Shen Zhiyi was already drunk and fell on the sofa.
But she still rejected him with a blushing face.
He waved his hands and said weakly:
"no."
"If I say no, it means no."
"Pei Ji, don't ask any more questions."
If she asked again, she would really lose control.
The remaining rationality she had told her now told her that Pei Ji hated people going back on their words the most.
From childhood to adulthood, he has been in fear of being abandoned at any time.
He is an illegitimate child.
Unable to bear the cruel struggle for interests among the wealthy families and his father's countless women, his mother finally cheated on him, eloped with her own white moonlight, and abandoned Pei Ji.
Before she died, the last words she left for him were.
"If it weren't for you, how could I be trapped here and live in such pain?"
"I shouldn't have given birth to you!"
"Your life is a sin!"
Pei Ji cried and begged her not to do it, saying that he would do very well and fight for her what she wanted.
Or, take him along.
But she said that what she wanted was a son without him.
She wants to start her life over again.
A life without the Pei family and without Pei Ji.
She was gone.
Pei Ji was left alone in the power struggle among the wealthy families.
Lost in the situation of being a motherless illegitimate child who is looked down upon by everyone.
In order to survive and live with dignity, he accepted the cruel training and experience of his grandfather.
He lives with a mask on.
Never reveal your true emotions in front of others.
㱗He pushed himself into desperate situations time and time again and achieved his best.
But I still had to endure countless disappointed looks from my grandfather.
He doesn't know where his limits are.
Because he can always do better.
Until the end, he could even shake his grandfather's interests.
He thought that this time, he could finally get recognition, and finally get the connection and praise he longed for.
But what I waited for was abandonment again.
This time, he put aside all his emotions, ended all his unrealistic desires and fantasies about relationships, and kicked his grandfather off the horse.
He got it all.
But I feel like I never had it.
He wore an impeccable disguise, his usual gentle smile, and watched his own shortcomings from the highest point.
Tell yourself it's no big deal.
He doesn't need it.
He knew it from a very young age.
When birds die, their bellies turn toward the sky.
This means that when you expose your softness in front of others, it is equivalent to death.
So, no.
He has to live with a mask on.
Live your life wearing a mask.
Because what he longed for most was just to survive.
As for love.
He doesn't need it.
real.
Shen Zhiyi thought of the information displayed on the documents, every word recorded in his burned diary, and looked at his eyebrows and eyes as gentle as mountain mist.
Endless heartache rolled through my heart.
She thought.
In order to give him enough sense of security, I must be a person of my word from the very beginning.
If you say something, you must do it.
Sticking to his own principles gives him more peace of mind than any other action.
So that when she promised that she would not leave.
He will believe it.
Pei Ji touched her face, his eyes soft and tender, "Okay, I won't ask anymore."
"Don't be afraid, baby."
He wouldn't do this without her permission.
Even if every pore on my body is clamoring to kiss her, but she says no, then it means no.
He thought she had given him enough today.
If you are too greedy, your candy will be taken back.
He touched her eyebrows and thought to himself.
She wasn't drunk enough.
Or maybe, he's not good enough.
It doesn't matter, he will wait.
Wait until the day she takes the initiative to kiss him, or begs him to give it to her...
He pushed up his glasses.
He picked up Shen Zhiyi and went to the bedroom.
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