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Gu Mian may have been emotionally indifferent since childhood. The first time he realized that he was different from ordinary people was the day he learned of his mother's death.

He was in class at school that day, and his head teacher called him out and told him with reluctance that his mother had died in a hunting plan and his father was being rescued.

He did not feel much reality about this sudden news. When he was taken away by his father's subordinates and rushed to the hospital, he did not cry or make a fuss. He sat obediently on the bench outside the emergency room.

Many people came to comfort him, but he didn't cry. He was immersed in his own world, which made these people seem redundant.

When his mother was buried, Gu Mian did not cry. Instead, his always strong father had red eyes and wanted to cry several times.

Later, Gu Mian heard some people say behind his back that he was cold-hearted and did not even shed a tear when his mother died.

In fact, Gu Mian shed tears not on the day he learned of the death, nor on the day of the burial, but on a very ordinary day. He found that the food that his mother had placed in the microwave had become moldy and emitted a pungent stench. The smell was not only pungent but also stinging to the eyes. After little Gu Mian disposed of the dish, he realized that he had burst into tears without knowing when.

He can no longer eat meals cooked by his mother.

Until this point, he had never associated his mother with death.

After his wife left the family, General Gu refused to remarry. He used the militaristic methods he was best at to educate Gu Mian. He made a schedule with accurate schedules to the minute, which fully arranged study, exercise, meals, leisure and entertainment, etc.

A schedule that an adult might not be able to stick to is easily accommodated by a six or seven-year-old.

He liked the feeling of having everything planned out, whether it was going to school or going to the battlefield, every step of his life was completed step by step, including his marriage.

But it’s not.

Gu Mian had not anticipated the huge impact of the high pheromone match. Because of the influence of pheromones, he was extra patient with Li Songyun and could calmly listen to Li Songyun talk about all kinds of trivial and useless information.

When Li Songyun just married into the Gu family, she chirped like a little sparrow. She moved boxes of her clothes to the Gu family. While busy sorting the clothes, she said to Gu Mian, "I have only worn these clothes a few times, and you have never seen me wear them, so they are new clothes to you."

The sunlight was bright, filling the whole room brilliantly. The fine dust raised by the shaking clothes looked like laughing elves in the halo. The small hairs on Li Songyun's face were clearly visible in the light when she muttered. I don't know if it was because she was too hot from organizing things or because she was a little shy in front of her new husband, but her face was slightly flushed, a bit like a furry peach.

At that time, Li Songyun would talk too much and blush when she was nervous. This behavior was secretly ridiculed by others, who said that the clothes Li Songyun wore were cheap and rustic, and that Li Songyun was petty and not presentable. In short, these were all bad words, and these words were passed on to Gu Mian's ears by people with ulterior motives.

Looking at the omega in front of him who was mocking his wife implicitly, Gu Mian suddenly felt unhappy and said to the omega, "Get lost".

The omega finally ran out crying. I don’t know if he was scared or what.

Gu Mian silently digested the anger in his heart, like a ball of suppressed fire. After being marked for life, alphas naturally have a desire to protect their partners. The moment Li Songyun was slandered, Gu Mian's anger was like his own treasure being smashed.

For so many years, Gu Mian's emotions have been like a stagnant pool of water, and Li Songyun is the stone that can easily break the calmness of the water.

After realizing this, Gu Mian began to feel uneasy. He didn't like the feeling of his emotions being dominated by pheromones. This feeling of being out of control made him disgusted and fearful.

He chose to keep his distance from Li Songyun. Except for routine contact during the estrus and susceptible periods, he seldom took the initiative to approach Li Songyun. This respectful way of getting along allowed Gu Mian to immerse himself in his own world without being disturbed by the outside world.

He thought he had controlled the relationship perfectly, but in fact, everything changed from the day Li Songyun divorced him.

On the first day of his divorce from Li Songyun, Gu Mian had a fever.

He hasn't been sick for a long time, let alone a minor illness like fever.

At first, Gu Mian did not realize that he was sick. He went to work as usual, sitting at his desk and sorting out documents, but this document had nothing to do with his work.

Gu Mian was analyzing the reasons why Li Songyun divorced him. He wanted to know where the problem lay.

