For some reason, Junxuan now desperately wanted to know Shen Yunxi's thoughts; he wanted to know if Shen Yunxi had truly let go completely.
After saying this, Junxuan kept his eyes fixed on Shen Yunxi, not missing any of her expressions.
Shen Yunxi smiled bitterly, not understanding what the point of Junxuan's current entanglement was. She and he had never been lovers. From the beginning to the end, it was all a one-woman show for her, yet even now he still wouldn't let her go.
"Your Majesty, I admit that I did have feelings for you before. You saved my life, and I am deeply grateful. As for Yanshan Tang, when I shielded Your Majesty from the arrow, I made it clear then. Calling you Brother Jinyu for the last time is to repay your kindness and settle all debts." After Shen Yunxi finished speaking, she looked at Jun Xuan, but the affection in her eyes was gone.
It seemed to carry a hint of hatred.
Junxuan didn't look away, and just stared at Shen Yunxi. He suddenly felt that what Shen Yunxi said seemed to be true.
The concepts of feigning indifference or acting intentionally seem to have disappeared.
"Shen Yunxi, do you really no longer love me?" Jun Xuan looked into Shen Yunxi's eyes and murmured. He was very unwilling, and his panic was getting stronger and stronger.
It was as if something very important to him had just slipped away from him; he reached out to grab it, but he couldn't hold onto anything.
At this moment, he knew very well what answer he wanted to hear: a denial from Shen Yunxi.
"The weak waters will eventually replace the vast ocean, and there will be no more longing to send to Wushan. Your Majesty, our fate ends here. From now on, we will never meet again. Let us not speak of each other's length or shortness." Shen Yunxi lowered her eyes slightly, and the hand at her side tightened slightly.
At this moment, Junxuan finally understood that the girl who had always clung to him and called him Brother Jinyu had finally been lost by him.
In that instant, he felt as if the things he had persisted in for many years had become less important, and even though Shen Yunxi was the Empress Dowager's person, he didn't seem to care that much.
"Shen Yunxi, why should you be in charge of everything? When you wanted to repay the debt of saving your life, you pestered me, but now that you've repaid it, you're abandoning me?" Jun Xuan's eyes were bloodshot.
Shen Yunxi subconsciously took a few steps back. She didn't understand why Junxuan looked like he had been abandoned by a heartless person.
Moreover, there are big problems with what he himself said. Hasn't he realized it yet?
She did indeed start out to repay his life-saving grace, but gradually fell in love with him, and then became obsessed with him, wanting to marry him and win his affection.
But it was his own unwillingness, so who can he blame now?
"Your Majesty, the debt of saving my life has already been settled, so we are even. I'm letting go of myself and you. Isn't that a good thing for you?" Shen Yunxi smiled bitterly. "Your Majesty will never know that when I first entered the palace, I intended to bring the imperial edict to you, hoping that you would cancel the marriage agreement. I cannot dissolve the late Emperor's decree, but Your Majesty has a way, and it's not difficult for you. Your Majesty doesn't need to test me like this. If you don't trust me, you can go with me now to retrieve the imperial edict from the late Emperor. I only want to let myself go." Shen Yunxi said slowly.
In her opinion, Junxuan's behavior was not because he cared about her or loved her, but simply because he felt unbalanced.
He felt that her attitude had changed a lot from before, and that the man's vanity was at play; he was simply unwilling to accept it.
In short, Shen Yunxi could never believe that Junxuan would fall in love with her.
Moreover, even if Junxuan had a shred of affection for her, he wouldn't make Shen Yunxi turn away for him.
When I was being kind and loving towards you, you pretended not to see it. Now that you want to get close to me, why should I cooperate with you?
What's wrong with the emperor? Could he possibly control her heart?
Junxuan took a deep breath, silently looked at Shen Yunxi, and finally turned around and said in a hoarse voice, "It's late and the dew is heavy, Miss Shen, there's no need to see me off any further. I will leave on my own."
"Respectfully seeing off Your Majesty." Shen Yunxi curtsied.
Since Junxuan no longer needs her to escort him, she will absolutely not take another step forward.
I believe Junxuan has understood her thoughts today and will not cause her any more trouble in the future. I just hope that this engagement can be called off as soon as possible.
Shen Yunxi was very anxious, but she knew that she couldn't rush Junxuan. If she did, he might disagree even more.
Sometimes Shen Yunxi didn't quite understand either. Junxuan clearly didn't like her either, and now that her attitude had changed, why didn't he cancel the engagement with such a good opportunity? It was truly strange.
Watching Junxuan's figure completely disappear through the door, Shen Yunxi finally turned around and walked back.
Forget about Junxuan. She still has a troublesome matter to deal with, and she should think of a way to resolve it.
Although she knew she would never be with Junxuan in this life, and even considered marrying an ordinary person, that person couldn't be Lin Chen, otherwise it would be too unfair to him.
Lin Chen is very kind; he always takes care of her and Shen Anyu, no matter what.
Unfortunately, over the years, including her past life, she never realized that Lin Chen's feelings were for her. In the end, she cared too much about Jun Xuan and could only think about him, which is why she couldn't see anyone else.
Shen Yunxi lay in bed for a long time without falling asleep, and Junxuan in the palace was also wide awake.
“Southeast, tell me, can people’s feelings really change so quickly?” Junxuan paused and continued, “It should be, otherwise she wouldn’t be completely devoid of feelings for me now, and would only want to stay away from me. That’s why I feel so unwilling and uncomfortable.”
Suddenly, a dark figure appeared in the bedchamber. The figure knelt on the ground and spoke in a low voice, "Your Majesty, I do not know, I do not know what feelings are."
It wasn't that Southeast didn't want to talk about it, but rather that he had trained with Northwest since childhood to become Junxuan's bodyguard, learning only how to kill. He never showed his emotions, so he had no idea what feelings were.
Junxuan understood this principle; he just wanted to talk to someone and express his feelings.
As the emperor, he felt lonely at the top. There were too many sycophants in the past, and apart from Ji Shaoyue, he couldn't find anyone he could confide in.
Ji Shaoyue is probably already asleep outside the palace. Even if he's feeling unwell, it's not like he needs to be dragged out of bed.
Therefore, Junxuan could only summon Dongnan to speak from within his bedchamber.
It's less about him talking to Southeast Asia and more about him talking to himself, asking and answering his own questions.
Junxuan lay half-reclined on the soft couch, his right hand constantly fiddling with the string of cinnabar on his left wrist. He paused, then suddenly stopped.
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