Chapter 26 Vineyard "Have you never heard that secret love is a game for chickens...
"2018.07.01 The Moon is High"
I'm afraid I won't even be able to be friends.
——Excerpt from Tao Shuran’s Diary
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Tao Shuran was holding a can of green plum sparkling water in his hand. He had just tilted his head back to take a sip when he staggered again after hearing these words.
This would be a rush outward, she strode to the shore, keeping a safe distance from him.
Liang Yuanjing folded his arms and looked at her, his eyes wide open, looking a bit like...?
Oh, he was driving here when he passed by the grape vine in the vineyard and accidentally caught the grapes in his car window.
"Are you so timid?"
He slowly walked to the shore, pulling his dark grey coat up to the top, leaving only a pair of eyes as black as stars.
The scene behind was a complete mess. The crowded barbecue stall was extremely popular. Zhao Zhengnian squeezed into the crowd to find an empty seat. Fang Qingyi looked very upset. She held two bottles of Qie Liang and drank directly from them after opening the lids.
Liang Yuanjing didn't want to get involved, so he just stood there and adjusted the frame.
I casually chatted with her: "Are you still imitating others in having a crush?"
Tao Shuran stood beside him, unconsciously breathing softly and reducing her presence.
She muttered softly, "That's why I have a crush on you because I'm a coward. Haven't you heard that secret love is a coward's game?"
"Yeah?"
Liang Yuanjing raised his head, revealing his entire face, with a beautiful and impeccable jaw.
He tilted his head to look at her and said in a serious tone, "I don't think so."
For some reason, Tao Shuran felt that she and Liang Yuanjing seemed to be getting closer because of the topic of liking someone.
It's a wonderful feeling.
She approached him because she liked him.
Tao Shuran asked with the seriousness of an academic discussion: "What do you think?"
"Have you ever heard a word?"
Liang Yuanjing didn't even raise his head, his fingers fiddling with the camera in his hand, his temperament still as cold as ever.
"Love, it turns out, is the moment when one abandons the darkness of inferiority and turns to the light. One can sink deeper and deeper into the pit of inferiority, or turn around and embrace liberation on the path of love."
"Human emotions are limited. I think it's quite brave of you to selflessly dedicate the positive emotions that symbolize your love to an unrelated person."
Tao Shuran burst out laughing: "I like others, why do you say it as if I am great."
"Isn't it?"
Liang Yuanjing thought for a moment and said, "On the contrary, I think people shouldn't focus on the person they secretly love. If a person's life is like surviving in a dark cave, then love is the burning torch. You like someone, so you are willing to light the torch for them. Whether they want this light or not, you have truly illuminated a path forward."
It turns out that secret love can be understood in this way.
Tao Shuran always thought that having a crush and being secretly loved was a relationship of admiration and being admired, but she forgot the subjectivity of self-worth.
Liang Yuanjing is a person with perfect subjectivity.
He is passionate, unrestrained and spontaneous, and his innate freedom seems to be able to infect everyone.
The first time she saw Liang Yuanjing, Tao Shuran secretly vowed in her heart that she would become a person who could bring light to others in the future.
But I didn't expect that her existence itself is a beam of light that illuminates others.
She was moved: "Liang Yuanjing, you are really a good person."
After Liang Yuanjing adjusted the tripod, he looked up and saw the girl staring at him with tearful eyes, and his heart skipped a beat.
He just said it casually, how come it made people sad?
In order to liven up the atmosphere, Liang Yuanjing leaned over, pinched two fingers and slid them across his lips, as if swiping a card.
Smiling, he looked at her and said, "Ding! Liang Yuanjing from the flight class of Linchuan Affiliated High School has received your kindness card."
Tao Shuran burst into laughter.
It was at this time that Liang Yuanjing put the camera on the tripod and raised his chin towards the distance.
"Look, the moon is high in the sky."
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Liang Yuanjing's mother had invested in shares of Liandu Resort Hotel. Liang Yuanjing had never told anyone about this, and no one else knew about it.
After the show ended in the evening, he slowly ran to the "darkroom" on the basement floor of the hotel to develop photos.
Ms. Li Wan had taken him to dinner with the hotel owner twice before. The owner was an avid photography fan. It could be said that Liang Yuanjing's hobby was guided by him.
Zhao Zhengnian couldn't sleep late at night and insisted on staying with him.
There was no other way, Liang Yuanjing could only take him with him.
He glanced back and Zhao Zhengnian immediately understood.
"Don't worry, I won't say a word to disturb you."
Liang Yuanjing took the key and opened the door. Not even a second after he sat down, he heard him ask, "Do you think Fang Qingyi has someone she likes?"
"Are you a pig? Can't you even tell who the girl you like likes?"
Liang Yuanjing closed his eyes tightly and finally couldn't help cursing out loud.
Zhao Zhengnian was thinking hard, "Aren't there just three men here: you, me, and Fu Changpei? Did she ask that question because someone she likes is here?"
Liang Yuanjing hummed, and used a pair of tongs to take the photographic paper out of the developing solution. His hand stopped in mid-air waiting for the remaining liquid to drain, and it was obvious that he was perfunctory in what he said.
Zhao Zhengnian asked, "What are you looking at?"
Liang Yuanjing squinted his eyes and used an iron to flatten the photo paper. After the photo was developed, he looked at Zhao Zhengnian through the photo paper.
He said mercilessly: "I'm looking at you, you idiot."
As soon as he scolded him, Zhao Zhengnian immediately understood.
