Chapter 231
After the little friction, things returned to normal between the two, and the matter just passed. Neither party mentioned what happened that day again, and the two were just like all other couples.
They have been getting along normally, usually going out for dinner after get off work. There are no messy things to disturb them, and the relationship between the couple is becoming more and more stable.
As for the affairs of the other two people, Nan Yan didn't pay much attention to them. She was not in a hurry. Whether it was out of regret or unwillingness, the other party would come to find them sooner or later.
Maybe what she said was what she expected. Just within these few days, when Nan Yan was lamenting that her life was boring and there was no one to make trouble for her, at this very moment, Nan Yan received a call from Zhou Youyou.
To be honest, this call was really unexpected. She originally thought that the ex-boyfriend would come to her first, but unexpectedly, it was Zhou Youyou who came first.
After the call was connected, the tone of the person on the other end was not friendly, and even contained a hint of resentment and anxiety. It was obvious that he was venting his emotions to her.
"Xia Nanyan, do you still have a conscience? Ji Yanshen was in a car accident, did you know that?"
Zhou Youyou almost lost control of her emotions when she shouted this to the other side. She didn't know what was going on now.
A person who was perfectly fine in his previous life inexplicably got into a car accident in this life, while she, who should have been in a car accident in her previous life, is now safe and sound.
She now even wondered if it was because of her rebirth that the life of her childhood sweetheart had undergone such unexpected changes, but this was not the result she had ever wanted.
In fact, she was really unhappy during this period, and almost everything went against her expectations.
Obviously, some time ago, Ji Lingshen still had some affection for her. At least because they had been childhood sweethearts, he did not blame her too much even when he was angry. But after he had an argument with Lin Shixu last time and broke up with Xia Nanyue completely, he is now too lazy to even see her.
The car accident happened last night. She had no idea what happened. When she couldn't get through to Ji Lingshen on the phone, she learned from a friend that Ji Lingshen had been in a car accident at night.
Nan Yan was indeed a little surprised by such sudden news. She did not expect Ji Lingshen to get into a car accident. However, listening to the blaming tone of the person opposite her, it seemed that Ji Lingshen's car accident was all caused by her.
But she has been very well behaved all this time and hasn't done anything bad, okay?
The tone of the person on the other end was genuine and did not sound fake. Nan Yan could even hear the other person crying and complaining. Under the current circumstances, it was impossible for her to have no reaction.
After all, she certainly couldn't miss such a good opportunity. No matter what her position was, regarding the matter of her ex-boyfriend being in a car accident, Nan Yan felt that if she didn't go too far, there would definitely be no problem in going to take a look. So after asking for the address and ward number, Nan Yan planned to go to the hospital to check the situation.
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At the hospital on the other side, Lin Shixu calmly watched the scene in front of him. Although it was a little unexpected, it was not unacceptable. Ji Yanshen had been in a car accident, and the one who took care of him was his ex-girlfriend. This scene seemed a little weird no matter how you looked at it.
However, Lin Shixu was not the attending physician. He just came with his colleagues to make rounds and record the patient's condition.
Actually, Ji Shenshen's injuries were relatively fortunate and not life-threatening. Most of the injuries were minor. However, car accidents are always serious. His left shoulder was scratched by the windshield. The wound was about two fingers long and he bled a lot, so he looked quite scary when he was brought to the hospital.
After Lin Shixu finished his rounds, he wrote down all the symptoms in a book. When he was done, he turned around and prepared to leave, but his ex-girlfriend couldn't help herself and chased after him.
Zhou Youyou made no effort to hide her resentment and dissatisfaction, "Lin Shixu, now that you see me, you don't even have a word to say? Do you think I'm sorry for you, so every time you see me, you turn a blind eye to me."
Zhou Youyou's eyes were a little red, especially when she said this, and it was obvious that she couldn't control her emotions.
She didn't know if it was because the pressure and shock she had been under recently were too great. She really couldn't stand the look of him turning a blind eye to everything, as if she was doing him an injustice.
But that was obviously not the case. She had given him many chances in his previous life, but he had never been willing to change for her. How could he put all the blame on her now?
The scene of Ji Shenshen lying in the hospital in front of her inexplicably reminded her of the scene in her previous life when she was lying in the hospital with no one paying attention to her. Especially when she saw her ex-boyfriend wearing a cold doctor's uniform and walking past her with an expressionless face, but looking indifferent the whole time, that scene seemed to overlap with the latitude of her previous life at some point.
