Chapter 218 I only love you!
Soaking in the water, Zhong Min's mood gradually calmed down. The scenes she had experienced since she was captured and left the small village flashed through her mind one by one. She didn't know if the people in the village were okay at the moment, whether Qin Ke had really rested in peace now, whether the brothers who died for her rested in peace, and whether everything was going well in Muzhou, which was temporarily left behind by Xiao Mingzheng.
Everything else played out in her mind like a movie, and in the end, all she could feel was a sigh. She had never considered letting anyone else affect her fate, but time and again, fate played against her will. She had thought herself a new kind of woman with her own consciousness and opinions, but in the end, she found herself, ridiculously, doing little to benefit others, other than causing trouble.
All the little things combined together made her entire outlook on life and the world change dramatically again. Although many things were beyond her control and not something she could dominate, from now on, she knew how she should face them better.
It wasn't until the water had cooled and Xi'er reminded her that Zhong Min finally opened her eyes, regained her composure, and after washing herself clean, she got up and changed into the clean clothes that had been prepared. Just as everything was done, Xiao Mingzheng arrived again.
He looked like he had just washed up. Not only had he changed into clean clothes, but his face was also cleanly shaved. Apart from the bloodshot eyes that showed his fatigue from running around for several days, his whole body looked energetic.
Soon, someone else came in and laid out the food, then quietly left again. Xier didn't know when she left either, and for a moment, only the two of them were left in the room, both clean and tidy.
Neither of them spoke, but the atmosphere in the room did not seem awkward at all. Instead, it was like an old couple who had been together for decades. They understood each other without words.
Taking the white cloth that had been prepared aside, Xiao Mingzheng silently wiped the water droplets still dripping from Zhong Min's hair, each wipe carefully and gently, as if he was doing the most important thing in his life.
Zhong Min didn't resist, sitting quietly, letting Xiao Mingzheng comb her long black hair. This scene had happened more than once, but this time it wasn't a dream. Quietly feeling it, she found that the warmth deep in her heart was so easily filled. Everything seemed so distant before it happened, good or bad, joy or sorrow. Only what was actually happening felt so real, even as small as a strand of hair, but the warmth was still so real.
"Okay. The weather is getting colder now. It's easy to catch a cold if you don't dry your hair." Putting down the cloth, Xiao Mingzheng gently combed Zhong Min's hair a few more times. After not seeing her for such a long time, her hair had grown a lot longer, almost to the length when it was cut short before. However, it was probably because she no longer used hair oil. Although her hair was still thick and black, it was no longer as smooth as before.
He recalled the time when he first met Zhong Min. The image of her, smiling and enviously asking him what he used to wash his hair, suddenly flashed before his eyes. Even then, even though she knew nothing about the future, her joy and cheerfulness came from the bottom of her heart. Now, because of him, because of all the turmoil over the past few years, her happiness has been greatly impacted. He felt heartbroken, but no matter what, he just wanted her to be able to find the simple happiness she once had.
"No, I'm in good health. It seems like I've never been sick." Zhong Min replied quietly and smiled at Xiao Mingzheng, but found that he seemed to have not even sneezed since his rebirth.
Seeing Zhong Min's smile, Xiao Mingzheng's heart warmed, and he suddenly felt an indescribable joy. He had always worried that Zhong Min still wouldn't forgive him for the poisoning incident, and he was even more afraid that this incident with Qin Ke would further alienate her from him. From the moment he rescued her from Shangguan Hong until just now, although they had been together, they had only exchanged a few words, and he hadn't seen Zhong Min smile at him once.
But now, even a faint smile is enough to make him extremely satisfied.
"Min'er... I..." He was actually a little speechless, not knowing what to say. He stood there like a young child, looking at Zhong Min who was sitting next to him.
"I'm sorry..." After a moment, he still only said these three words. The guilt in his heart still made him want to ask for her forgiveness in person again, not only for the poisoning incident, but also for his mistake of not protecting her well in the past six months.
Hearing the three words "I'm sorry", Zhong Min's heart suddenly felt heavy. She didn't understand why someone always said these three words to her, and every time the person said these three words to her, in fact, no matter how you think about it, they had done nothing wrong to her.
Qin Ke was like this, and so was Xiao Mingzheng. Even though there was the previous poisoning incident, from his perspective, there was nothing wrong. The reason he felt that he was wrong was simply because he was only seeing things from his own perspective.
She slowly stood up, and stood face to face in front of Xiao Mingzheng, looking into his eyes and said, "Don't say sorry. In fact, there is no need for you to say these three words to me. If you want to say sorry, then it should be me who says it. I feel sorry for too many people, whether it's you or Qin Ke, or even those brothers who gave up their lives to save me. It's obviously me who implicated you all, and it's obviously me who messed up all this. The funny thing is, every time I say sorry, it's the other person who says sorry."
"Min'er, don't think like that..." Xiao Mingzheng naturally saw the self-mockery and guilt in Zhong Min's eyes. He was about to comfort her, but was interrupted by Zhong Min.
"No, I'm telling the truth, Ming Zheng. These three words are too heavy for me. You don't know that when Qin Ke died, I kept saying sorry, sorry to him..."
At this point, Zhong Min suddenly choked up, fighting back tears as she continued, "But no matter how many times I apologize, it can't change the fact that he's dead. No matter how many times I apologize, I'll never have the chance to make up for what I owe him. Mingzheng, you don't know, and you won't understand. He really shouldn't have died. He shouldn't have died for me. It's not worth it. It's not worth it at all!"
