【Chen Zixi×you】After failing to pursue his adoptive father, he chose his best friend
You don't know if it's your imagination, but you feel like Uncle Jiang has been avoiding you lately. Although it seems like he treats you the same as before, you know that everything is different.
The main change started with his eyes. Since that day, he would coincidentally avoid your gaze every time and never look you in the eye.
Also, he used to smile at you occasionally, but now, his expression is filled with the dignity and calmness of an elder, and he even speaks less than before.
Lately, he's been taking rewards and leaving, leaving you with nothing but a note, whereas in the past he'd always say goodbye in person.
You felt confused and distressed, so you told Chen Zixi who came to visit you about your feelings.
Chen Zixi seemed lost in thought. He fanned himself and asked, "So, what exactly happened that day?"
You recall in a daze and find that many scenes have become blurred in your memory.
Actually, it all started on a rainy day.
On your way home in the evening, you were caught in a sudden downpour and took shelter under a roof. As you looked around, you caught a glimpse of a couple kissing in the window.
The man had a gentle voice and kept calling "little darling" and "good sister". The woman responded with "good brother" and so on, and from time to time there was the sound of "tsk tsk" of saliva.
You can no longer remember how you felt at that moment, but the same scene appeared in your dream that night, with you and Uncle Jiang as the protagonists.
You don’t understand what this means, but after waking up the next day, you often stare at Uncle Jiang in a daze, imagining him holding you in his arms or kissing you, and secretly blushing and your heart beating fast.
On your sixteenth birthday, Uncle Jiang and Aunt Han allowed you to have a drink for the first time. When you returned from the winery, it was Uncle Jiang who carried you on his back.
Lying on his warm and thick back, your heart was pounding. For some unknown reason, you asked him, "Uncle Jiang, do you have someone you like?"
Uncle Jiang was silent for a moment: "...No."
You felt your heart surge, and after trying to hold it back, you couldn't help but tell him: "But, I already have someone I like."
Uncle Jiang seemed to pause.
"Uncle Jiang, don't you want to hear who I like?" You asked him in a low voice, with some expectation.
"...No need." Uncle Jiang replied after another silence.
You feel a hollowness in your heart.
But you didn't want to give up, and just as they reached the door of your room, Uncle Jiang put you down on the bed and was about to leave.
You quickly stepped forward and hugged him from behind: "Uncle Jiang, don't go! I-"
"No." Uncle Jiang had his back to you, so you couldn't see his expression, but his voice was slow and firm. "I raised you, my child. This isn't right."
You were stunned. You thought he just didn't care who you liked, but you didn't expect that he knew it all and just wanted to reject you.
He slowly pried your hands apart and turned around.
You still want to try hard, and you speak eagerly: "Uncle Jiang, I'm not a child anymore! I've been thinking about you recently, I——"
The room was dark, so you couldn't see his expression. You only heard him say, "You're still young, so you need to be careful with your feelings... No matter who you like, it shouldn't be me."
You seem to hear something falling quietly to the ground.
"So, this is what he said?" Chen Zixi looked at you, his eyes were gentle and full of pity.
You could no longer hold back the tears in your eyes, and you silently lowered your eyes as if nothing had happened: "Yeah... So, should I give up?"
"Have you ever thought..." Chen Zixi held your face and patiently wiped away your tears. He looked into your eyes seriously. "Your feelings for Jiang Wulang are not what you understand them to be?"
...You really haven't thought about it that way. You look at him blankly.
Chen Zixi smiled and analyzed the situation for you: "You are old enough to admire young women. This is normal. However, there are no young men around you. The only ones you can name are Jiang Wulang and me. You dream because you are curious about matters between men and women. You dream about Jiang Wulang because there are no other suitable candidates."
The first time you heard this, you were surprised and curious: "Is... that so?"
"Yeah." Chen Zixi patted your head and smiled. "If you don't believe me, you can wait and see. Maybe next time you dream, it will be me?"
You looked into Chen Zixi's eyes, which were gentle and full of smiles. He always looked at you like this, spoke to you gently and patiently, and loved to make you laugh.
Moreover, he is really good-looking, with a different style from Uncle Jiang but equally good-looking.
Your heart unconsciously starts beating faster and you quickly look away, not daring to look at him.
It's really weird. That night, you really dreamed of Chen Zixi.
You can no longer remember the content of the dream clearly, but until you wake up, you still remember Chen Zixi's warm embrace, his gentle kiss, and him gently calling you "my sweetheart" in your ear.
Your heart was itching, so after getting up, you couldn't wait to find Chen Zixi. Meeting his eyes, you told him seriously, "Uncle Chen, I dreamed of you."
Chen Zixi was making tea. When he heard your words, the water in the teacup began to swirl.
Then he chuckled softly, "Really? Then what did you dream about? Did you dream about me flicking your head off?"