Memories of two lifetimes flooded into her mind all at once. For a moment, she even felt a little resentful. She resented why he was so indifferent, why she was the only one who had memories of her past life, why she was the only one who was brooding over the past, and she even lacked the confidence to accuse him of being indifferent.
She thought that she would be able to change everything after being reborn, but now nothing has changed. Not only did she lose her boyfriend, she even lost her childhood sweetheart, the only person who truly loved her.
If Lin Shixu's bad habits could not be changed like in his previous life, and he still resisted anyone getting close to him, she might not be so resentful! But not long after she proposed breaking up, this person could easily give all those responses and love to another person without reservation.
How could she possibly accept this?
She thought he at least felt a little bit of guilt and attachment to her, but what does it matter now?
When Lin Shixu heard this, his brows slightly wrinkled. He turned his head and glanced at his ex-girlfriend who was standing behind him with red eyes.
It was obvious that he didn't quite understand where her deep hatred for him came from. After all, he had never done anything excessive to her. Sometimes he even wondered if Zhou Youyou was resentful of someone else through him.
But this is unlikely.
Lin Shixu suppressed his worries and glanced at the notebook in his hand. He felt that she must be sad because of Ji Linshen's matter, so she was so irrational. So he looked at her again and said in a steady voice:
"He's fine now. The attending physician should have told you that he will regain consciousness after the effect of the medicine wears off. All he needs to do next is stay in the hospital to recuperate. If there's nothing else, I have other things to do."
Perhaps she was really irritated by his official attitude, Zhou Youyou's eyes, which were originally filled with moisture, suddenly burst into hatred, and she couldn't help but yell at him.
"Lin Shixu, you know nothing at all. You have always been the worst person. Why are you so cold and indifferent now? I am the victim in this relationship. Why are you treating me so righteously?"
If it was in the previous life, when she said this, Lin Shixu might have been affected a little, after all, the time they had been together was not short, but now, Lin Shixu just felt confused. Fortunately, his emotions at the moment were still calm.
So he turned around and looked at his ex-girlfriend behind him. Lin Shixu's eyes met hers, and his brows had never relaxed during the whole process. He slowly pursed his lips, and his expression became serious. He was silent for a few seconds, and finally said calmly:
"It's up to you to think about it. I just think that since we have already separated, being indifferent is the last respect for each other. I don't mean to look down on you, nor do I think I am justified."
"You are the one who is out of control and thinking too much."
After saying this, Lin Shixu didn't bother to bother with her anymore. He just left and went to the next ward.
Zhou Youyou, who stayed where she was, clenched her fingers and watched the other person leave. The grievance and resentment in her heart suddenly surged out like a tide. Was it really all her fault? What was wrong with her wanting to live a better life? But now she really didn't know what to do?
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On the other side, Nan Yan went directly to the hospital after receiving the news. In fact, when the car accident first happened, a kind-hearted person called her cell phone, but she had blocked Ji Linshen's number long ago, so she never received this message.
When she arrived at the hospital, Ji Lingshen, who was originally lying on the hospital bed, had actually woken up. After the effect of the anesthetic injection wore off, his body had regained consciousness.
However, Ji Shenshen still closed his eyes and rested.
There was no one else at the ward door at this time, and Zhou Youyou, who called her, had disappeared.
As soon as Nan Yan entered the room, she saw the young man lying on the bed. He had a thick bandage wrapped around his arm, a piece of gauze on his forehead, and was wearing a white hospital gown.
His face was pale and he looked obviously listless, but that was not surprising, after all, he had just been in a car accident.
Seeing this scene, Nan Yan did not make a sound to disturb him from resting. She put the bouquet in her hand into the vase beside her, put down the fruit basket in her hand, and prepared to leave.
At this moment, a voice suddenly rang out from behind him. Perhaps because he had not drunk much water, his throat sounded noticeably dry and hoarse.
"Do you hate me so much now? You don't even want to say a word to me?"
Hearing this, Nan Yan paused in her movement to hold the door handle. It turned out that this man had woken up.
