Chapter 84 [VIP] Best Friend's Shield (22)
After Nan Yan finished saying that, she staggered and fled from the hospital almost like a wolf. She didn't care about the reactions of the two people behind her or what they said. She just wanted to leave here quickly and walk far away, as if only in this way could the pain in her heart be slightly alleviated.
The two people in the hospital just watched her walk away.
Fu Qingzhou's eyes were gloomy. He stood there for a long time, staring at Nan Yan's thin and miserable back, which was covered with a layer of halo in the sunlight, and disappeared around the corner. Then he squatted down and carefully picked up the thermal box on the ground.
When the two returned to the ward, Fang Wanrou seemed to sense that something was wrong between them. She slowly moved over and wanted to hold his hand. "What's wrong?"
Fu Qingzhou dodged her finger directly, turned his head and stared into her eyes, and said coldly, "Don't do that again."
As soon as the words came out, Fang Wanrou's eyes immediately turned red, and a layer of mist quickly filled her eyes. Her emotions began to become unstable again, "What? Tell Nan Yan that we are getting married? But this is the fact. You promised me, why can't I tell it?"
As soon as the topic of marriage came up, Fu Qingzhou inevitably felt a little repulsive. He frowned and almost subconsciously retorted, "But you know that I..."
Before he could finish the rest of his words, he was interrupted by Fang Wanrou crying. She looked up at him, as if all the anger that had been accumulating in her heart was suddenly released.
"Yes, I know. I know you like her, but I still want to be with you regardless! I have thrown away all my self-esteem and face. I told myself that I can impress you, and I even gave up my dignity for this. You even stepped on me in the mud, but why can't you let go of someone who has been deceiving you?"
"I really don't understand. She's been deceiving you all along. Why won't you let her go?"
Fang Wanrou couldn't hold back her tears as she spoke, and even her voice trembled a little. "I don't want to, and I don't want to be like this."
"But do you know that the way you look at her really makes me feel that you might leave me one day? Qingzhou, I really have nothing left now. I only have you. Don't treat me like this, okay?"
Looking at Fang Wanrou, who was about to collapse emotionally, Fu Qingzhou suddenly felt extremely depressed. He felt as if he was stuck in a quagmire and could never get out of it. Wanrou was like his responsibility now, and he couldn't just abandon her. After all, she was injured because she saved him. How could he...
Fu Qingzhou took a deep breath and suddenly felt his brain was a little tired. He thought of what Wanrou said, and also thought that Nan Yan had been lying to him from beginning to end. Whenever he thought of this, the blood vessels in his head began to roar again, and all the impulses in his heart seemed to disappear in an instant.
It also made him suddenly feel like he should just compromise. Perhaps this was the best outcome, and perhaps Wanrou was the person he should love the most.
He shouldn't fall in love with a liar again, and he shouldn't be so upset just because she shed a few tears.
Thinking of this, Fu Qingzhou's mood recovered a lot. He reached out and held Wanrou's hand, soothing her in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry, I didn't pay attention to your feelings. I won't say such things again in the future. You should rest first. You still need to check your body later. I'll buy you some food."
After saying this, Fu Qingzhou let go of her hand, and without waiting for Fang Wanrou to say anything else, he picked up the phone on the table and opened the door to go out.
Fu Qingzhou left the ward and walked to the stairs. Thinking of the burns on Nan Yan's legs when she left and her pale face, he glanced at his cell phone and finally couldn't help but call her, but no one answered.
On the other side, Nan Yan had just walked out of the hospital gate when she felt a burning pain on her legs. This freshly cooked bone soup was no joke. Most of it spilled on her legs. Fortunately, she wore thick pants, otherwise she probably wouldn't be able to leave the hospital today. However, the show had to go on.
When Nan Yan stepped over the steps at the door, she felt her knees bend uncontrollably. If someone hadn't helped her in time, she would have fallen to the ground on the spot.
"careful!"
Jiang Shaoyan didn't know how long he had been following her, but seeing that she couldn't even stand steadily, he almost subconsciously rushed over, his tone filled with anxiety and concern.
"Why are you still walking around with your injured leg? You're already in the hospital, why don't you go see a doctor?"
Jiang Shaoyan didn't say much. He carried her to the stone bench next to him and sat her down. He didn't care about her resistance at this moment and directly opened her pants legs. Until he saw that her legs were burned red and there was even blood in some places, his expression suddenly became tense and his tone became much heavier.
"Are you crazy from the pain? Your legs are so burned and you still dare to move! Sit here and wait for me for a while. Sit still and don't move around. I will be back soon, understand?"