He wrote down a series of things he could recall, including how he never asked about Li Songyun's private life, how he did not comfort Li Songyun when Gu Tunan was in danger, how he asked Li Songyun to overcome the influence of pheromones and leave him enough private space, and so on.

Gu Mian had a very good memory, so he wrote fifteen pages of this document and still wasn't finished.

When Lieutenant General Mo came to chat with Gu Mian and accidentally saw this document, he was shocked for a full minute before he could organize his words and said to Gu Mian: "Old Gu, you are really going too far."

Lieutenant General Mo scratched his hair, unable to find words to describe his feelings at the moment. "If you...if you really want to reflect on yourself in this way, you might as well classify these things. Some are the husband's failures, and some are the father's failures."

"You are also derelict in your duty as a father. Do you accompany your children to recreational activities every week? Do you pick up your children from school and help them with their homework..."

Gu Mian was silent for a while. After listening to Lieutenant General Mo's words, he chose to leave early and go to Gu Peifeng's school.

The divorce agreement between him and Li Songyun had a clear plan: Gu Peifeng and Li Songyun would be together from Monday to Friday, and Gu Peifeng would go to Gu's house on weekends. Today was not the day he was going to take Gu Peifeng home, so he should not have gone to Gu Peifeng's school.

It was not until Li Songyun, dressed in red, came into his sight that Gu Mian realized that it was pheromones that had driven him to make this decision.

He wants to see Li Songyun.

Across the vast sea of ​​people, that red dress evoked his memory of the first time he smelled Li Songyun's pheromones, as elegant as camellia.

When he was young, Li Songyun wore red, like a red camellia blooming in spring, gorgeous and charming.

Maybe it was because the first time he smelled Li Songyun's pheromones, Li Songyun was wearing a red dress, and Li Songyun in red could easily burn his emotions like a ball of fire, so he asked Li Songyun not to wear red again.

After so many years, when this touch of red fell on Li Songyun again, it was more like a glass of mellow red wine, which made people feel tipsy before they even took a sip.

At this time, the sky was filled with sunset glow, which reflected the redness of Gu Mian's gray-blue eyes, as if a candle was overturned in the night.

Gu Mian watched Li Songyun walking further and further away. He could feel that the lifelong mark he left on Li Songyun had been partially washed away.

This realization made him feel as if a piece of his heart had been taken away.

He finally realized with great clarity that Li Songyun would never come back.

Gu Mian suddenly felt very cold. During this period, the temperature difference between day and night was large, and Gu Mian was only wearing a thin shirt. He thought that this might be the reason why he felt cold.

Gu Mian got on the suspension car. He got off work early today, an hour earlier than his normal time to go home. He didn't want to go home at the moment, and he didn't know where to go. He drifted in this city with lights just coming on, and the prosperous neon lights shone through the car window onto his red face.

When Li Songyun got off the bus, Gu Mian realized that he had followed Li Songyun all the way without realizing it.

When Li Songyun got out of the car, a person in a puppet costume suddenly performed a series of funny movements, and then took out a bunch of flowers made of lollipops and presented them to Gu Peifeng as if by magic.

Gu Peifeng said something to Li Songyun with a look of surprise. When Li Songyun nodded, Gu Peifeng hugged the bouquet excitedly.

The man in the pig costume took off his heavy hood, revealing a head of white hair wet with sweat and a stern and handsome face.

That's Jiao Jian.

Gu Mian watched Jiao Jian and Li Songyun walking side by side, the two of them talking and laughing, while Gu Peifeng walked happily between the two of them holding a gift. The three of them looked more like a harmonious family of three.

——"He is my brother."

——"We have known each other since we were teenagers. You don't know him because you have never paid attention to my life, understood my past, or met my friends."

On the night of signing the divorce agreement, Gu Mian tried to get to know Li Songyun's friends. He watched the screen recording of NPC Lu En in the holographic game assessment and learned about Jiao Jian's life in reality. In fact, he didn't need to analyze it himself. As long as he searched the names Jiao Jian and Li Songyun on Star Network, he could get a series of love interpretations made up by netizens with excellent imagination.

"Love is armor", "Love gives Jiao Jian courage and strength", "Love battles"......

Gu Mian watched Li Songyun's back completely disappear in the crowd, and he slowly withdrew his gaze.

His eyes were a little closed.

Maybe it's because he hasn't slept for the past two days.

