Yuan Yuanyuan spent an entire night writing down in a notebook the various two-dimensional male characters that she had liked since she was a child.
Perhaps many people would wonder why such a thing with such a strong useless aura exists in this world... But for Yuan Yuanyuan now, the importance of this thing is the same as the importance of the notes she took in English class.
A matter of survival was before her eyes, so even though this booklet looked like something weird made by some fanatical 2D enthusiast, enough to make anyone who saw it feel ashamed, Yuan Yuanyuan still wrote down every point she thought of very seriously.
She pointed at the male figures one by one with her pen, looking at them carefully and trying hard to think about what it was about them that attracted her.
When a very serious problem is put in front of you - if you are not popular, you will die. Then at this time, you will think about a problem more seriously than ever before.
Why do people love a fictional character so sincerely?
Yuan Yuanyuan was lying on the bed, still lighting her 50-watt light bulb. She bit the tip of her pen, looked at the handwriting on her notebook, and pointed at it with an expression like someone buying cabbage at the market.
Well, let's talk about this one first. Although this guy has a handsome face, his family is rich, and he has good martial arts skills.
But! He is a blind man! Nowadays it is difficult for blind people to find a blind date, but how come, how come this blind man can make me like him so much?
Yuan Yuanyuan gnashed her teeth as she looked at the name on the notebook, her expression a mixture of love and hate. She tried hard to think whether her personality charm could compare to that of the blind man, then angrily crossed out the name and looked at the next one.
And this... His facial expression is almost dead, his emotions are almost non-existent, he hasn't been able to utter a single word in half a year, there's nothing else except a face, why on earth am I so obsessed with him?
Yuan Yuanyuan thought about it for a long time, and even tried to convince herself... Is it okay to not like this person?
One second, two seconds, three seconds...
Yuan Yuanyuan...suddenly buried her head in her pillow.
No, I can’t do it.
…
You see, these male supporting roles are so awesome. They have captured your heart and made you willing to pay for them.
If Yuan Yuanyuan also "created" such a person...how could he compare to these characters?
Yuan Yuanyuan wrote down words one after another in her notebook.
She has a miserable life, is gentle and kind, is self-reliant, and never gives up...
Iceberg type, yandere type, demon type...
Good-looking, good-looking, long legs, nice voice...
Row after row of words were placed on the notebook, just like a dazzling array of goods on a shelf, waiting for people to choose.
After finishing the preliminary arrangement, Yuan Yuanyuan scanned it from top to bottom. In the end, she was surprised to find that... Hey? It seems that her aesthetic taste is pretty good...
Ahem...that's not the point.
She rolled over and got out of bed. She found a mirror and placed it in front of her. She picked up the notebook and compared it with herself carefully.
——Isn’t there a saying like this? Would you like yourself after your last gender change?
Yuan Yuanyuan scanned each word from top to bottom, and then compared it with herself. She paused after each word and then looked at herself in the mirror.
Miserable life experience.
Although she had a very hard time in the past two years, she was neither wiped out nor captured and made into a modified human when she was a child.
Her childhood was very ordinary, just like every other child's childhood, with no difference.
Okay. The male supporting actor's killer weapon to attract female fans has no effect on him anymore. This one can be passed and the next one.
Gentle and kind.
Yuan Yuanyuan looked at the word, then looked at herself in the mirror. After repeating this several times, she crossed out the word with a red pen on her notebook...
Sometimes she would soften her heart.
But most of the time, she is actually... a rather cold and numb person.
Iceberg type, yandere type, demon type...
After two hours of self-torture, Yuan Yuanyuan fell exhausted on the bed, not wanting to move at all.
She had to admit that she was just an ordinary homegirl. There was nothing attractive about her.
If she were put into a real comic, her character would not survive more than three episodes... Well, maybe before she dies, she would give the protagonist a speech with profound educational significance: "You must work hard to live, otherwise you will become like her."
…So what should we do? Can we just make it up?
Make up a character? Make up a fictitious "tragic childhood"?
Yuan Yuanyuan... didn't want to make up something that was not true. To be more precise, she didn't want to get involved in this matter at all.
But she felt that as a woman, she was actually quite lucky. She could list so many attractive male partners and analyze their attractive points one by one. If it were another boy, he would probably be at a loss at this moment.