她轉頭看了一眼身後的季蘊深，抿唇平靜說了句，“沒有，我只是怕打擾你休息。”
“嫣嫣……”
南嫣看着他，“怎麽了？”
季蘊深忽然喊了聲她的名字，他慢慢擡起頭，有些吃力地撐着身子，想要從床上坐起來，不過可能是受了傷，身體沒力氣。
“你過來扶我一下好嗎？我另一只手目前受了傷，行動不方便，沒力氣撐起來。”
南嫣沒有上前，反而猶豫着說了句，“你才剛做完手術，知道受傷嚴重就別亂動了。”
聽到這話，季蘊深忽然低頭輕笑了聲，笑容裏有種說不出的意味。
或許是因為這次車禍，讓他的情緒沒之前的頹散，反而變得穩定了不少，也讓兩人之間的關系變得緩和了一些。
季蘊深看她臉色，語氣淡淡的說了聲，“不讨厭我，連扶我一把都不願意了嗎？我并不會對你做什麽，這點要求也不行嗎？”
這人還學會以退為進了。
南嫣聽到這話似乎也沒辦法，只能抿着唇，然後朝着床鋪走過去，慢慢将病床下的座墊調高，又伸手小心翼翼地将人扶起來，在她做好一切，正要往後退回去的時候——
季蘊深忽然一伸手便抓住了南嫣的手腕，手上再一用力，将人往前拽了一下，南嫣整個人頓時重心不穩，身體不受控制地朝着床鋪上的那人壓了過去。
這一壓也不知道具體壓到什麽地方了，她只聽到對方口中發出了一聲輕微的悶哼聲，明顯是被砸得不輕，可就算是這樣，這人也依舊沒有松手。
倒是南嫣被他這突如其來的動作吓了一跳，下意識地支起身子站穩後又去查看他身體上的狀況，“你這是做什麽，不知道自己剛做完手術，身上還受着傷嗎？”
南嫣微皺眉，尤其是看到他手腕上的紗布都已經開始滲血了，臉色微白，趕緊伸手就要按下床頭的呼叫器。
但這動作卻被對方伸手攔住了。
南嫣轉頭看他，“你這是做什麽？”
季蘊深握着南嫣的手腕，又看了眼手腕上的血跡，眉頭輕皺了下又緩緩松開，語氣溫和道，“不用喊人過來了，只是稍微壓了一下而已，沒那麽嚴重，而且也不是很疼。”
“都滲血了還不嚴重？”
南嫣的語氣明顯有些着急，這一着急，也就沒在意這人一直抓着她的手腕不放了。
大概是看她的臉色确實有些不太好看，季蘊深便低聲安撫了句，“要不然你幫我重新處理下可以嗎？床頭就放着一個小藥箱，本來也不是什麽大事，就是出了點血而已。”
聽到這話南嫣也沒辦法了，看着床頭安安穩穩坐着的那人，又看到他手腕上滲血的傷口，只能翻開床頭櫃上的小藥箱，将他手腕上帶血的紗布小心拆開，仔細清理完血跡之後又塗了點藥水，這才重新包了一層。
季蘊深看着對面仔細給自己清理傷口的南嫣，一時間有些沉默，他也知道自己用受傷的這件事情将人留在這兒的行為多少有些卑劣，但他真的很久沒有這麽安靜地看過她了。
他看着南嫣就跟從前一樣，整個過程兩個人都沒有說話，嫣嫣的眉頭也是一直擰着的，表情小心而認真，時不時地還會問他痛不痛，是不是她的力道太重了之類的話。
這個過程讓他有些恍惚，好像兩人之間又回到了從前沒有分手的那個時候，直到手腕上的傷口包紮好之後，南嫣将手上的繃帶跟紗布一起放回去，卻不小心碰到櫃子上的一枚小盒子，從裏面掉出來一枚戒指。
戒指掉落在地板上，發出“叮”的一聲輕響，瞬間打破了兩人之間安靜的氣氛，季蘊深看到她動作停頓了下，目光落在了地板上的那枚小戒指上，下意識地握住了她的手。
他抿緊了唇，想跟她說，那枚戒指其實是上次争吵後他去店裏買的，原本是想跟她徹底表明自己的心意跟态度的。
他想着，如果她真的不放心的話，他們可以先訂婚，他對周柚柚真的只是一時心軟，把她當做是個妹妹來照顧而已，只是那些道歉的話還沒說出口，事情就變成了最後那種一發不可收拾的模樣。
他從來沒想過要跟她分手的。
季蘊深握着南嫣的手指越收越緊，他就這麽一直看着她，也不知道過了多久，才緩緩開口問道，“……嫣嫣，我們和好可以嗎？”
季蘊深嘴唇動了動，他聲音有些沙啞，說這話的時候目光還一直盯在她臉上，像是想從她臉上看到一絲動容或者是猶豫的神情，可是他好像沒有看到。
