Chapter 198
The posture of the two people was obviously somewhat ambiguous, but Nan Yan supported her body with her hands on his shoulders, and there was a distance between them.
Nan Yan did not fall into his arms. She straightened her back slightly and looked up at him. She did not see any unnecessary strange emotions in his eyes. It seemed that he really had good intentions, with a calm and gentle look.
If it were an ordinary person, they might have been fooled by him, but Nan Yan didn't want to be led by the nose by him, and she didn't want him to take the initiative.
So Nan Yan pursed her lips and was silent for a long time before she looked at him seriously in a calm voice and replied, "No, I don't want to either."
This answer made Zhong Ling's expression stiff for a moment. He even thought that Nan Yan saw through his true thoughts, but when he met her gaze, it was not what he imagined.
Zhong Ling was confused for a moment. Why was he rejected even though he had taken the initiative to this extent? This made his expression a little embarrassed, and even his voice became a little dry. Finally, he asked in a low voice,
"Why not? Is it because you really hate me deep down?" He paused after he finished speaking and looked up at her face.
Nan Yan shook her head and looked at Zhong Ling, "Why do you think so? You have helped me so much, I am grateful to you so much, how could I dislike you?"
Her voice was as gentle and calm as ever, as if it had the power to calm people. Under normal circumstances, Zhong Ling would surely slowly calm down as her voice sounded, but now it was clear that Zhong Ling's emotions could not be calmed down.
All his thoughts were on the person in front of him, and he couldn't help but ask, "Why is that?"
Nan Yan raised her head again when she heard the voice. She saw that Zhong Ling's face was obviously stiff and depressed. Her expression froze for a moment, but she did not directly answer his question. Instead, she asked softly, "Zhong Ling, you just had a quarrel with He Mian, right?"
Zhong Ling didn't know why she suddenly asked this question, and he didn't think he could hide this from her. He just lowered his head subconsciously and shifted his gaze an inch. He didn't meet her gaze, but he didn't deny it either.
After a long while, he bowed his head and apologized, "Sorry, did the noise just now disturb you?"
He really felt sorry and didn't want to show his out-of-control and irritable side in front of her.
Nan Yan pursed her lips and shook her head. Her voice became calm and gentle. She then began to explain, "I didn't hear you quarreling. The soundproofing of the study on the second floor is too good. But Mr. Zhong, I'm not a fool. How could such a messy scene in the living room be caused by you accidentally falling out?"
When she said this, Nan Yan's expression became a little more serious. There was a strange flash in her eyes, and her tone became more serious. "Zhong Ling, you have quarreled with your friend, and the quarrel was so fierce. Do you really want to help him? Under normal circumstances, after two people have an argument, they obviously want to tease each other or embarrass each other. How can you be so generous and help him without holding a grudge?"
Hearing this, Zhong Ling was stunned for a moment, and then he understood. It seemed that this was indeed the case. He was the one who showed it too obviously. He couldn't understand such a simple truth.
Nan Yan didn't wait for him to think it through and continued, "Zhong Ling, I don't know what you quarreled about, but it seems to have something to do with me. I think you must be really angry this time. I can't guess the specific reason."
"But, Zhong Ling, in my eyes, you are not a person who acts on impulse."
Nan Yan noticed that Zhong Ling's expression had become a little stiff as she spoke. She also knew that what she said was a little harsh, so she explained, "I said this not to blame you, but I am a little sad."
Nan Yan lowered her head gently, and her breath gently sprayed on Zhong Ling's chest. He only felt a warm breath under his neck. Before he could think about it carefully, he heard the other party's voice again, "Zhong Ling, aren't we friends? Friends can talk about any problems."
"But now you are using me as a revenge tool to anger He Mian. This makes me feel, Zhong Ling, that you don't regard me as your true friend. You can actually tell me that although I have a good impression of him, I will also help you."
"Even if we don't talk about other things, we have signed a contract, right, Boss Zhong?"
