Chapter 154 Shen Yanci He knows he is not Li Ting

Shen Yanci had loved me so passionately, and had also hurt me so coldly.

He nearly killed me several times, and he also risked his life to save me several times.

Before I regained my memory, all I remembered was the hurt he had inflicted on me.

Just hate him.

After I regained my memory, I recalled his preference for me and his salvation for me.

I can neither love him nor hate him.

I have absolutely no idea what to do.

Now, in the face of life and death, love has suddenly become unimportant.

Let’s treat Shen Yanci’s legs well!

After his leg is healed, we can call it quits. From now on, he will have his infinitely wonderful life, and I will have my sea and stars.

Although we didn't agree to stay together and live happily forever as we had agreed when we got married.

Can.

Think about it carefully.

This is the best ending for us.

It's just that my heart aches uncontrollably.

…

Because the head of the Li family has spoken.

When I met Shen Yanci again, everyone in the Li family was very polite, and Song Yan didn't follow Shen Yanci around, guarding against me like a thief.

But Shen Yanci also changed.

He became very apathetic.

It's totally different from the last time I saw Uncle Pei and I together. He said those words and it was so late. I asked him to start treatment and he started it.

Ask him to take off his clothes, and he will take off his clothes.

When Mrs. Li wanted to teach me a lesson, he subconsciously protected me.

Now, when he looks at me, he recognizes me, but he no longer has that instinctive feeling towards me.

Thinking that he would behave like this might be the reason why the hypnosis deepened.

My heart couldn't help but feel a little achy.

Although, I had already made up my mind.

I think this is the best ending for us.

But when I met his cold and unfamiliar eyes, I still couldn't control my heart.

I could only lower my eyes and stop looking into his eyes.

I stopped thinking about anything else and focused on treating him.

Who knew, when I lifted his clothes and wanted to put the instrument on him.

He suddenly grabbed my hand and whispered, "Actually, I'm not Li Ting, but your husband Shen Yanci, right!"

I was so startled that I almost dropped the things in my hands.

Instinctively, I looked up at him in disbelief.

When I met his eyes like that.

I was so confused that I didn't know what to think.

"Last time you asked me to take off my clothes, was it to verify whether I was your husband Shen Yanci?"

A smart man will always be a smart man no matter what the circumstances.

Even if he doesn't remember anything and doesn't know anything, he can still realize something and grasp the clues he wants to grasp.

Faced with Shen Yanci's sudden words, I really didn't know how to answer him.

Although I couldn't bear the fact that Shen Yanci could no longer be himself and could only survive as Li Ting.

But just like Uncle Pei said, although he can't continue to be Shen Yanci, he is still alive.

You can still live an infinitely beautiful life.

It's much better than death.

People should not be too greedy and should not want everything.

"You suddenly cried at that time. It must be because you saw the scar on my back and confirmed that I am your husband Shen Yanci!" Shen Yanci said this with certainty.

It was so certain that I felt it was useless even if I refuted it.

But I can't admit it.

Just when I wanted to say something.

"Don't tell me that I'm not your husband Shen Yanci and that you made a mistake before."

"If I weren't Shen Yanci, I wouldn't want to hug you and kiss you when I see you."

"When I see my so-called wife, I instinctively want to stay away from her! I can't accept her touching me. I always feel that I will be dirty if she touches me!"

"I'm dirty, and someone will never want me again."

When he first met me at Li's house, Shen Yanci said with a cold face that he invited me to see the medical records, not to see him.

It was because when he saw me and I was looking at him, he couldn't help but want to push his wheelchair forward and hug me tightly.

At that time, he did not doubt that he was not Lei Ting, but he was the one with a wife.

He couldn't accept that he was the kind of person who was tempted by beauty, so he had such a cold face.

Now that I think about it, it wasn't lust at all, but the instinct of love!

Shen Yanci's words reminded me of what we said when we got married. I said then that a person's life is neither long nor short, especially since Shen Yanci is so handsome, he will face many temptations in the future.

I told him that if he didn’t love me anymore, he could just tell me directly and we would get divorced.

Don't cheat on your husband or have anything with other women.

If he gets dirty, not only will I never want him again, I will also be unable to resist taking revenge on him.

I said it very seriously and resolutely at that time, and he must have remembered it deeply.

Suddenly, he grabbed me a little tighter and looked at me with such pitiful eyes, "Wife, I don't know what happened between us that made you confirm my identity but not acknowledge me."

"I just know that my life is horrible and terrible now!"

"They hypnotized me every day, implanting memories that didn't belong to me into my brain, trying to turn me into a completely different person."

"Want me to disappear."

"But I don't want to disappear! I don't want to become another person, I don't want to live in Truman's world! I don't want to become a puppet without my own thoughts!" So, every time he pretended to be hypnotized, he was actually stabbing himself with a sharp knife to keep his brain clear.

Afraid of being discovered by the Li family, he never showed anything in front of them.

Just like what happened just now, when the Li family’s people were there, he was very cold to his wife, as if he didn’t know her.

As soon as they left, he rushed to ask for help!

I always find it most difficult to reject Shen Yanci when he looks at me with such a pitiful look.

This made me feel even more distressed, as I already felt sorry for him because he couldn't even do it for himself.

but……

"Mr. Li, you think too much. The Li family is your closest family. This is not some Truman Show. You are just too anxious because you have lost your memory."

I thought that what I said would make him waver.

I think I'm really overthinking it.

Who knew...

"Wife, you don't want to acknowledge me. Are you afraid that the Li family will hurt you and me?"

I,"……"

"Don't worry about that, honey. We can just get to know each other in private. When my leg is healed and I'm able to protect you, we'll go public! By then, no one will dare to hurt you!"

Before I could say anything, he continued,

"Wife, don't worry. Don't be afraid. The real Li Ting is probably gone. Without him, I am the only one left in the Li family. They won't be cruel to a sole descendant like me. As long as I am here, nothing will happen to you!"

"Wife, you can't just watch me looking so pitiful and not help me..." He said, looking at me even more pitifully.

Those peach blossom eyes filled with pitiful pleading were simply impossible to refuse.

I couldn't help but ask, "What if the real Li Ting died to save you?"

Shen Yanci was stunned at first, then said, "Impossible!"

I frowned, "What's impossible?"

"The real Li Ting couldn't have died to save me!"