Thinking of this, An Wuyou felt a chill run down her spine.
Indeed, just as Zhou Qingtang and An Wuyou analyzed, she has a severe emotional disorder. She lacks empathy, cannot understand the emotions of normal people, cannot even laugh, and is unwilling to maintain friendship, family, or romantic relationships.
She is good at imitating and understanding other people's thoughts, and is worldly-wise. So she pretends to be "I am cheerful" and "I am a normal person" to maintain a normal life, but in reality it is all an act.
After people leave, their cold side will immediately be revealed.
Before each outing, Zhou Qingtang would practice her smile repeatedly in front of the mirror to make herself look no different from a normal person.
In reality, she was extremely misanthropic, frequently suffered from insomnia, and sometimes even engaged in self-harm...
Zhou Qingtang noticed that since the coffee incident, An Wuyou was no longer chattering in his ear as before.
On several occasions, after Zhou Qingtang saw her, she pretended to be very busy and did not greet her. It was as if she was avoiding her.
However, Zhou Qingtang didn't care about any of this and continued to work and go to get off work as usual.
An Wuyou knew she needed to stay away from people with emotional disorders. From a psychological perspective, such people are generally "crazy," especially someone like Zhou Qingtang who appears normal on the surface but is even more "crazy" when you can't see him.
Haven't there been news reports about a person with severe emotional disorders killing innocent people? Such incidents are not uncommon.
However, during the time she was hiding from Zhou Qingtang, An Wuyou despised herself countless times in her heart.
She made the decision herself, but she's the one suffering.
Upon seeing Zhou Qingtang, An Wuyou wanted to go over and greet her as usual, hoping to see her give him the first smile of the morning.
When I see something I like or something interesting, Zhou Qingtang is the first person I think of. I've already typed out the message, and my hand is on the send button, but I just can't bring myself to press it.
Zhou Qingtang has always been very good to her. Even though she has emotional problems, she has never done anything to hurt herself.
Even if she spilled coffee and stained her clothes, she didn't hurt herself...
An Wuyou suspects that she is just despicable, insisting on uncovering other people's secrets, and then becoming afraid to speculate about others because of these secrets.
It would have been better if she hadn't discovered it back then; now she could still get along well with Zhou Qingtang.
She agonized over this internal struggle for a week before finally deciding to go find Zhou Qingtang.
For some reason, even though she knew that Zhou Qingtang had an emotional disorder and that if he couldn't control himself, he would do things that endangered other people's safety, An Wuyou inexplicably believed that Zhou Qingtang would not hurt her.
She looked up some information and found that emotional disorders can be cured through psychological intervention, although the success rate is slim. But how would she know the result if she didn't try?
After all, she had been an idol for four years, and it was because of her that she made up her mind to take the postgraduate entrance examination. Zhou Qingtang had always been An Wuyou's role model, and she was the guiding light on her path!
How could we let her let her guiding light disappear?
After get off work that day, An Wuyou secretly followed Zhou Qingtang.
The psychologist said that it is necessary to observe the patient's behavior first in order to determine the specific level of the illness.
An Wuyou knew that if she asked Zhou Qingtang directly, she would definitely not tell her, so she simply came up with this clumsy method.
Zhou Qingtang seemed perfectly normal on her way home from get off work, just like any other normal person. She even stopped at a pet store to buy a bag of cat food.
When she walks along the roadside, she will feed any stray kittens she sees.
...
After walking for a while, it seemed we arrived at her apartment building. There were people around who knew her, and they greeted her, and she responded.
If An Wuyou hadn't already made a prediction in her mind, and if it weren't for the psychologist's confirmation, she might have really doubted whether she was overthinking things.
She looked so normal, so incredibly normal.
Saying that Zhou Qingtang has an emotional disorder is less convincing than saying that she has antisocial personality disorder.
An Wuyou only left after observing Zhou Qingtang go upstairs.
It seems I still need to see a psychologist to talk about today's events. An Wuyou noted down the name of the neighborhood and the building, and then left.
However, out of An Wuyou's sight, a pair of eyes were silently watching her through the window.
A gust of wind blew, lifting the window screen and revealing Zhou Qingtang's face.
If An Wuyou saw this, she would be startled, because those familiar almond-shaped eyes were no longer curved, but instead looked like the eyes of a dead person, completely devoid of emotion.
Zhou Qingtang watched An Wuyou's every move downstairs with an expressionless face. She was like a statue standing by the window, not even putting down the bag in her hand.
From the moment she entered the door, Zhou Qingtang dropped her smile and reverted to her usual cold demeanor. She even casually tossed the unfinished cat food she had bought into the trash can.
The room layout was incredibly simple. There wasn't even a TV in the living room, just a simple sofa. Apart from a few essential pieces of furniture, there was very little stuff, even less than the most frugal guy.
Calling this Zhou Qingtang's home is an understatement; it's more like a hotel. It's cold and impersonal, just like Zhou Qingtang now.
Before Zhou Qingtang even left the company, she noticed a little tail following her.
As a somewhat well-known figure in the translation industry, Zhou Qingtang was initially stalked after she became a minor internet sensation due to a fluent spoken translation.
Those so-called fans, under the guise of liking her, did things that hurt her, so Zhou Qingtang had long since mastered anti-stalking skills.
An Wuyou's little tricks are nothing compared to those people back then.
Zhou Qingtang was very clever. Based on An Wuyou's recent behavior and her expression after seeing her, Zhou Qingtang knew that her secret might have been discovered.
I don't know if she's certain or still has doubts; of course, it would be best if she had doubts.
Since she wanted to observe, Zhou Qingtang generously allowed her to observe, taking this opportunity to dispel her doubts.
If it has already been confirmed that she has an emotional disorder, then she should be allowed to observe, so that they may eventually doubt whether they have made a wrong diagnosis.
Zhou Qingtang disliked the feeling of her secrets being discovered; it made her very uncomfortable and irritable.
Zhou Qingtang took out a small trinket that looked like a lipstick from her bag and opened it casually.
Inside was a small knife, specially made for her to carry easily, so that no one would suspect it was a knife if it were in her bag.
Zhou Qingtang skillfully held the knife and slowly made a cut on his arm.
She seemed oblivious to the pain, so calm that it didn't seem like she was cutting her own flesh, but rather like she was creating a work of art, tilting her head innocently as she looked at her masterpiece.
She was crazy. Watching the blood slowly flow out, drop by drop, on the floor, Zhou Qingtang's agitation vanished instantly, and she actually felt a sense of relief.
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