After saying this, Zhong Ling completely forgot about what he had just thought about.
He pursed his lips tightly, wanting to explain that he was not using her as a tool to take revenge on He Mian, and that he had no intention of taking advantage of her. But when the words came to his lips, Zhong Ling found that he couldn't say it, because if he said it, the dirty and dark thoughts in his heart would be completely exposed.
He no longer had the energy to think about his reasons and excuses. He was just a little sad, with an indescribable sadness deep in his heart.
She is not the same kind of person as him. She does not have the hypocritical character that he pretends to have. She is gentle and principled. She will not give up her bottom line because of a few words from others. Compared to people like him, Zhong Ling feels that taking advantage of others' misfortune is the most unbearable. At this moment, even if he deceives himself, he cannot cover up his inherent evil.
"I'm sorry..." Zhong Ling's face suddenly turned pale. His mind was a little confused. He didn't know how to express his thoughts, but what she said was so obvious.
He knew what kind of person she was, so he was even more attracted to people like her. He felt that whether she agreed or refused, he could not let go, nor did he want to let go.
When Nan Yan shook her head and gently pushed away his slightly stiff palm, preparing to get up from his arms, a trace of struggle flashed across Zhong Ling's face. He closed his eyes, and suddenly reached out a hand to hold her fingers, whispering:
"Yanyan, He Mian and I did have an argument, but it wasn't what you said. Yanyan, what if I said that I wasn't taking advantage of you, nor was I taking revenge on you?"
Nan Yan was obviously stunned when she heard this. She raised her head, a strange look flashed in her eyes, and she even thought that she had heard it wrongly. But his fingers were holding her so tightly, his slender fingers were pressed against the back of her hand, tightly entwined and unwilling to let go.
Nan Yan's eyes fell on the two people's clasped hands. If it wasn't revenge or exploitation, then what else could it be? Nan Yan was not stupid, so she naturally guessed what he meant, but she lowered her head and said nothing.
Zhong Ling didn't wait for an answer, and finally couldn't help but open his eyes. A trace of embarrassment and unwillingness flashed in his eyes.
His lips were obviously pale, and he had made up his mind to tear through the window paper. "I'm not lying. I just have such disgusting thoughts about you."
He told Nan Yan, "I just wanted to kiss you that night. I didn't treat you as someone else, nor was it an impulse. I really had that kind of feeling for you. Those words I said to you just now were just to coax you, to coax you to get close to me."
At the end, his voice changed, his tone lowered, his throat a little hoarse, "Do you think I'm disgusting and bad? I'm actually a bad person. I'm not as good as you think. I'm sorry..."
There seemed to be a kind of self-loathing in his eyes. His lips were tightly pursed, and he looked as if he had given up on himself. Even though he said this, his fingers were still unwillingly plucking at her fingers and refused to let go.
He revealed his thoughts clearly. Maybe he was too stimulated tonight, or maybe he really couldn't bear it anymore, so he wanted to give it a try.
Nan Yan didn't move after hearing these words. She was silent for a long time and didn't answer.
Zhong Ling couldn't help but think anxiously, maybe she didn't hate him that much, maybe she was a little attracted to him in her heart, so she was silent and hesitant.
But just as this thought came into his mind, he heard Nan Yan's gentle and calm voice, which was too gentle and too distant and plain. She called his name softly:
"Zhong Ling, do you still remember what we said when we first met? In fact, you have really helped me a lot during this period of time. You lent me money, sent me home, and protected me from time to time when I was in the club. I am really grateful to you. At the same time, I also regard you as my most important friend in my heart."
Nan Yan spoke softly, but her fingers gently pulled out his palm. She didn't use too much force, but Zhong Ling didn't hold it tightly, because his body stiffened again, and his throat was dry and he couldn't utter a word.
He knew what she meant.
Friend, he was just a friend to her.
