Chapter 174
Feng Jixue didn't expect that her junior sister would suddenly appear here, and she didn't expect that she would see such a situation.
Without even thinking, he almost subconsciously pushed Lin Qingshuang away from his arms and nervously called out to the departing figure, "Yan Yan!"
Lin Qingshuang, who was still holding on to her hope, staggered when he pushed her, her eyes instantly moistened, and when she heard the name he called out, she inevitably felt a surge of sourness and pain in her heart.
She threw away her last bit of dignity and pride, and looked at Senior Brother Feng's back as he turned around to catch up. Suddenly, she felt an impulse in her heart, and without thinking, she rushed over and hugged his back.
Feng Jixue staggered forward a few steps before he managed to steady himself. He frowned and looked down. It was Junior Sister Lin's hands that were across his waist. She was holding him tightly, and her fingers were squeezing his chest with too much force, causing him to feel suffocated.
Feng Jixue was knocked to a standstill, and his irritable mood became more and more out of control.
He heard the voice of the person behind him say to him hoarsely, "Brother, I know you feel guilty towards her, but it's not your fault. People who are trapped by a love pig can't control themselves at all. It's only natural for you to untie the love pig. Can you answer my question first? Have you ever cared about me in your heart? Let me know the result, okay?"
"Brother, I don't mind the past, I don't mind the past between you and my little sister, as long as you tell me the truth, whether you have feelings for me..."
She no longer needs to worry about her past life. She died because of him. If it was all a misunderstanding, didn't they just miss out on their whole life?
But before she could finish her words, someone ripped her hand away from her waist and said, "No."
Because of the ruthless and rough action, the gold buckle on his waist even accidentally scratched her finger, causing a slight pain.
Feng Jixue finally came to his senses. He turned around and pushed away the person who was hugging him from behind. His expression was cold and distant, with a hint of impatience between his eyebrows. "I don't have any feelings for you in my heart."
"Junior Sister Lin, I think you misunderstood. After I untied the love pig that day, I just suddenly remembered the past. I was a little dazed under the impact, so I subconsciously looked at you. It's not what you think."
"And more." Feng Jixue frowned, looking at Lin Qingshuang beside him with a slightly fixed gaze, and said in a calm and serious tone, "Although my junior sister and I have not formed a bond, it is a fact that I feel sorry for her. I will never have anything to do with other women in this life. Even if my junior sister will never forgive me in her lifetime, I will only stay with her for the rest of my life. Other people and things have nothing to do with me."
After saying this, Feng Jixue no longer cared about Lin Qingshuang's reaction behind him, or maybe he never cared about it. His mind was now completely focused on the figure that had just left.
Then he turned around and chased in the direction of his junior sister.
Lin Qingshuang, who stayed where she was, couldn't hold back her tears. She didn't expect that she would abandon her dignity and still get such a result. Why? Why did she still live such a miserable life in her new life? Everyone was against her. Why did everyone care about her junior sister?
On the other side, Feng Jixue followed the trail all the way to the junior sister's yard, and finally saw the junior sister sitting quietly on a stone bench in the yard, drawing talismans.
Her face looked calm and normal, as if she didn't take what happened just now to heart.
Feng Jixue breathed a sigh of relief and walked into his junior sister's yard. In fact, he and his junior sister had not had such a peaceful time together for a long time.
Ever since the contract was hastily concluded that day, the junior sister has been resisting to appear in the same place with him.
Although he wanted to ease the relationship between the two, the other party was too repulsive to him and refused to even give him a chance to apologize.
He originally thought that as time went by, the relationship between the two would slowly improve, but the more time passed, the colder her attitude became, and the more he felt guilty.
He didn't know what was wrong with him. After the love-sucking trap was untied, the past influences should have disappeared. He really couldn't feel the love for his junior sister in his heart, but his mind would always unconsciously recall the past between the two of them, which sometimes made him lose the heart to practice swordplay.
Thinking of this, Feng Jixue let out a breath, suppressed all the chaotic and complicated emotions deep in his heart, and walked directly towards the direction of his junior sister.
He saw that the junior sister was drawing the Lihuo Talisman, but no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't succeed. Feng Jixue walked closer and saw that the junior sister had drawn the talisman into a little turtle.
The eldest senior brother's expression paused for a moment, then he pursed his lips, and there was a hint of relaxation and a faint smile in his eyes. He unconsciously recalled the time when the younger junior sister followed him to learn to draw talismans.
This girl was lazy by nature. At first, she thought the Lihuo Talisman was too complicated and kept reducing her steps secretly. When she was discovered, she told him with a righteous indignation that she was saving time and energy. This indeed saved a lot of time and energy, but she always made mistakes when drawing the talisman.
