Chapter 172
No matter how many times Nan Yan resisted, and no matter how sadly Nan Yan cried as many of her fellow disciples held her shoulders and couldn't break free, Feng Jixue pursed his lips and finally and resolutely untied the love pig.
Using the blood from his beloved's brow as inducement, he drew a talisman on his chest. Something tiny was stirring slightly under his skin.
Feng Jixue tried his best to calm the chaotic and complicated emotions in his heart, and then he cut the bright red six-petal flower mark without hesitation. Blood flowed out. He remained calm, and finally picked out a seed-sized insect with force.
The moment the cricket was picked out, he felt a tearing pain spread through his mind, as if someone had grabbed the tendons inside and pulled hard. Blood instantly rushed to his head, and the pain almost made him lose his balance.
The fragments of memories that surged in his mind suddenly came flooding out like a tide, overwhelming his head, making it even more confused and painful.
The first part of those memories were all about the past with his junior sister. Feng Jixue's lips were bitten until they bled. He covered his head with his hands, cold sweat dripping down his forehead, but the memories in his mind surged out uncontrollably.
From the very beginning in the forest, the little sister held a bright red fruit, tilted her head and smiled at him with pursed lips.
The junior sister was so angry that she pretended to be angry.
There was also the time when she was bold enough to go out and hang out with others, but was severely reprimanded by him and ended up crying pitifully.
In the end, the little sister was wearing a bright red wedding dress, happily spinning in front of him, with her gorgeous skirt spreading out like petals. In the end, she threw herself into his arms and asked him if it looked good...
When Feng Jixue clenched his palms, the motionless love parasite in his palms completely disappeared without a trace.
At that moment, it seemed as if something deep in my mind was forcibly pulled out, and those chaotic memories gradually became clear and the severe dull pain in my head finally subsided.
Feng Jixue exhaled lightly, and the whole person seemed to be pulled out of the water. He finally opened his eyes, and the clarity in his eyes was completely restored.
Also being pulled out were obviously those feelings towards the junior sister that were caused by lovesickness.
Feng Jixue lowered his head and subconsciously covered his chest. The six-petal flower mark on the wound became lighter and lighter, and finally left a faint mark that could not be erased.
And those inexplicable and inexplicable emotions that had originally gathered in my chest seemed to have evaporated, and all disappeared inexplicably. My chest felt empty, but my mind was so clear that there wasn't even a trace of reluctance or regret.
He remembered everything that happened in the past, and remembered clearly the past times he spent with his junior sister. Every scene and every picture were imprinted in his mind, but the affection and love he had for her in his heart had all disappeared.
Feng Jixue didn't know how to describe his emotions at the moment. He just felt that the past between him and his junior sister was like reading through another person's memories. That feeling made him feel unfamiliar and uncomfortable, so he had no emotional fluctuations.
His feelings for the junior sister completely disappeared. It should be said that they were not true feelings from the beginning. He was just manipulated by a love pig to fall in love with a woman he didn't like in the first place.
At this moment, he even recalled that when he didn't like his junior sister, he once had a slight affection for another woman in his heart. When Feng Jixue thought of this, his eyes subconsciously glanced towards the seat below the hall.
He saw the strangeness in Junior Sister Lin's eyes, and the occasional hint of resentment in her eyes when she looked at him.
Feng Jixue lowered his eyes unconsciously. He didn't understand at all why he had fallen in love with the little junior sister like a lunatic. But when he thought of the past memories, he saw the picture of himself pressing the little junior sister under him, the excessive things he had done, and the current situation.
Feng Jixue's gaze finally slowly fell on the face of the little junior sister opposite him.
The corners of her eyes were red, her black hair was scattered on her shoulders, and there were a few drops of bright red blood on her slender brow bones, which set off her snow-white skin, making her look even more sad and beautiful.
The wedding dress she had been wearing was torn apart during the struggle, and the bright red hem of her dress fell slightly on the ground, making her skin look even paler.
