Chapter 353 Will My Mother Hate Her Three Sons?
Gu Ruanci was silent for a while, her heart was a little confused.
She had always thought that her heart was extremely hard, but now that she heard that Zhou Yuxiu already had a child, and that it was in the belly of a member of the Ye family, she just couldn't bear to harm the child. She didn't even have the motivation to convince herself to be a little cruel.
"Is this why you came to see me today?"
She tried to change the subject and hide her panic for the first time because of the Zhou family.
Fortunately, Zhou Yuxiu didn't notice it and was still immersed in guilt.
"No, if I hadn't heard about what they were discussing, I wouldn't have the nerve to come to you. I know this is a betrayal to the Zhou family. I betrayed my mother back then, and now I'm betraying my father. I don't know what the future will hold. I was wrong back then, and maybe I'm wrong now, but I have to do this to feel better... I know I'm asking you this out of selfish motives. Whether you agree or not, I can accept it. After all, it was my own fault back then..."
There was a hint of pleading in Zhou Yuxiu's words, and his eyes were fixed on Gu Ruanci's face, afraid to miss any of her expressions.
Gu Ruanci took a deep breath and tried to calm herself down.
"I won't make things difficult for the child, but Zhou Yuxiu, what the Zhou family did back then will definitely not be let go like this."
Although her voice was calm, the firmness in it was unquestionable.
Zhou Yuxiu showed a bitter look on his face when he heard this.
Gu Ruanci looked at him, a complex emotion flashing in her eyes.
She had always firmly believed that she would never forgive Zhou Yuxiu, but now, seeing him humble himself for the sake of the child, an inexplicable emotion arose in her heart.
"Zhou Yuxiu, please go. I need some time to think about it."
She finally said, a hint of exhaustion in her tone.
Upon hearing this, Zhou Yuxiu showed a hint of relief on his face.
"Okay, soft words, you have a good rest, I'm leaving first."
After he finished speaking, he turned and left, his back looking a little lonely.
Gu Ruanci looked at his departing back, feeling mixed emotions.
She didn't know whether what she did was right or wrong, but a voice in her heart told her not to let herself be blinded by hatred. Even if the child was born in the future, if he really was not a good person when he grew up, she had the ability to deal with him.
After Zhou Yuxiu left, Lu Enyan, who had been silent the entire time, finally spoke up, "I know Lu Ennan and Lu Wenxue went to the Zhou family, but I haven't found out what they discussed yet. This news from Zhou Yuxiu is really timely..."
Gu Runci did not complain about the delay in Lu Enyan's news this time. From what Zhou Yuxiu said, he had just heard Zhou Zhili and the others discussing and came directly to report the news.
"My Lord, do you think my mother still hated her sons when she was dying?"
Gu Ruanci did not respond to what was just said, but asked a question instead.
Lu Enyan said: "I don't know about this either. You should have been there at the time and should remember her condition at that time."
Gu Ruanci was silent for a moment before she spoke, "I remember that my mother's eyes were closed at the time, because she had already successfully sent me to my master. Her last words didn't mention the three sons of the Zhou family... Maybe she didn't hate them anymore, but she couldn't ask me not to hate them."
Hearing this, Lu Enyan sighed and said, "The dead are gone. Now your opinion is the most important."
"I just think, if my mother knew in the afterlife that I still hate her, would she be disappointed?" Gu Ruanci's voice trembled a little, and it was obvious that this question was not easy for her.
Lu Enyan patted her shoulder gently to comfort her: "You've done very well, Soft Words. If your mother knew how strong you are now, she would surely be relieved. As for hatred, it's good to let it go, but if you can't let it go, don't force yourself. The most important thing in life is to have a clear conscience."
This time, Gu Ruanci didn't speak for a long time.
Lu Enyan also remained quiet and did not disturb them.
In the end, Gu Ruanci still couldn't think of what to say. After standing up, he said "goodbye" to Lu Enyan and took Nong Chun and Zang Xia back home.
On the way back, Gu Ruanci's mind was still filled with Zhou Yuxiu's pleading eyes.
The scene where Zhou Yuxiu, then eleven years old, said to his mother, "You are not worthy to be my mother," would appear in her mind from time to time, causing her to be constantly conflicted.
"County Lady, go with the flow, respect your heart, and have a clear conscience. Before we left the mountain, didn't your master tell you that no one can satisfy everyone? You just need to know what you want and try to achieve it without hurting anyone innocent. If you really can't do it, then calm yourself down, think it through carefully, and don't make decisions on impulse..."
When Zang Xia saw her conflicted look, he knew that Zhou Yuxiu’s words still troubled Gu Ruanci.
Hearing this, Gu Ruanci turned her head slightly to look at Zang Xia, a trace of confusion flashing in her eyes: "Zang Xia, do you think I can really do this with a clear conscience?"
Zang Xia smiled gently and soothed her softly, "County Lady, you are kind-hearted and have always done your best. No matter what others say, in the hearts of Nongchun and I, no one you punish is innocent... As for those things that have troubled you, perhaps time will slowly give you the answers."
Nongchun immediately agreed and told Gu Runci not to be nervous, as she was not alone anymore.
Upon hearing this, Gu Ruanci nodded slightly, seeming to feel a little relieved.
But she knew that the inner struggle would not disappear easily with just a few words. She needed time to think and sort out her thoughts.
After returning to the mansion, Gu Ruanci walked straight into her own yard, sat in front of the window, and quietly looked at the scenery outside.
She felt mixed emotions, memories of the past and confusion about the future.
The condition of the Zhou family was beyond his imagination.
Zhou Yuxiu's guilt came too suddenly, which was somewhat different from what she had expected: the Zhou family would never repent, or would only repent when they were on the verge of death. She could feel Zhou Yuxiu's sincerity and struggle.
Seeing this, Nongchun stepped forward and poured her a cup of tea: "County Lady, don't worry too much. Things will eventually be resolved, just relax."
Gu Ruanci took the teacup, took a sip, and then put it down. She knew Nongchun was right. But she needed more than just relaxation; she needed to face and resolve her inner struggle.
When the Gu family knew that she had gone to see Zhou Yuxiu, they felt complicated and tacitly did not come to disturb her.
As night fell, Gu Ruanci still sat alone in front of the window, looking at the starry sky.
She only noticed it when Zhuang Hefeng walked behind her.
"Mother……"
When she turned around and saw Zhuang Hefeng, she had calmed down a lot.
Zhuang Hefeng sat next to her naturally and said, "I thought you should be able to calm down, so I came to talk to you. Are you struggling with your own thoughts or your mother's thoughts? Have you ever considered that I actually understand your mother better than you do?"
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