When Tang Miao started this plan, she thought she might not fall in love with He Xiao. Even if she didn't fall in love with him, she didn't know if her acting skills could deceive him.
The reason for this thought was that she had a one-sided impression of He Xiao, which was that he was a rich and spoiled boy. After she met him, this impression was overturned and shattered as they got to know each other better.
He Xiao showed no signs of being a dandy.
On the contrary, although he is cold but easy-going, although he is unapproachable but kind, he is very powerful. He writes beautiful songs and is constantly inspired. He manages his band very well and has good friendships with the band members. Every summer, they participate in music festivals and livehouse performances step by step. They are very outstanding and have many fans. He is also very delicate and focused, polite and restrained.
For a man like the one described above, no woman would not be attracted to him.
Tang Miao had never stopped herself from falling in love with He Xiao. Because when she fell in love with him, her true feelings towards him would make him respond to her feelings more vividly.
Even if it was a lie she had carefully woven to make him fall in love with her, it did not conflict with their true love.
In the early stages, she and He Xiao were just like two single men and women. They developed feelings for each other, but were each reserved and guessed whether the other had feelings for them. In this reserve and guessing, they each advanced or retreated within the appropriate range.
In this way, she followed his music festival performance and got to know him more deeply. She opened the floodgates of love for him, and then, under the push and pull of each other, she took leave and went to Haicheng to find him again.
Then, on the terrace of the Sea City Bar, when they were both sober, they kissed for the third time, finally understood each other's love, and got together.
This was the stage in which Tang Miao spent the most emotions. During this stage, her emotions and feelings fluctuated as she got to know He Xiao better, producing all kinds of bitterness, sourness and sweetness.
And after the two of them were together, only sweetness remained.
He Xiao is a very good lover.
They are a very suitable couple.
He may have been a lonely playboy, but he gave her the ordinary life she wanted. He picked her up from work, they ate together, took walks together, went out to play together, they kissed and hugged each other, and even after they got married, their bodies were so compatible when they made love.
Tang Miao looked like he was eating a lollipop.
She lived this sweet life in her mouth, feeling the sweetness of love, until the sugar was completely melted. She took the remaining wooden stick of the lollipop and returned to South City with He Xiao, ready to end it all.
Tang Miao never thought about ending this plan.
She treated her relationship and life with He Xiao as a marshmallow-like dream.
The marshmallow will be eaten and the dream will end. It is sweet, but it is ultimately a dream.
Moreover, compared to the sweetness she tasted and the love she felt, she felt that it was more important to let others taste the bitterness.
She will not let Ke Yi and Ji Junlin go, will not forget the harm they have caused her, and will not forget that Ke Yi's brother was the instigator and brought all this upon her.
So after returning to South City, she continued her plan carefully. She pretended that she wanted to live a good life with He Xiao, so that Ke Yi would think that she would never be with Ji Junlin again, so she brought Ji Junlin here, and seeing how harmonious she and He Xiao were, he would give up.
But Ke Yi didn't understand Ji Junlin. Ji Junlin would not give up after seeing her and He Xiao living such a harmonious life, and he would be even more unwilling to accept it.
She knew Ji Junlin too well. He was always entangled and always wanted the one he could never get. If she hadn't left at that time, Ji Junlin would have chosen Ke Yi in the end. So she left, and created the current situation.
Ji Junlin came to find her, and she took advantage of her grandmother's absence to let her grandmother know the relationship between the three of them and Ji Junlin's thoughts. Grandma went to find Ke Yi and asked her to cancel the engagement banquet with Ji Junlin.
Ke Yi would definitely not accept this. She would go to Ji Junlin to argue. And just as she understood Ji Junlin, Ji Junlin also understood her. In the eyes of others, she might be a gentle and warm person, but Ji Junlin knew everything about her. He knew that she was a person with a deep mind and would definitely take revenge on everything. So he also told Ke Yi what kind of person Tang Miao was, and told her that all this was Tang Miao's plan.
Ji Junlin's purpose in telling Ke Yi about this matter was very simple. He wanted Ke Yi to find He Xiao, let He Xiao know Tang Miao's real purpose, and separate He Xiao and Tang Miao, so that he would have a chance to be with Tang Miao.
Just as he thought, Ke Yi went to find He Xiao and told him everything. But to his surprise, He Xiao did not choose to separate from Tang Miao. After knowing that all this was Tang Miao's plan, he chose to stay in this plan. He would not separate from Tang Miao unless Tang Miao spoke up.
This was something Tang Miao had not expected.