If it were straight men, they would come up with ways to increase their popularity - such as building up muscles like Billy King, or working hard to improve their masculinity...
Depending on Yuan Yuanyuan's personal aesthetic, this might make their death even more miserable.
In fact, writing characters is a very unreliable thing. Yuan Yuanyuan knew this.
Even if you haven't experienced it yourself, in this age of advanced information, you have seen a lot of things in the entertainment industry.
Facts have proven that those who manipulate their personalities always die the worst. Once the personalities are ruined, the angry fans will let you know what it means to be afraid of being deceived.
Fuck the character of Bai Lianhua. If she is found to be a Bai Lian bitch in the end, it will be such a popular thing for the spectators to see...
Fuck~ the character of Zhiyuan Bo, in the end, people found out that he was illiterate. That was such a happy thing for the spectators...
Fuck~…
Ahem, stop.
Yuan Yuanyuan likes to eat melons, but doesn’t like to be eaten up.
She felt that once the interview in Ji Qiu came out, it was like the incident had turned into a large-scale reality show, and it was broadcast all over the world at any time and anywhere.
Look at the stars who are still surviving in the entertainment industry many years later - although they have some personalities to a greater or lesser extent, these personalities are extremely close to themselves.
Acting in your true colors, you won't feel tired, nor will you worry about the molten lava-like anger of fans after a breakdown.
...So what is my true performance?
Someone who hides in the house all year round, is too poor to have money to eat, and knows nothing about the world of monsters... a otaku?
Yuan Yuanyuan put down the notebook in her hand, sighed, walked to the window, and looked at the people coming and going outside.
If necessary...she might really screw with the character, a character that has nothing to do with herself.
A very dangerous move.
After all, Ji Qiu's comics can reflect a person's true character better than reality shows.
Yuan Yuanyuan sighed and put away her notebook.
…
"Speaking of which, Sister Yuanyuan, have you been working recently? How did you suddenly become so rich?"
Xiaoying looked at the pork rib soup that Yuan Yuanyuan brought over and asked in surprise.
"Well, I'm working. But I'm not rich. I'm still very poor." Yuan Yuanyuan explained, "But I have a place to pay for this month's water and electricity bills."
"Oh, that's really a cause for celebration." Xiaoying took the pork chop soup, "Looking at the way you've been living, Sister Yuanyuan, I thought you might die on the street one day..."
"...How can a little brat talk like that?" Yuan Yuanyuan rolled her eyes at Xiaoying, then pretended to ask casually, "Have you...been secretly reading comics?"
Xiaoying was obviously startled. She covered Yuanyuan's mouth with her hand and waved her hand, "Don't let my mother hear it."
"Isn't it just reading comics secretly? When I was in high school, I read romance novels and fought countless guerrilla battles with my mother." Yuan Yuanyuan pretended not to care. "What kind of comics do you like to read the most?"
"Well, as for comics, it's popular in the class recently to read those magazines, such as "Reading Comics" and "Dream Comics"." Xiaoying said quietly.
Oh... Yuan Yuanyuan nodded and didn't ask any more questions.
She watched Xiaoying carry the ribs into the house, and could vaguely hear Xiaoying's mother's roar last night when she found out the ribs were missing...
After receiving her first paycheck, Yuan Yuanyuan took it to a clothing store and bought several sets of clothes. She then secretly took a long detour back home, stood in front of her small mirror, transformed herself, and spent a long time changing her clothes in front of the mirror.
A very eye-catching face, with several expressions changing frequently.
Some are gentle, some are cruel, some are happy, some are sad...
After changing countless expressions, Yuan Yuanyuan suddenly rubbed her face and looked at the person in the mirror.
...At this moment, the expression on Yuan Yuanyuan's face was the one she was most familiar with, commonly known as...dead fish eyes.
Damn... No other expression is as pleasing to the eye as this one.
Yuan Yuanyuan thought about it for a long time, so long that her hair was turning white.
Humans, why do you deceive each other like this...
Yuan Yuanyuan finally rubbed her face and made herself return to her original appearance.
She stared at the ceiling in a daze for a long time.
...It is so tiring to live your whole life pretending to be someone else.
Yuan Yuanyuan closed her eyes and fell into a deep sleep.