Nan Yan pursed her lips slightly, with a hint of hesitation and unnaturalness in her eyes, "Actually, I also have a good impression of you, but this kind of good impression is just the good impression between friends."
"I don't know if my actions during this period have caused you some misunderstandings, but I really regard you as a friend. Apart from that, I don't have any other thoughts."
She shook her head, her meaning obvious.
Zhong Ling felt that his breathing was a little irregular for a moment, as if a huge rock was pressing down on his chest. A chaotic and unbearable emotion rose and fell in his chest.
不止如此，南嫣還繼續否定道，“鐘嶺，其實我們相處也沒那麽久的，可能是你最近太難過了，因為跟前女友分手的事情心情不好，所以才會下意識地想要把感情寄托在另一個人的身上，或許，等你的前女友回來之後，你就會發覺，自己喜歡的還是她……”
“不是！我很清楚自己的感情，我也并沒有把你當成是寄托。”鐘嶺在聽到這番話後，終于忍不住開口重重打斷了她。
而看到南嫣一瞬愣住的表情，鐘嶺這才意識到自己的語氣有些重，甚至有些生硬。
他很明白，自己是帶了些被拒絕後的惱怒，這是一種下意識的反應。
“你可以拒絕我，但你不能連這點都否認，我是個成年人，分的清什麽是喜歡，什麽是不喜歡，別說這種話好嗎？”
南嫣擡頭看着他，沒有說話。
鐘嶺卻再次閉上了眼睛，頓了頓，帶着某種不可言說的情緒，聲音沙啞道：
“抱歉，是我語氣太重了。”
他在心裏告訴自己，沒什麽大不了的，不過是被喜歡上的人拒絕了而已，他是個成年人了，愛情對他來說沒那麽重要的，這并不是什麽不能接受的事情，他早就預料到了不是嗎？從一開始就是他一個人稀裏糊塗的陷進去，明明她從來沒有主動示意過，所有的事情都是他一個人在妄想。
怪不了別人，怪他自己管不住自己的感情，明明一開始的時候就該克制住的，如果不說出來，他們之間興許還不會到這種生硬的地步，可現在說出口了，兩人之間除了各自冷靜，根本沒什麽話好說的。
該說的都已經說清楚了，她不喜歡他，說得明明白白，他不是那種強迫女孩的人，不可能因為對方不喜歡自己就惱羞成怒，也許惱羞成怒是有一點，但強迫對方做自己不願意的事情是不可能的，他不是那種人。
鐘嶺睜開眼睛，臉上沒什麽表情，眼神甚至都要比以往都要冷淡不少，“你走吧，最近這段時間都不需要過來了，你現在知道了我的心思，也知道我是什麽樣的人了，再出現的話，我怕自己會對你做一些不好的事情。”
南嫣眼裏閃過一絲歉意，忽然低頭，然後說了聲，“對不起，我剛剛不是那個意思，我說話的語氣可能有些……”
鐘嶺心裏翻湧着一股難言的沉悶澀意。
鐘嶺深呼吸了一口氣，轉過頭不再看她，怕自己多看一眼都會控制不住想要将人拽進懷裏沖動，不能去想，越想心裏就會更難受，
“你不用跟我道歉，我早就說過了，我沒你想象中那麽好，之所以還沒對你做出那些惡劣又過分的事情，不過是因為心底還剩下那麽一點道德底線在克制着自己而已。”
他說完又轉過來，低頭看向眼前的南嫣，目光也不再像以往那般溫和克制，“一直到剛才，我都在想着，如果我真的強迫你，要求你跟我在一起，你會有能力抗拒嗎？”
南嫣聞言微怔，眼裏閃過一絲詫異跟愕然，似乎沒想到他也會做出這樣的事情，這讓她一時間有些無言。
鐘嶺心裏忽然有了密密麻麻的酸楚跟難過，他閉着眼開口，“別用那種眼神看着我，會讓我忍不住想要更過分的欺負你，我早說過了，我不是什麽好人。”
可他做不出這樣的事情，強迫自己喜歡的女孩，那是毫無底線的人才會做的事情，他還不至于惡心到那種程度。
但他現在又确實很難過，難過到想冷冷的吓唬她，讓她看清楚，他不比賀冕那樣的人差，他跟她之間只是差了一些時間。
可就是差了那麽一點時間，在他甚至都不認識她的時候，她跟賀冕有了交際。
