Chapter 206 Don't Take the Blame

I didn't say anything, but opened the photo that Uncle Pei sent me yesterday.

Put it in front of him.

Song Yuan looked at the photos on my phone and his face turned pale in an instant.

He is a smart man and he thought of everything without me having to say anything.

The more he figured it all out, the paler his face became.

My body even trembled uncontrollably.

He raised his head with difficulty and looked at me, as if he wanted to say something, but it was as if he had lost all his means and strength and could not say anything.

He understands me.

I know. Now that I know this, there is no way I will get married to him.

But he was unwilling to accept it. He was about to get what he had dreamed of, but he lost it just like that.

So, he calmed himself down and looked at me seriously, "Yi Yi, I know I shouldn't have done this before we got the marriage certificate."

"But I do this for our future, so that I can love you more wholeheartedly!"

"I want us to start this marriage on the same footing."

"I made this mistake on purpose."

Song Yuan said this not to excuse himself, but because he really thought so.

Without telling him, he felt that every man in this world would care if his wife, the woman he loved, had been with another man.

If such concerns are not resolved, people will become more and more unbalanced.

It makes it impossible for people to love wholeheartedly anymore.

Especially, when the former passion gradually turns into ordinary life as time goes by, such care will be magnified.

He didn't want to be unable to love her as much again after the passion faded.

I was the surprise of his youth.

It is the existence he wants most.

He wants to marry me and love me wholeheartedly for the rest of his life.

He doesn't allow him to do anything to let me down after marriage.

I want our marriage to last forever, not end in just a few years.

So, he allowed himself to make a mistake the night before getting the marriage certificate.

With such pressure, he would no longer care about it.

She just encountered a wrong marriage, and he made the mistake before the marriage, or the night before getting the marriage certificate.

She slept with other men, and he slept with other women.

They are on the same side and it is fair.

Such similarities and fairness can keep their marriage harmonious.

"Yi Yi, I do this really to love you better!"

"We have known each other for so many years, you should know that I am not the kind of person who does things recklessly!"

Song Yuan looked at me with eyes full of sincerity.

Anyone who looked into his eyes like that would think he really meant it.

You do this because you love me more.

I think he might really think so.

I really feel that he did this for my own good, to love me better.

But, the more this happens, the less likely it is for us.

Because the three views are different.

I don't know how he takes it for granted that he does this because he loves me more. I can't accept this kind of thinking.

Make mistakes in order to love me better.

This, pot.

I really can't recite it.

"Song Yuan, I think we can end this in a decent way."

Before he could say anything, I followed up with, "You could do this the night before we got married, and even when I called you, you could still lie to me without changing your expression or heartbeat."

"I dare not trust you anymore."

"To be honest, you're like this, and it makes me doubt whether the you I know is the real you."

My words made Song Yuan's face turn even paler.

But, he still said seriously, "Yi Yi, I know you won't believe anything I say now, but, really! I am 100% sincere to you!"

"I really do this to love you better!"

"I was thinking that since I made such a mistake and felt sorry for you, I would be able to treat you better and love you more..."

"Really! I really thought so, so I did this! You trust me, just this time, okay?"

I didn't say anything, just looked at Song Yuan.

The look in my eyes stopped Song Yuan from saying anything more.

At the very end, he gave a wry smile.

"It's mainly because you don't love me, right? If it was Shen Yanci, you would definitely soften your heart and give him another chance."

"He treated you like that, and you kept giving him chances."

"I really wanted to love you more, but you were so ruthless. You don't know how happy and excited I was when you told me that you wanted to get married with me!"

"I don't know how much I want to grow old with you."

Song Yuan's eyes turned red as he spoke.

It seems that I am so ungrateful and have let down his deep affection.

"If Shen Yanci had prostituted himself before marrying me, not only would I not marry him, I would have taken revenge on him and ruined his reputation."

I've said before that I really want Shen Yanci to be a complete scumbag.

If he didn't really love me, he would have cheated on me and had something with Su Yurou, or with another woman.

Not only would I have let him go long ago, but I would have also ruined his reputation.

But, when he hurt me, it was real pain, and when he loved me, it was real love. He could take my life without hesitation, and he could also give my life to me without hesitation.

Song Yuan met my eyes and knew that what I said was true.

He also knew that it was useless for him to say anything more.

He couldn't help but smile bitterly again, "I'm sorry, it's my fault for thinking that's wrong. I'm sorry."

As he spoke, he couldn't help but cover his face with his hands, his voice even choked with sobs, "I like you so much, I long for you, my heart aches from longing for you, I...I..."

The more he spoke, the more he choked up and became speechless.

I couldn't help but pull at his collar which was still stained with a woman's lipstick. "Song Yuan, you don't like me as much as you think you do, and you don't want me as much as you think you do."

"If you really love me, you wouldn't come to pick me up to get the marriage certificate with another woman's lipstick marks on your face."

"What you call love is nothing more than lust when you are young. It's nothing more than that, the more you can't get it, the more you want it."

"Then, when you have everything within your reach, you can't help but think about my shortcomings and deficiencies, and feel that you are at a disadvantage by marrying a divorced woman like me."

"Given your background, your appearance, and your wealth, you definitely deserve better. That's why you feel unbalanced."

"That's why you want to find your psychological balance."

"In the final analysis, you think I am not worth it, not that you are doing it for the sake of loving me better as you said."

I didn't mean to say such harsh words, but I couldn't stand it. I felt guilty for betraying his deep affection.

He may really think he likes me.

But this liking is just like Ye Gong's love for dragons.

My words made Song Yuan's trembling body suddenly stiffen.