Crossroads
Life back in Nanjing was uneventful, and Sang Qi began a new chapter. However, she would often find herself lost in thought for no apparent reason, especially during her free time. She could sit by the window all day, staring blankly at the sky.
At first, she didn't think there was anything wrong with what she was doing, but as time went on, she became more and more aware of it, so she went to see a psychologist.
The treatment she received from the psychologist was not very effective; she continued to act as before.
She belatedly realized that she probably wasn't sick; it was just that so much had happened before, and now that she was back to a peaceful life, she was having trouble adjusting.
Sang Qi hadn't been sleeping well these days, but she slept exceptionally well last night.
That's a very rare thing.
Sang Qi woke up naturally around 11 a.m., and was a little surprised when she glanced at the time.
She sat on the bed for a while before getting up, slipping on her slippers to wash up, and was brushing her teeth when her phone rang.
The sudden ringing of the bell made her heart skip a beat; she felt nervous for no reason.
Upon hearing the ringtone, Sang Qi quickly rinsed the toothpaste foam from her mouth and hurriedly answered the phone.
The caller ID showed Lin Na as the caller ID.
She paused for a moment, stunned.
After being captured by Qian Ganpeng that day, he lost contact with Lin Na and Zaxi. Now that Lin Na has taken the initiative to call, it seems that he has not fallen into Qian Ganpeng's hands.
Sang Qi answered the phone: "Hello, Lin Na."
"Oh my god, I was so worried something had happened to you. Now that I hear your voice, I'm so relieved." Linna breathed a sigh of relief.
Sang Qi smiled and said, "I'm fine. I'm back in Nanjing now. What about you and Zaxi? What's going on between you two?"
Linna sighed and said, "That day we were attacked. The car slid down the hillside. You were captured by Qian Ganpeng, and Zaxi and I were imprisoned in a sanatorium by Qian Ganpeng's men. Fortunately, Zaxi and I escaped later."
Sang Qi nodded and sighed, "It's good that you're all alright."
Linna continued, "After we escaped, we wanted to rescue you, but then we heard that Lu Min had been murdered, and you too..."
That's where the conversation ended.
"Then how do you know I'm not dead?" Sang Qi asked.
At this point, Linna said with a hint of doubt, "A mysterious man called me and told me that you were still alive..."
"A mysterious man?" Sang Qi hesitated for a moment, then suddenly thought of the man who had saved her.
Inform Linna that the mysterious man should be the one who saved Sang Qi.
“Sang Qi…” Lin Na suddenly called her name.
"Um?"
"Regarding Lu Min..."
At that moment, Sang Qi's eyes became vacant, his mind went blank for a moment, he could not focus his gaze on the token in front of him, and his nose suddenly felt sore.
After a long silence, she asked, her voice choked with emotion, "I know." Her voice was barely audible, like a mosquito's buzz. "But I miss him so much... Only now do I realize how much I love him. He died without ever hearing me say 'I love you'..."
As she spoke, Sang Qi completely lost control of her emotions and burst into tears.
"It's true," Linna said firmly. "The dead can't be brought back to life, so try to accept it!"
Linna's words were like a sharp knife piercing Sang Qi's heart, causing her excruciating pain.
Even though so much time has passed, Sang Qi still feels unbearable pain and torment whenever Lu Min is mentioned, no matter how small.
She could never let go of the man who had entered her heart and her world.
Tears welled up in her eyes again and streamed down her cheeks. She felt a little short of breath and couldn't breathe properly.
"Sang Qi, can you hear me?" Lin Na was getting anxious when Sang Qi didn't say anything.
She paused for a while before saying, "I know... I know he's not coming back. I will take good care of myself and live my life to the fullest."
"Sang Qi, are you alright?" Lin Na asked worriedly.
She raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, and forced a calm smile, saying, "It's okay, I'm fine. So much time has passed, I'll get back to normal."
Lin Na remained silent for a while: "Sang Qi, if you are sad or upset, please don't hold it in. Really, we are all very sad about Lu Min's departure."
"Okay, I know what to do."
"Okay, contact me if you need anything."
"Okay, thank you." Sang Qi forced a smile.
After hanging up the phone, Sang Qi's mood plummeted. She hugged her arms in despair, leaned against the wall, and slowly squatted down along the wall.
She was never the type to throw a tantrum; she kept everything to herself, no matter how big the problem was.
But when Lu Min was mentioned, all her defenses crumbled, and her emotions were written all over her face.
After finishing her phone call with Linna, Sang Qi felt sentimental for a while, but quickly readjusted her emotions and went about her business as usual during the day.
But when the night is quiet and she is lying in bed alone, Lu Min's face and his image will involuntarily pop into her mind, and then she will cry, suffer from insomnia, and find it difficult to calm her emotions for a long time.
