Chapter 238 Forgive My Selfishness
To be fair, Zhong Min couldn't help but be touched by what Ning Zhiyuan had experienced since childhood, and after listening to all of Ning Zhiyuan's narration, she finally sorted out all the doubts and confusions in her heart.
When a person hides their inner feelings behind a gentle exterior, they are destined to endure a burden and pain that no one else can bear. Apart from everything else, Ning Zhiyuan is naturally a pitiful person. He had a tragic childhood, endured humiliation as a young man, and seemingly never received any true love for decades. Such a person did not let fate defeat him, but chose to face it bravely and strongly, and to change everything. Such tenacity is also admirable.
However, even so, in Zhong Min's opinion, although his personal experience was worthy of sympathy, it did not mean that everything he did was reasonable or worthy of approval. Apart from other things, after all, they had different positions and served different masters, so their actions were naturally different. There was no standard right or wrong. However, the fact that he had brought her here naturally violated Zhong Min's own interests and wishes.
From this point of view, there is no way to get her to forgive him unless he can let her go. However, looking at the current situation, it seems impossible.
"Min'er, I know what you're thinking. I brought you here, and you must be unhappy now. But I want to tell you that over time, you'll definitely change your mind." Ning Zhiyuan wanted to hold Zhong Min's hand, but he held back and continued, "Don't worry. I asked Ah San and the others to bring you to me, and I didn't have any other intentions. I'm not trying to use you to do anything, or to restrain Xiao Mingzheng or anything like that. I just want you to stay by my side, because I..."
"Alright, Ning Zhiyuan, let's not talk about this anymore." Before he could finish his words, Zhong Min interrupted him. She didn't want to hear Ning Zhiyuan's last words. Those words, which sounded like a confession, seemed too unbelievable to her. "No matter what your purpose is in bringing me here, I can tell you one thing clearly: no matter what, I will never stay here willingly as you think."
She sighed and continued, "You can lock me up for life, but my heart will always be free, and I will never willingly stay here. We are two completely different types of people, destined to live different lives. So, I hope you can think carefully about whether it is necessary to lock me up here. Either kill me like Shangguan Hong did, or just let me go. At least that way, we won't become enemies in the true sense of the word."
Seeing that Zhong Min didn't even give him a chance to confess, Ning Zhiyuan felt a pang of pain in his heart. He smiled bitterly and said, "Min'er always says things so hurtfully. How could I possibly kill you? You don't have to provoke me like that. Killing you is absolutely impossible, but letting you go is also impossible. No matter what you think now, I believe that one day, you will change your mind and stay by my side willingly!"
Ning Zhiyuan's tone was unusually firm in the last two sentences, and before Zhong Min could say anything, he continued, "I know you like Xiao Mingzheng, but so what? He just knew you before me! I can give you everything he can give you, and even what he can't! Min'er, Xiao Mingzheng is not suitable for you. His heart is too big. How could there be only you in his heart? I'm different from him. Nothing in the world is important to me at all. I just want to be with you, just the two of us for the rest of my life. No matter what happens, no matter when, I will always regard you as the most important and the only one. We will grow old together and never leave each other! Isn't that good?"
His eyes revealed an indescribable longing, as dazzling as starlight. His vision of a beautiful and happy future revealed his heart with a genuine and urgent intensity. He himself didn't know when he'd become so attached to Zhong Min. He didn't know where his feelings had started, but they had already spread like wild weeds, spreading through every part of his body, completely uncontrollable.
Zhong Min was suddenly at a loss. She didn't want Ning Zhiyuan to say this, but she couldn't stop him. When everything was exposed, she couldn't avoid facing it head-on. She understood the concept of love. There was nothing wrong with liking someone, but the problem was that liking someone didn't mean you could force them to do that.
Feelings, unlike anything else, can't be forced. If they could be forced, what kind of feelings would they be? She admitted that, fundamentally, she didn't really dislike Ning Zhiyuan, especially after hearing everything about him. But to say that this could make her fall in love with him was too far-fetched and unrealistic.
