Chapter 172
No matter how many times Nan Yan resisted, and no matter how sadly Nan Yan cried as many of her fellow disciples held her shoulders and couldn't break free, Feng Jixue pursed his lips and finally and resolutely untied the love pig.
Using the blood from his beloved's brow as inducement, he drew a talisman on his chest. Something tiny was stirring slightly under his skin.
Feng Jixue tried his best to calm the chaotic and complicated emotions in his heart, and then he cut the bright red six-petal flower mark without hesitation. Blood flowed out. He remained calm, and finally picked out a seed-sized insect with force.
The moment the cricket was picked out, he felt a tearing pain spread through his mind, as if someone had grabbed the tendons inside and pulled hard. Blood instantly rushed to his head, and the pain almost made him lose his balance.
The fragments of memories that surged in his mind suddenly came flooding out like a tide, overwhelming his head, making it even more confused and painful.
The first part of those memories were all about the past with his junior sister. Feng Jixue's lips were bitten until they bled. He covered his head with his hands, cold sweat dripping down his forehead, but the memories in his mind surged out uncontrollably.
From the very beginning in the forest, the little sister held a bright red fruit, tilted her head and smiled at him with pursed lips.
The junior sister was so angry that she pretended to be angry.
There was also the time when she was bold enough to go out and hang out with others, but was severely reprimanded by him and ended up crying pitifully.
In the end, the little sister was wearing a bright red wedding dress, happily spinning in front of him, with her gorgeous skirt spreading out like petals. In the end, she threw herself into his arms and asked him if it looked good...
When Feng Jixue clenched his palms, the motionless love parasite in his palms completely disappeared without a trace.
At that moment, it seemed as if something deep in my mind was forcibly pulled out, and those chaotic memories gradually became clear and the severe dull pain in my head finally subsided.
Feng Jixue exhaled lightly, and the whole person seemed to be pulled out of the water. He finally opened his eyes, and the clarity in his eyes was completely restored.
Also being pulled out were obviously those feelings towards the junior sister that were caused by lovesickness.
Feng Jixue lowered his head and subconsciously covered his chest. The six-petal flower mark on the wound became lighter and lighter, and finally left a faint mark that could not be erased.
And those inexplicable and inexplicable emotions that had originally gathered in my chest seemed to have evaporated, and all disappeared inexplicably. My chest felt empty, but my mind was so clear that there wasn't even a trace of reluctance or regret.
He remembered everything that happened in the past, and remembered clearly the past times he spent with his junior sister. Every scene and every picture were imprinted in his mind, but the affection and love he had for her in his heart had all disappeared.
Feng Jixue didn't know how to describe his emotions at the moment. He just felt that the past between him and his junior sister was like reading through another person's memories. That feeling made him feel unfamiliar and uncomfortable, so he had no emotional fluctuations.
His feelings for the junior sister completely disappeared. It should be said that they were not true feelings from the beginning. He was just manipulated by a love pig to fall in love with a woman he didn't like in the first place.
At this moment, he even recalled that when he didn't like his junior sister, he once had a slight affection for another woman in his heart. When Feng Jixue thought of this, his eyes subconsciously glanced towards the seat below the hall.
He saw the strangeness in Junior Sister Lin's eyes, and the occasional hint of resentment in her eyes when she looked at him.
Feng Jixue lowered his eyes unconsciously. He didn't understand at all why he had fallen in love with the little junior sister like a lunatic. But when he thought of the past memories, he saw the picture of himself pressing the little junior sister under him, the excessive things he had done, and the current situation.
Feng Jixue's gaze finally slowly fell on the face of the little junior sister opposite him.
The corners of her eyes were red, her black hair was scattered on her shoulders, and there were a few drops of bright red blood on her slender brow bones, which set off her snow-white skin, making her look even more sad and beautiful.
The wedding dress she had been wearing was torn apart during the struggle, and the bright red hem of her dress fell slightly on the ground, making her skin look even paleer.
Feng Jixue frowned consciously, feeling a slight tightness in his chest, and a feeling of irritability instinctively surged in his heart.
He didn't know whether this emotion was due to the instinctive discomfort of the disappearance of love after the release of the snake, or because of the disgust caused by the uncontrollable emotions in the past.
But Feng Jixue still walked towards the little junior sister. His eyes met hers calmly, but the tenderness and affection in his eyes had long since disappeared.
"Junior sister, I will take responsibility for you. I remember everything that happened in the past. The bond between us was not a lie. I just didn't have time to tell you. I'm sorry."
