Chapter 210
The moment he heard her say "yes", Zhong Ling felt his eyes swell up and down as if something was about to fall out. At the same time, another extremely chaotic and resentful emotion was churning in his chest.
He was completely unable to care about anything else. At this moment, he only felt that the blood vessels in his head were beating wildly and screaming because of her words.
How could she? How could she say such heartless words? Hadn't he done enough? Wasn't that enough to satisfy her?
He had clearly placed everything he had in front of her, and handed it all over to her without reservation, but she didn't care about it. Not only did she not care about it at all, she even trampled that affection into the mud.
Zhong Ling was filled with resentment in his heart. He had never been so out of control before, and he had never felt so miserable before. An unprecedented sense of unbearable pain spread in his heart, and a mixture of rationality and madness revealed a painful expression on his face.
He even felt despair in his heart, the kind of despair that he tried his best to get close to her but was still pushed away by her in the end. No matter what he did, no matter how hard he tried, she would never give him a chance.
He was furious to the extreme, a kind of madness, instinctively trying to hide the hurt and pain in his heart. He grabbed Nan Yan's hand and pulled her over from the side, pulling her in front of him, and said in a low voice with resentment:
"It's not enough. I said it's not enough and it's not enough!"
"If you don't like me, try to like me."
Obviously, he was on the verge of losing control. The emotions that had been suppressed to the extreme finally burst out. "It's impossible for you to break up. Don't even think about it! I won't agree. I've done it, and you don't want to admit it now. Who do you think I am? Didn't I tell you that I have a bad temper, Wen Nanyan? I'm not someone you can push around, nor am I someone you can take when you want me and kick away when you don't want me."
After he said this, his face showed that expression of resentment that he could not control himself again, and then he kissed her madly, grabbing her skirt with both hands and tearing it.
He was hiding his fear, trying to do something to prove that he was real, that he could touch and own the person in front of him.
Nan Yan only felt that she was suddenly attacked by an irresistible force. She was suppressed and unable to struggle. Her lips were blocked by someone. The other party's movements became more and more urgent. He raised his hand and reached into her waist, sliding down from her waist.
"Ah... Ugh! Zhong Ling."
Nan Yan struggled hard, but no matter how hard she struggled, the difference in strength between men and women was too great, she couldn't get rid of it at all, and those hands were still deliberately wandering underneath.
Perhaps sensing her resistance and struggle, Zhong Ling's eyes flashed with pain and resentment, and his movements became more presumptuous and deliberate.
Nan Yan was so angry that her eyes turned red. She pushed the other person's chest hard. Finally, when she realized that she couldn't make the other person stop, she suddenly bit the other person's lips hard.
Zhong Ling felt pain, but he kissed her even harder without any scruples. Nan Yan could even smell the bloody smell coming from his mouth, gradually spreading. But this man still didn't let go at all. He held her waist with one hand and stared at her, watching her crying and struggling.
His eyes turned red uncontrollably, and a look of hurt was clearly visible in his eyes.
His eyelashes trembled slightly, as if containing a kind of madness and obsession that wanted to hold on to her regardless of the consequences, even at the cost of everything.
There was even a hint of water light.
Until Nan Yan's struggle became weaker and weaker and she could no longer hold back her tears, Zhong Ling was stunned. He felt a dull pain in his heart and subconsciously relaxed his strength, slowly releasing the restraints and clamps on her. Nan Yan took advantage of this gap, stretched out her hand and pushed the person away with force, and then slapped the other person hard in the face.
Zhong Ling's head was tilted by the slap, and his originally well-groomed hair was completely messed up, scattered in front of his forehead, covering his dark eyes that were filled with watery light.
A bright red slap mark quickly appeared on that fair face.
There was still some blood on his lips from her biting him, bright red with a hint of lust, making his face look even paler.
Nan Yan wiped the blood off her lips vigorously. She raised her head and looked over fiercely, tears still dripping from her eyes. "Are you crazy? Is this the only way you will use your power? Are you only going to get mad at me? Or are you only going to force someone like me who has no ability to resist? Zhong Ling, is this the reality you are talking about?"
"How dare you treat your ex-girlfriend like this? Are you treating me like this just because I can't resist? In the end, you are just like those people. What's the difference between you?"
In an instant, Zhong Ling's face turned stiff and pale.