You shook your head and told him solemnly, "I dreamed that you kissed me and called me 'my sweetheart'."
The teacup in Chen Zixi's hand rolled to the ground and almost broke. You quickly squatted down to pick it up, but he grabbed your hand.
"So, according to your logic, do you like me too?" Chen Zixi asked you.
The table blocked the sunlight, and his eyes were exceptionally bright between the light and the dark. You looked at him and answered honestly, "I don't know..."
"I don't know, let's give it a try." Chen Zixi said.
You tilted your head, not understanding what he meant. “What do you mean by ‘try it’?”
Chen Zixi smiled. He held your shoulders, moved closer, and kissed you like in your dream.
His kiss was warm and lingering, with the sweet aftertaste of tea, patiently exploring every corner of your mouth. When your breaths intertwined, you almost couldn't breathe.
Chen Zixi stopped what he was doing and asked you, "Darling, how do you feel now?"
You instinctively covered your chest, your eyes unconsciously falling on his lips. They were rosy, plump, and seemed to still be moist. You opened your mouth and the words came out: "Can you do it again?"
Chen Zixi said nothing and kissed her again.
This time, you felt you had some experience, so you imitated the woman you saw, hooked your arms around his neck, and tentatively kissed him back.
Chen Zixi's movements slowed down a bit, and he took the time to move closer, reaching out to press the back of your head and kissing you more passionately and devotedly.
You were dazed for a while before you came to your senses. When you came back to your senses, you found yourself in Chen Zixi's arms.
He looked down at you with interest, "Now, how do you feel?"
You thought about it and gave an honest review: "It tastes good, I really like it...it's very comfortable."
Chen Zixi nodded and told you seriously: "Now you understand, the person who can give you this feeling is the one you truly like."
You suddenly realize: It turns out that the person you like is not Uncle Jiang, but Chen Zixi! What a close call! You almost got yourself into big trouble and became ashamed to face Uncle Jiang!
You always believed in acting spontaneously, so you didn't hesitate and immediately asked, "Uncle Chen, do you like me? I think I like you."
"Do you really understand what 'love' means?" Chen Zixi stroked your hair, his tone seductive. "Perhaps, you should try something else."
You don’t quite understand: “How can I try?”
Chen Zixi looked at you and slowly raised the corners of his mouth.
You are together with Chen Zixi - according to him, this is also a "test" to determine whether you really like him or not.
So, for the next few days, you spent your time together as a couple. Of course, you had no experience, and he was the one guiding you.
In the first step, you exchanged tokens of love: he received a sachet you made, and you received a golden bell from him.
In the second step, you start trying some of the couple's love-making techniques. You spend the whole day together, exchanging kisses, hanging out together, and saying goodnight.
After entering the second step, you become unable to extricate yourself. Chen Zixi begins to appear frequently in your dreams and thoughts, even to the point where you can't help but want to hug and kiss him when you see him.
You feel like, maybe, you're about to drown in love.
You immediately told Chen Zixi your thoughts and asked him distressedly, "What if I can't leave you for even a moment? Can we be together every moment?"
Chen Zixi laughed out loud. He kissed you affectionately and rubbed your nose. “Of course.”
So you successfully entered the third step and began to experience sleeping in the same bed. Of course, it was just sleeping in the same bed, nothing else.
Chen Zixi is far from being as frail as he looks. His chest is surprisingly strong, and you feel completely safe when he holds you. You are also happy to sleep in his arms. The faint medicinal scent of his body has long lingered in your dreams.
You look at the face of the person beside you, breathing evenly, but you can't fall asleep. You feel like you are a little greedy for his body.
After you stared at him for another quarter of an hour, Chen Zixi opened his eyes helplessly: "Why aren't you asleep yet? You keep staring at me, and I can't sleep anymore."
You blinked and said sincerely, "Zixi, you are right next to me, but I really miss you. Am I being a little too crazy?"
"When love is strong and passion is raging, what's so strange about that?" Chen Zixi smiled. He sat up, his long black hair cascading down, and a strand of it fell on your cheek, making you feel itchy.
He leaned towards you and kissed your forehead, "Sleeping next to you is already unbearable. You should go to sleep soon and stop trying to tempt me."
But you weren't sleepy at all. You hooked your arms around his neck and confessed frankly: "Zi Xi, I've thought about it, and I'm sure I like you. So, can you stay with me forever and never separate?"
"Of course." Chen Zixi's voice was soft, as if he were still asleep. "You probably don't know, but I've been thinking about you for more than two years. Why would I travel thousands of miles to Qinghe so often? It's just because I want to see you more often."
Is there anything happier in this world than having the person you like also like you? You think, probably not.
Over the next few days, you became increasingly attached to Chen Zixi. He was happy to see you doing this, even offering to help you comb your hair and put on your coat.