When Nan Yan heard this, her lips suddenly turned even paler. She raised her eyes, and she didn't know when she stopped crying. Tears welled up in her eyes. The corners of her eyes were red. She stared at him stubbornly, and then asked word by word, "What does being responsible mean?"
Feng Jixue frowned slightly, leaving faint marks between his brows, and his dark eyes looked at Nan Yan calmly, without any emotion or ripples in them.
There was only a hint of guilt and apology in his voice, "I'm sorry..."
He didn't say much, but his attitude was clearly revealed. This man was responsible for her because of the past, not because of past affection, but simply out of the sense of responsibility and guilt in his heart.
He did this just because they had a close relationship in the past. It turned out that his love for her was really all influenced by being a love-sick person.
After the love pig was untied, the senior brother who once loved and cared about her completely turned into a cold stranger.
The junior sister raised her eyes, filled with inextricable sadness and fragility, as if it was unbearable.
"So, all those likes were fake?"
Feng Jixue frowned even more tightly when he saw her like this, and a slight discomfort vaguely emerged in his heart. He suppressed that emotion deep in his heart and tried his best to explain, "The feelings are not fake, but that is not what I want."
If he had not been influenced by the love-sick man, he might never have had any contact with his junior sister in his life, let alone done those things to her.
But since it has already happened, there is no point in thinking about this hypothesis. He will shoulder his responsibilities and stay with her and protect her for the rest of her life.
The elder brother was silent for a while, then said, "Little sister, I've said it before, after the release of the snake, no matter what the result is, I will not abandon you, and the relationship between us will not change."
The relationship will not change, but the person has changed. The difference between when a person loves you and when he cares about you is too obvious, so obvious that he even wants to pretend, and his body also reveals an inexplicable rejection.
The younger sister seemed to understand this. She looked at the older brother in front of her, and after confirming that he really had no feelings for her anymore, the light in her eyes dimmed instantly.
"Heh..." Nan Yan chuckled.
Her eyebrows and eyes were curved, clear and beautiful, and her eyes seemed to be filled with a pool of spring water.
But as she laughed, tears began to fall uncontrollably, blurring her vision so that she could not see the expression of the man in front of her. "Brother, are you saying these things because you feel guilty? Since your feelings for me are all influenced by the love pig, how can you possibly like me now that the love pig is freed? You don't like me but you still insist on forming a bond with me..."
Nan Yan paused as she spoke, and raised her hand to wipe away the tears that kept falling. There was a trace of resentment in her eyes, but her voice became extremely cold, "Is it because Senior Brother saw that I was crying so pitifully, so he wanted to give me alms?"
The eldest confused senior brother frowned slightly, but his facial expression did not change. He felt a little and didn't know what to say.
It seemed that all his feelings for his junior sister had disappeared. Now seeing her so sad, he did not feel any emotion in his heart.
If it were the same as before, if he saw his junior sister so sad, he would definitely hold her carefully in his arms, pat her back gently to coax her and comfort her, but now that he has been freed from the love pig, he simply cannot do such a thing.
Feng Jixue was silent for a moment, feeling empty in his heart, without a single ripple of emotion. "Junior sister, I am not giving you charity. I had my own reasons for freeing the insect, and I did not tell you in advance. I was wrong to do this."
He lowered his head to meet the eyes of the junior sister. The two looked at each other, and his voice was slow and serious. "But since I promised to form a bond with you, I will not go back on my word. In the future, I will do my best to make up for you and take care of you. Is this okay?"
As he spoke, he seemed to want to imitate what he remembered and reached out to hold the little junior sister's finger.
But the other party took a step back with a pale face.
Her whole body revealed a feeling of disgust and resistance towards him, and her eyes and eyebrows showed obvious resistance.
Feng Jixue paused, his fingers frozen in mid-air.
At that moment, a very strange thought even popped up in his mind: Why would the junior sister... reject him?
He knew that he had done something very excessive this time, but when he wanted to make up for it, the other party didn't want to anymore, which made him feel vaguely uncomfortable and weird.
"Don't bother." Nan Yan raised her eyes and looked at him directly. Her eyes were dead silent, but her tears stopped falling. Her voice was colder than ever before. "I won't marry someone who doesn't love me."
Feng Jixue pursed his lips, his eyes fell on that face, obviously a little uncomfortable. He wanted to say something, but the other party didn't give her a chance to speak.
"Since Senior Brother has never truly loved me, why bother yourself by getting entangled with me?"