Feng Jixue frowned consciously, feeling a slight tightness in his chest, and a feeling of irritability instinctively surged in his heart.
He didn't know whether this emotion was due to the instinctive discomfort of the disappearance of love after the release of the snake, or because of the disgust caused by the uncontrollable emotions in the past.
But Feng Jixue still walked towards the little junior sister. His eyes met hers calmly, but the tenderness and affection in his eyes had long since disappeared.
"Junior sister, I will take responsibility for you. I remember everything that happened in the past. The bond between us was not a lie. I just didn't have time to tell you. I'm sorry."
When Nan Yan heard this, her lips suddenly turned even paler. She raised her eyes, and she didn't know when she stopped crying. Tears welled up in her eyes. The corners of her eyes were red. She stared at him stubbornly, and then asked word by word, "What does being responsible mean?"
Feng Jixue frowned slightly, leaving faint marks between his brows, and his dark eyes looked at Nan Yan calmly, without any emotion or ripples in them.
There was only a hint of guilt and apology in his voice, "I'm sorry..."
He didn't say much, but his attitude was clearly revealed. This man was responsible for her because of the past, not because of past affection, but simply out of the sense of responsibility and guilt in his heart.
He did this just because they had a close relationship in the past. It turned out that his love for her was really all influenced by being a love-sick person.
After the love pig was untied, the senior brother who once loved and cared about her completely turned into a cold stranger.
The junior sister raised her eyes, filled with inextricable sadness and fragility, as if it was unbearable.
"So, all those likes were fake?"
Feng Jixue frowned even more tightly when he saw her like this, and a slight discomfort vaguely emerged in his heart. He suppressed that emotion deep in his heart and tried his best to explain, "The feelings are not fake, but that is not what I want."
If he had not been influenced by the love-sick man, he might never have had any contact with his junior sister in his life, let alone done those things to her.
But since it has already happened, there is no point in thinking about this hypothesis. He will shoulder his responsibilities and stay with her and protect her for the rest of her life.
The elder brother was silent for a while, then said, "Little sister, I've said it before, after the release of the snake, no matter what the result is, I will not abandon you, and the relationship between us will not change."
The relationship will not change, but the person has changed. The difference between when a person loves you and when he cares about you is too obvious, so obvious that he even wants to pretend, and his body also reveals an inexplicable rejection.
The younger sister seemed to understand this. She looked at the older brother in front of her, and after confirming that he really had no feelings for her anymore, the light in her eyes dimmed instantly.
"Heh..." Nan Yan chuckled.
Her eyebrows and eyes were curved, clear and beautiful, and her eyes seemed to be filled with a pool of spring water.
But as she laughed, tears began to fall uncontrollably, blurring her vision so that she could not see the expression of the man in front of her. "Brother, are you saying these things because you feel guilty? Since your feelings for me are all influenced by the love pig, how can you possibly like me now that the love pig is freed? You don't like me but you still insist on forming a bond with me..."
Nan Yan paused as she spoke, and raised her hand to wipe away the tears that kept falling. There was a trace of resentment in her eyes, but her voice became extremely cold, "Is it because Senior Brother saw that I was crying so pitifully, so he wanted to give me alms?"
The eldest senior brother frowned slightly, but his facial expression did not change. He felt a little confused and didn't know what to say.
It seemed that all his feelings for his junior sister had disappeared. Now seeing her so sad, he did not feel any emotion in his heart.
If it were the same as before, if he saw his junior sister so sad, he would definitely hold her carefully in his arms, pat her back gently to coax her and comfort her, but now that he has been freed from the love pig, he simply cannot do such a thing.
Feng Jixue was silent for a moment, feeling empty in his heart, without a single ripple of emotion. "Junior sister, I am not giving you charity. I had my own reasons for freeing the insect, and I did not tell you in advance. I was wrong to do this."
