Chapter 61 Chapter 61 The Pessimist

Fireworks exploded in Li Huanhuan's world.

My ears are buzzing.

After an unknown amount of time, she finally said in a trembling voice, "What did you say?"

Qin Shi pressed her against the bathroom wall, looked down into her eyes, and said word by word: "Li Huanhuan, I. Like. You!"

She was still in a daze, as if she was stupid.

Qin Shi added:

"It's not the love between friends, nor the love between sisters and brothers, it's the love between men and women! I like you, or rather, I love you."

He anticipated her reaction and cut off all her escape routes.

"But……"

Li Huanhuan still looked dazed, like a frightened goose. "But, how could the protagonist like a passerby?"

There was a look of confusion on her face that Qin Shi couldn't understand.

"What protagonist, passerby? What are you talking about?" Qin Shi frowned.

"Just you and me."

Li Huanhuan looked at him, as if she was facing something beyond her common sense, "You are the protagonist, and I am just a passerby."

Qin Shi stared at her.

After a moment, he burst into laughter.

Qin Shi raised his hand and rubbed her head: "Li Huanhuan, what are you talking about? Even if you want to reject me, you don't have to make such an excuse."

After rubbing his head, he pinched his ears again, "I know you have a thick shell and are good at deceiving yourself. If I tell you this suddenly, your brain may not be able to process it. It doesn't matter, I can wait until you come to your senses. But——"

Having said this, he cupped her cheeks with both hands, forcing her to look up and meet his eyes.

"Li Huanhuan."

Qin Shi looked at her and said seriously, "I can give you some time to think it over. But I also have a condition. That is, before you give me a satisfactory answer, you are not allowed to go on blind dates or meet those men in private again! And, most importantly, you are not allowed to contact Fox again!"

“…”

Li Huanhuan stared at him blankly.

The fireworks blooming in my mind finally died down. When I regained consciousness, I just happened to hear Qin Shiti's request. Wait, what does that mean?

"You seem to be imprisoning my freedom." Li Huanhuan opened his mouth.

“No blind dates allowed”, she can do it, she doesn’t like blind dates in the first place. But, “no seeing men” and “no contact with Canyang”? ? ?

What kind of messed up requests are these?

Too rude, too arrogant.

"I just want fairness."

Qin Shi said, "I hope you can take my confession seriously and consider it."

Tell, confess?

Li Huanhuan’s mind began to get tangled up.

“…During the consideration period, it will not be affected by certain unnecessary factors.”

Qin Shi pinched her cheek to bring her wandering attention back, "Or, give me the answer now."

However, before Li Huanhuan opened his mouth, Qin Shi said, "But I don't want to hear the word 'rejection'."

“…”

Confess your love to someone, but don’t want to accept the word “rejection”? What are these overbearing terms?

Li Huanhuan couldn't help but complain in his heart.

Qin Shi looked at the anger on her face, pinched her face, and smiled: "Are you scolding me in your heart now? You think I'm too domineering. Why do you have to do what I say?"

Li Huanhuan was stunned and shook his head.

"It doesn't matter."

Qin Shi smiled, but that smile was a little dangerous. "You can scold me as you like. But if I'm unhappy, I might call Aunt Su Mei."

Mother?

Li Huanhuan immediately became alert.

"What are you going to do?" she asked.

"I didn't do anything. I just told you everything about you asking me to pretend to be a couple and deceive her. Of course, I will also tell you the truth: Sister Huan deceived my feelings. She knew I liked her, but she still asked me to pretend to be a couple with her. After I fell deeper and deeper into the trap, she ruthlessly abandoned me like a scumbag. I don't have her now. I'm so sad. I can't live anymore."

Qin Shi was so immersed in the role that his voice was filled with the sobbing of being abandoned. It sounded so pitiful, but the corners of his mouth were rising higher and higher, and his eyes were sparkling with captivating excitement.

It seemed that he really hoped that Li Huanhuan would reject him on the spot.

This way, he would have the opportunity to go to her mother and complain.

"How could you do this?" Li Huanhuan was stunned.

This is completely a distortion of the truth!

Isn’t he the passionate and sincere career-oriented male protagonist? How come there is a dark side? ! !

"Yes! There are even more extreme ones. Do you want to try?" Qin Shi looked down at her.

Li Huanhuan saw the eagerness in his eyes and knew that she could not let him continue talking.

She is not as thick-skinned as him, but she still wants to retain her dignity.

"I……"

"Hey, when should I call Aunt Su Mei?"

Qin Shi tapped her face gently with his fingertips, making her feel itchy.

"Is it not okay for me to consider it?" Li Huanhuan said quickly.

Now, she just wanted to get out of Qin Shi's arms. The "bathroom wall-bang" was really not suitable for her.

"Let me go first." she said.

Qin Shi looked at her, and after a few seconds, he let go of Li Huanhuan as he was told. After being freed, Li Huanhuan immediately bent down, slipped out from under Qin Shi's arm, and ran quickly to the bathroom door.