"Instead of forcing yourself to torture yourself with someone you don't love, why not just let it go? The bond ceremony hasn't been completed yet anyway, so isn't it good for us to just end it like this?"
"Besides, you are no longer the senior brother I used to like. You said you loved me and cared about me, but what happened? You never cared about my feelings and still hurt me the most."
Nan Yan spoke in a hoarse voice. She raised her hands and touched the tassel crown and veil on her bun. She paused for a moment, then pulled them off without hesitation. Then she raised her eyes and threw them forcefully towards the man standing opposite her.
Because the force was too great and the jewelry was too sharp, it accidentally scratched the left cheek of the senior brother.
Bright red blood oozed out from the wound.
There were even a few torn black hairs tangled on it, and there was a faint scent of the junior sister.
These jewellery and headbands were all selected by him personally when he went down the mountain that day. He vaguely remembered the circumstances of that day, but now, they were all thrown back to her.
Seeing this situation, and the calm but pale face of his junior sister, Feng Jixue's brows furrowed even more tightly, and he tried hard to suppress the slight discomfort in his heart.
I looked up and saw her turning around to leave.
Feng Jixue subconsciously reached out and tightly grasped the slender and soft wrist bone, "Why? There's no need for us to make such a fuss... Yanyan, don't be impulsive, okay?"
He slowly tightened the strength in his hands and unconsciously slowed down his tone. "I know you are blaming me. If you still have resentment in your heart, you can hit me or scold me. There is no need to reject me so decisively and draw a clear line between us. I have said that I will take care of you for the rest of your life. We will be a legitimate couple. I have never forgotten my oath."
"Yanyan, I never thought of abandoning you..."
Feng Jixue was indeed sincere, he just wanted to shoulder his responsibilities. Perhaps in his eyes, making a covenant and releasing the love pig did not violate his promise. Even though his previous love was all due to the love pig, all those feelings of love disappeared after the love pig was released, but he still had a responsibility towards her, so he chose to continue to be with her.
However, everyone has their own dignity and pride, especially when such changes happen in the public eye.
Under everyone's accusations, and until the tragic "truth was revealed" in the end, how could she, a junior sister, tolerate that her senior brother's love for her was all fake?
Clearly, she was the lover that he held at the top of his heart, but now he told her that those sweet pasts were not from his heart, but were all influenced by being a love-sick person.
How could she possibly accept this?
So Nan Yan raised her eyes and looked at him, her eyes seemed to reveal a look of despair, without any trace of admiration in them.
The bloodstain on her forehead had already scabbed over. As she turned her head, she slowly stretched out her other hand, and then with an indifferent attitude, she resolutely pried open his palm.
"No need, Senior Brother Feng. The person you really care about right now is probably not me, so why should I ask for trouble?"
There was a hint of sarcasm in the hoarse voice, as well as an indelible sadness.
She did not miss it. After he was freed from the love trap, his eyes regained clarity and he subconsciously looked in the past at first glance. The person he was looking at was not her. In that situation, how could it be possible that he had no feelings of concern for Lin Qingshuang at all?
Feng Jixue was stunned for a moment, and the next moment, he felt as if he was stabbed by her cold and sarcastic gaze. His breathing became slightly stagnant, and he subconsciously shifted his gaze.
It feels like a wolf running away from its prey.
He didn't even dare to look at her directly. He just felt a kind of low and guilty feeling in his heart that was hard to ignore. There was an inexplicable discomfort that made him subconsciously clench his hands in his sleeves.
Feng Jixue's lips moved, and his eyes fell on her again, as if he was a little unwilling, "Yanyan, it's not what you think, I just suddenly remembered it... I will treat the past as the past, and I will treat you the same as before. It's not too late to turn back now, are you really unwilling?"
"Is it still in time?" Nan Yan seemed to have heard a joke. She tilted her head slightly, wanting to laugh and cry at the same time.
There was an unprecedented coldness in the dull eyes, as if it pierced into his heart, and the tone was cold, "Who cares if you are still in time? Brother, you should keep the affection in your heart and save it for the person you really care about."
After saying this, Nan Yan turned around and walked away without hesitation. Her bright red wedding dress dragged on the ground, leaving a zigzag curve.
Feng Jixue looked up at the thin and slender figure in the light, and clenched his fingers. For a moment, he even wanted to chase after him regardless of anything.
But somehow, when he recalled the disgusted and sarcastic look she had given him just now, his heart shuddered slightly, and suddenly a strange and gloomy emotion surged up in his mind.
