Clearing the clouds and seeing the sun
Su Musong had never felt so embarrassed in front of Xiao Luochen before. Although she had cried many times in front of him before, it was always out of impulse and true feelings. This time, Su Musong didn't want to cry, but she couldn't help it. She felt like a resentful woman who had been abandoned. Thinking of this, she felt even more ashamed. She cried heartbreakingly, but she couldn't stop the tears.
Su Musong returned home crying, walking quickly with her head down. She just wanted to get back to her yard quickly to hide, stop crying, and reduce the swelling in her eyes. She didn't want anyone to see her in such a mess. But what she feared came true. Su Muliu, the little evil spirit, suddenly appeared and pestered Su Musong, insisting that he take her to dig winter bamboo shoots.
"Brother, please take me there."
Su Muliu tugged at Su Musong's robe and refused to let go
"Let your second brother take you there."
"My second brother is busy doing the homework assigned by the teacher. Since you don't have time to go to school, please take me with you. Please."
Su Musong was speechless. He didn't expect that in his younger sister's eyes, he would become a lazy and playful person.
"Brother, there's sand in your eye. It hurts so much. You need to rest well. You can't go."
Su Muliu pulled away Su Musong's covering hands and saw that his eyes were indeed red and swollen. Su Muliu was so scared that she quickly let go of his hands.
"Then go and have some rest, big brother."
After tricking this little villain, Su Musong immediately felt relieved and hurried away.
Su Muliu felt that her eldest brother was going blind. He must have said that it was just sand in his eye because he didn't want to scare her. How could it be just sand in his eye when his eye was so swollen? She felt that the situation was serious and she had to tell her mother immediately. So she trotted all the way to Changsun Qinan and told her the news that her eldest brother was going blind.
Changsun Qinan was shocked when he heard this. After asking Su Muliu carefully, he felt relieved to know that Su Musong's eyes should be fine. After settling Su Muliu, he went to Su Musong to check on the situation.
Su Musong's door was closed, and he said he didn't want to see anyone. Changsun Qinan called the coachman and learned that Su Musong had returned home crying from the Prime Minister's Mansion. He then understood a little, so he sent away all the servants and decided to have a good talk with Su Musong.
"Musong, when you were ten, you locked yourself in your room for a whole day and night without eating or drinking, and then collapsed. In the end, I broke open the door and carried you out. Now you are fifteen, and your skills have not deteriorated. You can still break open the door. Do you want to change the door, or do you want to understand your hard work and not let me do it?"
Su Musong did not answer, but the door opened immediately.
Chang Sun Qinan handed the ice pack and handkerchief she had prepared to Su Musong, who had his back to her.
"Apply ice to reduce swelling."
Su Musong took it and still said nothing.
"That girl Mu Liu thought you had hurt your eyes and rushed to tell me. I guessed you were crying, and I was right. Tell me, what made you cry so sadly?"
Su Musong was busy applying ice packs to his eyes, but did not respond to Changsun Qinan.
"Well, since you don't want to tell me, I'll go to the Prime Minister's Mansion and ask him how he wronged you."
Chang Sun Qinan pretended to stand up, and Su Musong grabbed her sleeve.
"Don't go, mother!"
Su Musong knew that Changsun Qinan always kept her word, and it was not the first time she had done something like this five years ago.
"Would you like to tell me what happened?"
Su Musong hesitated for a while, but decided to tell Changsun Qinan everything. He felt mixed emotions and really needed someone to help him clear the fog.
After listening to Su Musong's disjointed account of his interactions with Xiao Luochen over the years, Changsun Qinan came to a conclusion.
"You admire Luo Chen?"
This was undoubtedly the truth. Although Su Musong didn't know how his parents would respond to this matter, he didn't want to deny or cover it up, so he admitted it straightforwardly.
"Yes."
Changsun Qinan had traveled to many countries and had a wide range of knowledge. When she heard Su Musong's admission, she was a little surprised, but she didn't think too much about it.
"What is Luo Chen thinking?"