而聽到這句話的南嫣則是擡起臉，她看着他的眼神其實一直都沒有什麽變化，只是抿了抿唇，随後慢慢的，将手指從他掌心抽了出來，“季蘊深，我們之間已經結束了。”
她的聲音輕輕的，聽上去很平靜。
“我現在已經有了新的生活了，我這次來見你，也只是因為我們曾經在一起過。可能是我上次說的話有些太過分了，但我不想你因為分手的事情而出現什麽意外。”
季蘊深的臉色瞬間發白。
他的身體越來越僵硬，心底也越來越難過，難過得無法用語言描述，渾身上下只剩下胸口那處位置還有一絲知覺，心髒仿佛被什麽猛地蟄了一下，疼痛異常，讓他嘴唇不受控制地抖動了一下。
他手指僵硬地還想要去牽她的手，好不容易才磕磕絆絆地牽住了她的手指，生怕錯過這最後的一絲機會，“別說這種話好嗎？我可以改的，很多事情我都可以改的。”
他們之間并不是那種不可回轉的矛盾啊，他真的已經知道錯了，為什麽就不願意再給他一次機會呢？
季蘊深的喉嚨有些哽塞，語氣裏甚至帶了幾分乞求的意味，“我可以保證，以後我跟周柚柚之間絕對會保持住距離，我真的不會再做那些多餘的事情了，也不會再去管她的事情了，嫣嫣，我們重新開始好嗎？”
而南嫣低下頭，依舊平穩地撥開了他的手。
不僅如此，她還往他心口紮了一刀，紮得他嘴唇慘白，“已經晚了，季蘊深，我現在已經有男朋友了，我跟林時序在一起不是假的，也許以後，我們會結婚也說不定……”
話還沒說完，她就看見季蘊深的手指不受控制地顫抖了一下，原本一直抓住她不放的手指也漸漸放松了。
好半晌，她才聽到對方艱難而又幹澀的聲音，遲緩地在耳畔響起，“……真的就一點機會都沒有了嗎？”
南嫣搖了搖頭沒說話。
但那态度表露得很明顯了。
季蘊深忽然間只覺得自己的眼眶有些發酸，他的腦子裏一片混沌，根本不知道該說什麽好，這一刻，就算他再遲鈍，也該知道兩人之間是不可能的了。
或許早就有這種預感了，只是他一直不願意承認而已，季蘊深忽然覺得因着車禍撞破的傷口又開始痛了起來。
越來越痛，像是有根針直直紮在那骨頭縫隙裏，一個勁的往裏頭鑽，痛到最後，他都不知道那痛苦到底是來自哪裏，到底來源于自己的身體，還是他的胸口，他甚至連身旁的人什麽時候離開的他都不知道了。
而在另一邊，南嫣剛出門，迎面就撞上來站在門口的周柚柚，也不知道她是什麽時候來的，又聽到了多少兩人之間的對話。
但她的面色看上去很不好，神情中有種說不出的壓抑，尤其是看向她的眼神，還帶了那麽一絲嘲諷跟不屑，大概是覺得她沒良心，也不配過來探望季蘊深。
周柚柚忽然說了這麽一句話，攔住了要走的南嫣，“我有些話想跟你說清楚。”
南嫣看着她那副不耐煩的神情，倒是沒有拒絕，于是兩人走到另一邊的走廊裏，這裏比較偏僻，也沒什麽人走動，就算發生了什麽争執也不大可能會被人看見。
周柚柚怨忿看着眼前的南嫣，她現在只想說清楚一件事情，直接開門見山道，“我跟季蘊深并沒有什麽亂七八糟的關系，我以後也會離他遠遠的，這下你滿意了吧？”
周柚柚在說出這句話的時候，心底也不可避免地湧出了一陣怨恨委屈，她是真的覺得眼前的女人在無理取鬧，畢竟她跟季蘊深兩個人在一起十多年的感情，真要算起來，夏南嫣才是她跟季蘊深之間的外來者。
可現在能怎麽辦呢？
因為這兩人分手的事情鬧成這個樣子，周柚柚看着躺在床上陷入昏迷的竹馬時，心底頭一次産生了某種後悔害怕的情緒。
她有些擔心自己過多幹預的原因，最終會害得上輩子屬于自己的結局降臨到這個竹馬的身上，尤其是看着他這段時間渾渾噩噩的模樣，她心底是既難過又難堪。
到現在為止，她是真的忍不住了。
After all, isn't Xia Nanyan's attitude to make her leave Ji Yanshen completely? Now that she has got what she wants, isn't it enough for her to not disturb their lives in the future?