"Ning Zhiyuan, you seem to have misunderstood one thing. In my opinion, there's no such thing as a first come, first served rule when it comes to love, and it doesn't mean you can achieve your wish just by insisting!" Zhong Min patiently persuaded, "Love is a matter of fate. Meeting the right person at the right time is the most suitable relationship. I don't know why you like me. In fact, we've only met a few times. Are you sure you really like me that much? Even so, just because you like me doesn't mean I have to like you. You just mentioned Xiao Mingzheng, saying that you can give me everything he can give, and even more than he can't. But even so, do you think I have to like you?"
Looking at Ning Zhiyuan's expressionless face, Zhong Min continued, "If you think so, then you are totally wrong. Love is not a transaction. It's not about choosing who gives more or who gives better things. If that's the case, then it's not love, but a transaction, a business! With your IQ, you must understand such a simple truth. So, let me make it clear again, I have never had any feelings for you between men and women. We are not even ordinary friends. So, please don't waste your feelings, time and energy on me anymore, because no matter what, I will never fall in love with you, do you understand?"
"I don't understand!" Ning Zhiyuan said sullenly, and then stopped talking.
Zhong Min was speechless after hearing Ning Zhiyuan's "I don't understand". For a moment, she didn't know what to say. After a moment, Ning Zhiyuan seemed to have adjusted his mood and continued, "No matter what you say, I won't give up. I've never really loved anyone in my life until I met you! You can say I'm selfish, or shameless, but even if you really don't like me, I won't let you go! As long as you stay by my side, I'll feel that this life has hope and is interesting! I'll feel like I'm living like a normal person!"
"I'm sorry, Min'er. Please forgive my selfishness!" Ning Zhiyuan seemed a little unsure how to continue. He glanced at Zhong Min and said, "You must be tired from the journey. You should rest early today. There will be plenty of time in the future anyway. Let's talk about it tomorrow if there is anything."
With that, he stood up helplessly, turned around, and walked out. Perhaps he was too impatient, so he thought he should give Zhong Min some time and space to let her slowly accept him. If he rushed things, it would obviously not do any good.
Seeing this, Zhong Min was also stunned for a moment. When Ning Zhiyuan was about to reach the door, he finally reacted and quickly stood up and took two steps to catch up and said, "Wait!"
Hearing Zhong Min's words, Ning Zhiyuan quickly stopped, turned around, smiled at her gently and said, "Is there anything else?"
"Well, I want to ask you, can I see Xier now?" Zhong Min actually hoped that Ning Zhiyuan would leave at this time, but she suddenly remembered Xier. According to Xiao Qiao, when she could see Xier was decided by Ning Zhiyuan, so she had to stop him and ask him about this matter clearly.
Zhong Min's question did not surprise Ning Zhiyuan. In fact, if it was not related to Xier, why would she take the initiative to call him and keep him at this moment?
"Min'er, are you really that worried about Xi'er?" Ning Zhiyuan said suggestively, "Do you trust her like this at all times and in all places?"
"Of course, she is my best friend!" Zhong Min did not hesitate, but she didn't quite understand why Ning Zhiyuan said that.
"Really? That's good, it seems I was right to ask Ah San to bring her here. At least you'll have someone familiar to accompany you and take care of you, which will make me feel more at ease." Ning Zhiyuan then said, "Don't worry, I'll have someone bring Xi'ai to you in a while. Have a good rest, and I'll come to see you tomorrow."
After saying that, Ning Zhiyuan didn't wait for Zhong Min's reply and turned around to leave. After opening the door, he quickly closed it again. Suddenly, Zhong Min was the only one left in the room, and he felt an indescribable complexity.
Zhong Min breathed a sigh of relief and sank down on the chair. She had been worried that Ning Zhiyuan would do something inappropriate to her, but she hadn't expected him to withdraw on his own initiative. She breathed a sigh of relief, hoping that Ning Zhiyuan would always remain a gentleman, so that she wouldn't be completely in despair.
Just as I was thinking about it, the door was pushed open again, and then Xiao Qiao walked in.
"Girl, Xier is here," Xiao Qiao said as she stepped aside, while Xier behind her quickly rushed to Zhong Min with an excited look on her face.
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