Chapter 105: New Life in the Present World
"Has the radish been soaked in seasoning? Will it be too spicy?"
Xia Yunqie asked him softly. Qi Yan had sent her a message a long time ago, asking her to bring a bowl of seafood porridge and some appetizer pickled radish to Chen Xiliu if there was still no movement from the other side at lunch time.
"Did they have a conflict?" Grandma was a little suspicious, remembering what grandpa said. Early in the morning, Qi Yan left in a hurry without even saying a few words to him.
Xia Yunqie was also a little suspicious and wanted to ask Qi Yan, but he just said nothing happened and told them not to worry about it.
"It's not spicy and quite delicious." Chen Xiliu shook his head. He originally had no appetite, but when he thought of what Xia Yunqie said, he wanted to finish it all. The sweet and sour radish is very appetizing, crisp and refreshing, awakening his appetite. As the seafood porridge enters his stomach, the slightly painful area becomes much more comfortable.
Hearing this, Xia Yunqie smiled and nodded, "That's good. Qi Yan made this himself. He was arguing with his grandmother about whether to add chili peppers. He was worried that you wouldn't be able to eat it. Now it seems that it should be okay."
Shen Xiliu paused: "He did it himself?"
"Well, his grandmother likes it very much. The day before yesterday, the two of them went to buy it together." The sweet and sour crispy radish is very appetizing. Grandma likes to eat it with porridge in the morning. When the two of them were cooking together, Qi Yan took into account that Chen Xiliu could not eat spicy food, so he made a small jar of it. He also discussed with his grandmother whether to add chili peppers to enhance the flavor.
"In fact, I still added a few other peppers. After all, if I didn't, the taste wouldn't be right." Grandma ordered Qi Yan to listen to her, and she was sure she was right. You can't not put it in, but put less, or change the type of pepper. In fact, the spiciness is not obvious. Qi Yan thought his grandmother was talking nonsense. People in their area liked to add a lot of chili peppers and then say that the food was not spicy.
But this time, grandma really didn't fool him. He took a bite the next day and it was indeed not spicy. Qi Yan, who was originally planning to make another jar of tea, decided to let Shen Xiliu taste it first to see what Shen Xiliu's feedback was.
“…”
After listening to what Xia Yunqie said, Chen Xiliu suddenly felt his nose a little sour and he felt indescribably happy in his heart. He really liked the feeling of being cared for by Qi Yan, but he was also afraid that Qi Yan would not want him after he recovered his memory.
Will such a terrible and tragic ending happen again?
Chen Xiliu has been trying to find a way to prevent the situation from developing into that state. Reason tells him that there must be no problem, but his emotions are out of control. Fear is always buried deep in his heart, fermenting little by little, and has been bothering him since he was a child.
Qi Yan, who still had his memories, would not love him or save him, so he did not show up at the place where they first met and let him die.
Whenever he thought of this, Shen Xiliu couldn't stop being afraid, and even tears rolled out of his eyes uncontrollably.
"Why is Xiliu crying?" Xia Yunqie was startled and quickly took out a handkerchief and wanted to hand it to him.
"...I'm fine, thank you." Shen Xiliu stretched out his hand to cover his face, feeling a little embarrassed. As long as it was about Qi Yan, he would never be rational. "I'm just a little too happy."
He was so happy that he wanted to die right now, so that he wouldn't have to face the judgment of Qi Yan when he regained his memory. This would make him fall into hell again after finally gaining hope. This was too painful, as if an invisible hand was strangling his throat and he couldn't breathe.
Is it really just happiness? Xia Yunqie gently placed the handkerchief next to his elbow without looking at Shen Xiliu: “Well, but if Qi Yan saw it, he would probably be angry.”
“How could that be?” Qi Yan would never be angry with you for such a boring thing. Shen Xiliu wiped away his tears, his emotions were still unstable, “He is not someone who gets angry so easily.”
"Yes, he is indeed not a person who gets angry easily, but if he sees someone close to him hurting himself, he will be very angry." Xia Yunqie said to him seriously.
At this moment, looking into the pair of eyes that were very similar to Qi Yan's, Shen Xiliu felt as if he was completely seen through by Xia Yunqie.
He couldn't help but avoid such gazes.
Xia Yunqie picked up a handkerchief and wiped the tears from his cheeks: "I don't know what happened to you, but don't worry too much. Qi Yan must like you very much and care about you very much, so he asked us to pay attention to whether you went out and whether you had breakfast and lunch..."
Qi Yan's personality is not that passionate, and his gentleness is limited. He is rarely that attentive to others.
Xia Yunqie knew that Chen Xiliu held a special position in Qi Yan's eyes and he must love him very much, so he paid attention to so many details.
Shen Xiliu didn't need to panic. Qi Yan was the kind of person who would speak up when he had problems. Once he figured things out, he would definitely have a good talk with Shen Xiliu.
…
Qi Yan was about to knock on Dr. Zhai's door when he heard a voice coming from inside.
"You don't need to ask. I will never tell you anything about my patients!" Doctor Zhai said firmly, "This is my professional ethics. No matter how you threaten or bribe me, even if you kidnap me, I will never tell you!"
As the last word sounded, the door was suddenly opened. Dr. Zhai, who had hung up the phone, and Qi Yan, who had just raised his hand and was about to knock on the door, looked at each other.
Doctor Zhai's serious expression suddenly became gentle: "Qi Yan, why are you coming to see me now? Is there something wrong?"
"Yes, I have something to ask you." Qi Yan put down his hand that was knocking on the door and said politely, "I'm so sorry, Doctor Zhai, to visit you at this time. I'm sorry to bother you. Are you going out?"
He was sorting out his memories of his past and present lives in the hotel, and finally suppressed the headaches. When he finished sorting out his memories, it was already around six in the afternoon.