"Min'er, don't say that, and don't think that way. How could Qin Ke's death be your fault? Don't take all the blame on yourself, and don't always let yourself live in self-blame. I think Qin Ke would never think like that, and he would never want you to live so unhappy."
Xiao Mingzheng felt extremely distressed. He didn't know how to comfort the person in front of him. He wanted to hug her tightly but was afraid that this would make her unhappy.
Sometimes, when love is too deep and too serious, people often become involuntarily cautious, afraid of hurting the other person even when expressing their true feelings. Xiao Mingzheng was like this at this moment. Even though he had the courage to rule the world, he could only be like a helpless child in front of the woman he loved.
"No, I was really wrong this time. There was something very important that I shouldn't have kept hidden from him for so long. I shouldn't have kept dragging my feet and not told him the truth. If I had told him everything clearly early on, I don't think he would have died." Zhong Min didn't want to hide it from Xiao Mingzheng anymore. On the day Qin Ke died, Xiao Liu and the others should have heard everything she said. She knew that whether Xiao Liu and the others believed it or not, they would never tell anyone else about it, except for their only master, Xiao Mingzheng.
In her opinion, besides Qin Ke, Xiao Mingzheng was the only person she could trust. Therefore, she didn't want to deliberately hide anything from someone who trusted her. Although Xiao Mingzheng had never asked about her true identity, he must have suspected it. After all, the difference between the real Li Jin'er and her was too obvious, except for her appearance.
Instead of doing that, she might as well take this opportunity to tell him clearly that she didn't want to see another Qin Ke, and she didn't want to see Xiao Mingzheng become another Qin Ke. She had to admit that she was indeed selfish. Although she was extremely sad when Qin Ke died, she still had the courage to continue living. But if one day Xiao Mingzheng also died for her in such an unclear way, then she couldn't imagine what would become of her.
She didn't want the same regret as Qin Ke to happen to Xiao Mingzheng again, so no matter what would happen between them in the future, after going through so much, he was fully qualified to know it all.
"Mingzheng, I also want to tell you now. Whether you believe it or not, no matter what you think after hearing it, at least I think you should know." Zhong Min smiled at Xiao Mingzheng with relief and said word by word: "I am not Li Jiner, I really am not Li Jiner. I am Zhong Min, just Zhong Min!"
This time, she told him the fact solemnly and seriously. She didn't want to hide anything from him anymore. As for what the outcome would be, she didn't care. At least no matter what, Xiao Mingzheng would never hurt her because of this. She absolutely believed in him on this point.
After hearing the facts she solemnly stated, Xiao Mingzheng obviously did not show too much surprise. Like Zhong Min, he felt an indescribable sense of relief and a kind of satisfaction from the bottom of his heart.
In fact, Xiao Liu had briefly briefed Zhong Min on the recent events, especially Qin Ke's death, while he was showering. Xiao Liu also mentioned the words Zhong Min had spoken before Qin Ke's death. Of course, besides having been mentally prepared by what Xiao Liu had said, Xiao Mingzheng had always suspected Zhong Min's identity.
He hadn't completely believed her earlier claims of amnesia. After all, even if someone lost their memory, it wouldn't be possible to completely change their behavior, their way of thinking, or their abilities. He had even considered the possibility that Zhong Min wasn't the real Li Jin'er, but he hadn't been able to explain why.
If Zhong Min wasn't Li Jin'er, even if others couldn't tell them apart, Qin Ke would definitely recognize her. Strangely, while Qin Ke acknowledged the stark contrast between Zhong Min's past and present, he never said anything about her not being Li Jin'er, nor did he have any awareness of the possibility. Therefore, from this point of view, Xiao Mingzheng couldn't make any conclusions.
Moreover, gradually, Zhong Min's identity no longer mattered to him. Whether she was Li Jin'er or not, Xiao Mingzheng only knew that he loved the real Zhong Min before him, nothing more. So, if she didn't say anything, he never asked, pretending to know nothing. He believed that one day, she would take the initiative to tell him everything, and when that time came, perhaps it would prove that they had trust in each other.
Therefore, when Xiao Mingzheng heard Zhong Min talk about this, he felt more of the suppressed excitement and excitement deep in his heart. He couldn't help but reach out and touch her frowning face, smiled happily, and told her very firmly: "Whether you are Li Jin'er or not, no matter who you are, it doesn't matter, because, I only care about you!"
Such an answer is enough to express everything, beyond any thousands of sweet words, beyond all forms of expression, just one sentence "you" is enough!
Zhong Min was deeply moved, but she wanted to say more, to make the man in front of her understand more clearly: "Ming Zheng, I don't know how to explain this to you, because even I don't quite understand it myself. I can only tell you that the body you see now is indeed the real Li Jin'er, but the soul inside is me, Zhong Min."
"That is to say..." She paused, then said helplessly, "You can also understand it this way. In fact, maybe I am a ghost, a ghost occupying someone else's body. Do you understand?"
"I understand, I understand everything. I understand your worries, your concerns, and the fear in your heart! But Min'er, to me, none of this really matters at all. I only know that the person I know is Zhong Min, the Zhong Min standing in front of me now! Whether you're a human or a ghost, I always say the same thing: I only care about you!"
Xiao Mingzheng no longer hesitated, and stretched out his hand to hug the person who had a thousand concerns in her heart tightly in his arms. No matter whether she was a person, a soul, a ghost, or a demon, he only knew that he loved her and just wanted to grow old with her. Nothing else mattered to him at all.
No one knew how much he loved her. Yes, he loved her, a terrible love that surpassed everything else, even himself. And now he could completely understand Qin Ke. If he didn't love her, it would be fine. But once he loved her, it would be forever!
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