I can't help myself
Yue Lanxiu and Zhao Rirou sat down beside a lake reflecting a starry sky, beneath a moonlit tree. In a white bag beside them were disinfectants and bandages bought from a nearby pharmacy. Yue Lanxiu was intently tending to the wound on Zhao Rirou's arm.
Asahirou didn't think it was really an injury, but she couldn't resist him as he was making a fuss.
His gentleness, his delicacy, and his attention to her were like a trickle of water, constantly flowing into her heart and warming her heart.
"Why are you here?" He stared at her wound intently, and she stared at his face intently. She didn't even realize how affectionate and nostalgic her eyes were at this moment.
He always appears by her side at critical moments, making it difficult for her to let him go.
"It was Hua Chuyu who told me that April Ying was in trouble and he couldn't make it, so he asked me to come and rescue her!" Yue Lanxiu responded briefly.
"Hua Chuyu?" Chao Rirou was a little surprised, but she no longer suspected Hua Chuyu of having ulterior motives.
Ever since she felt that Hua Chuyu was most likely her only remaining family member, Chao Rirou's attitude towards him has gradually changed. She was originally full of hostility, but now, she has started to treat him as her own since she didn't know when.
"Yes, actually after getting to know him better, I think he's not that bad and we can still get along." After confirming that her wound was indeed not serious, he relaxed and started chatting with her.
"From what you said, it seems that you have a good relationship now? Do you know the relationship between him and Yan Mingchi?" Chao Rirou had to remind him to be careful of Yan Mingchi behind Hua Chuyu.
"I know, but I always feel that Hua Chuyu is not as obedient to Yan Mingchi as he seems to be!" He felt that Hua Chuyu and Yan Mingchi were not the same kind of people.
Asahiro nodded, they were thinking the same thing.
Their eyes met, but they didn't dare to look at each other for too long. They quickly looked away awkwardly. Chao Rirou was afraid that she would be trapped in his gaze and unable to extricate herself; and after Yue Lanxiu knew that she chose Yue Lanjing, he had been trying his best to restrain his behavior and not cross the line.
Zhao Rirou seemed to understand Yue Lanxiu's thoughts, and felt mixed emotions for a moment.
Based on her understanding of him, he would never come between her and Yue Lanjing again, and would only bless them! Even if Yue Lanjing no longer considered him a friend, he would never do anything to hurt Yue Lanjing again!
He should have let her go! I had guessed this would happen, but a tear still fell uncontrollably from my eyes.
Seeing her tears, he was startled and stopped bandaging her. "Why are you crying? Did I hurt your wound by being too rough?"
"Yes, it hurts!" But it's my heart that hurts.
"I'm sorry! I'll be gentler."
"I should be the one saying sorry!" He did so much for her, but in the end she abandoned him! She abandoned such a good man!
Her eyes suddenly caught a whip mark on his shoulder and neck. It turned out that he had been injured again because of her! She owed him so much, and yet he was still taking risks for her. "You'd better stay away from me from now on!" she blurted out, not wanting to implicate him again.
His hands, which were tying the knot, couldn't help but tremble. He knew he should keep a distance from her, but hearing her say that, he felt extremely uncomfortable.
"This whip must be very painful!" Zhao Rirou subconsciously wanted to touch his wound, but he avoided her.
"Nothing hurts like what you just said." Yue Lanxiu blurted out, and regretted it the moment he said it. Why did he say such meaningless words?
When Asahiro heard this, she felt as if her heart was being grabbed tightly, and it was so painful that she could hardly breathe.
"I was just kidding. It's the whip that hurts!" To ease the suffocating atmosphere and stop her from looking so sad, he feigned indifference and jokingly said, "You're so wild! Even if you don't tell me to leave, I'll stay away from you! I'm really scared of you!"
She couldn't be happy when he said that. If he could really let her go so easily, her heart would only be hurt more.
"Come here!" she ordered. "It's time to tend to your wounds!"
"I'm fine..."
"Stop talking nonsense!"
He never dared to disobey her orders.
"Ah—it hurts!" Yue Lanxiu couldn't help but jump away. This woman was too heavy-handed.
"Who says I'm a wild woman?" Although Asahiro's movements were rough, she was also disinfecting well.
She came forward, and he couldn't help but move back, "No... Don't bother you! I'll do it myself!" He almost forgot that her mind was smaller than the eye of a needle!
"No, you treated my wound for me. In return for a favor, your wound should be treated by me!" Asahirou bullied him domineeringly like a beautiful wild leopard.
