Chapter 238 Letting Go Completely

He knew it was all his fault, he deserved it, he was stupid.

But he still felt very uncomfortable and in pain.

He insisted, "Yi Yi, I know this is unreasonable, but please wait a little longer before falling in love with someone else, okay?"

Wait until he ends everything, wait until he leaves, and then fall in love with someone else.

Don't let him watch her fall in love with someone else.

He was afraid that he would be in so much pain that he wouldn't be able to hold on until the end.

Afraid he would go crazy.

I looked at Shen Yanci, just like that.

Actually, I understand what he means.

I also knew that he would completely cut off ties with me and let me see someone else, not that he fell in love with Song Yan.

He said that because Song Yan had schemed against him and he felt that he was dirty and that I would never want him again.

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I didn't want to understand what he meant, nor did I want to agree to wait any longer.

I said indifferently, "What's the point of waiting? Shen Yanci, we are completely finished."

"Didn't you tell me to look at other people and get over this relationship? I have already gotten over it, so you should get over it too!"

When I was most helpless and on the verge of death during my adolescence, Shen Yanci saved me.

He gave me not only a new life in life, but also a new life in spirit.

So, no matter what happens between us.

Whenever I think of that moment, I always want him to be well.

Live well and live happily.

So, even though Song Yan plotted against him, since there is no turning back, I hope he can continue on this path.

I hope he can completely forget me, move on from our relationship, and start a new life.

From now on, we all walk on the path of brilliant flowers.

We all have a wonderful life.

Shen Yanci originally had a lot to say to me and had thought about how to convince me, but after hearing what I said, he suddenly had no idea what he could say.

I also feel that no matter what he says, it will be useless.

yes!

What's the point of waiting any longer?

There is no possibility for him and me to be together forever. Besides, what qualifications does he have and why should I wait for him?

Suddenly, his eyes became red and he couldn't look at me anymore.

There was silence for a long while.

Just when I wanted to leave.

He suddenly said, "Yi Yi, haven't you always wanted to know why I can hurt you like this even though I keep saying I love you?"

I stopped short of leaving.

To be honest, although I have completely let go of our relationship, I still really want to know why.

Why can he show that he loves me so much and can't live without me, but at the same time he can hurt me like that?

It's true love, and you won't bear to hurt it.

Just like me, no matter how he hurt me or how much I hated him, I never hurt him.

Until now, I still want him to be happy for the rest of his life.

"Because I am selfish, my love is too selfish. Because of that misunderstanding, when I am in pain, I want you to be in pain, even to the point of wanting you to die!"

"So, I deliberately treated you coldly, deliberately hurt you, and deliberately ignored you. This deliberate neglect made me ignore all the unreasonable things. I stubbornly thought that you were pretending when you were hurt, and everything about you was just pretending."

When I asked him that before, why he said he loved me but could hurt me like that, he didn't know how to answer.

Later he thought that he was afraid, afraid to face his own despicable heart.

He really does love me, but he is also very selfish. He only wants to possess me because he loves me. If he is in pain, I will be in more pain.

Even now he is selfish, because he doesn't want to suffer unbearable pain, so he wants me to sacrifice my chance to be happy and wait for him, and then love again after he leaves.

He is really too selfish.

Strictly speaking, his love cannot even be considered true love.

"I don't love you selflessly, which is true love. No matter what, I can't do such a thing. So, you can't understand why I can do that, just like a good person can never understand why a bad person wants to do bad things."

“So, don’t wonder why someone’s love is this way anymore, and don’t let go just because you don’t know why.”

"Since you have completely moved on, then just move on. Just treat my nonsense as bullshit."

Sometimes, people who can't let go of something, will suddenly let it go at some point.

Just like Shen Yanci at this moment.

His love has been selfish for so many years, so selfish that I can't let it go. So selfish that until just now, he still wanted me to wait for him.

But now, he suddenly came to his senses, suddenly understood what true love is, and suddenly could no longer be selfish.

People like him don't deserve, really don't deserve such pure love.

I looked at Shen Yanci for a while. At this moment, although I didn't get a very specific answer to the problem that I had been unable to figure out, I was able to completely let it go.

Just like Shen Yanci said, good people will never understand why bad people do bad things.

So there is no need to understand.

I don't need to understand or know why he says he loves me but can do such a thing.

There is no need to wonder why I can't hurt him no matter what, but he can.

People are different. There are no exactly the same leaves in this world, and neither are there exactly the same thoughts. I don't need to wonder why other people's thoughts are different from mine. I just need to let it go.

Let go completely, don’t think about it anymore, don’t care about it anymore.

I said nothing more and turned away.

Shen Yanci looked at my leaving back, and his eyes became redder.

The red is about to turn into mist.

Think about his life, the only person who truly loves him is his wife.

Only she was purely selfless and truly loved him.

However, because of his selfishness and stupidity, he lost her.

Let them come to this point.

He could only watch helplessly as she disappeared forever, no longer belonging to him.

He could only be thankful that he had long wanted to give up on living. Otherwise, it would have been so painful to watch her belong to someone else and have to live her whole life.

At this time, behind the curtains on the second floor.

The masked man looked downstairs at Shen Yanci, who was in so much pain that he didn't want to live, and couldn't help but sigh, "My brother is such a pervert."

"My wife is about to become someone else's wife, but I still love her so much."

“I really don’t know what’s going on in this mind.”

Li Ting felt very unhappy when he saw Shen Yanci making the same disgusting expression on his face!

He really can't imitate him no matter how hard he tries, he's so useless.

Song Yan glanced at him, then looked at Shen Yanci, without saying anything.

I just couldn't help but complain in my heart that someone as cold-blooded and heartless as him certainly didn't understand true love in this world.

"Think of a way to make Shen Yanci act colder and harder these days. It would be best if Qiao Yi also had a blank expression. Otherwise, it would be difficult for me to carry out my next plan."