Chapter 42 [VIP] Jianghu (23)

The next morning, when Xiao Guanxue knocked on Nan Yan's door with the medicine, he found that no one responded in the house.

He waited for a moment, knocked on the door twice, and after making sure that no one inside responded, he reached out and pushed open the gate.

But after pushing it open, I found that the yard was empty and the house was clean and lifeless, as if no one had ever lived there.

Xiao Guanxue was feeling uneasy, as if he had an inexplicable panic rising from his chest. He didn't know why, but he had been feeling uneasy lately. A vague emotion kept lingering in his heart, making him feel a dull and suffocating feeling in his chest.

He was not the kind of person without principles and bottom line. What he said yesterday was just angry words. He did not mean to hurt her. In fact, no matter what she did, he never thought of hurting her.

Xiao Guanxue had already regretted it yesterday. He didn't give the jade pendant to Su Mo, she just picked it up by chance.

He admitted that what he said later was just to irritate her, but she was too impulsive. She rushed forward and tried to grab it without caring about anything. He really didn't know that things would turn out like this...

Especially when he saw Yanyan's cold eyes towards him, as if she were a stranger, he felt as if his whole heart was being tightly grasped. The bone-chilling coldness he had never experienced before made his chest so stuffy that he could hardly breathe and felt extremely uncomfortable.

He never knew that a person's eyes could make him so uncomfortable, even making it difficult for him to breathe.

Why would she never give in to him?

She had no idea that as long as she was willing to admit that she had some feelings for him, even if it was only a little bit, he would be willing to do anything for her, but she was so cruel!

Xiao Guanxue harbored resentment towards her in his heart. He resented her for doing anything to thank him, and also resented her for taking advantage of him.

But if there is no love, where would the resentment come from? People always have higher requirements for the person they truly like than for ordinary people. They require her to care about themselves, like themselves, and trust themselves. He does not ask her to treat him the same way she treats Xie Yu, but she is full of calculations and revenge towards him.

Xiao Guanxue pinched his fingers tightly. Although he expressed resentment, he still couldn't bear it in his heart. So he came to Nan Yan's yard early this morning, wanting to talk to her in detail and explain what happened yesterday. But when he arrived, he found that there was no one in the yard.

Xiao Guanxue was stunned for a moment, but didn't know where to find her.

At this time, a child about ten years old was sitting under a tree outside the yard, eating a bag of pine nut candy happily.

When the little boy saw Xiao Guanxue enter the yard, he remembered what the beautiful sister had told him before, so he walked up to her with the bag of snacks and asked, "Brother, are you here to look for that beautiful sister?"

Xiao Guanxue recognized the child as her next-door neighbor, whom she had seen several times during previous consultations. When she heard him say this, she immediately stepped forward and asked, "You saw that sister, do you know where she went?"

The child, with his mouth stuffed full of pine nut candies, blinked at him and then replied honestly, "Well, that sister... is gone."

Gone?

Xiao Guanxue was stunned and asked again and again. After making sure that he had heard correctly, he suddenly felt a pang in his chest. When did she leave? Why didn't she tell him? Did she really hate him so much?

He then asked, "When did she leave? Did she leave alone?"

The child shook his head and said "hmm", then picked up another pine nut candy and stuffed it into his mouth, swallowing it in a few bites. It was so sweet that it hurt his teeth.

"He left last night in a hurry. The big brother with the sword went with my father to the town to buy a carriage. He was very nice and even bought me this bag of pine nut candy."

The little boy proudly showed him the pine nut candy in his hand, with a very happy smile on his face. Because of this bag of pine nut candy, his favorability towards that person increased a lot.

Xiao Guanxue heard him say that the brother with the sword should be thanking him, but why did the two of them leave in such a hurry? They didn't even say hello. Did they really intend to break up with him completely?

When thinking about this, Xiao Guanxue felt as if his chest was filled with endless depression and bitterness. He tried hard to suppress the discomfort in his heart and asked anxiously, "Then do you know why they left?"

