Chapter 82 Voice of the Heart

The sound of rain outside the window was still there, and the candlelight reflected Shen Yan's already lighter pupils, as if spreading layers of ripples in them.

He didn't expect that these words would evoke the part of Ning Yuan that he had ignored in the past, and he was a little ashamed to talk about these things.

If she knew that his initial concern for her was just due to an accident that he couldn't explain -

he suddenly could hear her voice.

She would find that his understanding of her from the beginning was passive, and his help to her also began with his impatience with her noise.

Would she be disappointed in him?

He knew very well that he could no longer bear the cost of losing her.

But after what happened tonight, he didn't want to hide anything from her anymore.

In the past, he boasted of being stable and felt that he was both a teacher and a senior to her.

If she were a flying bird, he would want to be a big tree for her to temporarily take shelter from the wind and rain, allowing her to grow under his protection.

But her growth speed seemed to exceed his expectations.

It was not until she flew out of the tree canopy that he suddenly realized that she was not willing to be a canary perched on a branch, blindly obeying all his arrangements.

When faced with an emergency, she would fight, use her brain, and even try every possible way to save herself.

In this way, his concealment would become a danger to her.

He couldn't do this.

After a long while, Shen Yan said, "I'll tell you a secret."

"I can hear your inner voice."

Ning Yuan lay on his shoulder, blinked, and said "Oh" softly, then asked him, "What was I thinking just now?"

"...How should I know?"

He frowned slightly, and soon realized that she thought he was joking, and hurriedly said seriously, "If you don't believe me, I can give you a few."

This book is exclusively compiled by the LK team for you "You always called me an unlucky thing in your heart in the past."

"..."

Ning Yuan lowered his head with a guilty conscience.

"You still like to look at handsome men, and you are still considering whether you like it in your heart." He said without changing his expression.

Although the tone was as plain as always, Ning Yuan inexplicably heard a little jealousy from it.

"......How could I? Besides, everyone loves beauty. Don't you like to look at it?"

"When did I look at it?"

"Don't you secretly look at me every time you see me?"

Ning Yuan said in surprise.

Having said that, she lowered her eyes and swept down his chest, and said firmly: "And you are much more lustful than me."

Shen Yan took a deep breath and continued: "You always think you are very beautiful."

"...But I'm very beautiful."

"Yes, very beautiful, so I even admire myself in the mirror."

"Oh, what were you thinking about at that time--"

She raised her hand to cover his mouth, her eyes flushed with shame: "Okay, don't say anymore."

He pulled her hand away: "Do you believe it now?"

"...I believe it reluctantly."

"So, you ask me if I was scared at that time, I can tell you seriously, I was anxious, but I was not afraid."

His fingers wrapped around her cheek and pinched her hair.

"I'm sure I can save you, so how could I be afraid?"

"I would feel heartbroken and angry, but I wouldn't be afraid."

"But later, for some reason, I couldn't hear it anymore."

"That time when I could hear your voice, it seemed like a dream created by God to favor me. Everything was back to normal after I woke up."

"I was a little uncomfortable at first, so I learned to ask you and express myself actively, but I was still a slow learner."

"Until tonight, when I opened the door and didn't see you, I realized that I was really panicked."

"I regret why I didn't explain everything to you clearly, why I let you go back to the room alone, why I took you to Yangzhou... In short, during the time when I couldn't find you, I regretted everything I could regret."

The hand on her cheek trembled slightly.

"So, when you suddenly asked about the past just now, I hesitated for a while, but I still planned to tell you the truth."

He looked at her and said seriously word by word: "You are my wife, you have the right to know everything about me."

"As for knowing it, whether you are disappointed or dissatisfied with the beginning of our relationship, I just hope you can let me make up for it with the rest of my life."

Their eyes met, Ning Yuan looked back at him quietly, as if considering something.

After a long time, she whispered: "I am very happy that you can tell me these things in person."

His slightly frowned brows relaxed: "Aren't you angry?"

"Why should I be angry?"

"Don't you think that this beginning is not pure at all-" "

This is an adventure that belongs to you." She interrupted him rarely.

"It's mine too."

Her voice was very light, like a feather falling on the heart.

"Before this, I thought you were so cold, like a piece of ice that no one could warm."

"But after that, I found that you were not as annoying as you looked. You would care about me and help me a lot, but I just didn't know how to express it."

She was worried about gains and losses for a long time.

At the beginning, she thought Shen Yan was just like many men, coveting her looks and figure. Later, he treated her specially many times, and she began to wonder if he liked her as a person. Sometimes

she felt that he liked her very much, and sometimes she felt that those concerns should not be generally understood as love, especially after he denied it.

She actually wanted to make things clear with him.

But his words and actions were inconsistent, and she couldn't figure it out.

But the answer might not be what she wanted.

She can tell you if she wants a kiss, expensive jewelry, or a lot of money, but she can't tell you if she likes him.

To like someone is to wish him well from the bottom of one's heart, not just to get a positive answer from him.

After all, it's easy to say these two words.

But just now, she suddenly felt it.

He was willing to change for her, to be honest with her, to respect her, and not to treat her like a child.

