Chapter 160
After reading the whole story, Nan Yan was speechless and the only words left were "Haha".
The original owner was never a bad person. She was just an ordinary female cultivator in the world of cultivation. She didn't have any outstanding talents, but she was a little scheming and would use some tricks to please others. She would also work hard to cultivate on weekdays, but not that hard.
She did not regard self-cultivation as the most important goal in life. She would be ungrateful if she got an advantage, and would share any good things.
She is not a fool. She has her own purpose in doing things. Sometimes she is selfish, and sometimes she pretends to be magnanimous. She is definitely hypocritical, but does hypocrisy mean she is a bad person?
She hopes to live a happy life and wants everyone to like her, but all her good luck and good relationships are earned through her own hard work, and are not obtained for no reason.
Especially when it comes to treating fellow brothers and sisters in a sect, no matter what one's real thoughts are in the heart, one must show respect and love on the surface. Isn't it normal for a pretty little fellow sister who smiles at everyone and has a sweet manner to be likable?
How many people in this world can truly say what they mean? Of course, those cold-hearted, selfish people can definitely do it. Isn't it abnormal for those ordinary people who are not good but not bad to do this?
But why did the heroine's younger sister's past actions become scheming and hypocritical after she was reborn? Was everything she did just a false act to gain a good reputation? Even if that was true, wouldn't what she did be a good thing?
That's really strange.
These people say that they want to survive by their own strength, but why did she become a flatterer and a shameless person when she relied on her own strength to please the eldest senior brother, had the eldest senior brother's protection and escort, and could walk all the way in the world of cultivation?
Isn't everyone in the world of cultivation sucking other people's blood? You are using the formation method to accumulate spiritual energy, and snatching other people's spiritual energy. Isn't this plundering other people's resources?
Why is it that the strength of others is strength, but her strength is that she can only rely on men and is shameless? Isn't good luck and good relationships a kind of strength?
Such a little junior sister who was originally loved by everyone in the sect was squeezed out by the reborn eldest senior sister, and was eventually beaten to death in the secret realm and buried in the mouth of a monster. After that, the eldest senior sister's inner demon finally disappeared.
Even her good senior brother just said coldly when he heard the news:
"Life and death are common in the world of cultivation. She should have anticipated this outcome if she wanted to enter the secret realm without enough cultivation."
Yes, the younger sister had indeed anticipated this outcome. When she secretly followed the older sister into the secret realm, she had already given up on living. She wanted to end it all.
The original owner had a very strange and bizarre feeling, as if this senior sister was born to be against her. No matter what she did, this senior sister could predict it in advance, and then expose her little tricks on the spot, tearing off her face and dignity and then trampling her into the mud.
Let her true face be revealed in front of many of her classmates, so that others can see her inner "nature" thoroughly.
She didn't target you directly, but just made a few remarks from time to time. Then, those seniors who originally supported you and stood on your side would become suspicious of you and wonder if you had ulterior motives because of her calm and appropriate words.
But those were obviously just trivial matters, like borrowing flowers to offer to Buddha, taking the eldest senior brother's things as a favor, hiding behind many fellow disciples when dealing with monsters, and taking advantage of her favor to get on par with everyone when dividing the spiritual plants and herbs... It was really funny, even the people involved didn't say she was excessive, but this eldest senior sister who couldn't stand it brought it up inadvertently.
It's just that there are some things that it would be fine if she didn't say them, but as long as she deliberately provokes them, both parties will turn around and think about it carefully, and it seems to be true, and then they will feel dissatisfied with her, and then they will think that this little junior sister is indeed like that. Over time, no matter how good the relationship was, it will gradually become distant and separated.
There is such a person who will be pressing down on you all your life, giving you a little sign of breaking out of the cage, but when you are about to break out, she will give you a fatal blow. It seems that you can't get rid of her shackles and shadow no matter what, and you are entangled by her endlessly.
There are always some people who advise her not to go against the senior sister. The senior sister is just hard-mouthed but soft-hearted. In fact, she is very kind-hearted. Don’t you see that the senior sister is very nice to other junior sisters? If there is a chance, you can share it with everyone. If the senior sister only treats you differently, then there is something wrong with you.
That's ridiculous.
