心，我沒打算對他下死手的。是那小子太蠢了，性子又沖動，我怕他再搗亂，到時候做出一些亂七八糟的事情，所以就将他關進地宮裏了，準備壓一壓他的性子，等過段時間，我就會放他出來了。”
聽到這話，南嫣也就不追問了。
她心想着，那小子的性子确實是沖動，關起來也好，免得壞了她的事情就不好了。
于是南嫣抽空又去地宮看了一眼，果然看到了被關押起來的慕容拓，除了面色略有些蒼白之外，其他地方都是好好的，沒受什麽重傷。
他原本是坐在角落裏發呆的，盯着頭頂的天窗怔怔出着神，看到她後便下意識地沖了過來，雙手扶着鐵門框，眼眶微紅的瞧着她，眼底顯露出幾分後悔跟委屈，也不知道是心虛還是愧疚，最後兩人竟一句話都沒有說。
等到南嫣回到院子裏後，就瞧見了最近一直很忙的教主大人雙手捋着袖袍也不知道在她的小廚房忙碌什麽？
裏頭時不時地冒着濃煙，吓得她屋裏的丫鬟都一個個的争先恐後跑出來了，生怕這教主大人一時興起，把她們這群丫鬟殺了助助興，然後給教主夫人弄一盤紅燒丫鬟肉出來了。
南嫣瞧着教主大人在屋裏頭忙得灰頭土臉的，最後終于忍不住進去把人拽出來了。
這一拽出來，就看到往日那個英明神武、威風八面的教主大人弄得如今這麽一副狼狽不堪又滿臉灰塵的模樣。
南嫣原本還在醞釀悲傷的情緒，準備将人好一通教訓，結果一擡頭看到對方這副模樣，實在沒忍住，然後“撲哧”一聲笑了。
笑完以後又覺得有些不大自在，就故意板着臉，然後松開了袖子，問他，“你又在做什麽？把我的丫鬟都吓壞了。”
教主大人愣愣望着她，手裏捧着那碗熱氣騰騰的長壽面，一時間還有些緩不過神來，瞧着她方才露出的那個久違的笑容。
臉上忽然也露出一個腼腆的笑來，像是情窦初開的少年，忙碌了一整個下午，就為了給心上人做一碗像樣的長壽面。
“你不記得了嗎？今日是你的生辰啊，我都琢磨好久了，想着送你什麽禮物比較好，後來想起來……以前師傅還在世的時候，每年你生辰的時候他都會親手給你做一碗長壽命，我就也想學着親手給你做一碗。”
“你看怎麽樣，樣子跟你從前吃過的是不是很像？”
他說着還将那碗冒着熱氣的面條往她面前遞了遞，高湯的香氣四溢，碗裏還冒着熱氣，乳白色的面條上撒了幾棵翠綠的小白菜，旁邊的幾棵蔥葉被他細心挑出來了。
南嫣看着這人已經被燙紅的手指，拉着他到一旁的位置上坐好，将那碗面放到桌上後，這才低聲問了句，“手不燙嗎？”
對方好似這才反應過來，低頭瞧了一眼自己被她握住的手掌，燙的有些微紅了。
他反手想要握住她的，卻又擔心再被拒絕，就猶豫着蜷縮了兩下手指，然後朝她笑了笑。
“這麽點小傷算什麽，待會就能好了。”
他說着又把筷子拿起來，“對了，這面放久了容易糊成一坨一坨的，你得趕緊趁熱吃，我很久沒下過廚了，手藝可能是比不上往年爹給你做的，但日後我會勤加練習的，争取做的跟爹做的一樣，你別嫌棄好不好？”
他說完也不知是想起了什麽，自顧自地又念叨了起來。
“還有，我上回聽丫鬟說了，說你想吃山下的桂花酥，我已經讓人去将那家店鋪的手藝買下來了，等我學會了就做給你吃……”
好端端一個魔教教主，居然成了她的家庭煮夫，南嫣心中果然很有成就感。
不過面上仍是那副不适應的神色。
她眼睫輕顫了下，“你最近不是很忙嗎？為什麽還要浪費時間做這些沒意義的事情？”
禦流雲微怔了下，然後有些幹巴巴的笑了，“這怎麽能算是沒意義的事情呢，明明是你的生辰，你是不是……嫌我的手藝不如爹的好，那要不我再去重做一份？”
他說着就要起身，真的準備去重做一份，卻被南嫣下意識地扯住了衣袖。
禦流雲低頭靜靜地瞧着她。
南嫣抿了抿唇，望着他似乎想說些什麽，但又不知道該從何說起，于是細長的睫毛微微垂下，最後一句話沒說。
她伸手輕輕拿起他遞過來的筷子，夾起面條開始小口小口地吃了起來，濃郁的高湯香氣在口腔中蔓延，她嘗了幾口後又朝對方瞧了一眼，那眼中似乎有些訝異，低頭又喝了口湯，姿态秀氣又好看。
瞧見南嫣這副模樣，禦流雲便知道自己今天這一整個下午沒白忙活，臉上不自覺的露出一絲滿足的笑容，心口好似泡進了一灘溫水似的，又軟又麻。
他就知道她是喜歡的，從前師傅給她做的面條他也嘗過，那味道還沒他做的好呢。
他擡手又給她倒了一杯清淡的桂花茶。
等到南嫣吃得差不多了，喝了口解膩的花茶，又從一旁的丫鬟手中接過帕子輕輕擦了擦臉頰，正要站起來的時候，也不知道怎麽回事，忽然就覺得意識變得有些遲緩起來了。
她扶着額頭，下意識地轉頭看着身旁的禦流雲，剛想說話，結果整個身子忽然不受控制地往後倒去。
然後被對方一把撈進了懷裏。
禦流雲低頭看着懷裏意識還尚有幾分清明的妻子，臉上忽然忍不住露出一個笑容。
明明是在笑的，眼角卻不受控制地有些泛紅，他低頭吻了吻她的臉頰，低聲安撫着，“別怕，只是一些很尋常的迷藥，等藥效過了，你就能恢複了。”
南嫣眼裏露出明顯不解的神色。
她眼裏有些濕潤，有些不可置信，還有些委屈，她努力想站起來，卻發現自己渾身發軟，根本沒有力氣站起來。
Yu Liuyun held her in his arms, his movements becoming more gentle, "Yanyan, am I still good at cooking? I haven't cooked for many years. When I was young, I made longevity noodles for my mother once. At that time, my mother joked that she was just taking advantage of her future daughter-in-law. Alas, I also want to cook for Yanyan for the rest of my life and spend every birthday with you in the future. It's a pity that there are always people who disturb us."
