Chapter 399 Misty Island
"My dear Chen'er, I have missed you so much for so long that I have become sick with shame..."
Three months and ten days in a row, ninety-nine letters were received. The first eighty were torn up by Yun Chen directly, and he had no idea what Huo Gannian said.
But judging from the last 19 letters, nine out of ten were expressing his longing for her and regret, but he still didn't mention a word about what he had done that was wrong.
After reading the letter carefully, Yun Chen's eyes swept across the last sentence "The misty threads of love cross the mountains, and I will never forget my true love and think of Yong'an."
She couldn't help but raise her hand to touch the two words "Anian" written at the end, and her heart began to ache and sour again.
She seemed calm in such a decisive breakup, but in fact, when his eyes turned red, her heart had already collapsed.
How could we just end a relationship that had lasted for so many years? He was such a good person, and we had been through so much together, how could we just throw him away?
It's not that she didn't regret it, but she also knew that she shouldn't transfer her anger and helplessness towards herself to him.
But whenever she thought of everything Huo Luyu had experienced over the years, and thought that if she had recognized Huo Luyu earlier, he would have protected her and prevented those nightmares from happening, she could not calm her disappointment and resentment towards Huo Gannian, nor could she forgive herself.
It was as if there was a huge dam in his heart, firmly blocking Huo Gannian's surging love.
Her heart froze, not knowing which direction to go. She could only lean on the table and sigh deeply, covering her tight chest and imagining what he was doing at the moment.
As I was thinking, the three words "Piaomiao Island" suddenly popped up in my mind.
Yun Chen suddenly remembered that when she passed through Danyang City in disguise, she had made an agreement with Huo Gannian:
During the Grain Full season in April, the Misty City and the Piaomiao Island can be seen.
Later, for various reasons, both of them forgot about this agreement, and she still doesn't know what he prepared on Piaomiao Island.
I am in Yancheng now, which is very close to Piaomiao Island!
Thinking of this, she immediately perked up, quickly changed into casual clothes, and headed to the island alone.
Half an hour later, Yun Chen arrived at a small island surrounded by water in the south of the city, and the familiar Huo Mansion-style house appeared before him.
Because it was surrounded by water and difficult to travel, the Black Scale Cavalry did not raid Yancheng when they occupied it, and everything on the island remained in its original state.
She jumped over the wall into the yard, and saw that everything was simple and elegant, with exquisite decorations.
She walked around the entire yard and didn't see anything new. She wondered if Huo Gannian was giving her another house.
Just as she was wondering, her eyes fell on a lion statue in the backyard.
She remembered that there was a secret room in the Beining Hall of the Huo Mansion, which was used by Huo Gannian to store confidential personal belongings.
With the mentality of giving it a try, she turned the lion's head, and with the sound of a mechanism, the entrance to a secret cellar room appeared before her eyes.
She couldn't help but feel a little excited, feeling the fresh and exciting feeling of searching for treasure.
Walking down the entrance steps, I saw large boxes of about 200 lacquerware and colored shells neatly placed on the ground.
When they opened it, there were boxes of gold and silver bars, bundles of jade bracelets, jadeite, pearls and agates, as well as many priceless jewels.
Huo Gannian has always been extremely generous to her. When giving her something, he always likes to pay with real money first, and then give her the gift he carefully prepared.
She went from box to box and began to search through them.
After searching for a while, she felt something seemed wrong. She took two steps back and stood further away. When she looked at the whole box again, she found that all the boxes were of the same style. The waist of the box was hung with bright red tassels and heart-shaped knots, which was actually the standard dowry regulations.
As if she understood what Huo Gannian had prepared for her, she eagerly searched the box and indeed found a long list of dowry and a letter that read:
"The child's tears:
I often blame God. If I could live a few more years, would I be able to see Chen'er wearing her wedding dress and marrying her sweetheart with my own eyes?
I want to see how old Chen'er is now, how tall he is, and who he looks more like.
It's been more than ten years. Have you grown from a little girl who acted coquettishly in my arms to a graceful young lady?
I think you must be smart, kind and brave.
Even if it’s not the case, it doesn’t matter. As long as you are safe, that’s what I hope for.
Chen'er, mother is unfortunate and unlucky. I have a good child like you, but I have to leave you so early.