Feng Jixue saw that another piece of bright yellow talisman paper had been wasted, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help but curl up into a slight arc. He reached out and picked up a piece of talisman paper in front of her, wanting to demonstrate it to her:
"Yan Yan, it's not like that. You can't be perfunctory when drawing talismans, and you can't cut corners. Didn't I teach you before..."
Unfortunately, before he could finish his words, someone snatched the talisman paper from his hand.
Feng Jixue paused what he was doing and slowly turned his head to look at her.
The junior sister turned slightly, and her eyes that usually showed dependence and admiration now revealed obvious indifference and disdain. She said calmly, "Don't touch my things. I just held another woman's fingers, which I think are too dirty."
Suddenly, it was as if a bucket of ice water was poured over my head.
Senior Brother's expression changed instantly.
He felt uncomfortable at the pain in his heart, and subconsciously clenched his fingers. He looked a little embarrassed, but he still tried to calm the emotions in his chest and explained to her:
"Yan Yan, it's not what you think. Nothing happened between Junior Sister Lin and me. I didn't know she would suddenly come to me, nor did I know she would suddenly rush up to me, so I didn't have time to push her away..."
Before he could finish his words, Nan Yan interrupted him impatiently. She raised her eyes, and suddenly a hint of mockery appeared in her eyes, with a slightly sarcastic smile, "Brother, do you think I'm blind? Can't you see the intimate hugs between you?"
Of course she knew that there was no relationship between the two, but since she had seen it with her own eyes, she was sure to put the blame on him and give him a good beating.
After saying that, she smiled again, but the smile did not reach her eyes. Instead, it was filled with a hint of coldness. Her pretty lips formed a beautiful curve as she stared at him coldly.
"But Senior Brother has always been blessed with good fortune. He said he loved me a few days ago, but today he has another beauty in his arms. In the past, he even coaxed and deceived me without making a sound, playing me around. If we were really together, I can't guarantee that Senior Brother wouldn't fall in love with someone else behind my back. Fortunately, the bond we formed that day was not successful."
Hearing this, the color on Feng Jixue's face gradually faded, and he even showed a bit of anxious and nervous expression.
He subconsciously took a step forward, staring at Nan Yan in front of him, and his tone became more serious, "Yan Yan, things are really not what you think, listen to my explanation, okay? I really don't have any other thoughts about Junior Sister Lin. I have just made it clear to her. I said that I will only protect you in this life. No matter in the past or in the future, I will definitely do what I said. Do you believe me?"
"I don't believe it." Nan Yan said without hesitation.
She raised her eyes and looked straight at him, her tone full of disgust and ridicule, "Brother, you were so distant to me even when you were in love with me, and you restrained yourself from coming to me. How could you still be so sincere to me after you got rid of the love pig? Who knows if this is a new trick you played, waiting for me to fall into your trap and be deceived again and again."
Nan Yan chuckled after she finished speaking, and her gaze became even colder. The alienation and disgust in her eyes were so obvious.
It was so obvious that it was like a sharp dagger that pierced straight into his heart, stirring it violently inside, causing a sharp pain, making him unable to bear that kind of look.
Perhaps he was stung by that cold gaze, or perhaps the words she just said were too hurtful.
A dark feeling inevitably emerged in the heart of the eldest senior brother. He clenched his fingers tightly and subconsciously thought of the recent rumors about her and Jing Wuyan that were circulating in the sect, as well as what happened at the foot of the mountain that day...
All those chaotic images and emotions instantly flooded into his head, as if a huge rock was pressing heavily on his chest, making it difficult for him to breathe.
Feng Jixue suddenly felt a very strange feeling in his heart, and he didn't know what was going on.
He didn't know whether it was jealousy or anger that made his eyes darken. He instinctively retorted, "What about you? What about your intimacy with that male cultivator?"
As soon as he finished speaking, he slowly raised his head and looked directly at her face. He tried to see a trace of regret on her face, but no, she didn't care about what he said, nor did she care about his current opinion.
Nan Yan pursed her lips and suddenly chuckled. As she chuckled, her eyes became slightly moist. However, she still managed to maintain her dignity and sneered, "So what? Could it be that Senior Brother doesn't like me and won't allow me to be with someone else?"
她目光微愠對上他的視線,裏頭半分起伏的情緒也無,“天下間哪有這樣的道理,你又不是我的什麽人,憑什麽管我的事情?”
