Lin Xihe sobbed uncontrollably. Looking at Gu Qinghuai in front of her, she understood that he must have loved the original Lin Xihe terribly, which was why he was willing to hurt himself like this in order to find out the truth.
And she, at this moment, seems to have lost completely.
She felt utterly exhausted and had no strength left to continue.
The complex relationship between Ji Zhuo, Gu Qinghuai, and herself had completely drained her energy.
Since she couldn't change this messy situation, she might as well make things clear and settle things with Gu Qinghuai.
Lin Xihe seemed resigned to her fate: "I'll talk, I'll talk!"
"My name is also Lin Xihe. I'm from a few hundred years, or maybe a few thousand years in the future. In my world, I encountered an accident. I don't know if I died or not. When I woke up again, I was being held down in a water vat and drowned, and then... my consciousness, my soul, entered this body. I don't know why this happened. Perhaps... perhaps your beloved died at that time..."
After Lin Xihe finished speaking, she slowly raised her eyes and looked into Gu Qinghuai's eyes. She saw that besides pain, his eyes were also full of disbelief, as if he had heard a fairy tale.
Lin Xihe choked back tears: "Can you take the antidote now?"
Gu Qinghuai remained motionless, immersed in the sudden and immense shock.
Lin Xihe sat quietly to the side, her gaze fixed on him, her lips tightly pressed together. The room was so quiet that only their breathing could be heard.
After a long while, Gu Qinghuai finally took out a pill that he had prepared beforehand from his waist and slowly put it into his mouth.
Lin Xihe watched him nervously until she saw Gu Qinghuai's breathing gradually become even and steady before she continued, "At first, my memories of the original Lin Xihe were only vague, so I was naturally unclear about her feelings for you. In fact, you were not even a part of her remaining memories."
"I think, as I said before, the blow she suffered was so heavy that she buried her most cherished memories deep inside."
As Lin Xihe spoke, she looked up at Gu Qinghuai, only to be met with the undisguised pain in his eyes, like a sharp knife piercing straight into her heart, causing her to feel a sharp pain as well.
She instinctively lowered her head, not daring to meet his gaze again.
"Later, after we met again, all the things that happened between you two before, all those little details, came to mind."
"Gu Qinghuai, you asked me if I am Lin Xihe, and I can tell you with certainty that I am Lin Xihe."
She paused slightly, as if gathering her courage: "But if you ask me if I am the same person I was before, I am not. In the world where I originally died, I also spent more than twenty years. Although I was not particularly outstanding there, I also had my own independent thoughts and soul."
"But sadly, in the course of our interactions, I found myself thinking of you without even realizing it, and you gradually came to be in my heart."
When Lin Xihe mustered the courage to raise her head again, she saw that Gu Qinghuai's eyes were already filled with tears.
only,
She had no choice but to continue talking.
"Also, since we've come this far, let me make things completely clear with you. It's true that I have feelings for you and care about you, but these feelings are the same feelings that Lin Xihe used to have for you."
Lin Xihe bit her lip and continued, "I really don't know why I came into this body. I beg you, don't kill me, don't send someone to exorcise me, and don't even tie me up and burn me. I really know nothing about any of this. If you really can't tolerate me, just give me a quick death, and I'll accept it."
“However, if you don’t kill me, I will still choose Ji Zhuo. If… if Ji Zhuo finds out that we have consummated our marriage and chooses to separate from me, then it is my own fault, and I am willing to face all the consequences alone.”
Only after hearing these words did Gu Qinghuai finally react. His voice trembled slightly, revealing deep hurt: "Having consummated our marriage, in your eyes, is it your sin?"
Lin Xihe sensed the pain in his words. She gritted her teeth and tried desperately to convince herself not to show any more affection at this moment.
She told herself that today was the day to put an end to it.
“Gu Qinghuai, what you love is not the current me, but the Lin Xihe that you always remember in your heart. And I am not her. If it were the original Lin Xihe, she would only love you wholeheartedly, and she would not be as hesitant as I am. So, she is still the same person, and you don’t need to trap me in this relationship that doesn’t belong to me anymore.”
After saying this, she slowly stood up, her steps somewhat heavy, preparing to return to her small couch and await Gu Qinghuai's decision.
However, she had just taken a step when Gu Qinghuai pulled her back and then held her tightly in his arms.
Lin Xihe didn't know how long he had been crying, she only felt her shoulder gradually getting wet with tears.
She never imagined that this usually imposing and decisive general on the battlefield would be crying so bitterly like a helpless child.
As for herself, tears flowed uncontrollably all night long.
Neither of them said another word. Gu Qinghuai held her very tightly, so tightly that she could hardly breathe, so tightly that it hurt. But she did not struggle. She just quietly let him hold her. It was as if time had stopped for them at this moment.
The next morning.
Lin Xihe opened her eyes, only to find the space beside her empty.
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