The little boy scratched his head, glanced at Xiao Guanxue in front of him, and remembered what his sister had told him. He nodded and continued, "Well... I don't remember it very clearly."

"Oh, I remember now." The little boy thought about it, and suddenly his eyes lit up, and he smiled happily as if he remembered something, "It seems... it's related to some kind of engagement."

"My mother said that my sister and brother are going home to get married. My brother said that he made mistakes in the past, but my sister has forgiven him, so the two of them are going home to prepare for the engagement..."

The teenage boy already understood the meaning of marriage. With a joyful smile on his face, he picked up another pine nut candy and stuffed it into his mouth, "Brother Miracle Doctor, don't you know?"

"I've seen brothers and sisters in the village get married. They get married just like my father and mother. The two of them have many brothers and sisters together. In the future, the brothers and sisters will also have many sisters together..."

The child talked about some other things in a messy way, but Xiao Guanxue felt that he couldn't hear a word he said.

When he heard the news that Nan Yan was going back to marry Xie Yu, he felt his body suddenly go cold.

The medicine bottle in his hand was accidentally crushed into pieces, and the sharp fragments instantly pierced into his palm, causing a piercing pain that quickly spread.

Get married? They are going back to get married!

He suddenly thought of Nan Yan's hesitant look when she came to see him yesterday. Was it true... that she had already made the decision at that time?

No wonder he left in such a hurry, it turned out he was going back to get married.

When he thought of these things, Xiao Guanxue felt as if his chest was suddenly stabbed by a poisonous needle. At first it was just a slight dull pain, but after a while, the pain became more and more intense, surrounding his chest and spreading to his whole body. He couldn't bear the pain so much that he covered his chest and even his breathing became rapid.

But the more it hurt, the clearer his thoughts became. It was really funny that he actually became the one who helped the two people reconcile.

These two people used him over and over again. One was his former best friend, and the other was a woman he truly loved. However, the woman approached him just to get revenge on her fiancé.

Xiao Guanxue felt extremely resentful. She used him and then threw him away, then turned around and married another man. It was obvious that she really had no feelings for him at all.

For a moment, he really wanted to kill Xie Yu, then snatch her back and lock her up in Yaowang Valley, to make her regret, to make her despair, to make her suffer for the rest of her life.

But whenever he thought about the fact that she had no feelings for him at all, he felt a tearing pain in his chest. His whole body began to hurt, and he trembled slightly. The only thing he could remember was that she was going to marry Xie Yu...

He was in a trance and thought of the scene when the two of them were on the cliff. She jumped down with him without hesitation. What was she thinking at that time? Was it all a plot? But if it wasn't a plot, then what was it? She even plotted her own life to avenge Xie Yu.

Do you really like thanking me so much?

I like you so much that I don't care about anything else.

...Why can't it be him?

What Xie Yu can do for her, he can do too, he can even do it better than Xie Yu, so why can't she like him?

Xiao Guanxue didn't know what his mood was at the moment. Jealousy, anger, resentment, countless emotions surged into his heart in an instant, but what made him most sad was her leaving!

She didn't even want to tell him what she thought of him as, a toy to be summoned and sent away at will?

The more Xiao Guanxue thought about it, the more unbearable it became. He felt as if his mind was split in two, one for him to hate, rob, and take revenge.

The other one made him more rational. He thought that the woman had no feelings for him and even if he really pestered her, he would only be a shameless clown. These two voices kept arguing and entangled with each other, making his head hurt more and more.

It was not until someone called his name from behind that Xiao Guanxue was suddenly awakened, as if from a nightmare, with cold sweat covering his forehead.

Su Mo rushed forward and held his hand. "Brother Xiao, what are you doing? Don't you feel anything when your hand is injured like this?"

Su Mo saw the muddy patch on his palm and immediately felt distressed and her eyes turned red. "Are you a fool? Even if you are unhappy, you shouldn't take it out on your body. What kind of ability is it to torture yourself like this?"

She instinctively went to check his hand.