Her reputation was ruined by the exclusion of the reborn eldest senior sister. I don't know how she spread criticism, but under the manipulation of her followers, the reputation of the little junior sister as a scheming Bai Lian was completely spread. Later, because of the Qiankun bracelet incident, the news that she was shameless and secretly kept the senior sister's artifact was also spread. In addition, the senior brother abandoned her because of the love pig incident.
She had lost everything in the entire sect and had become almost a rat crossing the street, wanted by everyone to kill her.
No one would believe what she said, and everything she did had ulterior motives.
How could she not retaliate?
And she didn't know what those people who asked her to calm down, leave the sect and live a peaceful life, and give up opposing the eldest senior sister were thinking.
If you put yourself in their shoes and imagine yourself experiencing these things, can they be so generous as to let bygones be bygones? Giving up is not easy. You will feel extremely sad and regretful if you give up an opportunity that is within your reach. What's more, the sect is her home. If she leaves the sect, where else can she go?
Do you really think that everyone in this world is the protagonist?
If the orthodox sect does not accept you, will you be treated like a treasure by turning around and joining the rival sect? Will you have adventures wherever you go, and then be loved and cared for, and treated like a guest of honor?
She had no golden fingers and no special plug-ins, so she was afraid that she would be robbed clean by a group of casual cultivators and evil cultivators who were out to kill people and rob treasures before she even left the sect, and her death would be beyond death.
Everything she had worked so hard to build up in the sect was destroyed just like that. How could she not feel resentment?
She followed the senior sister into the secret realm just for revenge. She originally wanted to settle the feud between her and the senior sister, but in the end, she didn't even touch the corner of her clothes. In the end, she died at the hands of that powerful and mysterious man.
The man who was so high and mighty looked down at her as carelessly and unconcernedly as if he were looking at an ant. She felt unwilling but was powerless to do anything.
Because she has no talent, she was not chosen by that damn artifact from the beginning, and her mark was erased from the beginning, so from the beginning, she has never seen the true face of this person. It is really ridiculous and hateful...
I have to say that the existence of the control group is really tragic. The original owner is indeed not a pure person. He can see right from wrong and has no great evil. He has a lot of little thoughts, but he has never used these little thoughts to harm others.
Her only fault was probably that after her senior brother whom she loved fell in love with, he fell in love with her again, and then she was targeted by the senior sister from her previous life.
But the original owner is not a soft persimmon. If she is targeted, she will naturally seek revenge. If she can't beat him, then she will naturally rely on her lover to seek justice. Others can rely on their own strength to bully the weak, so why can't she rely on the strength of her senior brother to retaliate?
It was precisely because of this that she was regarded as a demon by the reborn senior sister and was completely obsessed with her.
What a pity…
Nan Yan entered this world not long after the story began. Of course, Lin Qingshuang had been reborn, and relying on the memories before her rebirth, she obtained abundant spiritual herbs and medicines in this Qingxu secret realm. She also shared half of the opportunity with the junior brother whom she had once whipped, which slightly changed her previous reputation of being cold and unkind.
It seemed that everything was slowly changing. Now that the Qingxu Secret Realm was about to close, these disciples had also gained a lot and came out under the guidance of their senior brothers and sisters.
The risk is great, but the reward is naturally great. The fellow disciples who came out were naturally very happy and exchanged their experiences with their respective spiritual herbs. However, there were also many fellow disciples whose soul lamps disappeared and were never seen again.
As for this secret realm, the original owner knew that he was weak, so he did not join in the exploration.
Su Nanyan knew that the risk in this secret realm was quite high and that it was a place of trial for many Jindan stage disciples, so she did not go to the Qingxu secret realm this time.
Although the Qingxu Secret Realm is rich in medicinal herbs and spiritual plants, there are also many disciples from other sects who have gone there this time, including some demon cultivators and independent cultivators, all of whom have reached the Jindan stage or above. She is just a minor foundation-building cultivator, and she does not have the luck and strength. If she insists on coveting those resources, it will most likely be a dead end.
The principle of cultivation she followed has always been that opportunities can be slowly sought, but one only has one life. Even if she gets a great opportunity, if she doesn't have the life to enjoy it, then it would all be in vain.