He grabbed her hand with one hand and protected the back of her head with the other, then rolled over and pinned her down. His movements were quick and decisive, leaving her no chance to resist, yet gentle enough not to hurt her. Seeing that she couldn't move, he smiled with his big white teeth, wondering if she could still mess around!
Asahirou tried to struggle but it was in vain. She could only stare blankly. She stared, stared, but the meaning of her stare changed and her face turned red. She didn't know if it was because of anger or shame.
In short, her blushing face is so eye-catching and heart-stirring!
Why was he staring at her intently? Why was his gaze so seductive? Was he seducing her? How could she be seduced so easily? Although she thought so, when he lowered his head, she couldn't help but close her eyes.
A cell phone suddenly rang, breaking the passionate atmosphere.
Yue Lanxiu felt like he was hit by a hammer and immediately let her go.
It was her cell phone ringing. She stood up and smoothed the hair in front of her eyes. She took out her cell phone and saw that it was Yue Lanjing calling. Her heart suddenly became heavy. She pressed the answer button, and Yue Lanjing's nervous and concerned voice immediately reached her ears.
"Are you okay? Where are you now? Do you need me to pick you up?"
"I'm fine, don't worry about me, I'll be back by myself in a while."
Her voice sounded low, not like she was fine, but she didn't want to say it, so Yue Lanjing didn't ask any more questions. "I'm glad you're fine... I have a lot of things on my hands and can't leave. I may not be able to come to see you today."
"It's okay, just focus on your own thing. I'm fine, don't worry about me." It would be great if he could worry less about her.
Seeing her hang up the phone, Yue Lanxiu pretended to be calm and said, "Go back early and don't let anyone worry about you. I have to leave too."
Even without her saying it, he guessed it was Yue Lanjing.
Just now, he almost did something wrong again! He couldn't be alone with her anymore, because when he was with her, he couldn't control his behavior or his heart at all!
He turned around and left. Zhao Rirou didn't try to stop him, even though she felt bad for him leaving like that. But she shouldn't have dragged him into this until she had a smooth relationship with Yue Lanjing.
Yue Lanxiu accidentally knocked down a little girl riding a bicycle. He quickly helped her up and asked with concern, "I'm sorry I hit you! Are you feeling unwell?"
The little girl was so scared that she wanted to cry, but when she saw him crying instead, and he looked so beautiful when crying, she immediately forgot about crying. She couldn't help but blink her long eyelashes and asked curiously, "I didn't cry at all, why are you crying instead? Did I hurt you?"
"No, you didn't hurt me!" Yue Lanxiu touched her cute little head and said, "Are you really okay?"
"Then why are you crying?" The little girl tilted her head and seemed very interested in why he was crying.
"It was sand that blew into my eyes!" Yue Lanxiu said casually.
"Hmph! Are you going to ask her to blow your eyes in the next second?" A childish but cold voice suddenly sounded.
"Huh?" Before Yue Lanxiu could turn around, a little boy on a bicycle had already forced his way between him and the little girl. The two children seemed to be together.
The little boy glared at him fiercely, then turned around and seriously admonished the little girl, "I've told you many times not to talk to strangers, especially men! What if they're pedophiles or perverts..."
Yue Lanxiu listened and didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
Asahirou saw this and came over to ask, "What happened?"
Yue Lanxiu wanted to say it was nothing, but the little girl spoke first, "This brother is crying, but it's not because of me!" The little girl explained, "He's crying so sadly. Did he lose something important? Do you need our help finding it?"
Zhao Rirou's heart warmed up, and she slowly looked at him, "Are you crying? Why are you crying?"
Yue Lanxiu avoided his gaze and said, "They all said it was just sand that blew into my eyes!"
"I think she's just a fool and was dumped by someone! Let's go and stop meddling in other people's business!" The little boy forcefully pulled the little girl away.
"Who are you calling a fool? Who are you saying was dumped?" Yue Lanxiu glared angrily. This little brat was so unlovable!
"Let's go! I was right, you're going to get angry and embarrassed!" The little boy stuffed the little girl into the front seat of the bicycle, kicked his foot, and rode away!
"Hey! Ride slower! Be careful!" Although the kid deserved a beating, how could he really argue with a child?
"Let the sister next to you blow on your eyes, so that you won't feel uncomfortable crying!" The little girl popped her cute head out from the little boy's chest and told him loudly.
"I doubt she would help me blow it!" Yue Lanxiu couldn't help but mutter.
"So why are you crying?" Chao Rirou asked again, staring at him intently.
She felt that as long as he was willing to say something, she wouldn't care about anything else.