He raised his eyes to look at the person in front of him, feeling embarrassed and regretful in his chest, but he found that he couldn't say anything to refute.
"Zhong Ling, please don't go too far, and don't make me hate you for the rest of my life."
When Nan Yan said these two sentences, tears began to fall again. She raised her hand and wiped away her tears vigorously. She seemed to be frightened of something. She staggered, tidied her clothes, and then got up from the ground, wanting to stay away from the person in front of her and away from this study.
But just as she stood up, the person behind her moved faster than her. Zhong Ling, who was originally sitting on the ground, suddenly had a light in his eyes. He rushed over and hugged Nan Yan's waist from behind, refusing to let go. The force was so strong that Nan Yan even felt that her waist was almost bruised.
Veins appeared on the back of his hands, and his fingers were in spasm from exerting too much force, just like a drowning man clinging to his life-saving straw, as if if he let go, he would drown in the next second.
"Don't go, don't go. Yanyan, I was wrong, I know I was wrong. You can have anything you want, I'll give it to you, okay? Don't go, I beg you not to leave me, okay? Yanyan, let's make peace, let's not quarrel anymore, okay?"
"I don't mind. I don't mind what you just said. I also don't mind everything that happened before. No matter who you liked in the past, as long as... as long as you treat me as well as you have during this period, it will be enough. Yanyan, please, please don't leave me, okay?"
"I won't treat you like that again. I was wrong just now. I will pay attention in the future and won't force you again. Okay?"
Zhong Ling coaxed her carefully, his tone becoming increasingly humble and gentle. He really didn't know what to do?
He just didn't want to lose her. He had never cared about someone so much before. He couldn't explain this feeling at all. He thought he could control it.
But he couldn't control this feeling at all. He couldn't control himself before he was with her. Now they were finally living together, together, and even getting engaged soon. When he thought he could possess her completely, something like this happened. How could he be willing to accept this, and how could he let go?
He seems calm and restrained, but once he meets someone he truly cares about and likes, no matter how big the difficulties are, he will solve them one by one and then walk towards her.
But the person in his arms was not like this. She gave up on him easily and wiped out all his previous efforts. He just felt something in his heart gradually collapse, and it was that feeling of helplessness, pain and confusion.
Zhong Ling hugged her even tighter.
Nan Yan's waist was hurt by him, and she even felt that she could hardly breathe. She took a deep breath, raised her hand and patted the back of his hand hard, "Let go."
"Zhong Ling, you are not calm and stable right now. I don't want to be with you like this. We both need time to calm down. Let go."
Zhong Ling still refused to let go. He had a vague premonition in his heart that if he really let go today, he would never have another chance in his life.
He had really never been so obsessed before, obsessed to the point of losing all his rationality, all his attention was on the person in front of him, the sadness and despair welling up from the depths of his heart suppressed him to the extreme, and in the end, that sad emotion could no longer be suppressed and burst out.
"I won't let you go, even if I die. Yanyan, He Mian is no match for me. He can't bring you anything. No one else can protect you except me. No one else can really help you get justice! Only me, from the beginning, only me."
Zhong Ling hugged her even tighter.
His grip became tighter and tighter, as if he was hugging the most important treasure in his twenty-plus years of life, afraid that if he let go, she would disappear completely.
"As long as you stay with me, I can give you a lot of things. I can buy you anything you want. I can give you money and a house. If you feel insecure, I can marry you and give you a complete family."
"I can give you all of these. I can give you everything that He Mian can give you. I can also give you everything that He Mian can't give you. I can do anything better than him. I'm not worse than him. Yanyan, why, why can't you give me a chance?"
Zhong Ling's face showed that expression of extreme pain and sorrow again, and his tears started to fall without him knowing when, flowing down his face into his collar, and a faint sense of wetness came from it.
Nan Yan turned slightly to the side, she saw a little outline behind her, pursed her lips slightly, and whispered, "Let me go, Zhong Ling, you need to calm down now."
