Xiao Rong lowered his eyes and still said nothing.
Qu Yunmie: "Why don't you answer? You should think like this. This is the only way to explain why you are so cruel to me. If you think what I said is wrong, if you think I am not living the best life right now, then why do you want to leave me, give me some sweet things, let me think you have me in your heart, and then abandon me? Could it be that you did it on purpose, and you have to watch me suffer so much that you can get what you want!!!"
The last sentence made Xiao Rong's eardrums hurt, and the guards below all looked up in a daze.
What do you mean by having me in your heart too... huh? huh??? ???
People nearby were attracted by the sound. The palace was quite large, but the men all lived in the same area and only the women lived far away. Gao Xunzhi hurried over when he heard the noise. He looked at the roof anxiously, not knowing that someone behind him had been shocked silly.
Yu Shaoxie: “…………”
In a flash, everything made sense. Yu Shaoxie looked as if he had been struck by lightning. He took a deep breath and pointed at the rooftop to curse. He didn't want to care about the manners of a scholar anymore. It must have been Qu Yunmie who forced Xiao Rong to do this. It must have been!!!
But the next second, Yu Shaocheng quickly covered his mouth and dragged him away. Mi Jing happened to see this scene when he came over. He watched the two of them with mixed feelings, and then chanted Amitabha in his heart. …
The two people on the roof had no idea that there were so many listeners below. Xiao Rong was so upset by Qu Yunmie's accusations that he was unable to speak. So after slowly and tremblingly exhaling, Xiao Rong raised his head and said, "Qu Yunmie, do you understand me?"
Qu Yunmie looked at him, his eyes changed a little, but his expression was still cold.
Xiao Rong: "You say I'm cruel. Yes, I am cruel, but I also want to say that you don't understand me at all."
"It's been so long, and so many things have happened, but as soon as something goes wrong, you will doubt me and think I'm lying to you, as if everything I did before was meaningless. Qu Yunmie, do you realize that I just didn't make a promise to you. Other than that, I gave you everything! Even when I thought you were going to die, I never blamed you. Do you know what this means to me? It means that you are more important than myself. At that time, my mind was full of you, you, you!"
Both of them were filled with anger, looking at each other with hatred. Under Xiao Rong's gaze, Qu Yunmie seemed to be defeated, but his jaw moved and he did not retreat: "But what I need most is that promise. You know, if I am more important than you, then why do you still want to leave?"
Xiao Rong: "Because I want to find my own life back!"
Xiao Rong even felt a headache from shouting so loudly. He pressed the heel of his palm against his temple and continued to pour out his thoughts: "I almost forgot how I lived before I met you. Can't I just live a few days by myself? Can't I just relax? I like you, but I never felt fair when I was with you! I - I want to find this kind of fairness back, so that I can stay by your side with peace of mind. Otherwise, sooner or later I will resent you, and I don't want to be like that!"
There was complete silence between heaven and earth.
Qu Yunmie looked at him in silence. He reached out and broke Xiao Rong's arm off. Xiao Rong looked up, and Qu Yunmie asked him, "So, the one who is in so much pain is not me, but you, right?"
He asked calmly, but through his eyes, it seemed as if one could see into his heart, which was filled with blood.
Xiao Rong closed his eyes and shook his head frantically, tears streaming down his face. He asked Qu Yunmie for a hug, but Qu Yunmie did not raise his arms, so he hugged Qu Yunmie tightly.
"No, no, no..."
He said no so many times that he sounded like a toy with problems.
"I'm not in agony, I'm very happy. What makes me unhappy is something else, but you are the one who can help me get through this unhappiness. Please don't doubt me anymore, I beg you. I left because I wanted to come back, and I didn't make a promise because I wanted to give you a foolproof promise. I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
Xiao Rong had never cried so hard in his life, even when his best friend had an accident. Xiao Rong was a person with a bad temper, a little selfish, and a little ruthless. Such a person would never apologize, but at this moment Xiao Rong felt really guilty. He didn't understand why he was such a person, why he couldn't ignore those feelings, why he couldn't just make do with it, why he made the person he loved so sad, why others brought happiness to their loved ones, but he only brought pain to their loved ones.
Qu Yunmie stared blankly at Xiao Rong, who was lying in his arms, clutching his clothes tightly, and soaking his chest with tears. There is no such thing as empathy in the world, at least that's the theory, but Xiao Rong's mood seemed to really be transmitted to Qu Yunmie's heart. The guilt, persistence, love, and contempt mixed in it were all received by him, which made Qu Yunmie's breath stop and he couldn't breathe.
If he forced Xiao Rong to stay by his side, he would have to continue living with these emotions, then Qu Yunmie suddenly realized that he couldn't bear to let him go. It was too tiring.
After a while, Qu Yunmie helped Xiao Rong up. Xiao Rong's face was covered with tears and even his hair was wet. It was still very cold tonight. Qu Yunmie held his head and used his other hand to gently tidy up his messy hair.
Xiao Rong looked at him through the hazy eyes of tears, but he couldn't see clearly. Only the gentle touch on his cheek from time to time could make him feel a little bit at ease.
After everything was done, Qu Yunmie smiled at Xiao Rong, whose face was clean again, and said, "Okay, don't cry. I'll send you off tomorrow."
Xiao Rong was stunned, while Qu Yunmie wiped away the remaining tears from the corners of his eyes with his thumb. His eyes kept moving on Xiao Rong's face, as if he wanted to remember Xiao Rong's appearance at this moment forever in his mind: "A Rong."
After calling out, his lips trembled slightly, as if he had a lot to say, but after a long time, he smiled again, and in this smile that looked like he was about to cry, he finally said what he wanted to say: "In the future, don't pinch your fingers when you are unhappy."…………
There was no movement on the roof, and under the roof, many people returned to their rooms in silence.
After Gao Xunzhi returned, he just sat for a long time but never fell asleep.
After Yu Shaoxie returned, he no longer had the mood to curse Qu Yunmie. Yu Shaocheng accompanied him, and neither of them knew what they were thinking.
Even Sang Yan, who lived far away, heard the sounds from here. She walked closer and after listening to their conversation, Sang Yan couldn't help but look at the boundless night sky.
Xiao Yi and Chen were both awakened. Xiao Yi stood in front of the corridor with his fists clenched. He suddenly wanted to rush out, but the next moment, his arm was grabbed by a dry hand.
Xiao Yi turned back with red eyes: "Grandma——"
Chen grabbed Xiao Yi's arm and led him back: "Go back, go back."
Looking at his grandmother who could only mutter these two words, Xiao Yi shed tears, but still followed Chen back.
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Ah, I haven’t finished writing it yet. I will definitely finish it tomorrow! (I hope so)
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