Poor you, you are still so young, sleeping alone in your lonely little bed, and you must always wake up crying when you miss your mother at night; when you see other children throwing themselves into their mother's arms, you must hold back your tears and pretend not to look, pretending not to be sad.
I always worry about the long, winding and bumpy road of life. My child is so small and fragile. How can I walk it alone?
How much grievance and tears has she suffered in this world, and who will comfort her for me?
Who would have thought that all my worries were stupid.
As soon as I left this world, my children grew up in an instant.
My son Chen is so strong and brave. Even though he has been treated poorly and wronged, he has never made any mistakes in the past ten years. He has taken every step correctly and steadily.
Even without your mother holding your hand, you have walked further and more uprightly than most children in this world.
Mom is so proud of you.
So, my child, from now on, I hope you will live only for yourself.
Just like the world owes you so much, you can just laugh it off, please treat yourself so gently.
As long as you live well, you don't owe your mother anything; as long as you live happily, you don't owe anyone anything. You are worthy of everyone in this world.
Mother has already looked ahead for you. Your future is bright, with no more grievances or tears. Only a bright and glorious future awaits you. You will hold the hand of your lover and walk with him/her until you are old and have a house full of children and grandchildren.
Chen'er, take care of yourself.
If you believe in the existence of gods in this world, you should believe that your mother must be looking at you with great happiness right now..."
After reading the letter, Yun Chen's face was already in tears. His hands holding the letter could not stop shaking, and he kept muttering:
"Mom... Mom... I miss you so much..."
All the grievances and bitterness over the years burst forth at this moment, ushering in a moment of relief.
She knew clearly that this was just a letter written by Huo Gannian imitating her mother's tone, and it was not her mother's handwriting, but she still couldn't stop crying.
It was as if Shen Youning was standing in front of her at this moment, holding her lovingly and gently, and saying to her:
"Good Chen'er, mother is really happy for you."
Looking at the more than 200 boxes with tears in her eyes, she finally understood Huo Gannian's intentions.
No matter what he gave her over the years, when it was put into her private storage, she had to write down the source when registering it, and the original property belonged to him.
Only this dowry belongs to her, Yun Chen, in this life. No one can take it away, and no one can touch it.
He imitated all the ways of marrying women and prepared an expensive and rich dowry for her in the name of her deceased mother. He also used the letter to make up for the biggest regret of her life.
Although he had no children, he learned to love her as his own daughter.
He would not write such a sentimental letter, but he would take out his mother Du Wanyi's suicide note, try to imitate the tone full of maternal love, and write down his wishes for her.
As long as you live well, you don't owe anyone anything.
When everyone in the world praises her loyalty and gratitude, he is the only one who hopes that she can break free from the shackles of "gratitude" and live for herself instead of for others.
She seemed to suddenly understand why he had concealed the matter of Meihua Po Yue Benefactor from her and why she still believed that he had done nothing wrong.
She always blamed herself for Huo Luyu's suffering. Unable to bear the guilt towards Huo Luyu, she instinctively used him as an outlet to blame and vent her anger.
Little did they know that everything was just fine.
If he hadn't been desperate to hide it, with Yun Chen's personality, she would have rushed towards Huo Luyu like a moth to a flame.
Huo Luyu told her to die, and she died; he told her to live, and she lived.
She will lose herself and respond to Huo Luyu's love unconditionally in order to repay the precious favor.
In the end, Huo Luyu never got the true love he wanted, and what was waiting for Yun Chen was only the dilemma of being caught between himself and "repaying a favor", paying the price with a painful life, and ending up with an unspeakable and most devastating ending.
How could Huo Gannian watch Yunchen go down this path when he loved her so much?
How could Huo Gannian, who loved his only sister so deeply, let Huo Luyu sacrifice her life, only to end up with nothing in the end?
He wanted to protect these two most important women in his life.
Even if it was by deception, even if I knew from the beginning that one day I would have to face Yun Chen's accusations and resentment.
So no matter how sharp Yun Chen's questioning was, whether it was a breakup or it was here, he swallowed it with no regrets and pain.
Yun Chen curled up deeply.
She understood everything.
Self-blame, regret, gratitude, helplessness... Thousands of emotions mixed together, constantly impacting her heart, making her unable to calm down for a long time.
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