鐘嶺下意識地反駁，“我不需要，我一直都很冷靜清醒，我知道自己要的是什麽，從一開始就很清楚，你別走。”
而他臉上露出的那種痛苦的神情，在南嫣一根一根掰開他緊緊扣在腰上的手指時，慢慢加深，他心底的那種恐慌、不安還有無盡的委屈跟狼狽，那些混亂的情緒在胸腔內翻湧着，最後随着她的動作而逐漸擴散。
他真的不明白，他都已經這樣卑微的請求了，為什麽她還是會松開他的手？
溫南嫣……
她是不是從來就沒有在意過他，所以在放棄他的時候才會這麽的随意，甚至沒有一絲猶豫。
鐘嶺的手指被掰開，身體也被推開。
南嫣終于遠離了他的懷抱，她長呼了一口氣，說：“你放手吧，我只是想重新考慮一下我們之間的關系。”
而在她遠離的那一刻，那一瞬間，鐘嶺只感覺全身的血液都在那頃刻間的功夫全都湧上了頭頂，大腦一瞬間遭受了沖擊。
一股難言的怨恨跟劇痛迅速從胸口至四肢百骸蔓延開來。
痛到他完全控制不住自己朝她喊出了聲，是那種無能為力之後一種極不成熟的發洩跟威脅，“溫南嫣，你以為你是誰？你什麽都沒有，你沒錢，沒工作，就連住的地方都沒有，你離開我之後，你能去什麽地方？”
他的手指被掰開，僵硬地似乎不能合攏，那雙眼睛惡狠狠地盯着她的背影，眼裏的惡意跟怨恨幾乎要溢出來。
大概是發現自己不管怎麽努力都無法留下她之後，他選擇了一種最直接的方式來嘲諷，威脅，來逼迫她就範。
但這種行為已經是黔驢技窮了，就像是人最後在無能為力的絕望時刻發出的最後一聲吶喊跟跳腳，顯得幼稚又可笑，根本毫無作用。
這簡直不像是他會幹出來的事情。
南嫣還聽到身後的人在繼續嘲諷，那聲音裏似乎含了幾分輕顫，“你全身上下加起來都不超過幾千塊錢，你的內衣還是我給你買的，你現在還欠了我十多萬，你的朋友還在重症監護室裏，現在你唯一的工作也沒有了，你沒有任何收入來源，你渾身上下沒有任何價值！”
“你離開我，離開這裏之後沒有任何地方可以去，除了我沒有人會在意你，收留你。”
“你沒錢沒勢，像你這樣的女孩子，夜晚走在路上，随便什麽人都能欺負你，那晚的情形還不夠你醒悟清醒嗎？你會後悔的，離開我，你會後悔一輩子的。”
鐘嶺的手指終于恢複了一點知覺，他用力攥緊了，那一瞬間居然覺得這樣的自己很可笑。
這場面确實很可笑，尤其是聽到這話的南嫣身體頓了一下，他這是在威脅人嗎？他以為這樣的口頭威脅就能讓人屈服了嗎？
也不知道為什麽，原本被對方這麽一通貶低訓斥，她心中還十分不滿，但現在聽了這話，南嫣只覺得莫名有種想笑的沖動。
她在門口站定了，雖然沒有回頭，但還是側過臉，低聲說了一句，“我會盡快去找工作，也會盡快把欠你的錢還給你的。”
這很明顯不是鐘嶺想要的結果。
他此刻只覺得無望，胸口一股充滿澀意的疼痛，讓他用力捏緊手指，語氣愈發嘲諷，充滿惡意跟恨意。
幾乎是咬着牙說出口的。
“我不會再給你任何機會的，溫南嫣，你聽到了沒有？我告訴你，我不會一直留在原地等你的，我也不是一定非你不可的！你只是一個什麽都沒有的窮姑娘而已。”
“你沒錢、沒家世，沒背景，你還欠了一屁股的債，你以為你還能做什麽？繼續去賣酒嗎？我告訴我，我們之間天差地別，你離開我，我就會跟其他女人結婚，我的事業會更上一層樓，我擁有的財富是你這輩子都想象不出來的，而你什麽東西都沒有，你這輩子，永遠都不可能再跟我有任何的接觸了。”
“你聽到了沒有？這就是現實，這就是我們之間的差距，我沒有你可以活得更好，而你沒有我，你只會越來越艱難，越來越窮。”
也不知道為什麽，這話聽在南嫣耳中，就總有一種對方是在無能狂怒的感覺。大概就是那種熊孩子打架輸了，然後開始嘴硬放狠話，但他放的狠話好像也不夠狠。
因為南嫣沒感受到任何的威脅力，甚至還覺得有些可笑。
鐘嶺看着她的背影，他的嘴唇輕顫着，心底奢望着哪怕她有一瞬間的猶豫，只要她稍微有那麽一絲的不舍，他就會毫不猶豫地上前，但是他失望了，徹徹底底的失望了。
他只聽到嫣嫣壓着聲音說了一句，“那就祝你跟前女友新婚快樂，打擾了你這麽久真是不好意思，我很快就會離開這裏。”