He lowered his head to meet the eyes of the junior sister. The two looked at each other, and his voice was slow and serious. "But since I promised to form a bond with you, I will not go back on my word. In the future, I will do my best to make up for you and take care of you. Is this okay?"
As he spoke, he seemed to want to imitate what he remembered and reached out to hold the little junior sister's finger.
But the other party took a step back with a pale face.
Her whole body revealed a feeling of disgust and resistance towards him, and her eyes and eyebrows showed obvious resistance.
Feng Jixue paused, his fingers frozen in mid-air.
At that moment, a very strange thought even popped up in his mind: Why would the junior sister... reject him?
He knew that he had done something very excessive this time, but when he wanted to make up for it, the other party didn't want to anymore, which made him feel vaguely uncomfortable and weird.
"Don't bother." Nan Yan raised her eyes and looked at him directly. Her eyes were dead silent, but her tears stopped falling. Her voice was colder than ever before. "I won't marry someone who doesn't love me."
風寂雪抿了抿唇，視線落在那張面龐上，明顯有些不适應，他想說些什麽，然而對方卻沒有給她開口的機會。
“既然師兄從未真心實意的喜歡過我，又何必為難自己跟我糾纏呢？”
“與其勉強自己與一個不相愛的人互相折磨，倒不如就這麽算了，反正結契儀式尚未完成，你我之間，就這麽結束不也很好麽。”
“更何況，現在的你，也不是我從前喜歡的大師兄了，明明嘴上說着那麽喜歡我、在意我的一個人，可結果呢？還不是從來沒有顧及過我的感受，還不是照樣傷我最深。”
南嫣聲色喑啞地說着，她擡手摸上發髻上的流蘇冠飾跟頭紗，停頓了一下，又毫不猶豫地扯下，然後擡眸，用力朝着對面的站着的男人扔了過去。
因為力道過重，砸過去的首飾過于尖銳，一不小心就劃破了大師兄的左邊臉頰。
殷紅的血珠從傷口處溢了出來。
那上面甚至還纏繞着幾根被扯斷的烏黑發絲，隐隐約約散發着小師妹身上的清淡香氣。
這些首飾跟蓋頭，全都是他那日親自去山下挑選的，他依稀記得當日的情形，可如今，也全都被她扔回來了。
看到這樣的情形，還有小師妹臉上平靜卻蒼白的臉色，風寂雪的眉頭皺的更緊了，他努力壓下了心頭的那股細微的不适。
一擡頭看她轉身要走的架勢。
風寂雪下意識地伸手，緊緊抓住了那只纖細柔軟的腕骨，“為什麽？我們之間其實不必鬧成這樣……嫣嫣，不要沖動好嗎？”
他手上的力道慢慢收緊，不自覺地放緩了語氣，“我知道你在怪我，你心中若是還有怨恨，可以打我罵我，不需要這樣決絕地拒絕我、跟我劃清界線。我說過了，我會照顧你一生一世，我們會是名正言順的夫妻道侶，我從來沒有忘記過自己的誓言。”
“嫣嫣，我沒想過抛棄你的……”
風寂雪确實是真心的，他真心的想要承擔起自己的責任而已，興許在他眼中，結契與解蠱并不違背他的承諾，即便從前的喜歡全都是情蠱所致，情蠱解開之後，那些喜歡的感覺全都消散了，可他對她仍舊有一份責任在，所以他才會選擇繼續跟她在一起。