After Jiang Shaoyan finished explaining, he turned around and ran towards the hospital without waiting for her reply. Fortunately, the distance was not far and the round trip took less than ten minutes. He ran out of breath and bought two bottles of burn ointment. Without saying anything more, he squatted down and began to treat the burn on her leg.
There was no hesitation during the whole process. He moved very cautiously and carefully, fearing that he would hurt her if he used too much force. The expression on his face had not changed from the beginning until now. His brows were wrinkled. From time to time, he asked her if it hurt, and occasionally he lowered his head and blew gently on the wound on her leg.
Nan Yan's face turned pale. She pursed her lips, and her expression barely changed. Her eyes fell on his face, and her lips moved. After a long while, she asked, "Don't you hate me very much? Why do you still pretend to do these things?"
Maybe because she had just cried, her voice sounded a little hoarse, as if covered with a layer of sand.
Jiang Shaoyan paused, but did not look up. Instead, he continued to apply the last layer of ointment on her. Then he said with a trembling voice,
"I've never hated you..."
"Haha...really?"
As soon as he finished speaking, Nan Yan looked up at him. She couldn't help but chuckle at herself, "Didn't you give that recording to Fang Wanrou? If you didn't hate me, why did you do those things?"
Tears soon gathered in her eyes, and the smile she forced was extremely ugly, with big tears rolling down her cheeks.
"I really don't understand what you want to do. Why do you always destroy my happiness with your own hands when I am happiest and most expectant? It was like this the first time, and it was still like this the second time. When I loved you so much, you used me and then abandoned me. In your eyes, I am not even as good as a hair of Fang Wanrou. You loved her so much that you even pushed me to someone else for her..."
The more she spoke, the more she felt wronged. Her tears flowed even harder and she almost collapsed.
"Have you ever thought that I also have feelings? But when I came to my senses, gave up, and finally fell in love with someone else, why did you come and disturb the peace I had finally gotten?"
"I already regret it. I've obviously been very tactful and moved away. I don't dare to ask for anything anymore, and I don't dare to bother you anymore. But why don't you let me go?"
"Jiang Shaoyan, can't you see me happy?"
"Do you hate me so much?"
When Jiang Shaoyan heard these words, he even dared not breathe, and his throat felt dry as if he had swallowed a knife.
"I……"
He really couldn't say a word to defend himself. He knew that he was very selfish and would do anything to achieve his goals, but he really had never thought of hurting her, let alone thinking that leaving Fu Qingzhou would make her so painful.
He just hoped she would forgive him.
He just wished they could go back to the way they were before.
“…Don’t, don’t cry.”
Jiang Shaoyan was so anxious that his hands and feet became unresponsive.
He didn't even dare to touch her now. He just felt as if someone was tightening his heart. Every time he breathed, it was like being pricked by a needle. He finally couldn't hold back his tears and fell.
"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry... I really never wanted to hurt you... I just hope you can forgive me and go back to the way we were before, Nan Yan, can we leave here? Let's find a place where no one knows us and start over... Nan Yan, I really love you..."
He slowly moved closer to her and carefully reached out his hand to wipe away the tears on her face. "Nan Yan, please, can we start over?"
"I'll take you away, and we'll find a new city together. We'll stop caring about their disputes, just like before, with only the two of us. This time I'll love you well and never let you suffer any injustice again, okay?"
After Jiang Shaoyan finished speaking, he looked at her with eyes full of pleading and attachment, unwilling to miss any expression on her face.
Nan Yan took a step back.
She looked up at him and suddenly laughed, tears dripping from her eyes. "If it were in the past, I would be really happy that you said this to me, and I would even wake up laughing in my dreams, but now... it's really too late. Jiang Shaoyan, please let me go, just like the way I left you. Don't pester me anymore, and don't show up in front of me again. Even if I beg you, okay?"
After she finished speaking, she pushed his hand away, refused to look at him again, turned around and left in the direction she came from.
