Chapter 26 Chapter 26 You Can't Reject Him
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Qi Yan couldn't answer this question. He didn't know whether he liked Shen Xiliu, but he knew that he should have a good impression of Shen Xiliu.
But after knowing the pheromone matching degree, this good feeling became unexpectedly complicated.
"Qi Yan, do you know? The offensiveness of the alpha is very weak in you." Shen Yunshu observed him for a while, and seeing that Qi Yan did not answer immediately, he continued to speak.
"When you meet your 'destined' omega, you shouldn't behave like this. Alphas are the aggressors at the top, born offensive, and extremely possessive. Once they meet their destined person or are threatened by an enemy, they will release the strongest pheromones to suppress the other party. This is an instinct engraved in our genes."
Shen Yunshu pushed up his glasses and said, "But we are at least creatures that can be called 'humans', not rutting animals that can't even suppress their primitive instincts. I understand and appreciate that you didn't do this, but there is still a problem."
"Instinct can be controlled but it can't disappear, just like a knee-jerk reaction, but you don't have it." His eyes were serious, making it difficult to look directly at him.
“……”Qi Yan remained silent, not knowing how to explain.
"Even I, who once met an omega with a 94.55% pheromone match, was unable to control the release of pheromones and suppressed everyone present. If my friends hadn't arrived in time and taken me away, I can almost predict what would happen next. Moreover, our pheromone match is only 94.55%, which is far less than the match between you and Xi Liu."
Shen Yunshu said meaningfully: "Qi Yan, I noticed a long time ago that you and Xi Liu have a similar habit, which is to always control the pheromone matching degree to almost zero. Shen Xi Liu wears a pheromone suppression collar due to illness, which makes the pheromone control stricter than ordinary people. This is normal."
"But what about you? What's your reason? I've read your medical report. It's impossible for a normal alpha to control his pheromones to such a pathological level. This is not in line with our alpha's instincts."
Even if pheromones cannot be released at will, the alpha should still carry a small amount of non-aggressive pheromones on his body to show his charm. However, Qi Yan's management is too strict and there are no pheromones at all.
"Hasn't Director Shen already guessed it?" Qi Yan raised his eyes and looked at him. There was nothing wrong with his body, so there was only one problem.
Shen Yunshu smiled and nodded: "I did guess it. It is precisely because I guessed it that I think you are even more extraordinary."
As an alpha with psychological problems, Qi Yan's body and glands are overly healthy.
"I have one thing to apologize for. I have done some private research on your background information." Shen Yunshu's apologetic expression revealed a hint of interest.
"You saw a psychiatrist in your senior year of high school. It was He Sheng. I know this person. He is quite remarkable in his field. I wonder what he said?"
Qi Yan looked at him in surprise. It was expected that Shen Yunshu would investigate his family background. After all, his pheromones were to be extracted for Shen Xiliu to use. Given Shen Yunshu's character, it was impossible for him to just look at the information he handed in. It was normal for him to do some investigation in private, which was in line with the Shen family's cautious character.
But Qi Yan didn't expect that the other party had even found out that Doctor He had treated him. This kind of thing that almost no outsiders knew about was discovered.
Qi Yan smiled helplessly: "It's very simple, childhood trauma, as long as you open your heart and accept everything, you can get out of it. Mr. Shen, you even found out such a small matter, so you should also know my family situation. It's normal to have some mental illness when encountering such a thing, right?"
"That's true." Shen Yunshu touched his chin. He actually had many questions he wanted to ask, but he noticed that under Qi Yan's seemingly calm face, there flashed a barely perceptible hint of impetuous micro-expression. Things were not that simple, but continuing to talk would probably not be a good thing for both parties.
If Shen Xiliu knew about this, given his petty, protective and extreme personality, he would definitely take revenge on him.
"Well, let's just leave it at that. Don't take my question to heart. I'm just exploring it casually. I don't really care about your relationship."
Shen Yunshu smiled slightly and changed the question. Seeing Qi Yan breathe a sigh of relief, his eyes deepened slightly. He turned to talk about Shen Xiliu's illness and prepared to adjust the next treatment strategy.
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Shen Yunshu is a very troublesome person. Listening to him speak, Qi Yan had a feeling that he had been seen through by him. Fortunately, the other party did not continue talking.
But Shen Yunshu's words also forced Qi Yan to face up to his own hidden problems - why had he suffered from insomnia for so many years?
In fact, the answer has always been very simple. Because he didn't want to face those twisted and weird nightmares, his body instinctively chose to suffer from insomnia to fight the nightmares, until his body couldn't bear it anymore and fell into it again.
But why do I have nightmares? Dr. He said it was related to his past, because he witnessed the breakdown of his family, his father beating his mother, and his mother losing her rationality and becoming crazy due to pheromone disorder. He was afraid that he would go down the same path in the future...
But is it really like that?
Not really. Qi Yan knew that his parents hardly appeared in his dreams, but more often that mysterious omega, who was the core of the nightmare.
——"Qi Yan, if you want to be cured, you can't choose to escape."
Doctor He once said this, but Qi Yan still chose to flee.
After sitting on the sofa for a long time, Qi Yan called Dr. He.
"Hmm? You're calling so late, Qi Yan, how is your mother?" The person on the other end of the line answered quickly, and out of habit asked about Qi Yan's mother's condition first.