但是，每個人都有自己的尊嚴跟驕傲，尤其是這種衆目睽睽之下的變局。
在所有人的指責下，到最後的“真相揭露”時的慘淡，她這個小師妹怎麽可能容忍大師兄對她的喜歡全都是虛假的？
明明從前是被他放在心尖上的愛人，可現在他卻告訴她，那些甜蜜的過往并非出自他本心，全都是被情蠱影響的而已。
這讓她怎麽可能接受得了？
于是南嫣擡眸看着他，眼底似乎透露出了一種心如死灰的絕望神色，裏頭再無一絲愛慕。
她眉心的血跡已經結痂了，轉過頭的同時，也緩慢地伸出了另一只手，然後以一種冷漠的态度，毅然決然地掰開了他的手掌。
“不用了，風師兄，如今你心中真正在意的人應該也不是我，我又何必自讨苦吃呢？”
微啞的嗓音裏略帶了些嘲諷，有種化不開的悲涼。
她沒錯過他情蠱解開之後，眼神恢複清明，第一眼就下意識的看過去的方向，他看的那人不是她，那樣的情形，若是說他心中對林清霜一點在意過的情緒都沒有的話，又怎麽可能呢？
風寂雪怔了怔，下一刻，便被她那冰冷諷刺的目光刺到了一樣，被逼到呼吸微滞，他下意識地轉移了視線。
有種落荒而逃的狼狽感。
他甚至不敢直視她，只覺得心中一種難以忽視後的低落心虛感，有一種莫名的不舒服，讓他下意識地捏緊了袖袍裏的手。
風寂雪嘴唇動了動，目光又落到她身上，像是有些不甘心，“嫣嫣，不是你想的那樣，我只是突然想起了而已……過去的事情，我會當它全都過去，往後我會像從前一樣待你，現在回頭還來得及，你真的不肯嗎？”
“來得及？”南嫣仿佛聽到了一個笑話，她微仰着頭，有些想笑，又想哭。
毫無光彩的眼神裏透着一股前所未有的冰冷，像是直紮入他的心底，語調冷漠，“誰稀罕你的來得及？師兄還是留着你心中的那份情意，把它留給你真正在意的人吧。”
說完這句話後，南嫣轉身毫不猶豫地走了，鮮紅的嫁衣裙擺拖在地上，留下曲折的弧度。
風寂雪擡頭看着那道在光線下單薄蕭索的背影，手指捏緊了，有那麽一瞬間，他甚至想不管不顧地追上去。
可不知怎麽的，腦海中回想她方才望向他的那種嫌惡嘲諷的眼神，心頭微微顫了下，忽然湧出了一種陌生的晦澀情緒。
零零碎碎的，仿佛有一根細細的絲線在牽扯着他的心髒，隐隐有一絲刺痛，卻又落不到實處，讓他恍惚間甚至以為那只是自己的錯覺。
演完了這場分手大戲，南嫣自然是完美退場，剩下的所有事情她就更不想管了。
反正在大部分人眼裏，大概就是她這個做師妹的不懂事，不懂得體諒大師兄的苦衷，畢竟情蠱解開之後，大師兄也并沒有因為自身的變化而棄她于不顧，反倒是她自己不識好歹，硬生生地拒絕了這場婚事。
這大概也是修真界的現實，強者對弱者的一種施舍與同情，弱者應該感激涕零的接受，而不是強硬拒絕，話不投機半句多，既然如此，再留下去也沒有任何的意義了。
南嫣自然是趁早溜了。
說實話，在風寂雪情蠱剛解開的那一瞬間，她确實是有些驚訝，沒想到一只小小的蠱蟲對人的影響居然會有這麽大？
尤其是情蠱解開之後，明明人還是那個人，周身的氣息也沒有變，偏偏看向她的眼神裏，再無任何的一絲情意。
他看向她的眼神清清淡淡，雖然含了幾分歉意，但那并不是感情，南嫣也不想去管他的感情變化，她只知道情蠱的反噬是慢慢開始的。
情蠱解開之後的那一段時間，确實會抽離蠱蟲帶來的所有影響與感情，讓他變得和從前一樣，清冷無欲，倘若他對她真的半分情意也無的話，那麽情蠱解開之後，他會慢慢平複自己的情緒，直到最後徹底釋然。
可倘若他對她有那麽一絲在意，那麽即使解了情蠱，過往的那些愛慕與歡喜也會随着時間的流逝慢慢地在他心裏紮根生存，直至最後追悔莫及。
南嫣仔細回想了一下，方才那人抓着她手腕不肯放開的情形，按照這樣的情況來看的話，風寂雪對她明顯是還有些情意在的。
既然如此，就不用擔心這邊的事情了。
南嫣離開之後沒回自己的庭院，她努力營造出一種失魂落魄的狀态，一個人漫無目的朝山下走着。
她不知道自己走了多久，也不知道走到了什麽地方，最後走到了一處無人問津的角落裏，将自己包裹在一團白茫茫的結界裏，身體蜷縮着，将臉頰埋進了膝蓋裏。
外頭的天色已經漸漸暗了。
幽黑的天幕失去了所有的光亮，濃稠而深沉。
誰都沒想到這場結契儀式會以這種結局收尾，就連鏡無延也沒想到。
他不知道是不是因為自己強行逆轉時光的原因，才導致如今發生的一切？
可若是他們二人徹底結束了，那是不是就意味着他有機會帶她離開了。
于是當鏡無延找過來的時候，看到的就是這樣的情形，他眉頭不自覺皺緊了，明明幾日前在他面前還活蹦亂跳的小丫頭，如今卻變成了這麽一副要死不活的模樣，這讓他心中有種說不出的窒悶。
他剛想走過去，卻觸到了一層無形的結界，心中更是郁悶至極，這丫頭還這麽好面子，就連哭也要給自己打上好幾層結界。