At this moment, she felt that she could give up everything for him!
Yue Lanxiu's eyes were struggling. If he could, he wanted to go forward and hold her in his arms, and beg her not to leave him again! But the reality was that it was impossible. He could not come between her and Yue Lanjing again! Yue Lanjing loved her so much, and she should love Yue Lanjing too. Although he knew that she also had him in her heart, it might not be love, but just gratitude and guilt. He should not use such feelings to confuse her and tie her down! To destroy her true love...
He should let go gracefully, but it seems difficult to do so, especially when he sees the expectation in her eyes, he becomes confused, wondering if she loves him too?
Just as he was about to speak, his cell phone rang. This time it was not Chao Rirou, but Yue Lanxiu.
Yue Lanxiu took out his phone and looked at the caller ID. Without hesitation, he said, "It's Youya calling."
Hearing Zhuang Youya's name, Zhao Rirou's worries deepened. She had always suspected that he would let her go so easily, was it because of Zhuang Youya? In fact, there was still Zhuang Youya in his heart.
"Hurry up and answer the phone. Don't keep them waiting anxiously." Her mood suddenly became very low.
She heard him pick up the phone gently. "Hello, Grace, what's up?"
"Xiu, where are you?"
Zhuang Youya sounded a little down, and Yue Lanxiu showed a concern that only a friend could show. "I'm outside. Do you need me for something?"
"Well! I have something important to tell you. Can I come over to you?" Zhuang Youya was filled with worry and helplessness because of her father's situation. She couldn't bear the blow. Just when she was about to collapse, it was Yue Lanxiu's voice that gave her strength and support. She could no longer stop herself from running towards his arms.
"It's so late, it's not safe for a girl like you to go out alone. I'll go find you later. Are you home now?"
Zhao Rirou glanced at him sadly. He really had a special feeling for Zhuang Youya! It must be hard for him to resist her!
"No, I'm about to go home. You can come to my house." Zhuang Youya followed her father's arrangement and attended Yueshi's banquet, but she couldn't stay for a minute and was now picking up the car in the parking lot.
"good!"
Zhuang Youya hung up the phone and was about to get into the car when someone suddenly greeted her.
"Miss, are you looking for Yue Lanxiu? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to eavesdrop on your phone call. I just happened to pass by." Someone asked with a kind and polite smile.
"Uh, yes." Although Zhuang Youya was wondering why he asked this, she still responded out of politeness.
"I just came in from outside and saw him in a nearby park. It's about five minutes' drive from here."
"Really?" The man kindly gave her the address, and Zhuang Youya bowed to express her gratitude. It's very close here, why not drive over there and take a look?
"She said she had something important to tell me. She sounded anxious, so it seemed very important. I have to go." Yue Lanxiu explained to Chao Rirou.
"Then go quickly." Chao Rirou smiled faintly, looking extremely lonely.
Yue Lanxiu was unwilling to abandon her like this, "Do you want to go with me? You and she are friends. Although I don't know what happened to her, it would be easier to solve the problem with more people to discuss it with, right?"
Asahiro pursed her lips and smiled faintly, "What you said is a bit stupid. Maybe there are some things she only wants to say to you." Afraid that he would see the bitterness in her heart, she turned to face the lake surface that was disturbed by the wind.
"Since you say that, I don't dare to go!" He stared at her back, wondering if she had misunderstood him and Youya.
"Why wouldn't you dare to go? She's not some poisonous snake or ferocious beast. On the contrary, she's a beautiful, kind, and precious woman! Life is worth having!" Chao Rirou said with some shame.
"Yes! She is indeed a rare and good woman!" Yue Lanxiu walked to her side, gazing at her profile. So she was planning to push him to Zhuang Youya?
"And she's been so good to you, she's even risked her life for you..." Zhao Rirou suppressed her bitterness as she recounted the things Zhuang Youya had sacrificed for him. He had to know these things! "If I were you, I would definitely cherish this relationship and love this woman!" She said, regardless of her heartbreak.
She was so confused just now that she forgot that there was Zhuang Youya between them. She couldn't ignore her feelings!
"I really should treat her well!" He would never forget what Zhuang Youya had done for him without anyone reminding him! He didn't know what kind of mood she was in when she said these words, but he was heartbroken anyway! She was going to push him to another woman! If this would make her feel at ease, then he had nothing to say, and he didn't need to tell her that he only regarded Zhuang Youya as a good friend...
"Then why don't you go quickly and don't keep me waiting. I have to go back too." After saying that, she quickly turned around and ran away with her head down.