After he finished speaking, he sighed softly, his eyes fell on her face with love, "Yanyan, Zhao Xiuyan brought a lot of people to attack our Xuancang Sect this time. I know what he means, but I don't want to hand you over to him. Because he also made you sad and cry, and he also disappointed you. That person has too strong a sense of responsibility. Zhao Xiuyan and I are not worthy of you. We have hurt you before, so I plan to let others take you away from here."
When Yu Liuyun said this, he instantly tightened his grip on her. A strand of hair on his shoulder slid down with the movement and fell on Nan Yan's eyelids. She weakly hooked her fingers on his collar and shook her head gently.
"don't want……"
Zhao Xiuyan held her fingers, placed them on his lips and kissed them gently, "Don't be afraid, I originally wanted to let the subordinates in the sect take you away, but it's better to be safe than sorry. This time, the two forces are confronting each other, and it will definitely be a fight to the death between Zhao Xiuyan and me."
"If I hadn't died, the group of subordinates who took you away would have been obedient and wouldn't have dared to commit crimes. But if I had died, they would definitely not have let you go, and would not have tried their best to protect you. So, I found someone else."
In fact, Yu Liuyun was not very confident in fighting against Zhao Xiuyan this time. His condition was not very good, his internal injuries had not healed, and coupled with the severe blows he had suffered previously, he might really die in this battle.
He pursed his lips and kissed the corner of her lips carefully, his voice hoarse, filled with endless reluctance and attachment.
"The guy imprisoned in the dungeon is a little stupid, but he is very simple and enthusiastic. I know you don't like him, but you can control him. He will listen to you and won't bully you like Zhao Xiuyan and I did."
"Yan Yan, I don't think I've ever told you that I love you. I'm sorry that I sent you away again this time regardless of your wishes. As a husband, I really haven't fulfilled my responsibilities at all. I'll make amends to you in my next life, okay..."
After saying the last sentence, Nan Yan's consciousness seemed to be unable to hold on any longer. She seemed to feel a drop of warm tear dripping on her eyelids in a daze. Her eyelashes trembled slightly, but she finally lost consciousness completely.