Chapter 125 After I regain my memory, will I fall in love with Shen Yanci again?

He looked at me with such conviction that I couldn't help but recall the feeling I had when I was getting divorced and I couldn't control my body.

This makes me feel a little nervous.

Fear.

I'm afraid that I will really fall in love with him again after I recover my memory, just like he said.

This is something I simply cannot accept!

This makes me want to find a handsome guy and spend the night with him as soon as I leave!

I know myself.

Raised by my grandmother since childhood, I have inherited the conservative thinking of the older generation. I am the kind of person who will love someone till the end if I don't love them.

If I were to have sex with another man now, I would sleep with him.

What if one day I accidentally recover my memory? No matter how much I love you, how deeply I love you, how much I can't let you go, and how much I would rather die than love you?

It's impossible to be with Shen Yanci again.

Or let's take a step back and say that even if Shen Yanci and I accidentally regain our memories in the future, we will still be inseparable from each other and will be able to accept such a thing and finally get back together.

They won't be happy together!

There is a thorn in each of our hearts that cannot be removed!

Such thorns will hurt them from time to time!

Even if I regain my memory, I am still myself, but I don't want her to have an easy time. I can't accept that I am so love-minded again, and I can't accept that Shen Yanci can be happy in the end after hurting me like that!

So, the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to find a handsome guy to sleep with after I left!

Since there is no guarantee that I will never fall in love with Brain again after I recover my memory, I will just destroy the road to reconciliation in the future!

After making this decision, I just wanted to hypocritically agree to Shen Yanci's request to let his guard down, which would end up blocking the possibility of us being together in the future.

Shen Yanci seemed to be able to read minds and see through people's hearts.

"Yi Yi, don't do what you want, or I will really go crazy!"

I was startled and couldn't help but widen my eyes.

I don’t know how he knows what I’m thinking.

At this moment, he gently stroked my head, and his movements were so gentle.

But what he said was very creepy.

"Honey, I don't know what I would do if I got crazy."

"I believe that even if you forget what happened before, you know what kind of person I am."

"If I really go crazy and can't control myself, I would rather die with your teachers, friends, and everyone around you than let go."

Shen Yanci looked at me, his eyes were calm.

But in such calmness, there is a madness that is destroying the world.

A person who is too arrogant and used to controlling everything.

He really can't do it, just letting go of love like "If you are well, it will be a sunny day for me".

No matter what his mind told him, he had no right to demand anything from me.

What he should do now is to do whatever it takes to make me happy.

But he just couldn't do it.

Even when he saw a man approaching me, he couldn't control himself and wanted to go crazy and kill the man. He couldn't even think about the possibility of me being with another man, getting married and having children.

Unless he dies.

I looked at Shen Yanci.

At the same time, I also realized this.

If I want to get rid of Shen Yanci completely, the only way is for him to die.

I have been a very law-abiding person since I was a child.

But at this moment.

I have murderous intentions!

I want Shen Yan to die!

I hate this kind of entanglement!

I want to get rid of him completely!

Just then, Tangtang called and asked me where I had been.

I said I would go back immediately.

When I was leaving.

Shen Yanci reached out and touched my head. "Yi Yi, you can do whatever you want. If you don't want me to appear in front of you, I don't have to appear in front of you."

"But, remember what I just said, okay?"

I looked at him and said nothing.

Shen Yanci knows what I care about most. After he threatens me like this, I will never do anything easily again no matter what.

So, he didn't stop me from leaving.

When I returned to the bonfire party.

Tangtang was feeding a boy with eight-pack abs some wine. Judging from her rosy face and sparkling eyes, she was having a lot of fun.

See me coming.

She immediately let go of the man in her arms and walked towards me, "Bao, what have you been doing? You can't choose a good person so soon, right?"

"Although he is handsome, if something happens, we still need to be cautious. At least we need to check if he is sick."

"There are many people suffering from infectious diseases now."

Although Tangtang is lustful, she knows how to protect herself.

So, I never worried about her.

I smiled and said, the one I hadn't taken the photo of just went to the bathroom.

I didn't tell Tangtang about Shen Yanci because I didn't want her to worry about me.

On the way back, I calmed down and thought about it, and decided to let Shen Yan die.

This is clearly unrealistic.

I can't ruin the rest of my life for him.

If I want to get rid of him completely, the only way is to kick him out of my company, leaving him with nothing and unable to do anything to me!

This requires long-term consideration, after all, we have signed such a contract.

However.

Blocking the possibility of reconciliation between us in the future.

Must do!

I didn't give up my idea of ​​finding a handsome guy to sleep with and completely blocking our future path to reconciliation because of Shen Yanci's threat.

When I get ruthless, I won't even let myself go.

I can't, and I absolutely won't allow myself to go back to that love-minded state, the state of me who wants to be with Shen Yanci regardless of any harm.

I asked Tangtang to give me one of the handsome guys she noticed and thought was suitable.

After Shen Yanci left, I started to take action.

He threatened me and told me not to do that, but I could do it quietly without letting him know.

Let him wait until my memory recovers!

Tangtang saw that I really had such intentions and praised me for being so happy!

Although she didn't say it, she was always afraid that I would suddenly fall in love again one day and go back to Shen Yanci.

In order to prevent me from falling in love with Nao again, she reluctantly gave up and gave me the contact information of the handsomest and most stylish guy she thought.

After returning to my place, I added the handsome guy's contact information and chatted with him for a while. I felt that he was a really nice person.

After deciding on him, I washed up and went to bed.

I don’t know if it’s because you dream about what you think about during the day, but I’ve never dreamed about things before I lost my memory, but not long after I fell asleep, I dreamed about my old self.

I dreamed that she held a knife to my neck.

Say that.

If I dare to betray her lover, she will kill me with a knife and make me disappear forever!

This woke me up from my dream and I broke out in a cold sweat!

I am so scared, so scared that is the me in my subconscious mind, so scared, so scared, I want to restore my memory.

After all, I forgot everyone except Shen Yanci. This is very unscientific and does not seem to be caused by a brain injury.

It seems like the heart can't bear it anymore, so it chooses to forget.

And this kind of forgetfulness is very unreliable.

The more I thought about it, the more afraid I became. I was afraid that once I regained my memory, I would fall madly in love with Shen Yanci again.