徒留原地的江紹言看着她離開的背影，那一瞬間，仿佛連心髒都失去了溫度。
他好像又回到了小時候父母各自再婚重新組建家庭的時候，雙方誰都不肯要他，他感覺自己好像又回到了小時候那種被所有人都抛棄的辛酸又無助的時刻……
什麽都沒有了，她不要他了，再也不肯原諒他了！
南嫣……
回去之後的南嫣再也沒有去過醫院，也再也沒有給傅清舟打過電話了，兩人之間好像徹底斷了聯系。
兩個月後，方婉柔也終于出院了。除了眼睛上的問題，身上的外傷基本上都已經恢複如常，就連精氣神也比往日好了許多。
出院後的第一個星期，方婉柔就開始忙着籌備婚禮的事情，而這段時間，傅清舟更是在方婉柔的要求下換了工作、也換了住的地方，從前租的那間小公寓已經很久沒人住了，不過并沒有退，只是一直空在那裏。
整整一個星期的時間，傅清舟都在陪着方婉柔挑選婚紗、置辦家居還有一些亂七八糟的事情，可越是随着婚期的臨近，傅清舟心裏那股排斥的心理便愈發難以壓抑。
方婉柔則是沒有察覺到他的不對勁，摟着他的手臂，完全沉浸在挑選婚紗禮服的歡喜中，“清舟，你覺得這件婚紗怎麽樣？适合我嗎？還有這一件，我很喜歡這件的大裙擺設計，拍照的話肯定會非常漂亮！”
傅清舟像往常那樣朝她笑了笑，目光落在展廳中她指着的那件鑲滿水鑽的婚紗上，腦海中不自覺地就浮現出了另一個女孩的臉，他還記得那天晚上的光線不是很好，店裏只留了一盞暖黃色的小燈，她站在一家已經打烊了的婚紗店門口，透過櫥窗玻璃，像個小孩子一樣，一邊對着玻璃哈氣，一邊笑得眉眼彎彎地描繪着那件婚紗的版型，眼中滿是豔羨和期盼，然後湊過去問他那件裙子漂不漂亮？
“很漂亮……”
她穿上的話一定很漂亮。
可惜他當時沒有說這句話，現在好像也沒什麽機會再說了。
方婉柔聽了半天只聽到他說了一句漂亮，這建議說了跟沒說一樣，不免讓她有些好笑，果然男人的眼光沒一個是可靠的，“我是問你哪件更漂亮，你光說個漂亮有什麽用嘛，我又不是全買下來。”
聽到她的聲音，傅清舟這才些許回神，他朝方婉柔看過去，目光在那件鑲滿水鑽的婚紗上流連了很久，然後說了句，“選那件大裙擺的吧，那件更好看一點。”
“是嗎？可我看你盯這件很久了，還以為你也喜歡這件水鑽的呢，不過你真的覺得那件更好看一點嗎？”
方婉柔挑得眼花缭亂，這會聽到他的建議也忍不住停下了對比了兩下，感覺好像都還可以。
傅清舟淡淡的移開了視線，興致好像并不高，“嗯，就那件吧，你挑很久了，那件很适合你。”
方婉柔輕笑一聲，然後欣然同意了。
方婉柔同意了，方家人自然也松了口，一場盛大的婚禮正在緊鑼密鼓地籌備着，方婉柔更是對此表現出了前所未有的熱情。
與之相反的是傅清舟，對于結婚并沒有什麽太多的熱情，反倒是把所有的精力都放在了最新的工作上，整天忙的都不見人影。
而這段時間裏，傅清舟再也沒有見過南嫣，也更讓他确定了，她對他，大概真的就只是一場演戲而已。
傅清舟輕嘲了聲，同時也将心頭的那一絲微痛徹底地埋進了深處，心想這或許就是命中注定，可能他跟婉柔才是最合适的。
偏偏婚禮的前一天晚上，傅清舟接到了南嫣的電話。當時他正在外面給婉柔去買夜宵，回去的路上，正好就看到了站在路燈下等他的南嫣。
已經是十月份的天，晚上的溫度其實有些冷了，她就站在路燈下，鼻尖冷的微微有些泛紅，看到他時，原本落寞的眼裏瞬間爆發出了一絲光亮，然後一路小跑跑到了他面前。
傅清舟沒想到會在這時候見到她，此刻的心情也不知道該怎麽去形容了，因為就連他自己也分不清到底要怎麽樣面對她了。
“在這裏做什麽？”
見她一直不說話，就這麽愣愣地盯着他看，傅清舟還是忍不住問了句，“有事嗎？”
南嫣抿了抿唇，她沒有立刻回答他，而是突然把懷裏一直抱着的包打開了，從裏面翻出一些亂七八糟的身份證、護照之類的證件，還有一些現金，然後像是用盡了自己全身的力氣，聲音有些輕顫的說道，“我們逃吧，一起離開這裏好不好？什麽都不要管了，就我們兩個，偷偷離開這裏，然後重新開始好不好？”
傅清舟的表情頓住了。
他似乎……有些不太明白，她現在說的話是什麽意思？
是指，只有他們兩個人一起，私奔嗎？
“就是你想的那樣！傅清舟，我什麽都不要管了，過去的事情就讓它過去好嗎？我們一起離開，找個新的城市，然後重新開始，好嗎？”
她說這句話的時候其實很害怕，目光緊緊盯着他的臉，不肯錯過他臉上的任何一絲表情。
但傅清舟卻垂了眼。