Changsun Qinan's question hit Su Musong's sore spot, and that was exactly what bothered him. He felt that Xiao Luochen was not indifferent to him, but he didn't understand why Xiao Luochen would rather distance himself from him than admit it.
Su Musong looked at Changsun Qinan with grievance and said
"I have no idea."
From what Su Musong had just said, Changsun Qinan guessed that Xiao Luochen probably felt the same way about Su Musong, but he probably didn't understand yet, or perhaps he just didn't dare to understand. Love is a matter between two people, not to mention that they were still young, and Xiao Luochen and Su Musong might not be on the same path in the future. Everything was still unknown, so although Changsun Qinan saw it clearly, she didn't intend to intervene. It was just that Su Musong needed someone to wake him up. If he was allowed to dwell on this, it would only hinder both him and Xiao Luochen in the future.
"Mu Song, do you know Luo Chen's ambition?"
"He wants to be like his father, assisting a wise ruler and bringing peace to the people."
"If he also likes you, what will you do?"
"I……"
Su Musong then realized that he was just chasing Xiao Luochen for a positive answer, but never thought about what would happen afterwards.
"Announce it to the world and then propose to the Prime Minister? Do you think his father will agree, or will he kick him out of the family? If his parents don't agree, what will you do? Elope with him in a grand manner like that Wujie Master from Yuelong?"
Given Prime Minister Xiao's temperament, if something like this really happened, he would probably want to clean up the mess. Su Musong was very clear about this.
"I know you're not interested in a career in politics, but what about Luo Chen? He'll become a laughingstock, the target of public criticism, and his ambitions will become mere fantasies. He'll spend the rest of his life in anonymity, frustrated and unhappy. Is that what you want?"
“No…don’t!”
If Xiao Luochen fell into such a situation because of him, Su Musong would rather disappear from his sight from then on. No, he would rather never appear in Xiao Luochen's life.
Seeing Su Musong's panic, Changsun Qinan knew that he was probably thinking of some terrible consequences, so in order to appease him, she softened her tone and asked again:
"If Luo Chen clearly told you that he only treated you as a close friend, what would you do? Would you feel unwilling to be entangled with him?"
Su Musong shook his head. He thought he was not the kind of person who would cling to others.
"Or should I just distance myself from him and cut off all contact from now on?"
Su Musong still shook his head in response. He knew that he would never be able to cut off contact with Xiao Luochen.
"Then it's just like before, treating him as a friend. If that's the case, why are you so obsessed with his answer? Regardless of his feelings, your situation will only be worse than it is now, right?"
"But……"
"My child, you and Luo Chen still have a long life ahead of you. I don't want to see you ruin your life or his because of a momentary impulse of youth. Do you understand?"
"Should I stay away from him then?"
Su Musong was like a wounded little animal, looking at Changsun Qinan with wet and sad eyes, which made people feel sorry for him.
"Silly child, the feeling of loving someone is uncontrollable. Even if you want to stay away, you can't help but get close to them. If you forcibly block it, it will be like cutting out your heart and flesh, excruciating pain. If you truly love someone, you should do your best to help them achieve their wishes, rather than becoming an obstacle. If they reciprocate your love, everyone will be happy, but if not, you can't force it, because choosing to love them is your own business, and has nothing to do with him."
"Perhaps one day you'll grow tired and walk away, which is fine, because then the pain will no longer be felt. Or perhaps he'll choose you after all, and then your waiting will blossom and bear fruit, until a happy ending. However, this happy ending may take a very long time. No matter what you decide, remember not to hurt him, and even more so, not to hurt yourself. Do you understand?"
Changsun Qinan did not want to simply comfort Su Musong, nor did she want Su Musong to follow the path she had designated, so she pointed out the possible results and left the rest to Su Musong to decide for himself.
After listening to this, Su Musong was silent for a long time, and then he seemed to suddenly figure something out, and his eyes became rarely seen firm.
"Well, I know what to do."
Su Musong was not a stupid man. With just a little guidance from Changsun Qinan, he sorted out his thoughts. He knew how to deal with himself in the future, and he also roughly understood the path that he and Xiao Luochen should take.
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