"Mom, it's okay. I was the one who wanted to see you, Doctor He. I have something I want to talk to you about." He Sheng has been the attending physician of Qi Yan's mother for more than ten years. Qi Yan used to talk to him often about his mother's illness.
Doctor He's laughter came over, very gentle and soft: "If someone else chatted with me, I would start charging according to the time, but since it's you, it's free. Calling at this time, is it related to your insomnia problem?"
Even though this issue was only mentioned once during his senior year of high school and was rarely mentioned afterwards, Dr. He was still able to keenly discover his problem after so many years.
"...Well, yes, Doctor He, this is what I wanted to talk about." Qi Yan said slowly. Doctor He was a very gentle and careful person. He did not interrupt him. Like a kind elder, he listened quietly to him talking about everything he had encountered recently.
Although Qi Yan tried his best to objectively describe what happened from a third-party perspective without emotion, Dr. He still found his problem: "So, it was that omega who made you want to come out of the dream, right?"
Qi Yan leaned back on the sofa, looked up at the ceiling and said, "Well, I can't seem to refuse him."
Doctor He said gently, "Qi Yan, have you noticed? It's not that you 'seem' unable to reject him, but that you really can't reject him. It's not because your pheromones match each other, nor because he helps you, nor because he likes you, but because you care about him very much."
"Qi Yan, you are not someone who will change yourself because of other people's ideas. If you change because of someone, then that person must be very important to you."
The insomnia problem has existed for seven years. A normal person would not be able to endure it for so long, but Qi Yan did. No matter how severe his insomnia was, he never thought of seeking medical treatment. But how long had it been since he and the omega met? You already want to solve this problem. Isn't this enough to see your own heart clearly?
"Doctor He, but I still don't understand..." Before Qi Yan could finish his words, Doctor He already knew what he wanted to say.
"Qi Yan, feelings are not as complicated as you think." Doctor He said, "You are not an indecisive person. The reason you are stuck in a dead end in this regard is that deep down in your heart you feel uneasy and afraid about this relationship, so you are unwilling to face it."
Having his deepest secrets exposed, Qi Yan's pupils shrank slightly. He sat up straight and subconsciously wanted to deny it. He opened his mouth but compromised and admitted, "Yes, I am uneasy."
But I didn't understand the reason for my uneasiness.
Doctor He was still trying to comfort him slowly, but Qi Yan felt that he had not touched the key point.
"Don't always lock yourself up in the house. Try to change a little bit and go out to have a look. You may find something new. It's never a cold winter outside. If you go out now, you may see the blooming spring."
After the phone call ended, Qi Yan was silent for a long time, stood up and walked to the table. There was a box of lychees on the table. He opened the box, took out the fresh lychees, peeled them and ate them. They were very delicious and juicy.
He has loved eating lychees since he was a child. He once got a sore throat due to eating too many, but later he learned his lesson and realized that greed is never a good thing.
"Eat less and don't get irritated, Qi Gui... ahem, Brother Qi, be careful and don't eat too much at once." When they came out of the bar, You Yi ran over to give him a reminder.
Thinking about it now, Qi Yan couldn't help but sneer: "Brother Qi? Ha, that guy wanted to say Imperial Concubine at that time."
Sometimes, having too good hearing is not a good thing.
[Lychees are delicious, thank you^^]
Qi Yan took out his phone and sent a message to Shen Xiliu, who replied almost instantly. He paused, replied the message, and told him to go to bed early before putting the phone on the table and going into the bathroom to take a shower.
This is probably your current state of mind when you like someone, right?
It can't be refused, it can't be ignored, it can't be left alone.
Then we can only face up to our feelings and seize this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
Falling asleep with this thought in mind, Qi Yan closed his eyes and thought, is this the core of the nightmare?
Now I want to see what the truth is. Only by not avoiding it can I solve the problem. This should allow us to get out of winter and welcome the spring that Dr. He mentioned, right?
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"You said this is all induced by pheromones?"
He tilted his head, revealing his gentle and handsome face. His peach blossom eyes were slightly curved with a pure smile. He held a cigarette between his fingers, with smoke curling around it. His usually romantic and ruthless demeanor now showed a little more sincerity.
"Maybe, but I think he's cute from the bottom of my heart. The first time I saw him, I understood what it meant to be moved."
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"Don't say that. Love at first sight and lust at first sight are completely different." The black eyes were quite serious, shining with tiny rays of light.
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"I like you because I like you. What reason do I need? Is it an illusion that our pheromone compatibility is too high? Haha, if our pheromone compatibility is high, doesn't that mean we are made for each other? That's awesome!"
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"I believe in it. I believe in fatalism. Don't look at me like this. I am actually a believer in fatalism. Theoretical believers are the most troublesome." He supported his face and bit the cigarette. A wisp of smoke rose slowly, blurring the smile on his handsome face, which was rare and bright and sunny.
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“…Tick-tock!”
“…Tick-tock, tick-tock!”
“…Tick, tick, tick!”
The sound of dripping water became louder and louder. A strange numbness and tingling came from my hands, and my dormant consciousness was awakened.
Qi Yan suddenly opened his eyes and saw a dazzling red color. The water from the bathroom mixed with glass fragments flowed everywhere. Bottles and jars fell to the ground, as if someone had robbed and the place was in a mess. He felt a sharp pain in his palms.
He looked up, his pupils suddenly contracted, the glass fragments in his palms fell to the ground with a snap, and bloody, twisted red words were written on the mirror in front of him -
You will regret it! ! !
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