But the other party raised his hand and slapped it away with a loud bang.

Su Mo was stunned, as if she had not expected Brother Xiao to be like this.

Xiao Guanxue's fingers paused slightly, his eyes were gloomy. He didn't do it on purpose, but his body instinctively rejected her approach.

"What's wrong?" He quickly withdrew his fingers and turned to look at Su Mo beside him. His expression was indifferent, and no one could tell that he had any emotional ups and downs.

Su Mo felt an extremely strange feeling in her heart. She had never seen Brother Xiao so cold before. It was as if she had never understood him.

She also heard what the child said just now and knew that Xie Yu was going back to marry Gu Nanyan. In fact, she should have understood it long ago, as it was made very clear last time in Yizhuang.

可心底總存着幾分期盼，到底在期盼着什麽，甚至連她自己也不知道？

直到聽見顧謝二人回去準備成親的事情後，蘇茉這才終于明白了，明白她和謝遇之間再也不可能了，她已經徹底失去謝遇了，所以她絕對不能再失去蕭大哥。

她知道自己很自私，可感情從來都是自私的事情，她心底隐約明白，或許蕭大哥以前是喜歡過自己，但那日他說的話多半是含了與顧南嫣賭氣的成分在，他心底應當是有幾分在意顧南嫣的。

蘇茉心底湧出些許煎熬，她甚至不敢直接問他那天說的話到底是不是真的？

她怕自己會得到一個難以承受的結果，她不甘心，真的很不甘心，為什麽顧南嫣一出現，所有她在意的、喜歡的人都要被搶走？

她不知道自己對于蕭大哥是什麽感情，喜歡是有的，但更多的是依賴，在她徹底失去謝遇之後，蕭大哥是她唯一可以依靠的人了，何況他對她也是有幾分喜歡的不是嗎？

倘若不是真心喜歡過，又怎麽會在一開始為了她和顧南嫣那等肆意妄為的心機女子虛與委蛇呢？

她有信心，只要蕭大哥願意和她在一起，她一定會讓他重新喜歡上她的。

她如今已經什麽都沒有了，上次刺殺的時候就已經确定了，魔教的殺手甚至連她也不放過，可想而知她如今的處境，所以她只能緊緊抓着蕭大哥不放了。

蘇茉心思緒翻轉間，心中的那個念頭反倒愈發清晰了，既然謝遇都要娶別人了，那她為何就不能嫁給蕭大哥呢？

于是她說道：“蕭大哥，謝遇要和顧姑娘不告而別了是嗎？他們……要回去成親了對嗎？”

蕭觀雪眸色微冷，目光不經意間對上她的眼，似乎想看透她心底最深處的想法，“你想說什麽？”

蘇茉下意識地捏緊了手指，手心裏沁出了些許汗水，她不敢直接問他，所以只能用那些話來刺刺他。

“顧南嫣從一開始就只是在利用你，她利用你來報複謝遇，昨日的事情，你不必覺得愧疚的……蕭大哥。”

“所以呢？” 他面無表情的問。

蘇茉深呼吸了一口氣，這種事情對于女子而言，還是有些難以開口的，她臉頰微紅，心底有些緊張。

“蕭大哥，你娶我好不好？他們都要成親了，我們自然也可以放下過去的。”

蕭觀雪毫無波瀾，眸色平淡地看着她，“你現在不喜歡謝遇了？”

蘇茉心尖一顫，心想他果然是在意自己的，否則也不會介意她跟謝遇之間的事情了。

她搖頭道，心底終究有些酸澀，“他已經有喜歡的人了，我和他沒什麽的，一直都只是朋友而已。”

蕭觀雪似極輕地嗤了一聲，聲音輕到蘇茉還以為是自己的錯覺，還沒反應過來，便又聽到對方略帶些諷刺的聲音道。

“所以他不要你了，你就來找我？”