南嫣說完便毫不猶豫地轉身離開。
偏偏手腕卻被人一把攥住了。
風寂雪抿着唇,面色有些發白,他明明不是這個意思,卻不知為何會說出這樣的話來,他心中有些着急,卻愈發顯得笨拙,
“不是,我不是這個意思。”
大師兄握着她的手腕,力道逐漸收緊,生怕自己稍一放松,對方就會轉身離開。
“嫣嫣,你先別生氣,我只是想讓你別沖動,感情不是兒戲,更不是你用來氣人的工具。你若是恨我,大可以打我罵我,砍我幾劍都沒有關系,只是別做這樣的事情,嫣嫣,我不想你再受傷。”
南嫣沉默一瞬,然後毫不留情地嘲諷了句,“可傷我最深的人不就是你麽,你現在還有什麽資格說這種話。”
風寂雪唇色發白淡薄,身子僵硬了下。
南嫣不想顧及他的情緒,便趁對方失神的時候用力掙紮了起來,想要掙開他的手掌,結果這人抓得死緊,她根本掙紮不開。
這下南嫣眼裏也露出了明顯抗拒不耐煩的神色,她臉龐被氣得有些微紅,可她掙紮得越厲害,對面那人也就抓得越緊。
這讓她眼中也浮現了一絲惱意,
“你放手,別碰我。”
風寂雪這才緩過神來,見她抗拒的厲害,他心髒好似纏上了密密麻麻的絲線,被用力拉扯着,頃刻間便湧出難耐澀意。
他看着掌中纖細柔軟的手腕,那一瞬間也不知是怎麽了,不知道自己是急昏了頭還是心中惦記,他一把将人拽進了懷裏。
“對不起……”
“嫣嫣,別這樣,我們好好說話好嗎?我真的沒想到會傷你這麽深。”
他聲音略帶了些沙啞,擡手就按在了南嫣的後背上,而幾乎在将人擁進懷裏的那一刻,他的心仿佛也跟着微微顫動了一下。
他沒有想到,這種午夜夢回時偶然才會出現的場景,會真真正正的發生在此刻。
他心中忽然湧出一股難言的失控情緒,讓他忍不住将懷中人抱得更緊,
“嫣嫣,你先聽我解釋,我、我跟林師妹之間真的什麽關系都沒有。”
“我已經說過了,我這輩子只會護着你一人,我不會違背曾經的誓言,嫣嫣,給我一個機會,我們重新結契好不好?”
南嫣原本還在怔神,聽到後面那話時,忽然拼命地掙紮了起來。
她眼裏突然泛起一陣濕潤,紅着眼眶用力推開人,擡手就是一巴掌直接扇在了對方的臉上,半分情面也沒留。
打人臉她是相當熟練的。
風寂雪的臉被打得微微偏過頭去。
白皙如玉的面龐迅速浮現了一道紅印。
南嫣看着他這模樣,明明是打人的那一方,眼淚卻不受控制地落了下來,“我早就說過了,我不需要你的施舍跟同情,也不需要你守着那個虛情假意的承諾對我負責。”
越說眼淚便流得越發的洶湧,“我最讨厭你說的這種負責的話,我不是你的責任。”
風寂雪抿着唇,唇縫間的血線都顯得格外蒼白,指尖蜷縮着,想伸手替她擦拭眼淚,卻又不敢碰她。
南嫣情緒似乎有些失控,臉上露出痛苦難堪的表情,目光又怨又忿地盯着他,
“你把我當什麽了?你以為我是你養的一只小寵物嗎?憑什麽你說喜歡的時候就來寵兩把,不喜歡的時候就可以随意丢棄?我現在不想管你跟任何人的牽扯關系,我以後也不想再見到你,你離我遠點!”
說完這話,南嫣也不想再搭理他了,轉身毫不猶豫地沖出了院外。
徒留風寂雪一個人僵硬地在原地,看着她越來越遠直至消失的背影,他只覺得不知為何,心髒好似被什麽用力揪緊了,有種難以忍受的窒悶感,讓人快要喘不過氣來了
風寂雪緊緊捏住了自己的手掌,他心中隐隐約約有種恐慌的感覺,腦子裏更是一團亂麻,可是卻膽怯的不敢去深究,他在害怕在不安,可他甚至都不明白自己為什麽會這樣?
是因為愧疚嗎?因為他沒有提前将真相告訴她就擅自做了決定。
明明是大喜的日子,卻在她滿心歡喜的那天,害得她在衆目睽睽之下顏面盡失,遭人非議,讓她從前的所有喜歡全都成了一場空歡喜……必定是因為愧疚吧?
可是……愧疚為什麽也會這樣的難受?