鐘嶺心中情緒起伏波動，但最終也只能無可奈何的壓抑住，話都已經說到這個份上了，所有的事情都說清楚了。
再把人留在這裏也沒什麽意思了。
她只會越來越厭惡畏懼他而已。
他不想從她眼中看到那樣的眼神，那會讓他有些承受不住。
鐘嶺這下是徹底松了手，從沙發上站了起來，對着南嫣道，“以後我們倆之間就是普通的上下級關系。你不需要有負擔，今天的事情，是我冒犯了，以後我會注意，盡量不對你做過分的事情，但也不排除我可能會有犯蠢的時候，所以盡量離我遠一點吧。”
南嫣的嘴唇輕微動了動，她似乎有什麽話想說，但看鐘嶺臉上已經恢複成了往常那副冷淡理智的模樣，原本要說的話，不由得又被堵在了喉嚨裏，最終什麽話都沒說。
就這麽安靜的看着他。
鐘嶺心裏難受，仿佛明白了她的心思，忽然閉了閉眼，睜開後，擡步向卧室走去。
也就在他快進屋的時候，身後南嫣突然喊了他一聲，“鐘嶺。”
鐘嶺聽到這聲，腳步又不由自主地停了下來，這讓他簡直忍不住在心中唾棄自己，明明說好了要跟人保持距離的。
可她稍微喊他一聲，就讓他控制不住的心神牽動，忍不住停下來，想聽聽她會說些什麽，心底總在妄想着，說不定她下一秒就會撲進他的懷裏，會笑着跟他說她願意的。
然而事實卻總是相反的。
南嫣抿了抿唇，她也從沙發上站了起來，安靜的望着他的背影，聲音猶豫了一下道，“那……今天，我就先離開了。你身體要是不舒服的話，記得去醫院看看，還有，手上的傷口，也別忘記了塗藥膏。”
鐘嶺半天沒有說話，不知道是不是在生氣，手指攥緊，推開門後，直接進了屋。
剩下南嫣一個人在客廳裏，裝模作樣地将地板上的碎片掃起來之後，這才拎着小包，心情舒暢的離開了。
她不在乎鐘嶺此刻的情緒有多糟糕，難過也好，受傷也罷，那都是他該得的，反正就是要讓他也感受一下，這種連當工具人都被人拒絕的滋味是什麽樣的。
另外，也不知道賀冕跑哪去了，說走就走，也不知道提前給她發個消息，這狗男人裝模作樣起來，比她還會玩呢。
南嫣出了小區了，一個人在路上走了好一段路，沒辦法，這別墅區間隔距離太大，小區出行基本上都是開車，她這會兒拒絕了鐘嶺，賀冕那狗男人又一個人跑沒影了，就只能靠她自己兩條腿走出去了。
不過走到門口那邊，南嫣就看到林蔭道旁聽着的那輛顯眼又騷包的豪車，剛走到車站前，就聽到旁邊的豪車響了幾聲喇叭。
随着車窗落下，從裏頭探出賀冕那張熟悉的俊臉來，他大概是等了很久了，有些不耐煩了，那雙漆黑的眼睛直接瞪過來，那張冷峻的臉上五官立體，鼻梁高挺，這麽一瞪過來，看着就一副要沖上來揍人的架勢。
“上來。”
南嫣沒有猶豫，毫不心虛的上了車。
這麽遠的距離，有免費的專職司機接送，不坐白不坐。
上了車之後她才注意到這人已經換了一身幹淨的衣服了，車內隐隐約約還有一股清淡的氣味，估計是回家洗了澡，頭發也是半幹的，略帶了些濕意。
等到南嫣上了車，賀冕就轉過頭，上半身靠在傾斜的車墊上，目光古古怪怪在她上身打量一圈，好像是在看看她身上有沒有掉下一塊肉似的。
“你怎麽磨蹭了這麽久才出來？”
南嫣轉頭看他，倒是很好脾氣的朝他露出一個笑容，“你這麽關心我啊？”
賀冕碰了個軟釘子，一句話憋在喉嚨裏，半晌沒好意思說出來，他怎麽感覺這女人到了他面前就不肯裝了呢？
明明剛才還在鐘嶺面前裝得那麽溫柔體貼的，又是倒水又是切水果的，為什麽到了他面前就徹底暴露本性了呢？
他倒是也不介意她在他面前暴露本性，但她現在連裝都不裝了，莫名的，心裏就有點不是滋味。
“你跟鐘嶺也這麽說話？”賀冕手指搭在方向盤上，忍了忍，還是忍不住問了句。
南嫣歪着頭想了想，說，“好像沒有。”
什麽叫好像，是壓根就沒有！賀冕覺得自己牙根癢癢，她對鐘嶺可不是這個态度。
南嫣說完，又稍稍側過臉來看着他那副不是滋味的表情，忽然沒忍住笑了聲，“你今天怎麽了，好端端的，怎麽忽然介意起這種事情來了？你好像很在意我啊？”
賀冕沒好氣地瞪她一眼，“能不在意嗎？老子的命根子都握在你手裏，你要是真跟鐘嶺好了，以後我怎麽辦？”
南嫣臉上忍不住露出笑意，她說：“那你喜歡我你要趁早跟我說呀，你不說出來我怎麽會知道呢？”
“我喜歡你？”賀冕有些懷疑自己的耳朵，轉過頭一副見鬼的模樣，簡直被這女人盲目自信怼的無話可說，他沒忍住回了一句，“分明是你喜歡我吧？”
“是呀。”南嫣這下倒是認真點了下頭，“我也喜歡你。”
He Mian thought he had misheard at first, but when he turned around, he saw the woman curling her lips and giving him a gentle and clean smile, which clearly showed that she was not joking.