This is exactly the opposite of the eldest senior brother's cultivation philosophy. The eldest senior brother was born with a sword bone and practiced the way of killing swords. Sword practice emphasizes moving forward courageously and never giving up. No matter how big the obstacles ahead are, sword practitioners can rely on their swords to cut through everything. The cultivation principles that sword practitioners follow are to never give up and never regret even if they die.
雖然修行理念不同，但這不妨礙他愛護小師妹，風寂雪也知道小師妹的天賦不好，所以從不強求小師妹做任何為難的事情，況且小師妹的性子确實很好，反正不論在何處，有他護着，總歸是沒有人敢随意欺負她的。
但因為秘境中的這一番相處，還有林師妹的一些異常，讓風寂雪逐漸察覺到了一絲不對勁，從秘境中回來之後，他就去了天池浸洗了全身，然後發現了胸口果然有道雙瓣花的印記，接着又去藏書樓翻閱了典籍，最後終于弄清楚了，原來那是情蠱的印記。
所以他竟在不知不覺之際中了情蠱。
情蠱，顧名思義都能明白它是什麽了，是傳聞中某個魔修特意培育出來，為了掌控心上人的蠱蟲。
如今風寂雪的心中矛盾又複雜，他已經不知道自己對小師妹的喜歡在意到底是出自真心，還是被情蠱掌控所導致的了？
倘若是情蠱掌控的話，那麽他一個修士竟被一只小小的蠱蟲掌控感情理智，這又是何等可怕的一件事情？簡直令人作嘔。
如果真要計算的話，他身中情蠱的事情都可以追溯到大半年之前了。
那時應該是他帶着諸多同門師弟師妹們在迷霧幻境中追殺一只為禍四方的幻妖，卻不小心被引入了一個山洞內，那洞裏是一個魔修殒身之後的洞府，洞內設置了一些亂七八糟的迷霧陣法，他一劍殺了幻妖，劍氣刺破了洞府內的一只灰罐子，從裏頭飛出了一團蚊蠅大小的小飛蟲，風寂雪用火符全都燃燒殆盡了，只是無意間卻遺漏了一只。
最終被那只小飛蟲叮咬了一口，脖子上隐約傳來一陣細微癢痛之感，當時并沒有覺得有什麽大礙，甚至覺得和普通蚊蟲叮咬的時候并無區別，但之後，風寂雪為了保險起見，還是吞下了一枚解毒丹，靈氣遍掃全身後确定沒有大礙，這才出了那個魔修洞府。
出來之後，又回到了先前的那片叢林裏，他見到的第一個女子剛好是爬在樹上摘果子的小師妹，小師妹爬上爬下的摘了很多紅豔豔的靈果，笑着分給諸多同門師弟們，最後又捧着洗幹淨的果子遞到他手邊。
他記得很清楚，當時是不太想吃的，只是瞧着小師妹臉上那歡喜期盼的眼神，也不知為何，到口的拒絕就變成了“謝謝”。
也就是從那個時候開始，他對小師妹的在意變得越來越多，他對小師妹也變得越來越心軟，耐心，縱容。
他想時時刻刻都見到小師妹，見到小師妹後，心中就會有種不自覺的柔軟歡喜，可對待其他人卻全然沒有這種心理。
到了後來，那種在意大概就變成了喜歡。
但如今，現實告訴他，這一切全都是假象，他根本不是真正意義上的喜歡小師妹，他只是因為中了情蠱而已。
連他自己都沒有意識到這種轉變不對勁，要不是此番在清虛秘境中，林師妹提醒的那些話，再加上他回來翻閱典籍查到的那些東西，他興許一輩子都不會知道這些事情。
他像個傀儡一樣被一只弱小的蠱蟲掌控着自身的情感理智，讓他每每見到小師妹就會忍不住心生歡喜，這種感覺，不知道自己身中情蠱的時候會覺得十分美好，可一旦知道自己只是提線木偶上那只木偶，這種被操控着，連自己都無法掌控自己的感覺，讓他心中只剩下唯一的念頭，那就是太惡心了。
他知道這情蠱與小師妹無關，是他自己不經意間沾染到的，可如今仍舊會忍不住遷怒。
他的理智告訴他，小師妹根本不是自己喜歡的人，可偏偏因為情蠱的作用，讓他對那個人又有種毫無緣由的在意心軟。
他一遍遍地梳理自己的情感和思緒，恍惚間又隐約想起，明明未中情蠱之前，他心中親近在意的人其實一直都是林師妹。
他們一起進宗門修煉術法，一起闖秘境獲得機緣，還一起演練道法互換心得，他心中在意的人明明一直都是林師妹，好端端的為什麽就變成小師妹了呢？
沒有人會願意被一只蠱蟲掌控牽制心理，他如今對小師妹的喜歡也并非出自本心，而是蠱蟲的影響罷了。
想到這裏，風寂雪心中的冷意更甚，也不知是嘲諷還是厭惡，總之對如今的心上人心中甚至多了那麽一絲說不清道不明的厭煩心裏，腦海中的情緒也是複雜矛盾至極。
他心中甚至會想，倘若小師妹就這麽死了，他的情蠱還會一直受到掌控嗎？
與此同時的另一邊，南嫣心裏想着，算算時間，風寂雪應該是在林清霜的點撥提醒之下發現了自己身中情蠱的事情了，這波人剛從清虛秘境中出來，還來不及做其他的事情，就比如她手腕上的這只破镯子。
林清霜從秘境中出來之後，心境不穩，又得了機緣，暫時忙着鞏固修為，所以還沒來得及找她把镯子要回去。
不過這破镯子不稀罕她當主人，她也不稀罕它，既然女主那麽想要這玩意兒，到時候還她就是，不過在還出去之前，她可還得讓這狗東西把它吞進去的靈石全都還回來。
還有那高高在上的狗男人，她還就不信了，沒辦法逼他自動現身？