蘇茉神情有些僵硬，不知道他這話是什麽意思，只愣愣地看着他。

而蕭觀雪略微皺了眉，似乎想到了什麽，眸色漸冷，緩了緩神後又恢複過來，面色一如往常的平靜漠然。

“好啊，你若願意的話，我娶了便是。”

蘇茉聽了這話又有些愣住。

她忐忑不安抛棄尊嚴詢問的事情，他居然這麽随随便便的就答應了嗎？

沒有經過深思熟慮，沒有糾結猶豫，甚至連想都沒想，就這樣随意的答應了？這算什麽？

蘇茉也不知道這到底算什麽？

可這個結果，并沒有讓她心中感到歡喜，反倒隐隐有些難堪，仿佛她心心念念在意着的事情，在他眼中只是一句無關緊要的玩笑而已。

難道……這也是因為顧南嫣嗎？

而在另一邊的謝遇緊趕慢趕，在路上耗費了大半天的時間，終于回到了明月山莊。

這一路上南嫣都在昏睡中，即便是醒來，不過片刻後又睡過去了，身體愈發虛弱了。

而在得知自己的女兒性命正處于危急之時，顧父更是氣得差點沒一掌打死謝遇。

他好端端的女兒，怎麽出去一趟就變成了這副性命垂危的樣子？倘若不是這小子将她偷偷帶出去的，她怎麽可能變成這樣子？

顧父怎麽可能不怒不恨？

若非惦記着顧謝兩家的百年交情，只怕他當場就要将謝遇打死了。

而謝家在得知此事後，更是氣得怒不可遏，謝父拿着鞭子對着謝遇又是一頓狠抽，将他抽得生生吐血，還是顧母替他攔了下來。

只是謝父心中仍是愧疚不已，他怎麽就生了這麽個混賬玩意兒。

盡做這些愚蠢至極的事情，當初鬧着要退婚的是他，如今害得他妹妹命在旦夕的也是他。

倘若嫣兒真有個三長兩短，他謝家如何對得起顧家啊。

且不論謝父謝母如何懲罰于他，謝遇都一并受了，全程竟是半句怨言都無，只是這麽一番折騰下來，謝遇也幾乎去了半條命了，他原本就重傷未愈，如今內傷外傷加在一起，瞧着倒是比南嫣還要慘上幾分了。

只是重傷吐血之後，謝遇仍舊不管不顧地趴在南嫣的床前死都不肯離開，誰要碰他一下，他便是一副要同誰拼命的兇狠樣子，衆人又氣又怒，無奈之下也只好随他去了。

而顧家人看到他這般模樣，心底怨氣也終究是少了些，畢竟再怒再恨，也不可能真的将人打死，否則女兒只怕是要傷心的。

不過任憑他們如何詢問，謝遇始終不說南嫣是因何而病的，只說全是他的錯，都是因為他才會變成這樣，這話也确實是真的，因而顧家上下都看他極為不順眼。

可謝遇卻不在乎，這段時間裏，他只一心守在南嫣身旁，小心翼翼地照顧着她，祈求她能夠早日醒來。

而南嫣在昏迷了三日之後也終于醒了，只不過人雖然醒了，意志卻更加消沉了。

謝遇看着那張憔悴的病容，每天都在擔心她下次睡着之後會不會再也醒不過來了。

他至今都不知道那天到底發生了什麽事情，為什麽嫣嫣會崩潰到那種程度？可那樣的她，讓他還怎麽放心将她交給別人，所以解除婚約的事情便一直沒提。

他內心期盼着，興許等嫣嫣某一天想通了，放下了，她會願意再給他一次機會呢？

不過這個機會他沒等到，卻等來了另一個消息，藥王谷的神醫蕭觀雪要娶親了，娶的女子身份特殊，似乎與魔門頗有些淵源。

謝遇知道他要娶的人是蘇茉，他将這個消息隐瞞了下來，因為他實在不敢想像嫣嫣得知這個消息之後會有怎樣的反應。

她這段時間裏咳嗽不停，湯藥不斷，身體一直不好。謝遇費盡心思哄她開心，從民間到處搜羅來的小玩意兒，還有些亂七八糟的話本趣聞，每天坐在院子裏讀給她聽，哄她開心，逗她笑，只希望她能夠忘記那些不愉快的事情，別再讓自己這麽難過了。