It was fragmented, as if there was a thin thread tugging at his heart, causing a slight pain, but it was not real enough, making him even think it was just an illusion.
After this big breakup drama, Nan Yan naturally made a perfect exit, and she didn't want to care about anything else anymore.
Anyway, in the eyes of most people, she was probably the ignorant junior sister who did not understand the difficulties of the senior brother. After all, after the love pig was untied, the senior brother did not abandon her because of his own changes. Instead, she herself did not know what was good for her and refused the marriage.
This is probably the reality of the world of cultivation. The strong give alms and sympathy to the weak, and the weak should accept it with gratitude instead of stubbornly refusing. If there is no agreement, there is no point in staying.
Nan Yan naturally slipped away as soon as possible.
To be honest, when Feng Jixueqing's insect was just untied, she was indeed a little surprised. She didn't expect that a tiny insect could have such a big impact on humans?
Especially after the love pig was untied, he was still the same person and his aura hadn't changed, but the look in his eyes when he looked at her no longer had any affection.
The look he gave her was calm and indifferent. Although it contained a hint of apology, that was not love. Nan Yan did not want to care about his emotional changes. She only knew that the backlash of a love-sucking person would start slowly.
After the love snake is untied, he will indeed be freed from all the influence and emotions brought by the snake, making him become the same as before, cold and desireless. If he really has no feelings for her, then after the love snake is untied, he will slowly calm down his emotions until he is completely relieved in the end.
But if he cared about her that much, then even if he freed himself from the love trap, the past love and joy would slowly take root in his heart as time went by, until he would regret it in the end.
Nan Yan thought carefully about the situation where the man grabbed her wrist and refused to let go. Judging from this situation, Feng Jixue obviously still had some feelings for her.
In that case, there is no need to worry about this matter.
After leaving, Nan Yan did not return to her own courtyard. She tried hard to appear distraught and walked aimlessly down the mountain alone.
She didn't know how long she had been walking, nor where she had been. Finally, she walked into a deserted corner, wrapped herself in a white barrier, curled up, and buried her face in her knees.
It was getting dark outside.
The dark sky lost all its light and became thick and deep.
No one expected that this bond-making ceremony would end like this, not even Jing Wuyan.
He didn't know if everything that happened now was because he forcibly reversed time?
But if the two of them were completely over, would that mean he would have a chance to take her away?
So when Jing Wuyan came over, this was the situation he saw. His brows wrinkled unconsciously. The little girl who was so lively in front of him a few days ago now looked so lifeless. He felt indescribably depressed.
Just as he was about to walk over, he touched an invisible barrier. He felt extremely depressed. This girl was so proud that she put several layers of barriers around herself even when she was crying.
He tore them all down layer by layer, and as he did so he was still thinking, this little girl is not very skilled and the barrier she created is very tattered, with a piece missing here and a hole there. With such a level of skill, how dare she run around alone?
When Jing Wuyan finally dismantled those substandard barriers, he stood in front of her and called her name softly, "Yanyan."
There was a hint of familiarity in the hoarse voice.
Needless to say, she knew who had come. It was worth her pretending and feeling sad for the whole day.
When Nan Yan heard Jing Wuyan's voice, her limbs stiffened slightly, but she did not look up.
Jing Wuyan squatted down in front of her. He was actually not very good at coaxing people, and he probably had never coaxed anyone before. But everything has a first time. Perhaps after his self-esteem was shattered by that naughty girl last time, he no longer had the superior attitude and dominance in front of her, and all he had was care for her.
"It's me."
Jing Wu reached out and touched her head. Her hair was as soft as ever. His tone was much softer. "Are you so sad just because your senior brother doesn't like you anymore?"
Nan Yan still ignored him.
Jing Wuyan frowned, and after a while, seeing that she still had no reaction, he felt quite disappointed with her.
Perhaps because he was older than her, his words of comfort always contained some rationale, "He's just a poor and unromantic swordsman. Is he worth your heartbreak and your heartbreak?"
"You are such a loser. You should know that even couples can turn against each other, and you haven't even formed a marriage yet. He doesn't trust you enough. You should be glad that you just lost who is not worthy of your love. Why do you care so much about it?"
Jing Wuyan is really not very good at comforting others, and can only do his best to discredit the person his sweetheart likes.
Perhaps these words finally touched her heart, and after a while, the people below showed some reaction.
Nan Yan raised her head and slowly met Jing Wuyan's gaze.