調整好情緒，南嫣又一路朝着師兄的庭院中去了，狗師兄這兩天的情況明顯有些不太對勁，大概率是被情蠱一事所折磨的，估計內心的兩個小人正在打架呢。
反正打就打呗，受折騰的也不是她。
而且受情蠱影響，如今的風寂雪就算不想在意她，恐怕也是不行的。
不過倒也不一定，畢竟劍修大都心智堅定能忍，指不定還真能被他克制心中情緒。
所以隔着老遠，庭院裏的仆從就能聽到外頭小師妹又乖又甜的喊聲了，一聲聲的師兄從那邊傳來，喊的人心裏發軟。
“師兄，大師兄，我的好師兄，我來看你了……”
風寂雪聽到那聲音時就微不可見地蹙了下眉，他此刻心情很是複雜，理智上讓他不要去見她，心中又隐約生出些許歡喜。
最後心頭的那絲歡喜被他強行壓下，風寂雪正要找個理由将人應付過去，結果一轉身就被一具溫軟的身子猛地沖進懷裏了。
軟綿綿帶着師妹身上特有的果甜香氣，他山頭上的那些靈果都被她釀成靈酒了，時間一久，身上的香氣也就留存下來了。
這人猛沖過來的力道還不小，導致風寂雪不可控地往後退了一步，這才穩住身體。
他輕舒一口氣，壓下心頭的柔軟情緒，蹙眉輕訓道，“何事這般冒冒失失的？小師妹，你如今年歲也不小了，不可再這般沒輕沒重了。”
風寂雪說這話的時候伸手想将懷裏的人推開，但對方纏得有些緊，他一開始沒來得及避開，如今想再推開明顯有些身不随心。
自從那天這大師兄從秘境中出來以後，就已經在似有若無地在疏遠她了。
原主不是沒有感覺到，但想着師兄剛出秘境，可能身有不适，所以并未過來打擾，可她又不是去關心他的，她就是要過去胡攪蠻纏，刷存在感的。
呵呵，喜歡她的時候就是小師妹有我護着，所以做什麽都可以，等到了不在意她的時候呢，就是她做什麽都是沒輕沒重。
行，她也算是看透這群狗男人們了。
反正南嫣臉皮厚，這點小打擊不妨事，她整個人賴在師兄懷裏不肯起來，然後擡着腦袋，睜着那雙琉璃般黑透的眼珠子瞧他，表情略帶些小郁悶，“什麽沒輕沒重的，從前不都是這樣的嗎？再說了，大師兄，你出秘境後怎麽都不來找我了？你根本都不知道，這段時間見不着你，我是茶不思飯不香的，你摸摸我這小臉，都餓瘦一大圈了，瞧着都沒從前好看了。”
南嫣捉着對方的手掌往臉上貼，感受到這人手指似乎下意識地捏了兩下，突然眉眼彎彎朝他一笑。
然後雙手一伸，直接環住對方的脖子，整個身體都撲過去了，“還有，你怎麽都不抱我了？從前我撲過來的時候，你都會下意識的抱住我的，大師兄，說實話，你是不是外頭有了別的小師妹了？”
反正南嫣是打蛇就上棍，尤其是感受到目前的風寂雪對她還不是那麽排斥克制的時候，自然要趁着這個階段好好刷他的存在感。
最好胡攪蠻纏，折騰死他，讓他再沒心思去想那些亂七八糟的事情。
風寂雪果然被糾纏得沒脾氣了，或許是受了情蠱影響，他對眼前的小師妹莫名就有種縱容的念頭，先前腦海中那些混亂複雜的情緒在聽到這番話後也一齊抛到腦後去了。
他目光頓了一下，然後低頭盯着眼前的小師妹，擡手就敲了兩下這人的腦門。
“說什麽胡話呢？”
As he spoke, he frowned again and subconsciously pinched the soft flesh on his chin with his fingers, "You have become thinner due to hunger. All the brothers and sisters in the sect have gone to the secret realm. You are the oldest in the entire inner sect, and you are still thinner due to hunger. I see that you have gained a lot of weight. Hurry up, what does it mean to hug yourself like this?"
In front of other people, Senior Brother Feng is so cold and indifferent that he is unkind. Only in front of Junior Sister does this ice-sculpture-like Senior Brother behave a little like a human being, with a hint of fireworks. Like all ordinary men, he will frown and scold when he is annoyed, and will compromise helplessly when he is upset.
Nan Yan's face wrinkled upon hearing this, and she immediately let go. Her white and tender hands were busy gazing at her waist, and she said with a depressed expression, "Is it really heavier? No wonder, I was wondering why I couldn't turn over smoothly when I was practicing sword in the Purple Bamboo Forest recently, and it's also a lot bigger."