然而她最開心的那天卻還是他将那枚修補好的玉佩遞給她的時候，這半個月來第一次看見她露出真心實意的笑容。

“謝謝你，阿遇哥哥。”

南嫣朝他笑着。

謝遇卻覺得滿腹心酸，明知道會是這樣的結果，可心底還是忍不住悶疼。

難道除了蕭觀雪以外，真的誰都不可以了嗎？

之後南嫣似乎是來了些興致，開始繡起了小荷包，謝遇起初還以為是繡給自己的，他瞧着那荷包上的一對飛雁。

便忍不住逗她，“嫣嫣的繡技愈發精巧了，這對鴨子倒真是傳神。”

南嫣沒忍住“撲哧”一笑，笑他沒有眼光，便作勢拿針去刺他，“什麽鴨子，這分明是一對大雁。”

見她笑了，謝遇也跟着笑了，“原來是大雁啊，恕哥哥眼拙，實在沒瞧出來。”

南嫣橫他一眼，真拿針過去了，謝遇也不躲開，眼見那針沒紮上來，眼裏反倒露出了幾分可惜之色，心想這苦肉計沒法實現了。

兩人笑着鬧着，眼見嫣嫣心情好了不少，謝遇又忍不住問了句，“這荷包是繡給我的嗎？”

他眼裏露出幾分期盼。

南嫣聞言，動作卻是一頓，捏着針線的手指停了下來，眼睫微垂着，最後只說了句，“我只是，繡着玩的……”

謝遇便明白她的意思了，可他此刻最見不得的便是她這副模樣，手掌下意識地摸了摸人腦袋，故作輕松道。

“瞧你那沒出息的樣，哥哥我還能搶你一個荷包不成，不給就不給，做什麽露出這副可憐巴巴的表情，我又不生你的氣。”

南嫣愣了一瞬，随即抿唇笑了。

只不過，這種和諧的時光很快就被蕭觀雪要成婚的消息給打破了。

聽到那句話時，南嫣手中的針幾乎在瞬間就刺穿了指尖，殷紅的血珠很快沁出。

“你是說，藥王谷的神醫，蕭觀雪……他要成親了？”

The little maid was just telling a joke, but she didn't expect her mistress to care so much about it, so she told her all the news she had heard recently, "Yes, mistress. It has been spread all over the martial arts world that the miracle doctor of Medicine King Valley is going to marry a woman named Su Mo. I heard that many martial artists went to congratulate him."

"Is he really going to get married?"

Xie Yu heard the noise outside and came in. When he pushed the door open, he saw Nan Yan's pale face without a trace of blood. She looked at him in despair, "You already knew it, didn't you?"

People can't cry when they are extremely sad and hopeless. Xie Yu felt a sharp pain in his heart when he saw her unable to even cry.

He pressed her into his arms and whispered to her, "Yanyan, don't be like this. Just cry it out and forget about him after you're done crying. Don't torture yourself like this..."

Nan Yan shook her head, her voice unusually hoarse, "I can't forget it. Can you take me to Yaowang Valley? I have something to say to him."

Xie Yu was scared, he thought of Yanyan's devastated look when she came back from visiting him before, she couldn't stand the torture anymore. No, he couldn't take her with him, she would die!

Xie Yu turned his head away and rejected her request, "No, I can't take you there..."

Nan Yan reached out and held his hand, her voice light and light, gradually becoming relieved and calm, "Brother Yu, take me with you. If you don't go, I'm afraid I will never forget him in my life."

"I just took his things and wanted to return them to him. Don't worry, I won't do that again this time."

She suddenly whispered, "Brother Yu, I promise you that after this time, I will forget about him. Let's... start over, okay?"

There was a long silence in the air...

After a long time, she heard a hoarse voice, "...Okay, I promise you."