It took him a long time to get used to having an omega sleeping next to him. He remembered the way the omega carefully said to him, "I like to sleep with my arms around a pillow." He also remembered the first time the omega pressed his legs against his body, leaving a trace of cool warmth on him with his relatively high body temperature.

When Li Songyun wrote to him on the front line during her pregnancy, she mentioned that she bought a pillow with the scent of thuja sutchuenensis, saying that the scent of thuja sutchuenensis would improve sleep quality, and also said that his thuja sutchuenensis-scented pheromones were the most hypnotic.

Maybe it wasn’t his pheromones that caused hypnosis, but Li Songyun was just used to the smell.

Not only Li Songyun, he was the same, he was used to the faint camellia scent and warm body temperature of Li Songyun.

When he finally got used to Li Songyun's existence, incorporated Li Songyun into his life, and planned every day with Li Songyun's presence, Li Songyun suddenly left.

She left without looking back, decisively and decisively, leaving only a large and abrupt blank in his life schedule.

Lieutenant General Mo said that the reason why Li Songyun left him was because she was heartbroken. Gu Mian tried to understand what it felt like to have a dead heart.

He thought he still couldn't understand it now.

Because the heart is dead, you will definitely not feel pain anymore.

But at this moment, he felt waves of long and lingering pain.

When Gu Mian returned home, he saw the table was full of steaming food. When Mrs. Wang saw him coming, she immediately asked, "Sir, would you like to eat something?"

"No need." Gu Mian refused.

"You've been drinking nutritional fluids these days, and your complexion looks worse." Mrs. Wang didn't dare to persuade her any more. "I made some soup for you. If you want some, just tell me."

Gu Mian returned to his study to continue working. He did not drink the nutritional solution. He did not want to eat and even felt a little nauseous.

Many people know that Gu Mian likes to drink nutritional fluids, but only a few people understand that Gu Mian developed this habit when his mother passed away.

For him, the taste of the food is not important, what is more important is the people he eats with.

Admiral Gu seldom went home, and Gu Mian ate with his mother almost every day. His mother's cooking skills were not very good, and the food she cooked was not tasty. She seemed to be born with no knack for cooking, and even if she was taught step by step, the food she made was only edible.

"How does it taste?", "Eat more.", "Don't be picky about food.", "What do you want to eat tomorrow?"......

There was a small table with two dishes and a soup on it. His mother's chatter was Gu Mian's entire concept of dining.

Since his mother's death, Gu Mian was more accustomed to drinking nutritional fluids alone, a habit that was broken after Li Songyun appeared.

He and Li Songyun formed a new family, and Gu Mian insisted that the family should eat together. He believed that only in this way could a family feel like a home.

The food cooked by Li Songyun is delicious. When he and Li Songyun sit together to eat, Li Songyun will ask him "Is it delicious?", "Do you want it saltier or lighter?", "When will you go home tomorrow?"......

In the past, when ventilation systems were not so sophisticated, the smell of cooking fumes would fill the entire house when my mother was busy in the kitchen every day.

The exhaust ventilation in the kitchen was very good now, and he could only smell a faint smell of fireworks from Li Songyun who was wearing an apron.

Li Songyun pursed her lips nervously and asked him who was still eating, "Gu Mian, do you like the food I cook?"

Do you like it?

It seems that at the beginning, he couldn't tell whether he liked or was indifferent to the food cooked by Li Songyun. He believed that a husband should eat the food cooked by his wife, and a wife has the obligation to cook for her husband.

When did this feeling change? Perhaps it was when he came home one day and saw Li Songyun sitting at the dinner table with his children, and heard Li Songyun softly say to Gu Hongxuan: "We have to wait for Dad to come back and have dinner together."

The food on the table was emitting steam. Gu Hongxuan turned around and saw that he had returned. He shouted in surprise, and Li Songyun also smiled at him.

At that moment, he found that his insistence on returning home on time suddenly had meaning again.

Gu Mian has a fever.

Maybe it was because I didn’t get comfort from my partner during my sensitive period, maybe it was because I was too tired during this period, or maybe it was because I left Li Songyun’s new home and wandered alone on the streets late at night...

The first person to notice his abnormality was Mrs. Wang. She brought some soup into Gu Mian's study and saw that his face was unusually red. She took his temperature and it was 39 degrees.