“還有，聽說這間房子也是你按照女朋友的喜好，親自為對方設計的結婚新房是嗎？真是對不起了，被我占據了這麽久的時間。”
聽到這句話，鐘嶺的胸口猛然間傳來一陣翻絞撕扯，一種要窒息似的痛苦，他眼眶通紅，突然提高聲音，語調更加尖銳兇狠。
“你比我心狠多了，溫南嫣，我這輩子最後悔的事情就是遇上了你。”
他朝她失控地怒喊出聲，手指被捏緊到僵硬不能伸直，渾身發顫，眼淚也不受控制地湧出，“你滾，滾出我的房子，滾遠一點！從今往後，我不會再跟你有任何的牽扯。”
“我會如你所願，就像你說的那樣，跟我的前女友訂婚，之後我們會結婚，我們會舉辦一場人人羨慕的世紀婚禮，所有人都會來祝賀我。”
“你不稀罕我，有的是人在意我。”
鐘嶺覺得自己真的要被氣瘋了，“我們以後還會生個孩子，而你不一樣，你跟你的孩子，這輩子都只能住在那個破爛不堪的環境中，那個連路都不是完整的城中村裏，過一輩子拮據難堪的生活。”
“你走了以後就別再回來，這輩子都不要後悔，因為就算你後悔我也不會再給你機會的，我這輩子都不會再原諒你的！溫南嫣，你聽清楚了嗎？你聽到我說的話了嗎？”
他一連重複了好幾遍，喉嚨喊到最後已經嘶啞，再也控制不住情緒，那種壓抑到極致的悲傷跟痛苦一齊爆發，混亂的情緒幾乎要将他湮沒。
他絕望地盯着那道背影，試圖用兇狠的言語喝退她，試圖讓她心中對此刻的生活，生出那麽一絲留戀遲疑。
可他還是失望了。
南嫣伸手推開門把手時，稍微轉過身看了他一眼，身後的鐘嶺眼圈通紅地站立在桌子旁邊，他此刻看上去已經徹底失去了往日那副冷靜自控，風度翩翩的模樣了。
他現在看上去就像是一個瘋子，胸前的衣服皺巴巴的沾着淚痕，他唇上的血跡已經慢慢幹了，原本結的小血痂顯得更加的暗紅明顯，那雙眼睛就這麽死死盯着她的方向。
在她看過去的時候，那雙眼裏迸發出微弱的光亮跟最大的惡意，還有一股執拗。
仿佛這一刻，只要南嫣踏出這道房門，他們倆之間就成了徹底的陌路，兩人的聯系就全都斷了，所有的一切全都抹消，他再也不會給她任何機會了。
鐘嶺的臉上又開始浮現出那種理智與怨恨交錯複雜的表情，他的眼神中甚至有那麽一絲絲的委屈，到底是為什麽，為什麽不能為他妥協一次？為什麽不能給他一次機會？
他哪裏做的還不夠好嗎？他明明已經很努力了，他很努力地在愛她，很努力地在照顧她，他已經将自己所擁有的全部都毫無保留地分享給她了，為什麽，到底是為什麽？
南嫣低頭說了聲，
“……對不起。”
在南嫣低低說了聲對不起，然後走出房門之後，她驟然聽到了身後傳來了一聲充滿恨意的喊聲，隔着虛掩的門聽得格外清楚。
“你不要後悔，這輩子都不要後悔。最好這輩子永遠都不要再出現在我面前，否則我不會放過你的，我絕對不會放過你的。”
他的聲音驟然發狠，臉色也是陰沉難看，像是參雜了無盡的怨恨，“從來沒有人敢這麽對我，也從來沒有人這麽對過我，你耍我，玩我，欺騙我，溫南嫣，我不會原諒你的，我這輩子都不會原諒你的。”
她怎麽敢的？怎麽可以這麽心狠，沒有任何一絲停留。
伴随着那聲失控與悲傷過度的喊聲，還有什麽東西被用力掀翻重重砸到了地上摔得粉碎的聲音傳來。
“溫南嫣，你給我回來……”
那語氣裏的哀傷跟絕望讓南嫣腳步下意識停頓了下，然後頭也不回地回去收拾東西了。
……
南嫣的東西收拾起來很快，東西本來就不多，一個箱子都能塞滿，都是一些衣服，櫃子裏鐘嶺提前買的各種衣服都沒拿，有些甚至都沒穿過，吊牌還嶄新地挂在那裏。
It was estimated that she would not be able to come back after leaving this time, but this scene was inexplicably familiar. It seemed to be similar when she left He Mian's house. Never mind, she had gotten used to it after going there and back again.