This book is exclusively compiled by the LK team. Isn't this still love?

It should be.

At least at this moment, she feels that the future of companionship is much more important than the shackles of how to start.

She did not continue to argue, and put her hands around his waist and said, "With your personality, if you can't hear my voice, you'll never understand what I want in your life."

"I wouldn't have discovered that you are actually a very good person. Maybe I would still be in Ning Mansion worrying about how to cancel this marriage with you."

"Come to think of it, it's our matchmaker." This book is exclusively compiled for you by LK team. Shen Yan pursed his lips, kissed her earlobe and said, "I really like you, Yuanyuan."

Perhaps it was the heat of his breath, Ning Yuan's ears turned red.

Shen Yan stared at her with his eyes downcast, and then called out in a deep and tentative voice: "Yuanyuan."

Ning Yuan shyly asked: "What?"

He said: "Okay."

Shen Yan kissed her instantly, like a raging fire that suddenly ignited and swept over her.

She couldn't even respond in time, so she had to endure it.

The raindrops fell on the simple tiles, blurring her thoughts. It wasn't until he completely stripped her that she realized what he was going to do.

"Wait a minute, what are you doing?"

"Didn't you say it's okay?" The hasty kiss fell hastily.

...

Is that how she understood her words?

However, Ning Yuan did not stop her too much, and only reminded her: "You are still injured."

"Don't worry, it's okay."

After not being intimate for a long time, he did not become unfamiliar, but treated her more attentively, until the bed under him made a "creaking" sound.

Ning Yuan bit her lip and looked at him hesitantly.

Shen Yan paused and said: "Maybe it's because no one has lived here for a long time. Don't worry, it just likes to call, it won't collapse."

He tried to move again, and only heard the bed creaking while he moved.

Ning Yuan held his arm and said: "... Other people's rooms shouldn't be able to hear the bed creaking, right?"

Shen Yan was forced to stop again, he said: "The rain is so heavy, I'm afraid I may not be able to hear it even if I lie on the door."

Ning Yuan said "Oh" softly.

Although they had done it many times before, there was an inexplicable awkwardness between the two.

After a moment of stalemate, Shen Yan pulled away and lay down, putting his hand on her lower abdomen. Ning Yuan shrank towards him and did not stop his actions.

After she wrapped his fingers, he said, "As long as you can bear it, there will be no sound."

Ning Yuan: "..."

He rubbed her without any hindrance.

Ning Yuan turned her face away, bit her lips tightly, buried her face in his clothes, and let him move around.

Soon, the man's fingers seemed to be soaked by the heavy rain outside.

He leaned over to pry open her lips, letting the sobbing sound that had been suppressed for a long time come out and be swallowed into his stomach.

He pulled out his hand, turned over and pressed her on the bed.

In line with her soft moan, the bed creaked again.

The candles burned out, and the house fell into darkness. Tonight, the moon was covered by dark clouds, and there was no light.

Perhaps the sound of rain outside the window had become louder, Ning Yuan no longer paid attention to the rhythmic singing of the bed.

She looked at the window, and the window paper reflected the flowers and trees in the spring night.

The flowers in the mountains always bloom more brilliantly, with clusters of flowers, bending the waist of the branches.

The petals were already covered with raindrops, but the raindrops that had accumulated for many days showed no sign of stopping, and hit the petals hard.

She didn't even know when this heavy rain would end.

The room was damp and slightly cool, mixed with rain vapor, flower scent, and some sobering herbs, until she smelled a subtle smell of blood from several scents, then she bit his shoulder hard and tried to push him away.

He took a breath of cool air, stopped and asked, "What's wrong?"

She jumped off the bed, her legs went soft, and she almost fell to the ground.

Fortunately, she held on to the small table, fumbled around, and found the unlit candlestick.

She lit the candle and walked back, her eyes fell on the gauze wrapped around his waist.

The white gauze showed a little scarlet, and although there was not much blood, it could be seen that there was a long cut.

"Didn't you say you were okay?" she asked.

"Really, I'm okay." He took her hand and said.

"Don't be fooled by how scary it looks. It's just a little skin break. It's not deep at all."

Ning Yuan pushed him away and reached out to untie the gauze on his waist: "I did it myself, how could I not know how serious the injury was?"

She casually put on a piece of clothing, sat in front of him, carefully reapplied medicine on the wound, and after changing a layer of new gauze, she looked back at him in confusion: "Why are you trying to be so stubborn?"

He leaned over and kissed her: "It doesn't hurt, I don't feel anything at all."

Ning Yuan pinched the corners of her lips, with some sadness in her eyes.

"...Okay, just a little bit."

"But it really won't hurt if you don't stop."

Ning Yuan was even more embarrassed than him to complain: "How come you're injured, and you still..."

He took her hand and said a little aggrievedly: "I've been enduring it all the way."

After that, he kissed her lips and said: "Can I be gentler later?"

Ning Yuan understood.

How could a heavy rain that had been falling for half of the time just stop?

She sat on the edge of the bed, lowered her eyes to look at him, pointed at the bed as if she had made up her mind, and said to him: "Then lie down."