Feng Jixue saw her sad face and couldn't help but ask subconsciously, "What's bigger?"
Hearing this, Nan Yan couldn't help but smile at him. When no one was paying attention, she grabbed his hand and pressed it against her chest. "It's right here. It's obviously a lot bigger, isn't it, Senior Brother? Does it feel different from before?"
Feng Jixue felt the soft touch of his palm, and that hand, as white as jade, was pressed against his junior sister's chest.
For a moment, my whole palm felt numb.
It is true that he and his junior sister were closer than others, but not to this extent, because he was introverted and restrained by nature, and the most intimate times were just slightly restrained kisses and hugs. If it were not for the Hehuan Sect's cultivation method, most cultivators would be abstinent and restrained, because Yuan Yang was also a method that cultivators had to abide by.
Feng Jixue followed her line of sight downwards, and his lips straightened instantly. His thin lips, if you looked at them for too long, would easily make you want to take a bite.
But the man below was quite proud, winking and smiling at him with curved eyebrows, "Brother, you are shy, your palms seem to be burning, your ears are red, but why do you still look so serious?"
The eldest senior brother had never encountered such a situation before, and right now was the most chaotic and complicated moment in his heart. Even if he was calm, now there were ripples in his heart, probably due to shame, which made him more and more uncomfortable, and his jade-like earlobes were slightly flushed.
Feng Jixue moved his lips, suppressed the surging emotions in his heart, and almost subconsciously pulled his hand out, then turned his hand behind his back and scolded with a little annoyance, "Stop messing around, Yanyan, when have you ever become so... shameless?"
As expected, sword masters are a bunch of stupid people who don't understand romance. Nan Yan turned her face away and snorted twice, her fingers entwined with his sleeves again, "When did I become shameless? It's obvious that Senior Brother is the most shameless. Don't think I don't know that my most beautiful bellyband was torn by you and then secretly hidden."
Hearing this, Feng Jixue paused.