Mr. He hesitated for a rare moment. When the car stopped on the side of the road, he turned around and asked again, "Are you serious?"
This time Nan Yan didn't answer. She pursed her lips and chuckled. Then, in the other's hesitant look, she suddenly leaned over and kissed the corner of his mouth.
He Mian: “…”
This time He Mian was really frozen, his eye sockets slightly dilated, an expression of disbelief and weirdness suddenly appeared on his face, and he suddenly felt like he was steaming.
His frozen expression looked silly.
Nan Yan stepped back a little, raised her head and looked at him with a smile on her face, "Then is there any other fake one?"
He Mian didn’t expect... No, she was actually so direct?
How should I put it? Originally, he thought he would have to pursue her for a long time, at least he would have to develop feelings for her. After all, if he followed his original plan, he would definitely be the one in the lead. Now, he suddenly felt something was not right.
If they weren't both sitting in the car, he would have had the urge to rush up and knock the person to the ground.
"Grass!"
He Mian blushed, which was rare for him. He wasn't shy, but he just felt that it was a little hot today, and the atmosphere in the car felt a little strange.
He felt that his aura could not be suppressed by a girl. However, he touched the corner of his mouth and found it was a little wet. He Mian could not help but howl, "You blind woman, have you been eyeing me for a long time?"
If Nan Yan's expression had not remained normal from beginning to end, he would have suspected that this man had planned with others and was deliberately teasing him.
He doesn't think he is better than Zhong Ling.
He had just had a quarrel with Zhong Ling, and this woman came straight to him. She was so fast that he wondered if she had colluded with Zhong Ling and wanted to make fun of him.
