Chapter 61 Thoughts
If she were a simpler girl, she would probably ask "What are you playing?" without understanding
. If she knew more, she would probably find his words very offensive and strongly deny them.
But she actually asked him how to play?
Does that mean...she actually wanted to play with him too?
But he came to her with the intention of taking her to see a starry night.
Shen Yan was entangled between pure love and pure desire, and thought it would be better to go along with her.
He put down the storybook in his hand, walked towards her slowly, and tentatively kissed her on the forehead.
Shen Yan stared at her carefully, and when he saw that she did not dodge, he mustered up the courage to take the initiative to hold her waist and hold her in his arms.
The cool plum fragrance enveloped her, and Ning Yuan's figure suddenly froze.
He continued to lower his head and kiss her, kissing her eyes, kissing the tip of her nose, until he kissed her full lips. He narrowed his eyes slightly and saw her eyelashes fluttering like butterflies. She let him hold her, thinking that maybe she was just such a passive person.
She didn't resist him, so she had acquiesced to his closeness.
Ning Yuan's thoughts were a little confused.
When facing Shen Yan, she didn't seem to be on guard.
Maybe it was because of her trust in him, or maybe she saw his ambiguity just after taking a shower, or maybe he really made her feel comfortable that day.
In short, even the cool breeze blowing in from the window seemed just right.
She subconsciously opened her lips slightly.
Even if it was just an extremely subtle response, it would be magnified several times between two people who were so close.
Shen Yan's cautious heart was suddenly encouraged.
The ends of her hair were still wet, and the smell of her body was stronger than usual. He held the back of her head with one hand, and the tip of his tongue easily slid between her lips and teeth, while the other hand fumbled to fiddle with her belt.
The rubbing of the fabric and his fingertips made her waist itch.
Just when she thought it would be better to let it go, her thoughts suddenly came back.
"No."
Sooner or later she would leave all of them, how could she let herself sink like this.
She breathed a little faster, raised her hand and pushed Shen Yan away.
She looked up at him and saw that there was no surprise in his eyes.
He seemed to accept her intimacy very easily, and accepted her alienation very easily, as if she could do anything.
He didn't even ask her why she couldn't do it.
At this moment, she almost doubted whether he didn't like Ning Yuan. He
was just obsessed with her and wanted her body.
If she was willing, it would be great, but if she wasn't willing, it didn't matter.
Ning Yuan didn't know why, but she felt unhappy. She threw off the quilt and lay back on the bed, and ordered him to leave: "I'm going to sleep."
She tried to calm her turbulent heart, and then she thought belatedly - why didn't she reject his invitation at the beginning?
Maybe he was not bad in that aspect.
Or maybe she seemed to have gotten used to this man who often appeared by her side.
Last time, she even had the idea that it would be nice to marry him.
But the reason why the thought was just a thought was that although he would not hurt her, he would deceive her.
If she really fell into his hands, she would never be able to outplay him in her life.
Relying on his love for her body, she could live well, but those who use beauty to please others will lose their love when their beauty fades.
If he changes his mind one day and falls in love with someone else, her fate would probably not be much better than her mother's.
It's better for men to be less tortuous.
Just like Brother Pei.
It's Brother Pei again.
Shen Yan heard her inner voice and sighed slightly.
He didn't ask her because he knew what she was thinking, and he always believed that such things should be consensual.
If she wanted, he would accompany her, and if she didn't want, he would keep a distance from her that made her comfortable.
She has never had a peaceful life since she was a child, so naturally she would hint that she wants to find a stable person to live with.
This is normal.
But he doesn't think Zixing will be a good match for her.
There are only two reasons why Ning Yuan always wants to break up with him.
First, her father regards her marriage as a bond between the two families, but her mother's unfortunate experience has made her very uneasy, fearing a repeat of the same fate.
Second, the Shen family and even himself seem very complicated to Ning Yuan, while Zixing is much simpler and more straightforward.
But the fact is not so.
Although the Shen family has many collateral branches, his branch is only missing his parents and elder sister, and his interpersonal relationships are very simple.
Zixing's father has two concubines, and there are mysteries in the family.
But no matter what she thinks in her heart, he will not give up on her.
*
Days passed, and Yang Zhiyi, who was now free, became more adept at business, and the money Ning Yuan invested increased several times.
Summer turned to autumn, and on this day, Yang Zhiyi brought her the profit of the previous month.
Ning Yuan thought about it for a while, and estimated that if she waited another month, she would have saved enough money to return the money to the Duke's Mansion.
By then, she and Xiao Xingxing would be able to fly away.
Smoke was curling in the Yangxin Palace. After His Majesty and Pei Zixing explained the matters of the autumn hunt, he glanced sideways at Shen Yan. This book is exclusively compiled for you by the LK team. Shen Yan only stared at Pei Zixing and did not notice the look His Majesty cast on him.
Fly away?
When did he promise her?
"Zhiyu, why are you staring at Zixing?"
Shen Yan said calmly, "From his appearance, I feel that he seems to be hiding something from your Majesty."