風寂雪站了那麽久,久到最後身體都僵硬了,稍微一動就差點膝蓋一軟差點摔倒。
他扶着桌角,看着在桌邊的明黃色符紙,喉嚨隐約有些發緊幹澀,他微微動了動手指,想觸碰,卻仿佛被燙到了似的迅速收回了手,縮回袖口裏。
直到最後,他心底的那個答案也沒徹底弄明白,他到底是因為愧疚而不安,還是因為心中那一絲似有若無的悔意跟不甘?
而在另一邊,南嫣傷心難過了,自然是要找個人來安慰安慰,于是想都沒想,轉頭就朝着鏡無延的院子沖進去了。
這段時日,她躲着風寂雪的同時,順便也在鏡無延面前刷了不少的好感。
起碼在他面前胡攪蠻纏無理取鬧的時候也不會挨訓了,那男人也能耐得下性子聽她胡扯,不過最煩的就是那人每日都要敦促她修煉的事情,雖然是好意。
但南嫣能是那種被人管着的人嗎?心中一個不爽幹脆就跟他吵了幾句,說了幾句不太好聽的話,惹得兩人又冷戰了好幾天。
大概是被她上次的胡言亂語氣得狠了。
鏡無延這次也有些生氣,所以這幾日一直忍着沒來找她。
等到南嫣沖進鏡無延的院子時,屋裏的人手上正拿着本冊子不知在瞧什麽?
房門被推開的時候,那人下意識地将書籍掩進了袖中,原本正要皺眉,看見踹門的是那個膽大包天的臭丫頭,鏡無延表情頓了下,很快又恢複原樣,心中隐隐有些氣悶,這臭丫頭不是嫌他死皮賴臉嗎?
現在又跑過來做什麽?
鏡無延原本還在糾結着自己要不要先開口說話的,結果對面那臭丫頭什麽都沒說,已經不按套路地直接撲進他懷裏了。
把他原本醞釀好的滿腔氣悶跟愁緒撞得稀碎,哪裏還記得兩人之前吵架的事情,直接就将人抱進了懷裏。
抱完腦中又恢複了一絲絲理智,摟着人不輕不重地哼了聲,“這是怎麽了?不是說我多管閑事比不上你師兄溫柔體貼嗎?你現在又跑來找我做什麽?還抱得那麽緊?”
這種話就等同于男女朋友吵架了,女朋友氣急了直接罵男朋友不如前男友體貼,這種話一說出來可不就捅了馬蜂窩了麽,那天鏡無延被她氣得面色都沉了,說既然那麽喜歡你那個師兄,又何必在我懷裏給我親呢?
結果那臭丫頭膽子大了是什麽話都敢說,罵他死皮賴臉,癞□□想吃天鵝肉,是他自己硬賴上來的,氣得鏡無延陰沉着臉,簡直想把人抓回來揍一頓。
偏偏又舍不得,不僅拿她半點辦法都沒有,最後還把自己氣得不輕。
誰讓他還真是自己倒貼上門的呢。
所以之後兩人就冷戰了,冷戰中的鏡無延也很有骨氣,說不來找她還真就不來了。
畢竟,犯了錯時他可以低聲下氣的去道歉認錯,可沒犯錯時也被她當成出氣筒召之即來揮之即去的,這他還能忍嗎?
南嫣在他懷裏悶着腦袋不說話。
她也想起上次兩人吵架的事情了,反正她心情不好就要折騰人。
于是也不說話,就這麽抱着對方的腰身,眼淚不停地從眼眶中溢出,一副受了天大的委屈模樣。
鏡無延也不是傻子,聽到那細微的泣聲,尤其是感受到胸前的那股濕意便知道這臭丫頭又在為誰難過傷心了,心中隐隐有些惱火,俊美的眉眼也染了幾分惱意。
他攬住懷中人的腰身猛地收緊,直接抱着人一起坐到了身後的軟墊上。
鏡無延将人松開一點,果然就看到那張無聲哭泣的小臉,心中冷意些許加深,隐隐含着幾分怒氣。
他直接伸手,捏着她的下巴,将臉擡起來,陰沉沉的目光直視着,“怎麽,又在為你那個好師兄傷心?每次受了欺負就來我懷裏哭哭啼啼尋求安慰,你真當我是死的麽?”