I haven't returned the small rental house that I shared with Sister Zhou. After all, Sister Zhou is still in the hospital for treatment. We originally shared the house and it's still useful. Now it's the only place I can go.
By the time Nan Yan had finished packing her things, the person who had been standing in the study room had not come out, and apart from the sound of things being smashed that could be heard at first, after a while, the noise in the room finally stopped.
When Nan Yan was going downstairs and passed by the study, she subconsciously turned her head to glance at the door. Through the narrow gap, she saw that the inside of the open door was in a mess, with various documents scattered all over the floor, as well as broken porcelain and teacups.
The somewhat miserable figure was sitting on the floor weakly, leaning against the table that had been overturned in the chaos, with one of its long legs bent. Nan Yan glanced at it but could not see the whole picture. She only saw a trace of dark red blood on the wrinkled corner of the other person's clothes.
I guess he accidentally cut his hand with some debris.
But those were not what she should worry about now. She had to leave as soon as possible before this man could react, to prevent him from regretting and going crazy. Seeing how out of control he was just now, it was possible that he could do something without any moral bottom line.
Nan Yan just took a quick glance and went downstairs carrying the box.
It was still early, so she took a taxi directly to her previous rental house. As for He Mian, she didn't want to contact him for the time being, and she had already thought about her job.
…
When the figure finally disappeared in this beautifully decorated luxurious villa, Zhong Ling was left with only a sense of emptiness and sadness in his heart. He had lived for nearly ten years, but this was the first time in his life that he felt an endless sadness from the bottom of his heart.
At this moment, he was unwilling, but there was nothing he could do.
He simply couldn't keep her, no matter how much he begged or threatened, she just left him so casually.
She had clearly promised that she would always love him. She had even been comforting him last night, saying that they were a couple and would get married in the future. But how could she leave without hesitation in the blink of an eye, without even looking back at him?
Zhong Ling saw her walk out the door without looking back. As happy as he was when she came, he felt as miserable now. He felt like he was drowning and about to suffocate in despair.
Something deep in his heart seemed to collapse suddenly. He felt an indescribable emptiness and confusion, which made his brain chaotic and unbearable, and he was unable to think at all.
This is a feeling that is difficult to describe. He was clearly within reach the moment before, he was in her arms, he truly owned her, but the next second, this relationship that he had worked so hard to build and earned was gone.
From possession to loss, it only took a few days for him to feel that beauty, and then, at the moment he was most looking forward to and happiest, it was taken away from him abruptly. The sad feeling came violently and suddenly.
Zhong Ling suddenly felt as if all the strength had been drained from his body. He sat powerlessly on the ground, leaning against the overturned corner of the table.
She just left like that...
Zhong Ling felt as if something was falling from his eye sockets. He raised his hands to cover his eyes. Moisture dissipated between his fingers, and he suddenly laughed softly.
He laughed for a long time before slowly reaching out to wipe away the blood on his lips and the water stains on his face. Looking at his palms that were covered in mud from being pierced by the debris, his eyes suddenly turned cold.
Why doesn't she understand?
Leaving him was the worst decision she had ever made in her life.
Just go, he will let her see that without her, he will live better than before. He has everything. He has money, a career, and countless people who like him. He will live a better life after leaving her.
He would no longer beg humbly and without self-respect like before. It was just a failed love experience. It didn't matter. It was just a woman. If he liked, he could have more.