Pei Zixing was confused, "What did I hide from your Majesty?"
Shen Yan didn't want to pay attention to him, and said coldly, "It's about Miss Ning."
"...It's not necessary to let His Majesty know about this."
Shen Yan frowned: "Are you really doing something?"
What did she do secretly with Zixing behind his back?
How come he didn't know?
He only knew that she would often ask him for advice on how to play the flute.
Could it be that the voice in his heart is ineffective?
"It's not a big deal, but Miss Ning has been practicing the flute more diligently recently, and she once asked me some questions in a letter."
His brows frowned even deeper: "Do you still exchange letters?"
... Those sincere inquiries he heard in his mind were actually in this way.
Pei Zixing nodded.
"Why, didn't you receive it?"
In the past few days, he has felt that Shen Yan and Ning Yuan have become much closer, and he almost thought that they are about to get married.
Shen Yan was choked for a moment, thinking that Ning Yuan didn't send him letters because they met so often that she couldn't even remember that she could contact him by letter. It
was self-evident which was more important, meeting or writing.
Shen Yan remained calm and said stubbornly, "Of course I have received it."
"Then why are you so surprised?" Pei Zixing said, "I thought Miss Ning had never written to you."
His Majesty observed the two of them, turned over the letter, cleared his throat, and said casually, "Zixing, do you feel some jealousy in the palace?"
Before Pei Zixing could answer, Shen Yan said with a cold face, "Your Majesty may be wrong."
They had long been accustomed to each other's temperament, so His Majesty did not argue with Shen Yan, and said in the manner of an elder brother, "Among all of you here, I am the only married man. Have you and Miss Ning been having problems recently? You might as well tell me, and I'll give you some advice."
"It's no use telling you."
She was thinking of eloping with someone, and who knows what sweet love words were written in the letter that he didn't know about.
Besides, His Majesty and his elder sister were in love with each other, which is different from his situation.
Instead of asking him here, he might as well ask his elder sister what she really thinks.
"I'll take my leave first and go see my elder sister." He stood up and bowed and left.
His Majesty looked at his back, tapped the banquet picture on the desk, and said to Pei Zixing: "Why not let them sit closer to each other then."
The palace was deep, Shen Yan and Shen Heng sat in the pavilion at the end, their slender jade-like fingers tapped on the table from time to time. He pondered for a long time and said: "I..."
"There is a friend."
"..."
Shen Heng almost spit out the tea that he had just held in his mouth.
She said, "May I ask your friend...what's wrong with him?"
He frowned and whispered, "He has a fiancée like me."
"But unlike me, his fiancée doesn't like him and even plans to elope with someone else."
When Shen Yan said this, she was still shocked for a moment: "I don't believe it."
She knew in her heart that most of the men Ning Yuan had seen in recent days were younger brothers. Occasionally, they would talk to General Pei more when they entered the palace, and they were all polite and decent.
Ning Yuan was such a quiet, introverted, smart and cautious person. Even if she really liked the man beside her, she would not be with him regardless of anything. She would definitely handle everything properly before expressing her feelings.
"Maybe there is some misunderstanding here..." She looked at him tentatively.
"There's no misunderstanding." He said, "I knew it a long time ago that she... Oh, my friend's fiancée, has a crush on that man, but her family relationships are complicated, and she needs someone who can suppress her elders and take on important tasks for her, and my friend is obviously more suitable."
"Then you...did your friend do that?"
"Of course she did."
Shen Heng asked puzzledly: "Since you have paid so much for her, why hasn't she been moved and why would she like someone else?"
Shen Yan choked and said, "If I knew, why would I ask you?"
Shen Heng pondered for a moment: "Then does she know that you like her?"
This book is exclusively compiled for you by the LK team "Hasn't she always felt this way in her heart?"
She thought from the beginning that she was deeply in love with him.
"So... you've never confessed your feelings?" Shen Heng's eyes widened.
"... No."
"Stupid!" Shen Heng stood up, "No matter how well she knows in her heart that you only treat her well, but she never says it out loud, it's all ambiguous."
She understands this brother.
His actions always speak louder than his words, and Ning Yuan has never had a sense of security since she was a child, and doesn't like to guess how much truth there is in the already illusory feelings.
Compared to caring in actions and cold words, she will definitely be more inclined to firmly choose her kindness regardless of inside and outside.
She would rather hide her heart than dare to muster up the courage to take a gamble.
Shen Yan said: "Since she doesn't like me, wouldn't it be humiliating if I said it?"
Shen Heng was simply angry: "She is going to elope with someone else, what do you still need your face for?"
"Will you die if you say a few more nice words?"
Shen Yan pursed his lips and corrected: "It's not me, it's a friend of mine."
"Okay, your friend."
Shen Heng said helplessly.
"In short, please ask your friend to learn how to express your feelings with words."
Shen Yan didn't understand.
This book is exclusively compiled for you by the LK team. It is said that men who speak sweet words are not good, and they should do more practical things. Why doesn't it work with him?
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