She and He Xiao were truly in love. Because they were truly in love, everything she did behind his back was a lie and a betrayal. When He Xiao found out, he must have hated her and wanted to kill her.
Just like when she knew Ji Junlin had betrayed her, all she thought about was how to take revenge on Ji Junlin.
But He Xiao didn't.
He did not retaliate against her, and even wanted to cover up the fact that he already knew everything about her and the fact that she knew that he knew everything she had done.
To him, there were not so many grudges and entanglements between him and her. She was just his wife and lover.
Tang Miao realized it that night, and after hearing what her grandmother said on the first morning, she realized that He Xiao already knew it, but He Xiao chose not to know. She didn't think about this matter for half a day.
It's too messy.
She didn't think about it. Just as He Xiao had whitewashed it, the two of them returned to Huaicheng and continued their lives with their own thoughts.
But no matter how much He Xiao loves her, he is also a part of the plan, he is also the person she wants to take revenge on, and she must complete the plan.
So after returning to Huaicheng, she sorted out her thoughts, took all her documents and prepared to leave. While leaving, she went to find Ke Yi and told her everything. It was also at that time that Ke Yi told her that she had really taken revenge on the wrong person and He Xiao was innocent.
At that time, Tang Miao had been thinking about it for a long time. During that half day, she thought about the state of mind she had when she first suspected He Xiao and when she decided to continue this plan.
Even if He Xiao is innocent, it does not conflict with her revenge on Ji Junlin and Ke Yi.
Then she left Ke Yi's house.
Tang Miao clarified his thoughts and followed the path of those thoughts.
But it doesn't mean she was free of distractions while walking on this road. There were many distractions. When she was walking, she had no distractions. But when she reached the end of the road, those distractions caught up with her and those feelings took over again. It was at that time that her mind and heart were entangled.
She was overwhelmed by the overwhelming feeling, just like the rain that day.
Among all the feelings, the most overwhelming one was her guilt towards He Xiao.
He Xiao was innocent, and when she retaliated, she hurt He Xiao, which did not conflict with her philosophy of not letting go of anyone who hurt her. But at the same time, she hurt He Xiao, and she felt deeply guilty about hurting He Xiao, which did not conflict with her insistence on her philosophy.
After she left Ke Yi's house, she sat in the rest area in the hall to avoid the rain. She drank hot tea, her chest was cold, and she stared at the rain outside in a daze.
She had walked the path she was on in accordance with her own philosophy. But after she finished walking this path, in her current life, there was no other path that could be supported by her philosophy, so she stood in an empty space surrounded by intersections, not knowing what to do.
He Xiao whitewashed everything she did.
His love for her was much deeper than she thought, and even when she cheated and betrayed him, he still chose to be with her.
So should she continue to be with him?
She doesn't deserve it.
Compared to the love that made He Xiao willing to stay with her even though he knew she had betrayed and deceived him, she was too despicable for being someone who would rather betray and deceive him than take revenge on him.
She doesn't deserve He Xiao's love.
Moreover, they were together, so how long could she cover it up like this? Even if He Xiao didn't care, her guilt for hurting He Xiao would sooner or later swallow her up.
Love is a very strong feeling, but it also requires time and distance to maintain.
Tang Miao thought that leaving He Xiao might make him feel uncomfortable and painful, but it was much better than staying with a despicable person like her for the rest of his life.
They separate, but not long after, he will have a new lover. Maybe he is in pain about this relationship with her, but the new lover will heal him with love.
They will love each other wholeheartedly and equally.
Before leaving Nancheng, Tang Miao was still struggling with whether to continue to whitewash their relationship as He Xiao wished. Later, after she came here and lived here for a while, she decided that He Xiao deserved better love.
So, she sent a divorce agreement to He Xiao, and after he signed it, they would get divorced. After he was free, he might be sad for a while, but in the next few decades, he would have love and happiness without any barriers.
As for her, Tang Miao thought that he might live here alone for the rest of his life.
She has no family.
After her parents died, she was alone. She had two lovers, one betrayed her, and she betrayed the other, and she ended up like this.
Perhaps she was not suited to the ordinary life she had always hoped for.
She had been alone for so many years, and now she would be alone for the rest of her life.
Relying on such thoughts and beliefs, she lived a peaceful life in a school in the mountains, waiting for He Xiao to sign and send back the divorce agreement.
After waiting for several months, Tang Miao did not receive the divorce agreement sent by He Xiao, but instead waited for He Xiao to come.
Tang Miao was standing on the steps outside the principal's room. When she saw He Xiao turning around to look at her, she thought she was still dreaming.
