If, one day, you found yourself trapped in a vast time loop, where you were reborn every time you died, retaining all your past memories, and then continued to experience countless lives again and again in this vast time loop, then... what kind of existence would you become in the end?
[I don't know when I started to possess this ability. I only know that my first life was like this...]
To earn money quickly, I chose to drop out of school and work. Even in middle age, I still hadn't achieved anything. I toiled and toiled for three meals a day. For my family and my responsibilities, I worked until the very end, then closed my coffin, ending my life.
In my second life, thanks to my memories from my previous life, I understood the importance of knowledge. From a young age, I was hailed as a child prodigy, learning a wealth of knowledge beyond the syllabus. As I grew up, I leaped into a higher class, no longer worrying about material things. I married a beautiful wife, a feat I couldn't have in my previous life, and experienced many things I couldn't have experienced in my previous life.
My horizons broadened considerably. I no longer wanted to live the same pathetic and aggrieved life as in my previous life, where I never understood the purpose of my life until my death. I began to indulge myself, becoming self-centered and no longer cared about my family. After all, I'd been there before, and I'd seen through all kinds of emotions. I became deeply selfish, and ultimately, my wife and children left me.
But having lived two lives, my cunning has long been unmatched. Therefore, my later years were not miserable, for I have always been very attentive to health preservation. Consequently, I lived a long time before aging.
By the third life, I had come to understand my situation. I was trapped in some strange cycle of reincarnation. Even if I died in this life, I'd probably be reborn in the next. So, I acted without restraint, seeing everyone as little kids, as little brothers. And I began to disdain all morality and truth in the world.
Because I knew there was nothing in this world that could restrain me anymore. I started committing crimes, doing many things I hadn't dared to do before. Perhaps... only this way could I stimulate my aging soul?
【Finally, I was arrested and hanged at a young age.】
In my fourth life, I was no different, feeling that my previous one was simply bad luck. Therefore, this time, I was even more insane and even more secretive. I hid for a long, long time before I was caught. On the day of my sentencing, I laughed, a maniacal laugh. Countless people around me spitted on me, calling me a born villain, a demon in human skin.
In my seventh life, I'm tired of doing evil. I possess too much knowledge. Furthermore, the evil I've committed is becoming increasingly greater, causing my life to become insignificant in my eyes. So, I've decided to change my tactics. I've begun using my knowledge to change the world.
I don't care what anyone thinks when I do things, because my actions aren't meant to make the world a better place, nor are they for a sense of accomplishment. I simply want to have fun and see what the world will become. I became a scientist and created many new technologies.
Then, in my eighth...ninth life, I had plenty of time and money to do what I wanted. The world changed a lot because of me.
In my tenth life, I've unknowingly come to view myself as a god, viewing humanity as a whole. I feel neither joy nor sorrow, and I've long since dismissed all emotions as illusory. All living beings are mere dust. I've done all kinds of evil. I've also done good. I've made the world worse, and I can make it better.
I've been to the North and South Poles and climbed the world's highest peak. I've been to the bottom of the ocean and even became an astronaut. I've been to space and the moon. Thanks to advancements in technology, the farthest place I've been is Mars.
But I remain a mortal from the beginning. Even though I've mastered all medical knowledge and traveled extensively, I still can't live past 120. Even though I know I'll be reincarnated, as long as I persevere, technology will eventually advance to a sufficient level! However, the cycle of time returns the world and human civilization to a primitive age every 5,000 years.
I'm desperate. Trapped in this enormous cage, I can't break free from my own constraints! I long for transcendence. I gradually feel like this reincarnation, carrying my memories with me, is like being trapped in a prison with no end! And there's no one I can truly talk to! No one I can vent my frustrations to! Because I'm the only special one!
I possess the vision of a god, yet I'm trapped in a mortal body, living like an ant. After countless years, I realize there's no one like me around me! I want to grieve, but I quickly realize there's no point in being sad! What is the purpose of living?
I've spent 1,000 lifetimes, hundreds of thousands of years, and still haven't figured it out. I don't want to live anymore. This place is pure hell! But death... for me, is the beginning of life again...
I cried out, I prayed: Someone, save me! Save me! Save me!
But no matter how much I begged, there was no response! So, I gave up, no longer caring. Each subsequent reincarnation was like a true story. I hid my true self, and like an ordinary person without any memories, I grew up, made friends, experienced hardships and pain, experienced joy and sorrow, and separation, continuing to live my life over and over again.
[But my heart always longs for freedom... I want to turn into a bird in the sky, unrestrained and flying freely...]
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