Chapter 188 Self-deception
Ning Yan sat quietly in the chair, his eyelids drooping, revealing a heavy sense of death. "Seven years ago, when he went to South Africa to teach, I wore tactical uniform and infiltrated the special forces to rescue him. But everyone around was running away, and he was the only one bandaging a little girl's wound. I wanted to take him away, but he took the little girl with him and kept holding her tightly."
"At that time, I was wearing a helmet and covered myself up from head to toe, but I was still afraid he would recognize me, so I used a female voice."
"Ever since I was little, I've had a natural intuition about the affection between men and women. I felt it then. He seemed to like me very much, and the way he looked at me was very different from other men."
"He doesn't want to conquer me, he just simply likes me and everything about me."
"Later, when we walked out of the jungle and were in the hospital, he said he would find me a man who loved me and was worthy of me."
Yu Li: “…”
Ning Yan said calmly, "I was very angry at the time because I had never loved someone so much before, and had never felt the taste of love and home so closely. He personally gave me expectations and fantasies, and then he personally broke them in front of me. I was really angry."
"I left, left the capital, and returned to Unit 735. Then, my superiors sent me to the coldest place in the northern continent to complete a mission and receive training."
"A killer's heart doesn't warm easily, but it cools easily. I haven't thought about him in those years."
"He never contacted me again and we lost all contact."
"Until I lost my memory and became his wife, Evie."
"Evie was the name I used when I went to South Africa to rescue him. However, when I first woke up at Ilok Manor, I couldn't remember what happened between us in South Africa. At that time, I actually lost a lot of memories, but I didn't realize it. I looked at the calendar and found that there were a few months of blank space in my mind."
"I don't even know how much I've forgotten, exactly."
"But I've always felt that as long as people don't forget who they are, it doesn't matter what else they forget."
"So I didn't want to recover my memory at that time."
After listening to him, Yu Li looked at him with a complicated expression. After struggling for a long time, she couldn't help but ask, "Do you know why you lost your memory and appeared in Ilok Manor?"
Ning Yan nodded. "I understand. Moros and I were attracted by his power, so we used Yi Wei's identity to set up a scheme to make her Yu Chengbai's wife. We planned to kill him and take his place."
During the years when Yu Li and Gu Chenyu were filled with pure hatred, such thoughts had never crossed his mind, so he was very surprised: "Do you really want to kill him? Or did you trick your partner?"
After a moment of silence, Ning Yan lowered his head and sighed, "I really want to kill him."
"Why?"
"Because the power he holds is truly enviable."
"And what happened next?"
"It didn't work. There were many people protecting him. Later, Gu Jiujing was tricked by Shi Ming to go abroad and happened to live in Yiluo Manor. He discovered my ulterior motives."
Yu Li's eyes, which had finally returned to normal, began to widen again, and he said in a lost voice: "Is this related to Gu Jiujing? Shi Ming didn't tell me."
Ning Yan was stunned and looked up at him, a little bit unbelieving: "Didn't Shi Ming tell you that Gu Jiujing was the one who caused my amnesia?"
Yu Li shouted, "Did Gu Jiujing cause you to lose your memory?!"
“…”
Well, I really don’t know.
Damn it, Shi Ming didn't even tell Yu Li about this. He remembered that they had no secrets and even had to share what they said behind people's backs.
After thinking about it, Ning Yan quickly understood that Shi Ming was too embarrassed to tell Yu Li.
When Shi Ming and Gu Jiujing had just been together, Yu Li had said that Gu Jiujing was a very scary person. In fact, before they were together, Yu Li often complained about him in front of the three of them, saying that Gu Jiujing was the scariest man in the world.
Unfortunately, no one believed it, especially Shi Ming, who often looked at Yu Li with disdain.
After this trip to Continent M, not only Shi Ming believed it, but Ning Yan also believed it.
Yu Li was still shocked: "I don't understand. You didn't provoke Gu Jiujing, why would he make you lose your memory? Because you wanted to kill my brother?"
Ning Yan nodded: "I think so. But my memory hasn't fully recovered yet. I only vaguely remember that I fell into a trap when Gu Jiujing and I were sniping against each other, and was later locked up somewhere for hypnosis. But I have a strong mental state. His hypnotist failed many times and didn't succeed. I don't know what method he used to make me forget. To be honest, he was quite powerful."
Yu Li's eyes were filled with fear, and he bit the knuckles of his index finger with his teeth. "He could have told my brother, or even threatened you to leave, but he chose to make you lose your memory! What did he want to do!"
Ning Yan said helplessly: "I want Yu Chengbai to be with me."
Yu Li was surprised again: "What did you say? Asking you to be friends with my brother? When did Gu Jiujing take your business away?"
Soon, he thought of something, frowned, and rubbed his chin as he guessed, "Wait, I think I understand a little bit. If what you said is true, my brother really has liked you for many years, then someone as smart as Gu Jiujing would definitely notice it."
"right."
"So he did it for my brother?"
"I suppose so."
"You've speculated all this?"
"Well, based on the memories I've recovered and what I told your brother, this is what I've deduced so far."
After thinking for a moment, Yu Li suddenly looked at him, her tone complex and full of sympathy: "Can you tell me? You seem to have shot yourself in the foot. In fact, if you want something from my brother, you can ask him directly. I think he will give it to you."
Ning Yan's expression was numb, and his eyes were filled with curses: "I didn't realize it at that time. If I knew he liked me so much, why would I have gone to so much trouble to get close to him and kill him? With my means, I could have tricked him into losing everything!"
Yu Li nodded in agreement, but there was still something she couldn't figure out. She was curious: "Does my brother know that Yiwei and you are the same person? It seems like he doesn't know, but if he doesn't know, why would he fall in love with Yiwei?"
Ning Yan said: "I asked him today."
"What did he say?"
"I know."
"What do you mean? Then you didn't know?"
"Yes, because he was also hypnotized by Gu Jiujing."
“…”
Yu Li couldn't help but frown. He had been observing the relationship between Gu Jiujing and Yu Chengbai since he was a child. Not only him, but the entire capital city could see it clearly.
Many people say that if you want to escape from Gu Jiujing, you can only ask Yu Chengbai for help.
This kind of affection, which was known to everyone, did not seem to be able to arouse Gu Jiujing's already limited conscience.
Yu Chengbai’s love for her for more than 20 years couldn’t do that, so how could Shi Ming’s love for her for less than two years be possible?
Yu Li suddenly wanted to call Shi Ming to ask him what he was doing and who he was with.
Ning Yan didn't notice his sudden gloomy expression and continued, "He said that when I approached him in Chris City disguised as a woman, he knew it was me, but after being hypnotized, he didn't know anymore."
Yu Li came to his senses and asked him, "Why? Can hypnosis really make people blind?"
"Because of self-deception. Also, his sense of smell is gone."
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PS:
While trying to finish it, Gu Jiujing, you are done, Yu Li is going to persuade you to break up!
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