This situation lasted for more than half a month and had seriously affected her normal life. Later, she went to see a psychologist and was diagnosed with moderate depression.
When she saw her diagnosis, she almost laughed. She couldn't believe that depression had actually happened to her.
After being diagnosed with depression, she obediently followed the doctor's advice and took medication.
In the following two months, she went to find a job.
After graduating with her master's degree, she returned to China and went on a trip to Yunnan, where a series of terrible things happened. Now that she's back in Nanjing, she should find a job and settle down.
With a bachelor's degree from a top-tier Chinese university (985/211) and a master's degree from the University of Zurich, Sang Qi possesses excellent academic qualifications. While she might not be able to find a truly satisfactory and high-paying job, she can certainly find a decent one.
Now she goes to work from 9 am to 5 pm every day, cooks for herself when she gets home, and then watches TV shows, and the day is over.
Day after day, her depression was cured with the passage of time and medication.
………
Nanjing is a city with four distinct seasons. Now it's winter, and the trees on the streets are bare, the north wind is howling, and it's particularly desolate.
During rush hour, most pedestrians on the street are wearing down jackets or coats, hunching their shoulders and hurrying along, as if they would freeze to death if they stayed outside for even a little longer.
Looking at the desolate scene outside the car window, Sang Qi had the idea of taking a stroll. She hadn't been out shopping for a long time, and there happened to be a shopping district nearby with many malls.
She drove the car to a nearby parking lot.
Since returning to Nanjing, Sang Qi has had to drive herself for work.
She was a little nervous when she first started driving, but after a few trips, she gradually became more familiar with it. Now, she can't be called an experienced driver, but she can certainly be said to be quite adept at it.
After parking the car, Sang Qi opened the door and got out.
As soon as I got off the car, I was enveloped in the cold air and couldn't help but shiver.
She was wearing a turtleneck sweater underneath a long wool coat that went past her knees, and a scarf around her neck. Her long, smooth hair cascaded down her shoulders.
This is an extremely ordinary outfit; in Nanjing's winter, you can find countless girls dressed like this.
Sang Qi tightened his coat, put his hands in his pockets, and slowly walked to the traffic light to stop and cross the road.
She was the only person waiting for the traffic light on her side, while there were four or five people waiting on the other side.
One of the tall figures seemed particularly familiar.
In that instant, Sang Qi's heart pounded like a drum, and his mind became tense.
She stared intently, trying to get a good look at the familiar figure, but because the light was too dim, she couldn't see it very clearly.
She sighed inwardly and muttered to herself, "Sang Qi has gone mad again."
A year has passed.
Lu Min has been gone for a year, and she feels that she has completely let go of it.
But at this moment, that familiar figure made her lose her focus again.
But... that figure was so familiar.
Undeterred, she raised her head again and stared intently at the man at the crossroads across the road.
The roadside lights cast shadows, and the movement of light and shadow on the man's face caused the light to flicker.
Sang Qi stepped forward and saw a tall man wearing a black baseball cap, a black down jacket with a stand-up collar, zipped up all the way, and dark blue jeans and yellow Martin boots.
Although they were quite far apart, Sang Qi tried hard to focus and could vaguely make out their faces.
He has deep-set eyes and a strong facial contour, giving him a fierce and roguish look.
It's him, it's him!
It's Lu Min!
Sang Qi's pupils dilated, and his eyes suddenly turned red.
It really is him! He's already...
At that moment, an excited Sang Qi was about to rush over to get a good look at the person's face, but there was still a 40-second red light.
Sang Qi was seen exhaling large puffs of white breath, her eyes fixed on the man at the end of the zebra crossing, tears welling up in her eyes.
The red light flashes, the green light turns on.
The moment the green light turned on, Sang Qi rushed forward without hesitation.
As she quickened her pace, her hair and scarf fluttered behind her, and the man's features became clearer and more familiar.
Sang Qi ran to Lu Min like a madwoman, looking at the person in front of her with teary eyes—real, clear, and vivid!
As if losing control, Sang Qi suddenly buried her face in his arms, tightly hugging his waist with both hands, tears streaming down her face.
The man's warm body, the unique scent of tobacco—everything felt so familiar.
At first, Sang Qi thought it was a dream, so she pinched herself. It hurt; it was real…
Sang Qi completely lost control of herself and burst into tears in the man's arms.
"So you weren't dead. I thought you'd never come back... It's been a year. I've lost you for a whole year..."
"Hey, who are you? Do I know you?" A man's voice came from above.
Sang Qi stopped crying abruptly, stunned for a moment. Could it be that she was so missing Lu Min that she had hallucinated and mistaken him for someone else?
Sang Qi froze, slowly releasing her grip on him, taking two steps back, and staring blankly at him.
