Chapter 42 Unpopular
Zhaodi's grandmother and father are people with very traditional ideas.
There is a deep-rooted concept of favoring boys over girls.
Even living in the city cannot change this, so Zhaodi's mother always seems inferior in front of them. Even though she is such a noble college student in their eyes, in their eyes she is just a tool for reproduction, as if their family has a throne to inherit.
"I don't know if my mother hated me the moment she gave birth to me, or else she wouldn't have given me this name."
Whenever Zhaodi thought of the origin of her name, she didn't want to think about it too deeply, because it was too painful...
"I shouldn't have been born into this world."
Even if she turned into a ghost, her expression still looked so bleak and lonely.
When Zhaodi was five years old, her parents suddenly became very happy. She was also genuinely happy and wanted to join in. However, her mother scolded her and asked her to stay away.
"Master, do you know how much I wanted my mother to smile at me at that time..."
Bai Youyou couldn't fully understand this feeling because her parents gave her so much love.
Later she was sent to her grandmother's house, where she found out that her mother was pregnant.
But at that time, the family planning policy was strictly enforced, so she had to "disappear".
She couldn't help thinking that if her mother still couldn't give birth to a younger brother this time, then maybe she would have a younger sister with the same unfortunate fate as me.
When she seemed to be forgotten at her grandmother's house, her grandmother received a call. It was her mother who called and said that she had finally given birth to a son.
When she learned that she had a younger brother, Zhaodi was sincerely happy to have a new relative. Every day thereafter, she looked forward to her parents coming to pick her up.
I kept waiting until... my grandma passed away...
She looked at her grandmother lying there motionless, and watched the people from the village coming in and out of her house.
The village asked my mother and my uncle to come back to take care of my grandmother's funeral. Zhaodi lost her only support at that time, and my mother had to take her home. From then on, her life fell into a nightmare...
"At home, I was not qualified to eat at the table. I could only wait until they finished eating and then eat the leftovers in the corner of the kitchen. Washing dishes, washing clothes, cooking, almost all the housework fell on my shoulders."
“I didn’t go to school because my mother said it was a waste of money for girls to go to school. I couldn’t understand why my grandmother was so determined to send her to school, and she, a highly educated person, thought it was a waste for girls to go to school.”
Zhaodi smiled bitterly.
"If there was meat at home, it would go to my brother without a doubt, and the meat scraps would not be left for me. I envied my brother for being able to go to school. Every time he was doing homework at home, I would quietly squat beside him to learn from him, picking up his discarded pencil tips and waste paper from the trash can. It was not until I was fifteen that I finally learned to write my own name."
"My younger brother is a spoiled child with a bad temper. He often bullies me at home. At first, I told my mother about it, but she told me to give in to my younger brother."
The younger brother also discovered that he could bully his sister at will.
Once, he tried to pull Zhaodi's hair hard, and the pain made her push him away. He sat on the ground and cried, while her parents beat her without asking any questions, leaving her with bruises all over her body.
It seemed like no matter how hard they beat me, they still couldn't vent their anger. It wasn't until I was dying that they rushed me to the hospital for fear of any accidents.
"The doctors suspected that I had been abused and insisted on calling the police. In order to prove that they had not abused me, they were uncharacteristically friendly to me in the hospital."
That was the only time in her life that little Zhaodi felt what was called "love".
Under their deception, Zhaodi also learned to lie to the police, saying that she fell like that accidentally.
"I still remember the distressed look in the policeman's eyes. Later, I finally understood why he looked like that. After the police left, their smiles disappeared, and they forced me to leave the hospital before I was fully recovered."
It was only when she was discharged from the hospital that she realized that a more terrible life was waiting for her.
Finger pricking, lip pricking, finger pinching, these kinds of punishments that she could never imagine happened to her every few days.
Finally, Zhaodi no longer wanted the so-called love at that time. She just wanted to escape from that home and went out every day to look for a job. However, it was not easy to find a job without an education.
"I found a job working in a construction site canteen. The couple who contracted the canteen were very nice to me. They sympathized with my situation and let me stay to work. Food was provided every day, and the monthly salary was 1,500 yuan. I was really satisfied."
"But the good times didn't last long. My parents found me and smashed my aunt's stall, saying that the wages we paid were too low and there was no labor contract. They threatened to sue them at the Labor Bureau. My aunt was scared. They were just a small business and had no idea they would encounter such a situation. In the end, they could only pay me my wages, and my parents cheated them out of several thousand yuan before the matter was settled."
"They seemed to have found an opportunity to make money, so they asked me to sell my body and find a job, specifically looking for private companies that would not sign contracts. Then they used the same trick to blackmail the bosses, ranging from a few thousand to tens of thousands..."
Bai Youyou listened with a frown. Although she could see these scenes, only when the people involved spoke of them in person could she understand how suffocating it all was. Her parents lay on top of her, sucking out every drop of her blood, squeezing out all her value, but they didn't give her the love she deserved.
Zhaodi's life was hopeless and dark. She felt like a pitiful insect. She was the one who hurt those who were willing to use her because they saw her as pitiful and soft-hearted.
She was exhausted physically and mentally, and felt that life was too tiring. Once, she longed for this home so much, but now, she was so afraid of this home.
"Now that I think about it, the five years I spent with my grandmother were the happiest time of my life. My grandmother would take me with her wherever she went. When she was working in the fields, she would put a hat on me and put me on the edge of the field. Even when my eyes were blinded by sweat, she would still make me laugh from time to time..."
Late at night, she secretly put on her mother's favorite beige dress when she was young and went out alone. She missed her grandmother and wanted to look her best when she saw her grandmother...
She was in a trance, walking alone along the wide road...
In the distance, a sharp sound of brakes approached rapidly, and the dazzling headlights made her cover her eyes with her hands. She didn't know that she had walked to the middle of the road. It was very dark and the driver had no time to avoid.
'Bang!'
The moment she was knocked away, she didn't even feel any pain, as if her body had gone numb. Perhaps at that moment, she had already left this world.
Her soul floated aside, watching the driver who hit her fail to stop the car, which continued to move forward due to inertia, crushing her lying on the ground. She was hung under the car and dragged for several meters before the driver stopped...