He Xiao was wearing the same coat he wore before, still with the same tall figure, but he was thinner and had his hair cut. Now, he stood there looking at her, familiar yet strange.
When Tang Miao met his eyes and heard the principal's introduction to He Xiao, the thread that had been dormant in her chest for a while resurfaced and tightened her chest.
She stood there, incapable of any thinking for a while. Later, the principal called her twice and asked her to help settle He Xiao. Only then did she come to her senses, wake up from her dream, accept He Xiao coming over, and then follow the principal's arrangements, settling He Xiao without thinking about anything else.
She treated him like an ordinary colleague, giving him all the help she could, cleaning up his dormitory with the principal, and listening to the principal's conversation with him. When the two met again, there was no fanfare or emotional outburst, and it was as calm as the first time they met.
After the principal left, Tang Miao took He Xiao to the county market to buy things. At that time, Tang Miao was still trying to calm down until she came out after buying the seasonings and saw He Xiao standing in front of an old silversmith's stall. He took the ring made by the old silversmith and put it on the ring finger of his left hand.
Tang Miao's heart was suddenly gripped.
Her heart was gripped, and the blood spread throughout her body along the blood vessels, but it seemed that her blood was cold, making her body cold as well. She was unable to think, and stood there, looking at the ring on He Xiao's ring finger, watching him look back at her.
He put the ring on the ring finger of his left hand.
It means that in his mind, he is still a married man.
His marriage still existed, and in it she was his wife.
Tang Miao didn't know what she was thinking at that time. Even later, when she got in the car with He Xiao and drove on the mountain road for four hours, she didn't know what she was thinking.
She mechanically went back to school, found him what he needed, and went to the kitchen to cook dinner. After He Xiao finished eating, she went to wash the dishes alone. She also washed the dishes, and after returning, she asked He Xiao whether the divorce agreement had been signed.
This is actually a question that is asked knowingly.
But at that time Tang Miao thought that He Xiao might not have received the divorce agreement or something, so now it was equivalent to that she had not given him an answer, so he came to her, bought a ring and put it on to tell her that they are still a legal couple now?
But soon, Tang Miao looked at He Xiao's calm eyes and knew that this was not the case.
He Xiao received the divorce agreement. She didn't know whether he signed it or not, but it seemed that he didn't. He didn't sign the divorce agreement, found where she was, became an ordinary teacher here, and maintained a marriage with her and became two ordinary colleagues.
What does he want to do?
Tang Miao didn't know.
Tang Miao didn't know what He Xiao wanted to do.
That night, she lay in bed and barely slept. She was groggy and her mind was full of what had happened between her and He Xiao.
She didn't know what He Xiao wanted to do, nor did she know what she should do in this relationship. But in the early morning, Tang Miao stopped thinking about it.
She felt that she had no experience in dealing with such a complicated matter, and she wouldn't be able to figure it out for the time being.
So she ignored the future development of her relationship with He Xiao and only focused on the present. She wanted to do something insignificant for He Xiao.
If she couldn't make the previous He Xiao and the future He Xiao happy, then she would at least make sure that He Xiao was relaxed during his time here.
And he had lost some weight, so she wanted to help him gain weight back.
After having this idea, she carefully prepared three meals a day for He Xiao, let the students talk more with He Xiao, suppressed all her emotions, and just lived like this.
Until she had a fever tonight.
When a person is sick, his will is like thin ice. The emotions suppressed under the will roll into a ball, and finally break through the will and pour out all at once.
Her guilt towards He Xiao, the pain caused by her guilt towards He Xiao, the sadness of not being able to continue to be with He Xiao, all of these flooded over her when she woke up in the middle of the night.
Her tears surged along with all her emotions. She lay on the bed and cried silently. After crying, He Xiao heard her voice coming over. She used her broken will to gather all her emotions and feelings again, and barely fooled He Xiao with a few words.
But He Xiao didn't listen to her nonsense. He Xiao saw through everything. He came here for a purpose. She hurt him, and he probably wanted her to have a taste of this pain. He said nothing and left her to think and suffer in the mess of emotions.
Tang Miao felt very uncomfortable.
She had been feeling bad for a long time.
Her discomfort is compounded by her life experiences.
Her distorted belief prevented her from loving and caused her to suffer even more.
Tang Miao was lying on the bed. She looked at He Xiao, tears falling from her eyes. She said to He Xiao.
“I don’t know how to love.”
"My mother committed suicide after being raped. When my father found out, he went to kill the man and was shot himself."
“I have a very shallow impression of them.”
"And my last impression of them was what my father taught me through his actions."
"Revenge is more important than love.":,,.
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