Su Jichen's life can be considered complete. At least, as Su Jichen, I revolve around her.
In fact, I always wondered if I could have stayed with Jiuxi forever if the Lord had not unsealed me. I never thought about the answer.
Maybe I'm very afraid to know the answer.
Thousands of years of companionship cannot compare to hundreds of years with you, my Lord. Perhaps it is fate that has been determined.
But, as long as she is happy, that's enough.
Later, I was Gong Ci. Even though Gong Ci had buried the memory deep in his mind, I knew that Gong Ci liked her, and wherever she went, she was indeed dazzling.
The only thing I hated the most was that when she was framed by the Fairy of Flowers, she chose the Lord and left her alone to face so many heavenly soldiers and generals. Her fiery wedding dress was dyed blood red, such a desolate color.
Her face was almost transparent, like a cicada's shell, without any blood color. In fact, I wanted to stay and face it with her, but I had too many concerns, so I was destined to lose her.
It seems that she and I always miss each other.
When the Queen Mother tried her best to torture her, I went too late and only saw her jump into the hellfire. I looked at the wandering fire dragon and jumped down without hesitation. Fortunately, she did not die, but her soul could not enter her body.
She said she wanted to go somewhere quiet.
I agreed. Nothing in the zombie world is as important to me as her.
Her soul was badly injured and almost shattered. In fact, I didn't resent the Queen Mother too much. On the contrary, I was grateful to her. At least, I could live with her day and night for a hundred years.
Even if her heart is as cold as ice, I can still warm it. But I have overlooked many things. Her heart already belongs to the Lord and will never stay for me.
But I still hold on to the hope that I shouldn't expect, that she can look back at me.
She said she saw Jun Shang in the brothel. I knew she was very sad and even felt a little resentful. I saw her hiding in the dark and crying secretly. I couldn't do anything for her. At that time, I was depressed and powerless.
She said she wanted to go back to retrieve the finger bones and then return the body to Su Jiu. I knew clearly that she wanted to go back to see him, but I still agreed, because I wanted to see her smile and didn't want her to be sad all day long.
What I know even more clearly is that the Lord will find her one day.
Because she is Jing Zhi, and she is also Jiuxi, and their reincarnation fate will be entangled forever.
She returned to the underworld, and I tried my best to help her and fulfill her wish. When I saw how the Lord tortured her, I felt sorry for her. She deserved the best treatment.
Later, I found out that the Lord was just too jealous. I told a huge lie in order to make him return her body to her. I felt so guilty, so guilty that I was speechless. I saw the bruises on her neck and felt so heartbroken. The cold words she said surrounded me like broken ice. I knew that I had no chance in this life.
But I still wanted to silently protect her. When she and Su Jiu sneaked away to the human world, I followed them, keeping a distance. When I saw her being bullied, I killed the person and threw him into the deep mountains and old forests to be eaten by wild wolves.
I don't want to see her get hurt in the slightest.
What kind of existence should it be to me to abstain from sex? This heart was given to Jiuxi, and it could no longer accommodate any other woman. She was half of the secret biography of mountains and seas. At that time, I wanted to laugh. Why do books have feelings?
Probably all creatures in the six realms have souls.
Jie Ran accompanied me to the God Realm. The evil spirit there was very fierce. Jie Ran drew many formations and combined them with my corpse essence to suppress the evil spirit. Jie Ran protected me and even betrayed everyone for me. He joined forces with Yinmian and ended up with a tragic end.
Sometimes, I really want to be an ordinary person. Life is peaceful and quiet, which suits my leisurely nature. Maybe I shouldn't exist in this world as a zombie from the beginning.
Later, my wish came true.
Countless stars pass by in front of my eyes, and I always shed tears unconsciously. Unspeakable sadness fills my heart, but I no longer remember everything. I don’t remember Jie Ran, I don’t remember Jun Shang, and I don’t remember Jiuxi.
In my memory, there is only the girl in yellow clothes. However, on the day she and I got married, she suddenly died of an illness. Life is always so unpredictable.
In my reincarnations, every woman I met became unhappy because of me.
Every time I drink Mengpo soup and every time I walk on the Naihe Bridge, I feel indescribably heavy. I suddenly want to jump into the Forgetful River and end my absurd reincarnation.
But every time I jumped, I was always bounced back up by an overbearing force. There was no way out, I could only step into the fate of reincarnation.
It was a long, long time later that I realized that my existence was for fulfillment.
After a few months of marriage, Xiaodie died. However, I always felt that Xiaodie's spirit was still with me. However, when I woke up, the room was empty, with no trace of Xiaodie.
Dad and Mom always say that I am too obsessed and I can’t tell the difference between dreams and reality.
The peach blossom spirit sucked my energy away. I knew she was a demon, but whenever her hand brushed my face and she spoke to me softly, I seemed to feel that Xiaodie had returned to my side. Even if the final outcome was destruction, at least I could see Xiaodie.
The servants and maids in the house left one after another, and even my mother left because she was so angry with me that she almost died.
I and Xiaodie were the only ones left in that empty house.
Xiaodie always makes peach blossom porridge for me. I know she does it for my energy and to improve her own cultivation, but I don't regret it.
Later, Jiuxi came. When I saw her, I felt that her health was not as good as before. Her face was as pale and grim as a ghost. She killed the peach blossom spirit and used a formation to let Xiaodie and I meet.
I am grateful to her and I gave her my soul.
Is it fate that I can never be with the woman I love for the rest of my life? Or have I been cursed? But what I know for sure is that I never want to experience that excruciating pain again.
It hurts so much, I really can't bear it.
Being stored in that porcelain bottle, I experienced what it felt like to be fulfilled. My lost memories came flooding back like a tide at that moment, and I remembered to quit.
Why did that woman whom I used to find annoying keep pestering me like that? It was just our first meeting, so why did she like me so much?
Is this the legendary love at first sight?
But I know clearly that she is dead, completely gone.
It turns out that our existence is just to fulfill the one we love, even if it means we are like a moth to a flame, we must never stop.
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