Chapter 29 I buried your mother for free, and you still want to say mass?
“Huff, huff, huff… cough, cough, cough…”
Every time he dug a shovel of soil, Ulu would take a deep breath and then cough twice. This made him very uncomfortable and he felt like his lungs were about to explode, but he still did not stop what he was doing and continued digging one shovel after another.
The little boy who was watching from the side wanted to help from time to time, but was pushed away by Ulu again and again, and then glared at him fiercely, cursing: "Get out of here, don't bother me, I am a professional at burying corpses."
After all, Lu Ji was buried just the day before yesterday.
The little boy could only watch from the side, holding his sister in his arms, while his mother lay beside them, as if she was asleep.
While Ulu was digging, he would occasionally catch a glimpse of the boy's mother, which would make him stiffen, as if the mother lying there was not the boy's, but his own. This made him feel very uncomfortable, so he increased the strength of his hands, but soon he would catch a glimpse of her again, and then the next cycle would begin.
In this disaster year, many people died, but not many were able to be buried.
Since the living have no strength left, how can they consider the dead?
If Wulu hadn't come, the little boy wouldn't have had the strength to dig such a big hole. The same thing happened to Wulu 20 years ago. So this time, Wulu dug the hole very deep, as if he was trying desperately to make up for something.
Bai Wei remained silent. He hadn't spoken since Uru started digging the hole, as if he had disappeared.
So Ulu kept digging until the evening, and he finally stopped when his shovel was almost broken.
"That's it, that's it." He muttered, not knowing who he was talking to, "That's enough."
Then he jumped out of the pit and tried to carry the body down.
He just grabbed the mother's shoulders, and then he saw the little boy let go of his sister and consciously lifted up his mother's legs.
This made Ulu a little unhappy. Originally, he wanted to do it by himself, but after looking at the little boy, he said nothing and worked together with the little boy to put his mother into the pit.
And since he grabbed the upper body, he naturally couldn't avoid seeing the mother's face.
Then he realized that they were not alike at all. Whether it was the eyes, mouth or nose, there was no similarity at all.
But why?
When seeing this face, Ulu still felt his heart beating wildly.
"Can you be quicker? You're so clumsy." Ulu had to try hard to hide his emotions in his ferocious expression. He scolded the little boy, "Bury your mother quickly. I have to go home for dinner."
The little boy did not refute and worked silently.
Next, the little boy naturally joined in, and the two of them buried the dug soil together.
Neither of them spoke during the whole process, and Ulu did not ask the little boy to go away. They finished the work in silence, watching everything about the mother being buried by the earth bit by bit.
When the last handful of soil was flattened by the shovel, Wulu could no longer bear it and sat down on the grave, staring blankly at the grave he had dug. At this moment, he felt very complicated, as if the biggest regret in his heart had been filled, but at the same time, he felt that it had not been filled, but had added a bigger regret.
Ulu sat there blankly for a while, then saw the little boy slowly walking in front of him, looking very hesitant.
"Bullshit." Ulu said unhappily.
"Uh, Father." The little boy grasped the corner of his clothes nervously, "Can you please say a mass for my mother?"
Oh, and there's a mass.
Ulu remembered that he was a priest and it was his job to say mass for the dead.
So he didn't think much about it. He just glared at the little boy fiercely, cursed him, "What a troublemaker!", patted his butt, stood up, and walked to the grave.
He was very familiar with celebrating Mass. He could get a large sum of money from the family just by saying a few words like "May your soul return to the embrace of the Rhine."
So he stood in front of the grave very skillfully and opened his mouth very skillfully: "May your soul return..."
But here, I got stuck.
...Return to the embrace of the Rhine?
Everything he had done as a priest in the past twenty years came flooding back to him at this moment. Most of them were black, dirty, and unsightly. Although he had never thought there was a problem before, at this moment, standing in front of this grave, he could not utter those words no matter what.
I held it in for a long time, my face turned red but I couldn't say anything.
This made the little boy next to him very curious: "Master Father, are you feeling unwell?"
Ulu turned his head to look at the little boy, then raised his foot and kicked him.
"Are you fucking asking for too much? I helped you bury your mother for free, and you still want me to say mass for free?! Do you know how much a mass costs? Do you know that my holy blessing has a price, huh? Is your mother's life worth this? Do you think she's worth it?!"
Ulu didn't use much force in this kick because he had no strength left, so the little boy quickly got up.
Ulu originally thought that he would be angry, after all, he had insulted his mother like that.
But the little boy didn't do that. He even said to Uru with a guilty look on his face: "I'm sorry, Father. I'm too greedy."
Wulu choked and felt like he couldn't breathe anymore. He could only say coldly, "It's good that you know."
Then prepare to leave.
But the moment he turned around, he heard the little boy say: "I will work hard to become a priest like you, and then celebrate mass for my mother myself."
Ulu's body suddenly froze.
A priest like him, like him...
After being stunned for a few seconds, Ulu seemed to lose all his sanity in an instant. He rushed to the little boy again and knocked him to the ground.
"Become someone like me?! Do you know what kind of person I am?!"
"I've killed people! I've set fires! I, I, I've even played with little boys! I love playing with little brats like you! When I get tired of playing with you, I'll destroy you if you break something!"
"That night, I was going to play with you, too! Did you know that? Did you know that?!"
"You still want to be like me? I tell you, if I see you in church, I will kill you. I will kill you, do you know that?"
"You are not allowed to join the Rhine, and you are not allowed to become a priest! Do you understand?"
After saying all this as if venting his anger, Ulu became scared when he saw the dying little boy in front of him.
He turned around and ran as if he was escaping from his fate, and he could be said to have crawled away from here. He ran several hundred meters in one breath, and finally fell on the side of the road, gasping for breath.
He didn't know what he had done, nor what he wanted to do. He just stared at the sky blankly, like a living dead.
Then, he heard the long-silent voice in his mind.
"You, what are you afraid of?" Bai Wei spoke slowly, his words full of teasing.
(End of this chapter)
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