"Ouch!" In a hurry, I accidentally bumped into a little girl riding a bicycle. The childish cry seemed familiar.
"It's you!" Wasn't this the little girl Yue Lanxiu had bumped into earlier? She was riding back again. "Are you okay?" Chao Rirou squatted down to check if she was hurt.
"I'm fine, I just got scared again! But why are you crying, sister?"
Yue Lanxiu rushed over and couldn't help but focus his eyes on Zhao Rirou when he heard the little girl's words.
Asahirou quickly wiped away her tears and denied it, "I'm not crying, it's just sand that blew into my eyes!"
"Sand again?" The little girl tilted her head, wondering where there was so much sand.
The little boy who was with her chased after them and saw that they looked unhappy, as if to say, "You again, why are you still here?"
"I'm asking you, have you seen the sand? This time, sand has gotten into this sister's eyes!" The little girl asked the little boy who was protecting her behind him.
"The sand didn't see anything, but the fool saw two! Let's go quickly, before we get infected!"
They came back to get the little girl's bicycle. The little boy took it and pulled the little girl away.
"Big brother, now it's your turn to blow big sister's eyes!" The little girl said this to Yue Lanxiu before leaving.
"Damn little brat, luckily he ran fast! Otherwise I would have spanked him!" Asahiro awkwardly changed the subject.
"But I think she is very cute! She even asked me to blow her eyes. Do you want to blow them?" Yue Lanxiu brought back the original topic.
"No need!" Chao Rirou turned around and didn't look at him.
But he insisted on coming around to her, "So why are you crying? I thought you wouldn't cry."
"Am I made of steel? Can't I be sad and upset sometimes?" Chao Rirou blurted out without any emotion.
Yue Lanxiu's eyes suddenly became serious. "So why are you so sad?"
Asahiro pursed her lips, feeling conflicted.
He waited patiently with bated breath.
After a long time, I heard her say, "You were crying too. Tell me why you were crying first, and then I will tell you why I was crying. If you don't tell me, I won't tell you either!" Although her tone was fierce and stubborn, her words showed room for maneuver, which was quite comforting.
Yue Lanxiu stepped forward, grasping her shoulders. This time, he was very straightforward. "How could I not be heartbroken to see the woman I love return to another man? It feels like someone has literally ripped my heart out... I said, it's your turn to speak!"
Zhao Rirou's nose felt sore, and she felt deeply empathetic. She said with emotion, "Me too."
Those three simple words brought a smile to his face, but he wanted to hear something more specific. "You too, what? You also have a loved one?"
Asahi nodded tenderly.
"Who is it?" He moved closer to her, his warm breath brushing her face.
"The one who is asking questions knowing the answer!" She glared at him coquettishly and lowered her eyes.
He held her face gently and made her look at him. "He doesn't know. How could he know if you didn't say anything? He has no confidence at all. He's afraid that you're just sympathizing with him and being grateful to him..."
She put her finger on his lips, stopping him from speculating further. "Human emotions are complicated, and it's hard to explain them clearly, but I know very well whether I want to get close, hug, be intimate, or get married! Just like how I feel about Jing, I can't explain how I feel about him. I'm willing to do a lot for him, I'm willing to fight for him. I hope he's happy, but if you ask me to be his lover or marry him, I know for sure I don't want to!" After thinking for a moment, she added solemnly, "I wouldn't want to do that with anyone except you."
Yue Lanxiu hugged her tightly in his arms without saying a word. With her words, his life was worth it!
"I think I can understand your thoughts, just like I feel the same way about Youya! As long as she needs my help, I will help her unconditionally, except that I can't give her my heart, because my heart is no longer with me. It has long gone to you! Whether you want it or not, it has already decided on you!"
They reveal their true feelings to each other, at least to let each other know that they only love you and there is no room for anyone else in their hearts!
"What should we do?" She wanted to be with him forever, but she couldn't help but consider other people's feelings. The image of Zhuang Youya telling her how much he loved Yue Lanxiu kept appearing in her mind, causing her to loosen her grip on him. What would happen if Youya saw them together? She wouldn't be able to accept it!
"Ah——" Suddenly a frightened cry came from the sky.
Next to them was a lawn with a slope of about 60 degrees. The sound came from the highest point of the lawn. When the two looked up, they saw a female figure slipping and rolling down dangerously from the top.
Saving lives was the most important thing, so the two men immediately rushed to the woman and asked with concern, "Did you—" Their words were suddenly interrupted after they saw the woman's face clearly.
"Elegant?!" they both exclaimed in unison.
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