Chapter 140
For dinner that day, Amamiya Keisei prepared a sumptuous meal. After having cooked for the Vongola for several years, his cooking skills had improved a lot compared to what they had done back then. He didn't care whether the two of them could finish the meal or not and just cooked a whole table of dishes.
"Mr. Amamiya, there's so much. If you can't finish it, you'll fall down." Tsushima Shuji was extremely conflicted as he looked at the food in front of him.
"It's okay, you can save it for tomorrow or feed it to stray cats and dogs." Amamiya Rei wiped his hands and smiled gently, "Since we haven't seen each other for so long, I couldn't help but make a little more. You can enjoy it slowly, Shuji-kun."
He sat opposite Tsushima Shuji and looked at the boy gently, his eyes tracing his appearance.
For Tsushima Shuji, they were only separated for nine months, but for Amamiya Tesei, they had not seen each other for more than six years. The boy's face in his memory was even a little blurry. It was not until now that he saw Tsushima Shuji's appearance again, looking at this familiar yet somewhat unfamiliar face, that the impression in his mind gradually became clear.
Boys of this age have not started to grow up yet, and Tsushima Shuji has not changed much from his previous appearance. After studying abroad for a period of time, he is much more energetic than at the beginning. Even the curve of his mouth is just right. The whole person looks like he is glowing. Compared to the gloom in Amamiya Tadashi's heart, the boy in front of him who is pursuing meaning through death in his memory is more full of vitality.
That's great. Amamiya Reishi's expression became gentler, and his blue eyes were like water, as if he was about to shed tears in the next second.
He was so afraid that when he returned, he would see Shuji Tsushima's corpse.
He thought, no matter what Tsushima Shuji thought or did, he should at least leave after him.
Fortunately, fortunately...
"I understand." Tsushima Shuji responded.
The young boy seemed to be very concerned about Amemiya Keisei's gaze. While eating, he secretly glanced at the opposite side. After all, he was a child, and halfway through his meal, he couldn't help but ask: "Why are you always looking at me? And..." with that look.
Tsushima Shuji felt very uncomfortable. Amamiya Keisei had never looked at him with such an expression before. This made him have an illusion that something bad was going to happen to Amamiya Keisei, and he felt panicked.
Did something happen in the past few months? But Taneda-san has been telling him about Mr. Amamiya, and there is nothing wrong.
"Sir, is there something on my face?"
"Nothing, I'm just looking at you." Amamiya Leisheng knew that his expression was not right, but he didn't want to hide it. This willfulness was the last indulgence he gave himself.
The young man narrowed his eyes slightly and smiled: "I feel like Shuji-kun has grown up a lot. It's amazing. We've only been apart for a few months, but I feel like I've seen Shuji-kun grow up."
"I'm only twelve years old. How can I tell what I'll look like when I grow up so quickly?"
Amamiya Ruisei nodded and said, "Yes, it would be nice if Shuji-kun could grow up quickly. I want to see what you will look like when you grow up."
Tsushima Shuji swallowed a mouthful of rice and asked vaguely, "What happened?"
"Hmm? What?"
"Mr. Amamiya looks strange," Tsushima Shuji whispered, "Is it about work?"
Amamiya Leisheng was stunned for a moment, then laughed helplessly and said, "I've already said it, it's nothing."
He tilted his head and looked at the layout of the house. In the past few months, the system-hosted vests usually stayed in Yokohama and rarely came back to this home in Tokyo. Only the housekeeper came occasionally to clean the house. All the things were left intact. They ate here as if they had returned to the past.
"What do you think of this house, Shuji-kun?" Amemiya Reizo asked, changing the subject.
Tsushima Shuji was stunned and said, "Very good."
"Then I'll give it to Shuji-kun. I've already made an agreement with Chief Taneda that when you come of age, this house will be yours."
Amamiya Raisei said, “This way, no matter where you go in the future, whether you go abroad or stay in Japan, Tokyo will be your home.”
His home is not here and has disappeared long ago. This is not his world after all. When he leaves, all his things must have a place to go.
Long before they separated, Amamiya Tadashi had quietly made a will, donating half of his property and leaving the other half to Tsushima Shuji and Oda Sakunosuke.
"Mr. Amamiya, what are you talking about?" Tsushima Shuji frowned. "As for a house, I can buy one myself in the future. If that doesn't work out, I can just live in the dormitory of the Special Service Department. There will always be a place to live."
"It's different, Shuji-kun."
Amamiya Leisei said softly: "Having a home means having roots in this world. No matter where you go in the future, you will always have a place to return to."
"The housing prices in Tokyo are not cheap. Before Shuji saves enough money to buy a new house and own a new home, you can live here first. Everything in this house... will be yours."
His voice was very soft, almost to himself, "Shuji-kun, I hope that on your journey to find the meaning of life, you will not forget that there is a home here waiting for you, waiting for you to come back."
Tsushima Shuji would definitely understand what he meant.
Amamiya Ruisei admitted that such behavior was too despicable, but putting aside those unspeakable thoughts, he really wanted Tsushima Shuji to live a happy life.
Do people live to find their own happiness? Amamiya Reizo doesn't know, but Amamiya Reizo is sure that there must be people in this world who hope that others can be happy.
Tsushima Shuji opened his mouth and called out helplessly: "Mr. Amamiya..."
"Shuji-kun, I forgot if I told you before..." Amamiya Reishi's eyes were a little empty, "At first I wanted to live because of my mother's expectation before she died, so for a long time, I thought I was living for others."
"Afterwards, many people advised me to give up. I gradually began to think about what the meaning of living like this was. Who was I living for?"
"I suddenly thought that I was dragging my body through such a difficult struggle, and it seemed that I was adding burden to doctors and nurses every day, wasting so many resources in vain, and causing sadness and pain to those who cared about me. It turned out that my life had no value and was just wasted."
"One time I stood outside the balcony fence, thinking that it would be over and done with, but death was right in front of me, and I couldn't feel any relief. I was even very scared, afraid that I would really take that step, that step. At that time, I realized that death is such a terrible thing. If I died like this, my life would be denied and turned into a joke."
"Since then, I have been trying my best to survive. What others think is none of my business. I live for myself."
Tsushima Shuji stood up: "Mr. Amamiya...!"
"What is the meaning of life? For me, living itself is a meaning, because if I die, there will be nothing left."
Amamiya Rei reached out and held Tsushima Shuji's arm, looking at him with tears in his eyes: "This is my answer, Shuji-kun."
Tsushima Shuji froze for a moment, then suddenly shook off Amamiya Rei's hand, turned around and rushed out of the house.
The person who stayed where he was did not get up and chase after him. He looked at the open door with hazy vision. He opened his mouth to say something, but blood slowly flowed from the corner of his mouth.
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