"Does Fang Qingyi like Fu Changpei?"
“A single moment captured in a photograph can reflect many emotions.”
Liang Yuanjing pointed with his finger: "For example, in this picture, the way you look at Fang Qingyi is almost bubbling."
Zhao Zhengnian snatched the photo away and stuffed it into his pocket, cursing with a smile, "Get lost! Don't go out and tell anyone."
Liang Yuanjing: ...
He looked up speechlessly: "Do I need to tell you this?"
"Everyone in the world knows this. Besides, isn't that the same look you give someone you like?"
"If you put it that way, in this picture, I see Tao Shuran also likes you in the way he looks at you."
Zhao Zhengnian pulled out a photo separately. It was a group photo. It should have been when they were taking pictures of the moon. Suddenly, someone had the idea of getting together to take a group photo.
At that time, Liang Yuanjing thought this looked like a tourist photo taken by a tour group and wanted to refuse it, but when he saw Tao Shuran's eyes shining and he seemed to be very expectant, he just took a photo.
He had accidentally developed all of them when he was developing the photos, and he hadn't even noticed.
Looking closely now, she is still a pretty girl. She no longer wears her hair in a ponytail after graduation. Her shoulder-length hair hangs down neatly on both sides. The evening breeze slightly blows up her bangs on her forehead. She turned her head and her eyes were completely fixed on his face.
It was just a coincidence that I took the photo.
Liang Yuanjing stood up and started packing his things. He put his hand on Zhao Zhengnian's shoulder and told him in a serious tone.
"Machines can never replace human labor, and time-lapse photography is also difficult to capture the most perfect moment."
"Besides, I already have someone I like."
Zhao Zhengnian frowned because he didn't understand the previous part because it was too profound. He felt uncomfortable and tried to find more clues from the photos.
Why did Fang Qingyi fall in love with Fu Changpei?
As a result, he actually discovered some secrets.
"Ajing, don't go. Look at this one, and this one. Fu Changpei has been looking at Tao Shuran."
Zhao Zhengnian opened his mouth wide, as if he had discovered a shocking secret, "The person Fu Changpei likes is Tao Shuran?"
a likes b, b likes c, c likes...x?
Zhao Zhengnian blurted out, "How sad Fang Qingyi must be."
Liang Yuanjing felt a dull pain in his temples, having never expected that developing a photo would cause such trouble.
He snatched all the photos from Zhao Zhengnian's hands, and his first reaction was to think of Tao Shuran, who was already feeling lost because of her love for someone.
Now that he is caught up in another emotional whirlpool, will his sensitive heart be even more sad?
"Go back to bed."
Liang Yuanjing grabbed his collar and walked out, as if brainwashing him, "You didn't find anything tonight."
"Why don't I have any?"
Zhao Zhengnian followed him out with a wooden face. As if reaching a certain point where his emotions had accumulated, he suddenly cried out in pain:
“I’m heartbroken!!!”
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At the same time, in room 1802 of the hotel, Fang Qingyi was crying and shouting about her broken heart, with the playlist of "Happy Breakup" playing on her mobile phone's NetEase Cloud Music.
Tao Shuran sat there and listened for a while, then silently changed the song to "Good Luck".
The atmosphere suddenly stopped, and Fang Qingyi's crying finally stopped.
She looked at Tao Shuran with tears in her eyes and said, "Of course, I'm heartbroken."
Tao Shuran thought for a while and said, "Just because he doesn't like you doesn't mean he has someone he likes in the future. And just because he doesn't like you now doesn't mean he won't like you in the future."
"If I comfort you like this...will you feel better?"
"meeting."
Fang Qingyi bit her lip. "But when I think about the fact that we won't even be able to be friends in the future, I feel so sad."
This is what happens when a confession fails.
Once the other person realizes your love for them, it means that the relationship has reached a freezing point and everything has to start from scratch.
No, maybe there won’t even be a chance to start over.
If the other person doesn't like you, he or she will not give you any chance to get close to him or her.
Tao Shuran felt the same way at this time, and her heart ached. She gently put her arms around Fang Qingyi's shoulders and comforted her in a soft voice.
"Honestly, Xiaoyi, I think you are much braver than me. At least you dare to ask this question. I don't dare to do that at all."
Fang Qingyi asked, "So, do you plan to stay like this forever?"
"What?"
"Just keep it as it is. Liang Yuanjing will eventually fall in love with someone. Do you want to watch him fall in love with someone else and remain indifferent?"
Tao Shuran really thought so before.
She initially just wanted to get closer to him.
People's desires are always slowly nurtured. She shook her head and said, "It will be a bit regrettable."
Fang Qingyi suggested, "Why don't you try to pursue Liang Yuanjing? It's a long-term process, and maybe it will work out when the time is right."
Tao Shuran was extremely conflicted.
She was afraid that if they got too close, they wouldn't even be able to be friends. It seemed like every choice in life was like this, with risks and opportunities coexisting.
So is she ready to bear the risk?
In the midst of her hesitation, a "reminder" notification sound from her mobile phone drew her full attention back.
When Tao Shuran saw the message, his pupils suddenly shrank.
"Liang Yuanjing": Are you asleep?
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The author has something to say: Love is actually the moment when one abandons the darkness of inferiority and turns to the light. One may sink deeper and deeper into the pit of inferiority, or turn around and welcome liberation on the road of love. - From Shi Tiesheng's "Fragments of Thoughts in Sickness"
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