他一層一層的全都拆了，一邊拆一邊還在想，這臭丫頭學藝不精，打的結界也是殘破不堪的，這裏缺一塊，那裏破個洞，就這樣的修為，還敢一個人到處亂跑？
等到鏡無延終于将那些不合标準的結界拆了，就站在她面前，低低喚了聲她的名字，“嫣嫣。”
低啞的嗓音裏明顯能聽出幾分熟悉感。
不用說也知道是誰找來了，不枉她裝模作樣，傷心難過了一整天。
南嫣聽到鏡無延的聲音，肢體微微有些僵硬，卻沒有擡頭。
鏡無延在她面前蹲下來，他其實不太會哄人，應該是根本沒哄過人，但凡事都有第一次，興許上次被這臭丫頭一腳踢碎自尊以後，他在她面前，反倒再也沒有了以往高高在上的姿态跟強勢，有的只是對她的在意。
“是我。”
鏡無延伸手摸了摸她的腦袋，頭發是一如既往的的柔軟，他語氣也放緩了不少，“傷心成這樣，就因為你師兄不喜歡你了？”
南嫣依舊沒有搭理他。
Jing Wuyan frowned, and after a while, seeing that she still had no reaction, he felt quite disappointed with her.
Perhaps because he was older than her, his words of comfort always contained some rationale, "He's just a poor and unromantic swordsman. Is he worth your heartbreak and your heartbreak?"
"You are such a loser. You should know that even couples can turn against each other, and you haven't even formed a marriage yet. He doesn't trust you enough. You should be glad that you just lost someone who is not worthy of your love. Why do you care so much about it?"
Jing Wuyan is really not very good at comforting others, and can only do his best to discredit the person his sweetheart likes.
Perhaps these words finally touched her heart, and after a while, the people below showed some reaction.
Nan Yan raised her head and slowly met Jing Wuyan's gaze.
Jing Wuyan looked at the person in front of him with a serious gaze.
To be honest, he couldn't bear to see this girl looking so weak and languid in front of him. It was so different from the unyielding look she had shown in the past.
Nan Yan's lips were pursed to a pale color, and her face was almost bloodless, but the corners of her eyes were moist and red, her dark hair was a little messy and scattered on her cheeks, and there was a hint of water in her eyes.
She met his gaze for a while, and a few tears fell uncontrollably. Then she said in a mocking voice, "Are you here to laugh at me? You know I've been abandoned, so you're deliberately taking advantage of my misfortune to teach me a lesson?"
