"But... you know what? This hurts."
"It's nothing compared to that day when I was lying in the delivery room, feeling the pain of my lower body being torn apart."
“At that time…”
"I watched the midwife holding a pair of scissors, trying to cut open my flesh and take the baby out of my belly. I was so scared, so scared. While I was terrified, I comforted myself that it was good that the baby was alive."
"But by then I was numb to the pain. I knew that the moment the scissors landed on me, it might not have been as painful as giving birth. So what did it matter? A little skin breakage was nothing."
"What is wrong with me?"
"How come I can persevere through the excruciating pain of childbirth, but when my feet get a little rubbed or I get a little tired, I cry out that I can't go on? What's wrong with me? That pain is obviously tens of thousands of times more painful!!"
The way up the mountain is very tiring.
The soles of my feet are rubbed and it hurts a lot.
But--
Compared with the difficult delivery in the delivery room that day.
Compared to cutting the genitals open with scissors.
Aunt Zhao thought.
This little bit of pain was only one ten-thousandth of a second, just a drizzle, but she could even get through a difficult childbirth, so why couldn't she endure this little bit of suffering and fatigue? She didn't understand, she really didn't understand!
I don’t understand why I had such horrible and ridiculous thoughts along the way!
In this world, is there any pain that is more painful than difficult childbirth or having your genitals torn apart alive?
Why couldn't she hold on?
"Cry, cry."
"Because before today, no one told you that there was another way to go besides getting married and having children."
Chen Wei patted Aunt Zhao's back, letting her tears wet her clothes. She gently comforted her, saying, "You have never seen the scenery at the top of the mountain."
“They who live on this land.”
"Never seen it before."
"They thought the mountaintop was a place of monstrous beasts and a bottomless abyss. The house, on the other hand, was a place of stability, a place of support, and the beauty of everyone's life."
"Now, do you understand why I would rather drink the Luozi soup than stay in the Marquis' Mansion to compete for Xie Yuchuan's favor? Do you understand why I tried my best to leave?"
"Physical training is hard, drawing a bow and wielding a sword is hard, and running a cake shop is even harder."
"But, isn't it hard to stay in the Marquis' Mansion?"
"Just like the mountain road you walked today, the process was so tiring and painful, but how does this tiredness and pain compare to your difficult labor, to when you were lying in bed waiting for Xie Yuchuan to decide whether you would live or die?"
"Does it still hurt?"
Aunt Zhao hugged Chen Wei's body and cried loudly.
She kept shaking her head, as if she wanted to cry out all the humiliation she had suffered during this period: "It doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't hurt at all... Chen Wei, you are right, you are the right one."
“Wuwuwu…”
"It's not that I'm right, but everything I do is what my soul wants." Chen Wei corrected.
"And now, it's become what you want too."
Xiaoman sat on the grass, wiping away tears with sobs.
Tired of crying, Xiaoman lay on the grass.
Looking up at the sky.
Endless blue sky, white clouds, and gentle breeze blowing on your face.
The view in the Marquis' Mansion was the same, and the sky was the same, but for some reason, in this place, Xiaoman felt unprecedented ease and happiness.
She likes this feeling, she likes it very much.
She thought,
If only one day in the future, I could lie here and look at the blue sky and feel the breeze.
It seemed that she could also give up her status, the favor and wealth of the marquis, because, compared with the fearful life in the mansion, this kind of freedom could not be compensated by material things.
"Xiaoman seems to have fallen asleep." Chen Wei turned his head and found Xiaoman sleeping on the lawn with a smile on his face.
"Chen Wei, I'm sorry for what happened before."
"It's okay." Shen Wei smiled brightly: "I forgive you!"
"You...you are so nice. I want to cry again."
"Oh, by the way, Chen Wei, are you thirsty? I just saw there are fruits in that place, it seems to be a very tall fruit tree..."
"Want to eat?"
“A little.”
"I'll go shoot them down."
"Can you do it?"
“How do you know if you don’t try?”
This day.
Chen Wei stood on the top of the mountain, looking at the towering fruit trees. Facing the sunshine, he drew his bow, put an arrow on it, half-closed one eye, and aimed at the fruit on the tree trunk.
Aunt Zhao stood beside Shen Wei expectantly, staring at the fruits on the tree.
"Zheng!"
"Zheng!"
"Zheng!"
Aunt Zhao will remember this scene for the rest of her life.
Same.
A slender figure hidden not far away took in the entire scene.
The young man in a loose Taoist robe hid behind a tree, looking at Chen Wei with tenderness and affection in his eyes, watching her face with a relaxed and joyful smile, watching her run, watching her laugh heartily.
Watching her bathed in the sun,
Look at her high spirits.
The man held a string of Buddhist beads in his hand, with a thankful smile on his face: "Weiwei, long time no see."
"Master, you have come all the way here without stopping, don't you see me?" The imposing subordinate beside him glanced at Chen Wei, was stunned for a few seconds, then retracted his gaze and asked respectfully.
"Gone."
The man chuckled and said, "I'll just take a look at her from a distance. Just one look is enough."
“You cherish Miss Shen so much and can’t bear to see her suffer even a little bit, why don’t you just snatch her away from Lord Xie?”
"Marquis Xie already has a wife, and Miss Shen follows him without even a legitimate status."
"I really don't understand. With your status and position, you are many times better than Lord Xie in every way. You only have Miss Shen in your eyes. You will definitely give Miss Shen the best life and ensure her a lifetime of glory."
"Why...don't you let her see it?"
The subordinate blurted out everything he had been holding in his heart for a while.
But the man's eyes dimmed.
He twisted his hand holding the Buddhist beads, and the beads slid through his fingertips one by one. His pupils seemed to only allow room for Shen Wei's bright and flamboyant figure: "I can't give her the best life."
The subordinate shook his head: "You can't give it to me in this whole world, and I'm afraid no one can."
"The glory that outsiders long for is not worth mentioning in her eyes, so I can't give it to her."
"Taking Weiwei away from the Marquis' Mansion and snatching her into my hands is nothing more than making her jump from one cage to another larger one. She should be free. This shouldn't happen."
"Xie Yuchuan and I are both just shackles."
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