Zhong Ling forced himself to calm down, and with trembling fingers he touched the box of cigarettes on the ground. He once again emphasized to himself in his heart that she was just a pretty girl, but the lighter in his hand took a long time to light up but still failed.
…
After leaving, Nan Yan returned to the rented house. This time, her contact with Zhong Ling seemed to be really cut off.
When the two were together some time ago, the news spread to many people. After all, the club called the police that night. At least his friends and the Zhong family knew what happened that night, but the news of their breakup was silent.
Nan Yan didn't know much about the situation in Zhong Ling, and she didn't pay much attention to it. However, more than a week later, she learned something from the sisters who came to her to inquire about the news, which was -
Zhong Ling is getting married.
The little sister was the girl who tried to block the drinking for her that day at the club but was slapped. She asked her with a smile and a little envy on the phone.
"Yanyan, are you going to get married to Boss Zhong? When is the date? Have you taken the wedding photos?"
"Hey, you are so happy now. You are the luckiest among us. That boss Zhong really loves you and actually married you. We thought he was just playing with you at first."
"Who says it's not true? But a man like that won't suffer any loss even if it's just for fun."
There was a group of familiar voices around me, making a fuss.
Nan Yan smiled and asked, "Where did you hear the news? Who told you that we were getting married?"
The person on the other side said, "How could anyone tell us such a thing? Have you forgotten where we came from?"
"It was mentioned by the drunk guests at the club a few days ago. Several of them mentioned it, so we guessed that it must have spread among their circle of friends first. It is said that this wedding will be a grand one."
"Yan Yan, we are all so jealous of you now. What girl doesn't look forward to a wedding of the century?"
"Who says it's not true! If I were ten years younger, I would definitely hook up with a wealthy and successful single man and experience what it's like to be married."
"Ah, but marrying into a wealthy family isn't necessarily easy."
"Yes, it is said that wives of wealthy families have the most rules to follow. Boss Zhong's family in Lingcheng is not a small wealthy family that is not well-known. I guess they have more rules to follow than the average wealthy family."
Nan Yan wasn’t too sure whether there were many rules or not, since she wasn’t the one getting married anyway.
…
A group of people were talking at once, totally unaware that the person on the other end of the phone had not spoken for a long time. When they finished talking and mentioned Nan Yan again, everyone asked Nan Yan to give them an invitation when the time comes.
After all, they are sisters, so it’s okay for them to give some gift money. At least it can open their eyes to what the legendary wedding of the century is like.
Nan Yan lowered her head and smiled, but there was no emotion in her eyes. She really didn't care. She just said softly, "You heard the wrong news this time. The person who married Zhong Ling was not me. He and I had already separated a long time ago."
As soon as these words were spoken, the noisy situation on the other side of the phone suddenly became quiet. Nan Yan could even feel the awkward and stagnant atmosphere on the other side of the phone.
The group of people probably hadn't reacted yet. After thinking for a long time, if it wasn't to marry Yanyan, then who was the marriage news coming out to? They weren't stupid. Now they finally came to their senses and estimated that it was the fiancée arranged by the Zhong family.
Then in the chaos someone swore.
"Fuck, I knew that group of rich people were not good people. They didn't admit their mistakes after eating them. Yanyan, don't be sad. Anyway, you are still young and you won't have any trouble finding a good man..."
"That's right, Yanyan, don't take it too seriously. Their kind of wealthy marriage is the most unreliable. They might get divorced in two years. Pah, they might get divorced in a year. I wish he would get divorced."
"Sure enough, all men are bad!"
…
Nan Yan smiled. She also knew that since they had known each other for a long time, this group of people had some comradeship towards her. When they heard about this kind of thing, they were filled with indignation and cursed at Boss Zhong.
But this time they really scolded the wrong person. The person who refused to admit the expense after the meal was not Boss Zhong, but her.
After hanging up the phone, Nan Yan almost understood what happened that day. It seemed that Zhong Ling really practiced what he said and was really going to marry his ex-girlfriend. However, she didn't care much because she had other things to do.
She is now busy looking for a new job. Her work at the club is completely over and there is no way she can go back.
So Nan Yan went to the wedding dress shop where the two would meet in the original plot and applied for a job helping customers choose wedding dresses. Well, she just waited for the male and female protagonists to come to her.