Chapter 0126: Lucky
Time passes by little by little.
The air that should have been light now seemed to have turned into gelatin. It flowed slowly in the room, making people who stayed here feel as if they couldn't breathe.
Xiao Rong didn't know what kind of reaction he wanted to see from Qu Yunmie. His gift could be said to be a surprise or a shock, it all depended on how the person who heard it treated it. If such a long time had passed and Qu Yunmie still didn't say a word, perhaps he should be more considerate and give Qu Yunmie a way out.
He raised the corner of his mouth and was about to say, "I was just kidding," but Qu Yunmie suddenly grabbed Xiao Rong's hand holding the teacup. There was still a little tea in the cup. Qu Yunmie's sudden action made Xiao Rong almost pour the tea on himself, but even so Qu Yunmie did not let him go.
The teacup fell from Xiao Rong's hand, and water splashed in the air and fell to the ground. There was first a crisp cracking sound, and then a sound like falling rain.
However, no one paid any attention to this noise. Xiao Rong opened his eyes wide, and his wrist was still tightly held by Qu Yunmie.
Qu Yunmie shouldn't have used so much force because he was injured and this would cause his wound to stick together, but he couldn't care less. He had something to say to Xiao Rong, something he had hesitated about several times before but decided to say after returning to Chenliu.
It was not a good time to be on the road. Xiao Rong was always nervous. He and Qu Yunmie could find new disagreements almost every day, so they often quarreled. Accidents always happened one after another, making it difficult for them to take care of themselves. Qu Yunmie was impatient, but he was patient for the first time in this matter. He needed the right time, right place, and right people. He needed to take things step by step. This was similar to conquering the world, and in a sense, Xiao Rong was indeed his world.
But these were all thoughts of the past. The gift Xiao Rong gave him was so shocking to him that it gave him a vague feeling.
It seems... it seems that Xiao Rong also has similar feelings for him.
So he didn't want to wait any longer, he wanted to say it now.
"A Rong, A Rong——"
Qu Yunmie's mind was blank. At such a critical moment, he actually forgot what he was going to say. While he was trying to find words, he pressed Xiao Rong's hand on his chest. Without the hard and cold armor, only soft and old cloth was left. Just like Qu Yunmie, he didn't have any fancy talents or appearance, but when he was around you, you just wanted to lean on him and have a good night's rest.
Qu Yunmie's heart was beating so violently that Xiao Rong could feel the vigorous vitality and the surging and deep emotions in it through his flesh and blood. Xiao Rong is twenty years old today, but age cannot determine a person's vision and wisdom. Although Xiao Rong is young, compared with this group of Zhenbei Army soldiers who have basically never seen the world and have never interacted with others, Xiao Rong knows so much.
So, he knew.
He knew that Qu Yunmie treated him very specially. He knew that Qu Yunmie had shown preferential treatment to him since the first time they met. He also knew that no one would be nice to someone for no reason.
More than a decade of living together couldn't make Xiao Rong actively go to have a reunion dinner with his family, but only half a year of seeing each other day and night made Qu Yunmie willing to attack Nanyong for him. Xiao Rong could deceive himself by saying that he was Qu Yunmie's brain, he was Qu Yunmie's military advisor, and Qu Yunmie would be stupid and die without him, but what's the point? He knew that Qu Yunmie didn't do it for those reasons, he was just doing it for himself.
This answer was obviously too much. Sometimes Xiao Rong could only be thankful that this was an ignorant era, and the Zhenbei Army had not been infected by the bureaucrats' bad tastes, so they didn't even know that men might like men.
Fortunately, they didn't know, which gave Xiao Rong some time to play dumb.
But he couldn't pretend forever, and this wasn't just his problem. The other person would figure it out sooner or later. He was such a fierce and tough person, he wouldn't agree with Xiao Rong's approach. He would definitely pull Xiao Rong out of the shadows, let Xiao Rong stand in the sun with him, and show all the good and bad things to him. ...
Xiao Rong suddenly spoke quickly: "Don't say it."
Qu Yunmie was startled. He looked at Xiao Rong opposite him. Xiao Rong frowned tightly and spoke very quickly, so fast that he didn't have time to think. This meant that what he said was what was in his heart: "No matter what you want to say to me, I won't give you the response you want."
Qu Yunmie's expression froze for a moment. He understood what Xiao Rong meant, and his face began to turn pale little by little.
Xiao Rong had already lowered his eyes. He continued, "I have things I want to do. You don't understand me at all. I am only suitable to be a minister. All other identities are not suitable for me. I am not a good grandson, nor a good brother. I can make everyone's life better, and that's enough. Don't expect to get anything else from me, because I can't give it to you. I... I thought about trying, but I was too busy. I didn't have time. I-"
It only took him a few seconds to say this series of words. People with slow brains probably couldn't keep up with him. Listening to his words, Qu Yunmie's expression slowly became stunned. At this time, Xiao Rong suddenly gasped for breath. His train of thought was interrupted, and he couldn't remember what to say next. He felt panicked, but his way of panicking was to put up defenses so that people couldn't see his broken heart.
So Xiao Rong exerted force and pulled his hand back fiercely. He turned his head and breathed rapidly. He couldn't see Qu Yunmie from this angle, so he thought Qu Yunmie couldn't see him either. In fact, every aspect of his appearance was exposed to Qu Yunmie's gaze.
Xiao Rong's vision became moist because a layer of water film formed in his eyes. He heard the sound of a chair moving next to him. He thought Qu Yunmie was leaving, but he only heard two footsteps, and then, there was another person in front of him.
Xiao Rong subconsciously wanted to look up, but Qu Yunmie was already half-kneeling on the ground. He straightened his back, but was still ten inches shorter than the sitting Xiao Rong. This was a completely new perspective, allowing him to see everything Xiao Rong wanted to hide, such as his tightly bitten lips, his tearful eyes, and his fingers that were pinched until they turned red.
When Xiao Rong rejected him, Qu Yunmie thought it was just a blow to the head, but when he found out that Xiao Rong was so sad after rejecting him, he understood what it felt like to be heartbroken.
Qu Yunmie raised his hand and wiped away the tears from Xiao Rong's eyes. After a long silence, he said, "I won't say anything."
Xiao Rong looked at him, and he curled his lips at Xiao Rong: "I told you this so that you would know, but you already knew it, so why should I tell you? Ah Rong, it's okay, I won't tell you if you don't want to hear it. I will never force you to do something you don't want. It's fine like this now. You gave me such a good gift, so I want to give you something too, freedom."
Qu Yunmie emphasized the last two words slightly, and after he said these two words, the tears that had just been wiped away fell from Xiao Rong's eyes again, like two pearls that disappeared in a flash.
Qu Yunmie never dreamed that he would actually say such words. As he spoke, he was in the mood to mock himself in his heart. Great, you’re almost a love saint.
“…Don’t cry.”
"I know how hard it is for you to stay by my side and worry about me day after day. This world is your hard work, not mine, so you don't want any changes. Then don't let it happen. Whether you want to be a minister or anything else, no matter what identity you want to be, I will not stop you. As long as your identity can still stay by my side, then I am willing to pretend to be deaf and dumb for the rest of my life and say nothing."
Xiao Rong loosened his fingers. He looked at Qu Yunmie who was so close to him. When he opened his mouth again, he asked Qu Yunmie in a nasal voice: "Do you feel that you are unlucky?"
I like weirdos like him.
Qu Yunmie smiled and said, "No, I think I'm very lucky."
At this point, he raised his other hand and held Xiao Rong's face with both hands, making Xiao Rong feel a little uncomfortable. He then said to him seriously, "It is a great honor to meet you."
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