But if you think about it carefully, it's not likely. Zhong Ling is not the kind of person who would play tricks. Since he likes Wen Nanyan, he will not let the girl he likes have too much contact with other opposite sexes.
But He Mian still couldn't help but feel suspicious, but he didn't show it on his face. Instead, he raised his head and stared at the person in front of him.
"Tell me the truth, what do you like about me? My salary card or my bank card, my sports car or my small villa? Do you have some other agenda? I won't be tricked by you!"
"My face is thicker than a city wall, and my brain is smarter than the monkeys in Mount Emei! Are you after my beauty or my money? I'll say it again, there are only two bank cards in my left pants pocket, and the password is six eights. There is a bottle of Viagra in my right pants pocket. I don't have money, but I have my life. You can trample on my body as you like."
"So, what do you like about your brother?"
My brother will work hard to maintain and develop it in the future and will never change!
Nan Yan listened to the man's nonsense and wondered if this silly dog was too excited today?
She simply reached out, pulled the agitated dog's head over, and kissed it directly on the lips.
"I like it when you can be quiet."
Nan Yan looked him up and down, and suddenly a smile appeared in her eyes. "He Mian, have you never been in a relationship before? Are you so excited and nervous when someone confesses their love to you?"
He Mian: “…”
Although this is the fact, can he admit it?
Can love be so easy to talk about?
She knew his situation was special, so she didn't dare let anyone get close to him.
Although he said so, He Mian still glared at her fiercely, with a slightly embarrassed expression, and continued to be stubborn, "Bah! Are you kidding me? I have been in love since elementary school and kindergarten."
"I talked to middle school students in elementary school, high school students in middle school, and college students in high school. The school criticized premature love by name and called the parents. You say I have never been in love. Is this possible?"
Nan Yan's eyes widened, and she suddenly discovered this man's unique hobby, "Ah, so you only like girls who are older than you?"
He Mian glanced at her and continued to talk nonsense, "You don't understand, men like older women because older women have bigger breasts."
This seems to make sense.
So when she heard this, Nan Yan subconsciously lowered her head and glanced at her chest, her expression slightly annoyed, "This... is it not okay if you have small breasts? I don't have such big breasts."
He Mian was silent for a few seconds, lowering his head, but he couldn't help but glance to the side.
I couldn't help blushing when I saw this.
How is it small? It’s not small at all!
He had never dated anyone but had been pursued by many people. However, he had not really interacted with girls that much. Seeing her frowning and embarrassed, he felt his heartbeat was a little strange. He simply held her shoulders, pulled her into his arms and kissed her fiercely. After the kiss, he said:
"Sister, should we go to the hospital to have our eyes checked? Your eyesight may be a little off."
She actually fell for a bastard like him.
In that case, he would play with her.
Nan Yan's true nature immediately showed up when she heard that. She slapped him on the chest and glared at him, "Who are you saying is blind?"
He Mian was not angry this time. He couldn't help but lower his head and laugh. The laughter vibrated in his chest. He put his chin against her forehead and asked in a low voice, "Do you really like me that much?"
Nan Yan pursed her lips and said nothing, but her earlobes turned a little red.
Seeing that she did not resist, He Mian reached out and rubbed her delicate white earlobe, then unbuckled her seat belt and pressed Nan Yan's shoulders, pushing her against the cushion. When their eyes met, He Mian suddenly lowered his head and kissed her.
This time the kiss was gentle, delicate and slow.
Nan Yan only felt her lips numbing from the kiss.
I also heard this person say, "Okay, I knew that you, a little girl, had bad intentions towards me the first time we met. Not only did you covet my beautiful face, but you also coveted my young body. Tell me, have you been coveting me for a long time?"
Nan Yan originally didn't want to pay attention to him, but after hearing this, she couldn't help but roll her eyes at him, "What's so good about you? You can't even get hard, what's the point of me being so good?"
He Mian: “…”