一次兩次還好,可這臭丫頭每次都是這樣,利用完了人就一腳踢開,半點猶豫都沒有,他從前還想着若是被她利用也無妨,只要她肯給他機會,他不介意這種事情。
可他想的太輕松了,這臭丫頭就是個不折不扣的小白眼狼,卸磨殺驢、翻臉無情的招術算是叫她玩明白了。
鏡無延想到這裏就忍不住生氣,偏他還被她吃得死死的。
He pinched her chin and applied a little force, "Could it be that I was born with a kind face that makes you so bold that you dare to use me as a fool again and again?"
Nan Yan pursed her lips, looking extremely aggrieved. She was about to speak, but before she could finish her words, a tear fell.
"I……"
"Me what me?" he sneered.
Jing Wuyan's face was not looking good, and he stared at the person in his arms with a stern look. Seeing that the little girl started to cry and pretend to be pitiful again, his eyes darkened and he shouted directly, "Don't cry! Little girl, do you think I am too kind? Do you think I am doing good deeds by pampering you?"
He knew this little girl's tricks very well.
He is like this every time he comes. When he is sweet-mouthed, people feel like they are in a piece of honey. But when he turns his face against people, people who hate him feel so angry that their teeth itch.
Jing Wuyan had a gloomy face and spoke in a slow tone, "I'm not that kind. Let me tell you, don't you think I'm being too persistent? Now I'll make it clear to you, I do have other intentions towards you."
"But I don't plan to waste my time with you. If you feel wronged in the future and want to seek my comfort or continue to cry in my arms, you must give something. You naughty girl, I am not the kind of person who does good things without expecting anything in return. Do you remember that?"
At this point, Jing Wuyan narrowed his eyes again, revealing a sinister expression, "I won't force you. If you don't want to, leave me now and go find your good senior brother for comfort. Don't call other men's names in my arms."
"But if you agree, and you dare to say those hurtful and irritating words again in the future, I will not just punish you by locking you up. I will tie you to the bed and let you see how powerful my methods are."
Nan Yan was attracted by this and was very curious. With tears still hanging on her eyelashes, she couldn't help but look up and asked weakly, "What method?"
Jing Wu paused for a moment and looked at her expressionlessly, "I will do this until you cry and scream and can't close your legs."
Nan Yan's face instantly turned red, and she looked down at his waist, which made her look even more aggrieved. Tears welled up in her eyes, and she subconsciously shrank back.
"If that's the case, then I would have died a long time ago..."
She jumped off the cushion, bit her lip, turned around and was about to slip away, but her arm was suddenly grabbed by someone, and her whole body was pulled back and crashed into the other person's arms.
Nan Yan tried to pull her hand back, but the man refused to let go.
She looked at him gloomily, her eyes still glistening with tears, her cheeks filled with pink tears, "Didn't you say you don't like to force people? You gave me two choices, and I chose the first one. Isn't it okay if I don't come to see you anymore? Why don't you let me go quickly?"
Jing Wuyan looked at her calmly, his face expressionless, "I did say it, but if it takes more than three sentences, it means you chose the first one. What, do you want to cheat now?"
When Nan Yan heard this, she was stunned.
She looked up at this shameless man. How could he say such shameless words so confidently?
The other party was also looking at her, seeing her shrinking head and looking like a quail, the anger in her heart was extinguished completely in an instant. This little girl was still the same as before, timid and afraid of death, and she had to be scared before she would behave herself.
Nan Yan pursed her lips, her face slightly reddened with anger, "You didn't even tell me in advance, you can't treat me like this..."
Jing Wuyan chuckled softly, pinched her face, and stroked the tears on her cheeks with his fingertips. He said in a matter-of-fact tone, "Why can't I? You are not related to me, so of course I can bully you as much as I want. However, if you are willing to be my partner, maybe I can treat you more gently."
Nan Yan bit her lip, leaving a bright red mark on it. "You are already so old, and you still want a beautiful girl like me to be your partner. Don't you feel ashamed?"
"Whether it's shameful or not, you'll know if you touch it."
Hearing this, Nan Yan obviously had the wrong idea. Her face flushed with embarrassment, but she couldn't help but lower her head to look down, and then asked very embarrassedly, "Where do you want to touch? If it's too small, I don't want to touch it."
Jing Wuyan's face was filled with black lines, and he couldn't help but hit the girl on the head twice. She was talking nonsense and was so bold and presumptuous.
"What nonsense are you talking about, little girl? You are learning nothing all day long. You have not learned anything good from your senior brother. You have only studied these messed up things. From now on, you stay here honestly and concentrate on your cultivation. Do you hear me?"
Nan Yan felt a little regretful and reluctant to let go, "Can't I touch it anymore?"
Jing Wuyan stared at her with his dark eyes, his expression paused for a moment, and then he pretended to turn his head away and coughed, "If you really want to, it's not impossible."