"Li Huanhuan, I hope to hear your answer as soon as possible." Behind him came Qin Shi's smiling voice.

Li Huanhuan grabbed the mobile phone that he had thrown on the sofa and rushed back to his home at No. 149 without stopping for a moment.

Boom, boom.

She leaned against the door, pressing her violently beating chest with one hand. After a moment, she covered her face with her hands, slid down the door behind her to the ground, and buried her head in her arms.

"How, how could this happen?"

A dull sound came out of her chest.

The ears that were exposed were half red.

Qin Shi, how could he like her?

It’s like a dream!

One of them is the protagonist of the world, and the other is a passerby in the world. They have different life trajectories and are basically people from two different worlds. Why would Qin Shi confess his feelings to her?

It's even more unreal than a daydream!

"Meow~"

Something furry rubbed against my arm.

Li Huanhuan raised her face from her arms and saw Her Highness the Cat patrolling in front of her, wagging its big fluffy tail.

"Your Highness~" She reached out and touched the cat's head.

His Highness the Cat turned his head and seemed to give her a blank look. When she wanted to touch it again, it wagged its tail and walked away.

Refuse it?

Of course it’s “reject”!

She thought.

Buzz.

Xiao Jing: "You're going to refuse this?"

Xiao Jing: "Li Huanhuan, are you crazy?!"

Li Huanhuan told her best friend Xiaojing that Qin Shi had confessed his love to her. As usual, Qin Shi's true identity was hidden.

Xiaojing seemed even more excited than her.

Xiao Jing: "Height 1.88 meters, eight-pack abs, a handsome and rich young man! Moreover, he is chaste and likes you so much! Even if we are just in a relationship, it is worth it."

That being said...

But, doesn’t it mean you don’t need to be responsible when you’re in a relationship?

Xiao Jing: "You're thinking about getting married so soon? Who would think so far ahead before even starting a relationship? Besides, try it first. How do you know it's not suitable if you don't try it?"

"A relationship that is not aimed at marriage is just hooliganism." Li Huanhuan typed a reply on his phone.

Her life has not been very eventful over the years. She is used to listing out the different consequences that would come with every important choice before making it, to see if she can bear the worst outcome.

This can help her avoid many situations where she would lose control of her emotions and prevent her from getting hurt.

She does the same when it comes to "feelings".

In recent years of blind dates, not every "male guest" is a rare talent. Among them, there are also people who have normal values ​​and are decent in all aspects. However, every time Li Huanhuan used this "enumeration method", he chose to give up because he could not bear the worst result.

She knew that this approach was wrong.

Only if you guess the probability correctly at every step will you get the worst result. People usually don't get so unlucky in life, and the extremely bad things she imagined would not necessarily happen.

She can't conclude that a boy is a homosexual who is trying to get married just because he wore white socks in the photos.

We cannot assume that the younger brother is a giant baby or a mama's boy just because the other family consists of siblings, or that the other family favors boys over girls.

We cannot simply assume the worst outcome based on some speculation.

But……

Although he knew it was impossible, Li Huanhuan was unable to do it.

For her, "trust" was shattered into pieces 18 years ago when she found out that her biological father had cheated on her. It could never be put back together again.

18 years ago, she was 8 years old.

Now, she is 26 years old. She still couldn't figure out why her father cheated on her.

Can a person be kind, responsible to his family, love his wife and daughter, and yet cheat on his wife, seek "true love" outside, and do things that hurt them?

But the questions in her heart would never be answered.

Love, hate, betrayal, grief, his father's infidelity and accidental death all erupted in a very short period of time. The young Li Huanhuan didn't even have the chance to express his anger at his infidelity and betrayal before he had to accept the pain and confusion of his sudden death.

Over the years, her mother came to terms with it, met her stepfather Uncle Liu, and started a new family.

However, a part of Li Huanhuan's soul is still trapped at the age of 8. Trust and expectation still remain as shattered as they were at the beginning.

She couldn't just "try it first" as her best friend Xiaojing said.

She couldn't "try".

Just like she couldn't control herself and think about the ending of her and Qin Shi.

They were not originally from the same world. Qin Shi's [protagonist world] is much more exciting than her [passerby world], and she knows more people.

Qin Shi "likes" her now.

But she couldn't be sure how long Qin Shi's "love" would last?

As he became famous and successful, as he continued to gain success, more and more outstanding people of the opposite sex appeared around him...

After his "novelty" and "curiosity" about Li Huanhuan disappears, how long can this "liking" last? Her personality and experiences made it impossible for her not to think about these things and worry about things that had not happened.

She is scared.

She had seen the pain her mother had gone through.

She was afraid to entrust her feelings to another person.

She is afraid that after she falls in love, what should she do if the other party withdraws from the relationship? She felt that she couldn't be as strong as her mother Su Mei.

The shaky world she had built would collapse completely.

She fears the unknown.

Afraid and terrified.

Being emotionally attached is a dangerous adventure.

She was so afraid that she would break into pieces like glass.

Li Huanhuan curled up on the sofa, hugging himself tightly.