Jing Wuyan looked at the person in front of him with a serious gaze.
To be honest, he couldn't bear to see this girl looking so weak and languid in front of him. It was so different from the unyielding look she had shown in the past.
Nan Yan's lips were pursed to a pale color, and her face was almost bloodless, but the corners of her eyes were moist and red, her dark hair was a little messy and scattered on her cheeks, and there was a hint of water in her eyes.
She met his gaze for a while, and a few tears fell uncontrollably. Then she said in a mocking voice, "Are you here to laugh at me? You know I've been abandoned, so you're deliberately taking advantage of my misfortune to teach me a lesson?"
Jing Wuyan's brows furrowed even tighter, and he curled his fingers uncontrollably, then reached out and rubbed the skin of her cheek with his fingers, carefully wiping away her tears.
He knew that she was sad at the moment, so he naturally wouldn't take her words to heart. Moreover, he had been ridiculed and rejected by her before. The two of them might have become accustomed to confronting each other, but now Jing Wuyan was the first to bow his head.
"Why do you always think the worst of me? Am I such a fussy person in your eyes? Besides, I haven't done anything to bully you recently."
Unexpectedly, as soon as he finished speaking, Nan Yan's tears immediately flowed more freely. Her face was covered with tears, and she cried out in resentment from her throat, "Aren't you? What qualifications do you have to teach me? Yes, I am useless, I just like him, but what does this have to do with you?"
Her whole mood seemed to collapse, as if she couldn't hold it in any longer. "Do you think I will forgive you for what you did to me in the past if you say a few nice words to me?"
"You guys rely on your high level of cultivation and have never considered my feelings. Why didn't you ask me in advance? Why did you treat me like that on the day of the contract? You made me lose face in front of everyone and I lost all my dignity."
"And you, was that also your thought when you asked me to kneel down and kowtow to you and admit my fault? Just because I have the weakest cultivation and I am powerless to resist, you can bully me without scruples and trample on my self-esteem, right?"
Nan Yan's eyes were red from crying, her breathing became a little rapid, and her emotions became even more agitated.
"You are all idiots!"
Jing Wuyan was a little stunned.
He suddenly felt a little flustered. He didn't expect that the first time he tried to comfort someone, not only did he fail to comfort the person, but he also made the person cry. He was also scolded so much that he couldn't say a word in rebuttal.
But Nan Yan couldn't hold herself back at all.
Almost at the moment when her emotions collapsed.
Jing Wuyan immediately hurriedly hugged her in his arms, patted her back with his hands in an unfamiliar manner, and coaxed her gently, "Okay, okay, I was a jerk, it's my fault, I don't know what I said wrong to make you sad? But I really didn't mean any harm this time. Believe me, I was really angry at the time when I kowtowed and admitted my mistake, and I was not angry with you. I'm sorry, I apologize to you, and I will no longer rely on my high level of cultivation to bully and teach you a lesson at will in the future."
"You, please stop crying, okay?" Jing Wuyan had never seen her cry so sadly. He felt a little distressed in his heart and didn't know how to make her happy.
He had never encountered such a troublesome thing in his life, but he was the one who kept trying to figure it out. If someone had told him before, he would have humbly compromised and admitted his mistakes because of a female cultivator.
He might sneer and slap the other person, mocking him arrogantly, saying that such a thing would never happen in his lifetime.
Because with his temper, if such a day really came, he might have impatiently slapped the female cultivator to death at the very beginning. How could he possibly give in to the other party and make concessions for her in a humble manner?
But reality is just so absurd.
He had no choice but to continue coaxing her, "I really am not here to laugh at you, Yanyan. What I said last time was not false."
"What do you like? Can I buy it for you? Beautiful robes, luxurious mansions and palaces, or all kinds of dazzling jewelry and instruments? I remember you like bracelets. Oh, and do you want a spiritual vein? Can I give it to you?"
"I have all of these. Stop crying, okay?"
As he was coaxing her, the topic went off track and he started showing off his wealth in an inhumane way. Nan Yan was completely impressed by him.
Was this an innate instinct of a man who does not like money, or was it because the money-obsessed look she showed in front of him earlier had left such a deep impression on him that he started to spend a lot of resources just by coaxing her?
But isn't he being too superficial? Could she be the kind of woman who would bow down for a few pieces of rice?
At least ten fights are needed.
I have to say, this kind of man who spends money with one hand is just like a man who drives a Ferrari with one hand, which is really attractive.
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