"It's just a small matter, but since you are here and have something to discuss, come in." Dr. Zhai kindly invited him in. The environment in his home was very warm, giving people a friendly and relaxing atmosphere.
Qi Yan took the coffee he made: "Thank you, sorry for bothering you."
"No problem." Doctor Zhai sat across the table and looked at him gently, "Qi Yan, do you have anything to discuss?"
Qi Yan took a sip of coffee and got straight to the point: "It's like this. I want to ask, why did you suddenly move next door to my house back then? From what I know, you should have been working abroad at the time, right?"
Dr. Zhai is an internationally renowned psychologist who has lived abroad for a long time, taught at well-known foreign universities, conducted in-depth research on mental education, and is extremely good at treating mental illnesses. He has an extremely high status in this area of psychology and is respected by others. He should not have suddenly returned to China and moved to an ordinary community.
Facing Qi Yan's scrutinizing gaze, Doctor Zhai was not surprised at all, and remained gentle and calm: "Well, it is true. I had a lot of work to do at that time, but I came back because of a friend's request."
He did not hide the fact that his friend wanted him to help two special children with their medical treatment, so he came back.
"Then my memory." Qi Yan stared at him calmly, "Does it have anything to do with you?"
Qi Yan's memory has been sorted out, but in terms of Dr. Zhai, it is still lacking, with only a few faint traces remaining. However, his voice remained in my mind deeply, and revived along with the memory, as if it was the key to unlock the memory.
Doctor Zhai smiled and said, "Sometimes, memories that are not your own only bring torture. Children cannot bear a painful and sad life."
He didn't give a direct answer.
Qi Yan lowered his eyes. When he was a child, he really couldn't bear such memories. It almost became a torture. He spent a whole year but still couldn't make himself become normal.
The emergence of a large number of painful memories shattered Xiao Qi Yan's original sense of self, and he could not tell who he was. Different fragments of memory appeared, making him think that he was himself at different times, and he kept questioning himself.
Sometimes he seemed to have returned to his past life when he had wronged his mother, desperately apologizing to her; sometimes he seemed to have returned to the present, wondering why his mother was so worried about him; sometimes he seemed to have returned to the time before his death in his past life, thinking his mother was an illusion, unable to distinguish the present from the present, and ready to jump off the building...
At that time, he and Xia Yunqie switched positions. It was Xia Yunqie who went crazy in the previous life, and it was him who went crazy in this life.
"Thank you." Qi Yan thanked sincerely.
If these memories of past lives had not disappeared, he would not have been able to grow up smoothly to where he is now, and then receive these memories of past lives after his self-awareness was fully developed.
Doctor Zhai shook his head: "I'm not the one you should thank."
He just does the job for money. The truly powerful people are those who dare to arrange this matter, dare to let him know about the so-called "rebirth", and do not care about revealing what will happen in the next few decades.
"No, you are also someone I should thank." Qi Yan certainly knew that there were other people who needed to be thanked, but Dr. Zhai was among them.
He did not disturb the other party for long. After finding out what happened, he left and headed to Shen's house on time.
"You've come at the right time." The butler led him into the study. The elder sitting behind the desk was flipping through a photo album. Without waiting for Qi Yan to say sorry for disturbing him, he extended his hand for him to come over and handed him the album. "Take a look. Isn't Xi Liu beautiful when he was young?"
The head of the Shen family pointed at the young man in the photo with a smile on his face. The boy had long black hair that reached his waist, and wore a hat and sunglasses, a slim black suit, and held a camera in his hand. The sunglasses cover half of the face, making the clear and delicate cheeks appear soft, the pale complexion looks a bit sickly and noble, the whole person looks a bit cold and mysterious, and the posture reveals an elegant neutral style.
“…”
"Why aren't you talking?" The head of the Shen family looked at Qi Yan who remained silent.
"…I've seen 'her'." Qi Yan sighed. They had indeed seen him before, and it was when they were in high school. They had met him several times in scenic spots, but they did not recognize him.
He just thought it was a female omega who was taking pictures of the scenery everywhere, and had no idea that it was Shen Xiliu. The other party accidentally took a good photo and brought it to them. Using the words of a professional photographer, he said that he felt that they blended beautifully with the scenery just now, so he couldn't help but take the photo.
Now that I think about it, the people who seemed to be taking pictures of the scenery were actually taking pictures of him.
"It's a bit scary, isn't it?" The head of the Shen family nodded and asked him to sit down. "It's scary to think that someone has been secretly following me for the past ten years. It may even leave a psychological shadow if I'm not careful."
He tried to speak as tactfully as possible, not wanting to use terms like yandere, pervert, or psycho to describe his nephew.
Qi Yan: “…”
To be honest, he hated being followed by people, from his previous life to now. Yi Hongli had left him with a deep psychological trauma, and even Chen Xiliu's later decision to send people to monitor him... indirectly led to the death of his friend.
Qi Yan should have been angry, but he chose to remain silent at this moment. He didn't know what to say, and finally changed the subject.
"Excuse me, was it you who prompted us to reunite with our family earlier that year?"
If the course of the previous life were followed, it would take at least several years for them to meet again. Given Qi Yan's condition at the time, it was impossible for him to contact his grandparents and his uncle and aunt. But the appearance of Dr. Zhai changed his situation, and his uncle also came for work, which naturally led to their meeting. Everything was carefully arranged.
"No, it wasn't me." Patriarch Shen shook his head and said to Qi Yan very seriously, "It was Xi Liu who did it."
When it comes to Qi Yan's affairs, Shen Xiliu likes to do it himself, and after the head of the Shen family asked him to calm down, he began to arrange everything.
Even if Qi hated him and wanted him dead, Shen Xiliu just wanted to give him a new life.
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