Then he thought of something, and his jade-like face turned slightly red, but it was just because he was angry. "It wasn't me who broke it, it was the Snow Wolf who accidentally scratched it."
He was a little anxious for a moment, and the airs of a senior brother that he had just put on were completely gone.
The Snow Wolf was a fourth-level pet beast that he raised. When it was born, it was only the size of two palms, with a silvery-white body, round and soft. The little junior sister liked this little monster very much, so she often stayed in his bedroom to meditate. But she had very little patience, and often in the middle of meditation, she and the Snow Wolf would hug each other and fall asleep soundly.
Snow Wolf liked to chew things and grind his teeth when he was growing up. He had bitten the mattress, table legs and clothes in the house. But he didn't know what happened that time. While the little sister was asleep, Snow Wolf bit open her clothes and took away her bellyband, then happily took it and covered his scabbard with it.
Feng Jixue still felt embarrassed when she thought of that scene. What's more, she brought it up so recklessly, which made her feel even more embarrassed.
Of course Nan Yan knew that it was the snow wolf that had bitten it. She was not a fool. How could she not feel anything when the snow wolf took it away? But she had to play the whole game. She wanted to put the blame on him and she couldn't get rid of it.
So Nan Yan raised her eyes and glared at him, her watery eyes full of accusation, clearly not believing him, "You still slander the Snow Wolf, how big is the Snow Wolf, just the size of two palms, what bad things can it do? Besides, the Snow Wolf is your pet, it is in tune with you, even if the Snow Wolf did something bad, wasn't it you, Senior Brother, who ordered it?"
Feng Jixue: “…”
He was speechless for a moment.
Who told her that it was possible to calculate like this, and how could humans and pets be able to communicate with each other?
Before he could explain, the man opposite him pursed his lips and suddenly glanced at him, his eyes clearly showing some emotion. "And the red marks on my chest when I woke up that morning, could that also have been caused by the bite of a snow wolf? Senior Brother, I really misjudged you. Do you still want to deny it now?"
When did he ever resist?
That was clearly not his doing.
It was also the first time that Feng Jixue was speechless. He usually didn't want to talk when facing other people, but this time he was speechless because of the accusations made by his junior sister. However, he was not good at speaking, especially when it came to things that he couldn't explain clearly. In the end, he could only turn his head away and didn't want to pay any attention to her at all.
Nan Yan saw Feng Jixue like this and continued to struggle.
"Oh, Senior Brother, why don't you dare turn around and look at me?" Nan Yan laughed secretly, "Is it because I hit the nail on the head, so you feel guilty and embarrassed?"
"I've heard a long time ago that there are many men in the cultivation world who like to collect women's bellybands. Could it be that Senior Brother is also like this?"
She nodded thoughtfully, then looked him up and down and smiled, "Now it seems possible. Why don't you let me take a look at the bag on your waist? Anyway, you only care about the sword. There is nothing else in the bag except spirit stones, spirit plants and elixirs."
She smiled at the people, her eyes curved into crescents, "I'll just take a look and see if my stolen bellyband is there, and then I'll know the truth."
As she spoke, she reached out to touch his waist and really touched the storage bag. Just as she was about to take it off, the senior brother held the back of her hand. She looked up and blinked twice.
It's as pure inside as a pool of spring water.
Then she saw the usually cold and aloof senior brother turned around uncomfortably and stared at her. After their eyes met for a moment, a blush appeared on his icy face. "Stop it..."
His voice was obviously lacking in confidence.
Nan Yan was now very confident and even more unreasonable, "Well, Senior Brother really did hide my things, didn't he?"
Feng Jixue felt even more annoyed. He had indeed put the torn bellyband into his storage bag. When he finished his meditation, he saw the snow wolf lying on his legs with a proud look on its face. When he turned around again, he saw the scene again: the cold sword was covered with a bright red bellyband.
The hardest and the softest, two completely opposite things in the world, when put together, they also match each other in exceptional harmony. Later, after hearing the noise coming from the inner room, he didn't know what happened, and he hid the bellyband for some reason, and has kept it hidden until now.
He thought that no one would know about it, and that incident had been completely buried by him as time passed. However, he never expected that his junior sister would bring it up again today. He suddenly felt ashamed and embarrassed, as if he was back to the past.