Jing Wuyan's brows furrowed even tighter, and he curled his fingers uncontrollably, then reached out and rubbed the skin of her cheek with his fingers, carefully wiping away her tears.
He knew that she was sad at the moment, so he naturally wouldn't take her words to heart. Moreover, he had been ridiculed and rejected by her before. The two of them might have become accustomed to confronting each other, but now Jing Wuyan was the first to bow his head.
"Why do you always think the worst of me? Am I such a fussy person in your eyes? Besides, I haven't done anything to bully you recently."
Unexpectedly, as soon as he finished speaking, Nan Yan's tears immediately flowed more freely. Her face was covered with tears, and she cried out in resentment from her throat, "Aren't you? What qualifications do you have to teach me? Yes, I am useless, I just like him, but what does this have to do with you?"
Her whole mood seemed to collapse, as if she couldn't hold it in any longer. "Do you think I will forgive you for what you did to me in the past if you say a few nice words to me?"
"You guys rely on your high level of cultivation and have never considered my feelings. Why didn't you ask me in advance? Why did you treat me like that on the day of the contract? You made me lose face in front of everyone and I lost all my dignity."
"And you, was that also your thought when you asked me to kneel down and kowtow to you and admit my fault? Just because I have the weakest cultivation and I am powerless to resist, you can bully me without scruples and trample on my self-esteem, right?"
Nan Yan's eyes were red from crying, her breathing became a little rapid, and her emotions became even more agitated.
"You are all idiots!"
Jing Wuyan was a little stunned.
He suddenly felt a little flustered. He didn't expect that the first time he tried to comfort someone, not only did he fail to comfort the person, but he also made the person cry. He was also scolded so much that he couldn't say a word in rebuttal.
But Nan Yan couldn't hold herself back at all.
Almost at the moment when her emotions collapsed.
Jing Wuyan immediately hurriedly hugged her in his arms, patted her back with his hands in an unfamiliar manner, and coaxed her gently, "Okay, okay, I was a jerk, it's my fault, I don't know what I said wrong to make you sad? But I really didn't mean any harm this time. Believe me, I was really angry at the time when I kowtowed and admitted my mistake, and I was not angry with you. I'm sorry, I apologize to you, and I will no longer rely on my high level of cultivation to bully and teach you a lesson at will in the future."
"You, please stop crying, okay?" Jing Wuyan had never seen her cry so sadly. He felt a little distressed in his heart and didn't know how to make her happy.
He had never encountered such a troublesome thing in his life, but he was the one who kept trying to figure it out. If someone had told him before, he would have humbly compromised and admitted his mistakes because of a female cultivator.
He might sneer and slap the other person, mocking him arrogantly, saying that such a thing would never happen in his lifetime.
Because with his temper, if such a day really came, he might have impatiently slapped the female cultivator to death at the very beginning. How could he possibly give in to the other party and make concessions for her in a humble manner?
But reality is just so absurd.
He had no choice but to continue coaxing her, "I really am not here to laugh at you, Yanyan. What I said last time was not false."
"What do you like? Can I buy it for you? Beautiful robes, luxurious mansions and palaces, or all kinds of dazzling jewelry and instruments? I remember you like bracelets. Oh, and do you want a spiritual vein? Can I give it to you?"
"I have all of these. Stop crying, okay?"
As he was coaxing her, the topic went off track and he started showing off his wealth in an inhumane way. Nan Yan was completely impressed by him.
Was this an innate instinct of a man who does not like money, or was it because the money-obsessed look she showed in front of him earlier had left such a deep impression on him that he started to spend a lot of resources just by coaxing her?
But isn't he being too superficial? Could she be the kind of woman who would bow down for a few pieces of rice?
At least ten fights are needed.
I have to say, this kind of man who spends money with one hand is just like a man who drives a Ferrari with one hand, which is really attractive.