It's definitely Lu Min.
How could she mistake Lu Min's annoying face?
The man looked Sang Qi up and down and said, "Who are you? I don't know you. Why did you hug me right away?"
What? You don't recognize me?
Sang Qi was incredulous.
"You haven't lost your memory, have you?" Sang Qi asked with a look of utter horror.
"What car accident and amnesia? Go write a novel. Get lost and don't come near me." The man curled his lip in disgust.
Don't touch me!
He said that Laozi's tone was exactly the same as Lu Min's, and then said no.
Sang Qi was immediately enraged and raised her hand to hit him: "Pretend to have amnesia! I'll teach you to pretend to have amnesia."
The man quickly stopped Sang Qi, yelling, "You crazy woman, who are you?"
“I am your mother!” Sang Qi said through gritted teeth.
Upon hearing the words "I am your mother," the man chuckled.
Sang Qi was furious. He not only hit him but also kicked him: "Is this fun? Is this funny? You have amnesia? I'm going to beat you until you have amnesia right now..."
Lu Min hurriedly grabbed Sang Qi's hands and begged for forgiveness, "I was wrong, I was wrong..."
Sang Qi then stopped.
After laughing enough, Lu Min looked at Sang Qi seriously: "Okay, okay, I'm not teasing you anymore."
Sang Qi angrily shook off his hand: "Who are you? I don't know you."
Lu Min chuckled and grabbed Sang Qi's shoulders: "My little Sang Qi, are you angry?"
"What do you think?" Sang Qi suddenly burst into tears, her eyes reddening again. She said angrily, "Weren't you dead? Why weren't you completely dead? If you weren't completely dead, why did you only come to find me now?"
Sang Qi was cursing and swearing, her voice trembling with tears.
Lu Min tenderly pulled her into his arms, holding her tightly. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have come to find you so late. I'm so sorry."
Nestled in Lu Min's warm and broad embrace, Sang Qi felt as if she had found a safe haven where she could throw a tantrum and cry as she pleased. She wept bitterly in Lu Min's arms.
Hearing Sang Qi's choked sobs, Lu Min's eyes also involuntarily reddened, and tears welled up in his eyes.
"Lu Min, there's something I need to tell you," Sang Qi said solemnly, wiping away her tears.
Lu Min looked at her with a serious expression.
"Will you still walk with me through the eternal night of the rest of my life?"
Lu Min embraced Sang Qi once more: "I couldn't ask for more."
Sang Qi pressed her cheek against the man's warm chest: "I'm sorry for telling you this so late. If these things hadn't happened, I would never have known how important you are to me."
She once thought that the words she couldn't say would be locked away like the door to her heart, forever sealed off and unresolved by anyone.
Fortunately, fate smiled upon her, giving her the opportunity to tell the person she admired what was hidden in her heart.
Lu Min didn't speak, but lowered his head and hugged Sang Qi tightly, as if he wanted to merge her into his own body.
"You know what? I actually had different feelings for you a long time ago. Maybe it started when you rescued me time and time again, or maybe it started when we went through life and death together. In any case, I fell in love with you during that trip, but I never admitted it."
“I thought we wouldn’t be from the same world. I thought you would stay in Yunnan after the trip, and I would go back to Nanjing. We might never see each other again in this life. So I restrained and resisted my feelings for you. I didn’t want a fleeting romance, a long-distance relationship, or for either of us to compromise for the other.”
"Don't say anything, I understand." Lu Min said gently, "Actually, there's nothing wrong with compromising for you. I'm willing to do it, so don't feel any burden."
“I understand…” Sang Qi sniffed. “I’ve always overthought things, so I’ve missed out on too much. Now I don’t want to miss out again. I want to seize every day.”
After saying that, Sang Qi tightened her arms around Lu Min.
There's a treasure at the end of the rainbow; she found the end of the rainbow.
Lu Min is the end of the rainbow, Lu Min is her darling.
For Yu Sangqi, she found the end of the rainbow; for Lu Min, the object of his prayers, the one who held prayer flags under the snow-capped mountains, finally became his girl.
Lu Min couldn't help but look down at Sang Qi, and when he saw her misty, watery eyes, a slight blush rose on his face. She looked innocent yet alluring, making her incredibly endearing.
The next second, Lu Min couldn't help but lower his head and kiss her lips, then gently entwine his tongue around hers.
Everything happened so intensely and suddenly. Sang Qi let herself indulge in Lu Min's love, however tender and affectionate it may be.
In the cold wind of a winter night, a man and a woman embraced and kissed deeply. That moment was like snow melting on a snow-capped mountain in spring, splashing and turning into cool water to irrigate the withered wilderness. The origin of this moment was unknown, but it was all ordained by fate.
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