Sometimes you have the illusion that you and Chen Zixi have already started married life in advance - inseparable day and night, and to be honest, there is no difference between you and a married couple.
But you are still a little concerned about his health.
So, on a bright and clear moonlit night, you asked him directly, "Zi Xi, can we take it a step further?"
Chen Zixi looked at you in surprise, his eyes flickering over your lips and neck before looking into your eyes: "You mean—"
"Don't act stupid!" You grabbed his hand and shook it, looking at him righteously. "You're much older than me, it's understandable. I want the whole you, but I have no experience. Can you teach me?"
Chen Zixi was stunned for a moment, then smiled helplessly. "You really are my sweetheart. Do you have to make me uneasy? I never thought that you would be the first to bring this up... You're still young and just starting to explore the world of relationships. I don't want to mislead you into doing anything wrong."
You glared at him in disbelief: "No, I didn't. Even though I'm young, I've figured out the ropes of relationships!"
Chen Zixi raised his eyebrows: "Really? You said before that you like Jiang Wulang."
Your face flushed, and you quickly tried to save face: "That was because I didn't understand before, but now I understand!" You rushed over and grabbed Chen Zixi's collar. "Zixi, Zixi, don't you know who I like? I think about you every day, and you're in my dreams. I've never thought about anyone else's body, but you still don't know my heart?"
Chen Zixi couldn't help laughing: "I didn't know it before, but now I know."
Your eyes lit up: "Shall we get started?"
Chen Zixi frowned and asked you in a reassuring tone, "Have you thought it through? Once the arrow is on the string, it has to be released. It will be too late to regret it."
"I don't regret it," you said to him, confidently. "I love Zixi the most!" Then you tugged at his collar, making the golden bells on his chest ring crisply, and you kept pleading, "Zixi, Zixi, will you just obey me?"
So, the moment the moonlight falls on the windowsill, you also embrace your moonlight, the warm, gentle, and inclusive moonlight.
——It turns out that there are things in this world that are happier than the person you like also liking you.
The next morning, while you were still dreaming, you suddenly heard the sound of a door opening.
You thought it was Chen Zixi, and when you looked up in a half-asleep state, you saw a familiar dark blue shadow walking towards the bed.
Then, Chen Zixi was pulled up by him and punched in the face, making a dull sound.
You were startled awake and quickly sat up, only to find Uncle Jiang standing there with a murderous aura. At first glance, you thought it was the killer from Xiujinlou who had come.
"Uncle Jiang!" You hugged the quilt and didn't dare to move for fear of exposing yourself, so you nervously called out to stop. "You can't hit Zixi!"
You quickly looked at Chen Zixi, and sure enough, there were marks on his fair face, and even the corner of his mouth was broken, and blood was oozing out.
You felt heartbroken watching this, and emphasized to Uncle Jiang: "You can't blame Zixi! I just like him, I can't live without him!"
Uncle Jiang looked at you and took a deep breath: "Chen Zixi is eighteen years older than you. He is your elder. He shouldn't and can't do such a thing to you. Why are you still protecting him?
In a moment of desperation, you blurt out: "Didn't you say that no matter who I like, it won't be you!"
Uncle Jiang paused, and maybe a long time passed before he asked you, "So, you like him now?"
You nodded without hesitation: "Uncle Jiang, I shouldn't have said that to you before. I didn't understand feelings at that time and thought I liked you. Now I think it's clear that my feelings for you are just admiration for an elder. The only person I really like is Zixi. Don't blame him. This is my own choice!"
Uncle Jiang looked at you silently. It was the first time you saw him with such an expression. You couldn’t describe it. In short, he looked a little distraught.
Chen Zixi straightened the messy collar of his shirt and asked him with a smile: "Jiang Wulang, you were the one who pushed her away first. What are you regretting now that you are here?"
You saw Uncle Jiang close his eyes, and when he opened them again, his eyes were as calm as ever. He looked at you and said calmly, "That's fine. You've grown up now. It's your own business who you like."
He looked at Chen Zixi again: "If you treat her badly, you know what I will do."
Uncle Jiang slammed the door and left.
You are a little confused, you don't understand why he was angry, and why he stopped being angry in the end? You really don't understand what he is thinking.
Chen Zixi comforted you: "Don't worry, he just didn't understand some things. He thought I lied to you."
You nodded, half understanding, and asked him with concern, "Does your face hurt? Uncle Jiang hit you so hard...it's bleeding."
Somehow you felt as if Chen Zixi was relieved. He sat down beside you with a smile on his face: "A little, indeed. But, I have to bear the consequences of deceiving him of his most precious thing, you."
You didn’t quite understand what he meant. You carefully examined his injuries and tentatively kissed his chin: “If I kiss you, can it not hurt?”
Chen Zixi's eyes lit up, he held you in his arms and sighed, "Yeah, it doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't hurt at all."
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