Mrs. Wang said, "Madam left some fever-reducing medicine at home a few days ago. Now it's just the right time to give it to you, sir."

"Li Songyun has a fever?" Gu Mian asked.

Mrs. Wang hesitated for a while, but finally couldn't help but said, "Madam had a fever the day she asked for a divorce from you. It was the first time that Madam said she wanted to rest for a while and didn't plan to cook."

"No matter how sick she was, Madam never said she wanted to rest."

"But that day Admiral Gu asked his wife to make you dinner before you rest."

After Mrs. Wang left the room, Gu Mian was the only one left in the room. He had a severe headache, his body was cold, and his stomach felt like it was being burned by fire, making him feel nauseous.

Having a fever is uncomfortable.

In his drowsy mind, he recalled again what Mrs. Wang had said: "I saw Madam in the kitchen, she looked very sad, her hands were shaking while she was cutting vegetables."

Gu Mian held up his dizzy head and covered his eyes with his hands. The lines of his jawline were still cold and calm. After a long time, Gu Mian opened the document and added a new line to the 15-page document: "Require Li Songyun to complete the housework when he is sick."

After taking the medicine, Gu Mian lay alone on the empty bed. His body was very tired, but he couldn't fall asleep.

When he was injured and recuperating, Li Songyun would sit in front of his bed, gently massage his temples, and hum songs that would comfort children.

At that time, Li Songyun had just given birth to her first child. Gu Hongxuan was lying in the cradle and he was lying on the hospital bed. Li Songyun looked at the child in the cradle and couldn't help but smile tenderly, then leaned over and gently kissed the child's forehead.

The warm yellow light shone on the omega in his pajamas, casting a flawless glow on his skin. The scene was as beautiful as an oil painting.

——"You can also list what you haven't done, such as whether you often praise your wife, express your love to your wife, and give her a gift that you personally selected... not money, but physical things."

——"No? After all these years together, hasn't Li Songyun made your heart flutter once?!"

What is heartbeat?

——"I can't explain this to you. Why do I become your confidant brother... that is, you suddenly want to kiss him and hug him..."

——"Forget it. With your personality, there's no way you'd be tempted."

I tried to close my eyes.

Starting from the moment he first met Li Songyun and ending when Li Songyun resolutely left, during this long period of 26 years, he had many moments when he wanted to get closer to Li Songyun.

But he was never true to his desires.

He just restrained his emotions again and again, drawing a clear line between himself and Li Songyun.

He didn't want anyone's departure to affect his emotions anymore. He didn't want to endure the pain of loss and deep loneliness anymore.

His father only told him that soldiers need to be rational and calm, and revealing their preferences is tantamount to exposing their weaknesses.

But I never told him that love is not only a weak point, but also a shield.

Gu Mian opened the conversation box with Li Songyun. Since he agreed to divorce Li Songyun, Li Songyun removed him from the blacklist, and their chat dialogue page was empty at this moment.

He had a lot to say to Li Songyun, but he didn't know how to start. After thinking for a long time, he said that your fever-reducing medicine was left at home and asked Li Songyun if the fever had subsided.

After a while, Li Songyun replied: "Thank you for your concern. I'm fine now. What can I do for you?"

At the same time, the system popped up a notification about Li Songyun’s latest developments.

Gu Mian saw the photos displayed in the dynamic video, in which Li Songyun and Gu Peifeng were having fun in the amusement park. He could guess who took the photo of them even without looking at the tall shadow cast on the ground in one of the photos.

Li Songyun: [May we all run towards our passion, ideals and tomorrow.]

The last photo shows Li Songyun laughing happily as he heads towards a tomorrow full of hope.

But in the tomorrow that Li Songyun longs for, he does not exist.

Gu Mian suddenly realized one thing: just like food will spoil, the feelings stored in the heart will also irreversibly rot and stink.

Just as it was impossible for him to eat the moldy meal that was forgotten in the microwave, it was impossible for Li Songyun to come back to him.

During these long 26 years, he had countless opportunities to win back Li Songyun, but he missed them all.

The boundary he had drawn between himself and Li Songyun had now become an uncrossable chasm.

He couldn't cross this gap, so he could only watch Li Songyun walk further and further away, and at most say, "I'm sorry, I wish you happiness for the rest of your life."