Chapter 58

The mission progress has reached 70%, but Amamiya Keisei doesn't feel happy at all.

He sat alone in the office, looking at the documents on the table, his eyes were distracted, and it was obvious that his heart was not on his work.

Two days had passed since that day. During these two days, he and Tsushima Shuji looked the same as before, but Amamiya Keisei had already keenly noticed that something had changed between them.

It was as if the barrier that had not been obvious during the months he was in a coma had finally erupted. Whether it was Tsushima Shuji, who had lived alone for several months, or him who had returned to his own world and learned about Dazai Osamu, they could no longer get along with each other as freely as they did at the beginning.

It's different now. There's a distance between them. Amamiya thought.

For example, when she got up in the morning and Shuji Tsushima went to school, she would refuse to let him take her there. When she came back at night, he would not buy Shuji Tsushima a small cake with a new flavor on the way home from get off work, and he would not make two cups of hot milk, one for each of them, before going to bed.

Yu Gong Leisheng half closed his eyes and let out a long sigh.

Tsushima Shuji's self-destructive tendencies became more and more serious. He had already shown such signs before he fell into a coma. He acted alone and allowed himself to get into danger. It became more and more serious in those few months, and he didn't even care about the injuries.

By now... Shuji Tsushima could jump into the sea in front of him.

Without hesitation, he crossed the protective fence and jumped into the sea decisively. Even though this terrifying water had come very close to taking his life, Tsushima Shuji did not feel the slightest fear.

Did he not do well enough? Amamiya Ruisei was a little confused and frightened. Was it because he did not pay enough attention to Shuji-kun? Was it because he was not there when he needed company and help the most? Or was it because he could not understand his thoughts?

Why do people choose to commit suicide?

Amemiya Keizo searched the internet and the answers he got were nothing more than mental illness, psychological illness, and unhappiness in life leading to suicidal thoughts, but he understood that Tsushima Shuji was not in any of these situations.

Tsushima Shuji could have jumped into the sea yesterday and jumped off a building tomorrow, as if he had some purpose and question in mind, wanting to get answers from death.

This is his way, but Amamiya Keisei doesn't think it's right.

[Does Shuji want to find his answer by committing suicide?] Amamiya Rei couldn't help but complain to the system, [But I don't agree with this way of hurting myself.]

Amemiya struggles to live in this world with great difficulty. In his opinion, no matter what questions and confusions he has, only by living can he have the chance to find the answers. Death is death, and when death comes, there is nothing left.

The system didn't know what to say, so it could only say: "I am just an artificial intelligence, I don't have the concept of life and death. As long as my cloud data is not formatted and cleared, I will not die in the human definition, so I don't quite understand the host's doubts."

[But don’t humans often say that they don’t understand, but they can respect. I think everyone has their own different lifestyles. The host wants to live, while the mission goal is more inclined towards death. This is all very normal.]

[Since the host has made up his mind and has told Tsushima Shuji,] the system said, [then do it your own way.]

Amamiya Ruisei closed his eyes and said in disappointment: [That's what I said, but I can't always be with Shuji-kun. What if I can't save him in time and he dies?]

He murmured: [Even if death doesn’t matter to the person himself, it may not be the case for the person facing death.]

Amamiya Reizo wasn't sure if, if Tsushima Shuji really succeeded in committing suicide one day, and instead of jumping into the sea he jumped off a building and turned into a pool of minced meat, he would still be able to remain rational and not let his special abilities go out of control and tear apart everything within his sight.

[I'll give it a try and see if I can change Shuji's mind.]

At least now, he felt that Tsushima Shuji was not yet at the point where he had to die.

Because the other person asked for help before jumping into the sea.

Amamiya Leisheng pursed his lips, raised his hand and patted his face, trying to cheer himself up: "Okay, we must work hard, and we will find a way to keep us alive."

"Speaking of which, Shuji-kun accepted another solo mission today," the young man rummaged through a pile of mission documents beside him, "and he left without even bringing his own people. He should be back soon by now."

He flipped through it for a while, found out Tsushima Shuji's task list, and found the task he had accepted today.

Most of the single-player missions were intelligence investigations before the action, which should have been given to Sakaguchi Ango, but were intercepted by Tsushima Shuji. Amamiya Ruisei took a look and thought that they were not very difficult and there was no danger. Considering the time, it was time for him to return.

"Well, I'll wait for him at the door. I'll cook beef for him tonight." As Amamiya Leisheng thought about it, he stood up and walked out, muttering to himself, "We have to do it step by step. Don't be impatient. I hope I have enough time."

He is only 10% away from the 80% dividing line. At that time, he will probably choose to entrust this pseudonym to others. It would be great if he could make Tsushima Shuji pay more attention to him during this period of time. Otherwise, he will have to run back and forth between the two worlds.

"Mr. Amamiya!"

Just as Amamiya Raisei was about to approach the door, he saw Sakaguchi Ango running over from the other direction, panting and calling out, "Finally I found you. You didn't answer my phone call just now, and I didn't see you when I went to the office."

Amamiya Reizo was stunned for a moment: "Ah, I was just about to go to the door to wait for Shuji-kun. Isn't he about to finish his mission and come back?"

"He's already back." Sakaguchi Ango said hesitantly.

"Being, being carried back."

"…What?"

The surroundings suddenly became quiet. After a long while, Amamiya Ruisheng finally spoke: "What happened?"

The young man's face suddenly darkened. Sakaguchi Ango shrank his neck and said quickly, "It's all right now. He's been rescued and out of danger. He'll probably wake up soon. I'll take you there."

Amamiya Lei became active and headed for the infirmary past Sakaguchi Ango. The boy quickly followed him and explained, "The mission went smoothly. We didn't encounter any dangerous enemies, and no one hurt him."

"Just, just..." Sakaguchi Ango hesitated.

Amamiya Reizo: "It's just that the injury was caused by Shuji-kun himself, right?"

Sakaguchi Ango fell silent.

As they were talking, they had already arrived outside the infirmary. Amemiya Leisei looked through the window at the pale boy lying on the bed. His gaze stayed on the other's slender arm exposed from the sleeve. The arm was wrapped with bandages in circles, and the blood could be faintly seen underneath.

"He..." Sakaguchi Ango started again, "When we found him, he was in a box, holding a knife in his hand, pointing it at his wrist..."

Amemiya Ruisheng just watched without pushing the door open.

"I see."

He knew that things were different.