So she said this directly to Nan Yan.
And Nan Yan now understood what she meant.
Perhaps she really thought that she was an innocent victim. Nothing had happened between her and Ji Lingshen, but she had to bear the resistance and harm from everyone.
Perhaps she felt that she was quite wronged, so in order to reconcile the two, she not only gave up her own obsession, but also let go of the childhood sweetheart relationship between the two, instantly transforming herself into the image of a victim who endured the grievance.
Nan Yan was also impressed by this man's way of thinking.
It was clearly her who inexplicably intruded into the relationship of other people's young couple from the very beginning, and now she is saying things like "stay away from him, are you satisfied now?" She sounded very aggrieved, as if others had wronged her.
But it was clearly all her own fault.
Nan Yan looked up at Zhou Youyou, "Do you think it's useful to say this now? Ji Lingshen and I have already broken up. Is it interesting to say these polite words to show your grievances now?"
Zhou Youyou's face turned pale instantly. She was not a fool and it was impossible for her not to hear the sarcasm in this person's tone. The string in her heart tightened, and her tone was naturally unfriendly:
"So what else do you want from me? I've already promised to stay away from you guys, isn't that enough for you?"
Her eyes were visibly red when she said this.
Nan Yan noticed that this person was a little emotionally unstable. She chuckled and looked at her and said, "It's okay. I will treat others the way they treat me. As for what you said, it has nothing to do with me now."
"Well, if you don't have anything else to say, I'm leaving too."
After saying this, Nan Yan turned around and was about to leave.
Zhou Youyou on the opposite side was obviously stunned for a moment.
She might still be thinking about what she meant by what she said, and then she reacted quickly, as if she understood something vaguely. She suddenly reached out and grabbed Nan Yan's wrist, her eyes fixed on the woman in front of her.
"So you're with Lin Shixu to get revenge on me?"
Nan Yan turned her head and looked at the other person, then suddenly chuckled and said, "So what? I was with him on purpose, what can you do? Are you only allowed to contact other people's boyfriends, but not others to get close to your boyfriend?"
"Zhou Youyou, don't you like to show off the deep relationship between you and Ji Yanshen in front of me? You flirt with him in front of me. You know his allergies better than I do. When you are drunk, you always like to go into my boyfriend's arms and like to tell him about your past..."
"You have no sense of propriety at all, and you don't know how to avoid suspicion. You act so affectionate with them in front of me, your girlfriend, as if I were the third party between you two childhood sweethearts. Do you really think that others are blind and can't see what you are thinking?"
These words successfully made Zhou Youyou turn pale.
Nan Yan smiled at the man and continued, "Then do you want to see how Lin Shixu treats me? Although he has a cleanliness fetish, he never resists me."
Perhaps it was these words that completely broke down Zhou Youyou's psychological defenses. For so many years, two lifetimes combined, this is what she has always cared about.
Zhou Youyou pinched her white fingers and tried hard to control her temper. She knew that this person was still brooding over what happened last time, but she didn't expect that she was so mean.
Zhou Youyou's eyes became redder and redder, her chest heaving, and she almost lost control and shouted at her, "So you took advantage of Lin Shixu's feelings, do you think you can take revenge on me this way? Xia Nanyan, don't you feel guilty for doing this?"
Nan Yan looked surprised, as if she found it ridiculous. "Why should I feel guilty? People like you don't have the slightest guilt, so why should I have such unnecessary emotions? Besides, Lin Shixu likes me now, doesn't he?"
After saying this, she was too lazy to continue to pester this man. Nan Yan actually didn't have the heart to deal with her, but this man's compromising attitude really made people feel uncomfortable.
Since this person made her uncomfortable, she would naturally return the favor without any reservation.
Zhou Youyou, who was standing aside, bit her lip with resentment in her eyes. It was obvious that she had not yet recovered from the shock just now.
It wasn't until Nan Yan left that she came back to her senses.
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Neither of them noticed that a piece of white clothes flashed by at the corner of the corridor, stayed for only a short while, and quickly disappeared.