他不知道這是不是一場新的騙局？
更何況，如果他真的這麽一走了之的話，婉柔她是不是就會徹底崩潰了？他已經害得她失去了一只眼睛，不可能再這麽丢下她不管了，他現在需要考慮的太多了，早已經過了那段為了感情不負責任的年紀了。
他越是沉默，南嫣的手指便捏得越緊，像囚徒面臨審判時的那樣緊張，等待着自己最後的答案。
沉默了許久，傅清舟才擡頭看了她一眼，然後沉穩地說，“我現在不能離開婉柔……”
聽到這個答案。
南嫣卻突然笑了，像掩飾着自己最後的一絲尊嚴一樣，笑得心酸又難看。
她面色蒼白，眼裏的淚光閃爍着，然後手忙腳亂地把東西收好，“幸、幸虧你沒有随便答應我的要求，其實……我也只是跟你開個玩笑而已，哈哈，你看，你是不是差點就上當了？我怎麽可能……會做這種愚蠢的事情呢？這就是個玩笑，我來幫婉柔試探你一下而已的，所以，你千萬別當真了。”
傅清舟一下子就沉默了，他聽見自己問，“真的只是玩笑嗎？”
“不然呢？” 南嫣扯出一個笑，眼中的霧氣好像越來越多了，她輕聲開口，“其實我今天來，是想跟你道歉的，之前騙了你那麽久，給你造成了那麽多傷害和麻煩，可是卻一直都沒有跟你說聲對不起……”
她朝他鄭重地道了聲歉。
傅清舟只覺得胸口悶悶的，不舒服，“已經過去的事，就不用再提了。”
“那你能原諒我嗎？”
傅清舟應了聲，“……嗯，早就不怪你了。”
聽到他這麽說，南嫣似乎又笑了聲，聲音卻變得愈發沙啞了，她問，“既然這樣的話，你能再抱我一下嗎？”
傅清舟的目光落在她臉上，像是有些看不懂她現在的想法了，他沒有同意也沒說不同意，就這麽靜靜地看着她。
而南嫣沒等到他的答應，明明是笑着的，眼淚卻不自覺地從眼角滑落了一滴，“這麽一個小小的要求你都不肯同意，還敢說你早就不怪我了嗎？傅清舟，你果然還是這麽小氣。”
聽到這話，傅清舟嘴角似乎無意識彎了下，在他還沒來得及反應的時候，原本站在那裏的南嫣突然就朝他撲了過來，帶着某種不管不顧地沖動，直接就撲進了他的懷裏，然後雙手緊緊環抱着他的後腰，不肯放松一毫。
傅清舟一時間有些頓住。
就這麽安靜地站着，沒有回抱她，但是也沒有推開她。
因為他聽見她忽然開口說，
“傅清舟，我打算要離開了。”
南嫣說這話的時候，手下的力道越發緊了，連聲音也帶了一絲哽咽。
傅清舟原本下意識地想問她要去哪裏，但想到兩人之間現在的關系，将喉嚨裏原本的話又吞了回去，然後低低“嗯”了一聲。
她眼眶止不住地發酸，繼續說，“我要去一個很遠很遠的地方，以後可能都不會再回來了。”
“離開這裏……也很好。”
“你說，我在那個地方會不會再遇到一個像你一樣喜歡我又肯遷就我一輩子的人呢？”
傅清舟眼睫顫了顫，無意識地捏緊了手指，“或許會吧。”
南嫣輕笑了聲，又說，“那你說，等我遇到他了，我就像他愛我一樣，以後也好好的愛他，再也不騙他了，你說好不好？”
“……好。”
南嫣聽到他說好，眼淚也終于忍不住落下來了，“那你最後再抱我一次，就一次，好不好？”
傅清舟呼吸微頓。
他緩緩擡起手，正要将她擁進懷裏的時候，卻在擡眸之際，看到前方角落裏站着的婉柔，他垂下眼，然後将懷裏的人拉開了。
"Sorry... Wanrou can't stand the stimulation now..."
Nan Yan lowered her eyes to look at her wrist which was being held tightly.
He clearly wanted to push her away, but he still held her hand tightly, unwillingly. Nan Yan even saw a hint of begging and uneasiness in his eyes.
Then she chuckled, tears glistening in her eyes, "Don't worry, I won't leave for now. After all, I will be your bridesmaid tomorrow."
Then she opened his fingers one by one and blessed him softly, "Also, be happy, Fu Qingzhou."