Chapter 73 I Allow You to Abandon Me

"I'll put myself in your shoes," Chen Qinian said at this moment, "If it was me who appeared at the Night Pearl yesterday, if you rushed to the Night Pearl last night and saw me leaving with someone else, how would you feel?"

What kind of mood... probably very angry, feeling betrayed.

He would make a big scene and hit that person. When his emotions got out of control, he might even hit Shen Cinian as well.

Then what?

Then he will leave. He will feel that Shen Cinian doesn't care about his feelings at all, so he comes out to cheat.

Just like when lovers have had enough of love, they will cheat and meet someone else.

He would feel that Shen Cinian was tired of playing.

So similarly, how did Shen Ci Nian feel yesterday?

But...that's different.

Different.

"You're so smart," he whispered. "I even left you a note. You know I was deliberately trying to piss you off. You couldn't possibly have thought that, so this note doesn't hold true."

"Indeed, I agree with what you said, because I have always given you full trust." Shen Qinian suddenly changed the subject, "Then do you give me the same trust?"

No, not even in the case of Song Shuyi or the National Defense University.

But that was before.

"I can give it to you." Fang Ke's tone suddenly became steady, as if the answer was given after careful consideration. "I will ask you first next time."

This is a commitment and the first step to seriously delivering rights: trust.

Trust that your master will handle everything, trust that he will not hurt you, trust him and pay attention to him. No matter what others say, always take what he says as the standard answer.

"Take off my blindfold," Fang Ke raised his head and said in an almost commanding tone, "I want you to see my eyes."

Shen Cinian put his hands behind Fang Ke's ears and took off the blindfold.

The puppy's eyes are sparkling and look very touching.

"Did you see clearly? Shen Ci Nian."

"Very clear," Shen Qinian placed his right hand on Fang Ke's head, "Thank you for trusting me. After three years, this is the biggest improvement."

"Then as a reward, I'll make you a promise."

"I won't take the initiative to end this relationship, and I give you the right to stop at any time." Chen Qinian gently stroked the puppy's fur with the palm of his right hand. "Fang Ke, I won't abandon you, but I allow you to abandon me."

Just like a hundred years ago.

Suddenly, Shen Cinian thought to himself that even if the soul is the same person, the feeling is different.

He did not fall in love with Fang Ke in his present life because of Fang Ke's past life. He fell in love with him a long time ago. At that time, Shen Cinian was sure that Fang Ke was not the same person as him.

It was after meeting Fang Ke that Chen Cinian, while walking his dog in the woods one morning, let go of Fang Ke's past life because of Fang Ke's present life and fell in love with him again.

So he has actually let go of his past life. Maybe he doesn't have enough love in this life, but he is trying to start over.

That's why he refused to recognize her. He selfishly didn't want Fang Ke to be confined to the past, nor did he selfishly want himself to be confined to the past. That past actually had a deeper meaning than Fang Ke understood at this moment.

After hearing this promise, Fang Ke suddenly sniffed. He turned his head away awkwardly, trying to hide his emotion poorly: "I didn't cry!"

"I know," Shen Cinian stroked his head and smoothed his fur.

"I...I cried, Shen Cinian, I..."

"I know," Chen Cinian still said this, supporting him with stable emotions and a reliable embrace.

In Shen Qinian's warm embrace, Fang Ke realized the difference between the two "I know".

——I know your arrogance and accept your embarrassment.

Then protect him behind you, give him salvation, and give him stability.

"Your reasons are very good. I will let you go and promise not to blame you for anything," Shen Qinian said. "Now answer my last question. If the Night Pearl is not under your jurisdiction, if you are unable to regret it, and if I don't arrive in time, have you thought about the consequences of your actions in advance?"

No. Because he is the boss of Yemingzhu, because he is capable, because he believes in his heart that Shen Cinian will come.

So he didn't think about anything and just did it rashly, without considering the consequences or caring about the outcome.

He had always been like this.

So what now?

"Two outcomes," Fang Ke's voice was a little hoarse. Shen Qinian handed him some warm water. After drinking it, he continued, "If the other party is reasonable and explains clearly, maybe they will let me go."

"If I don't tell you... I might accidentally kill him after struggling so hard."

"No," Shen Ci'nian's eyes were deep, and there was an emotion in them that he couldn't understand. "There are definitely more than two options. Human personality is very complex. The correct answer is: the consequences are unpredictable."

"You might encounter a scumbag who has no moral compunction and who will trick you into taking drugs or even feed you drugs without your knowledge."

"You might encounter someone stronger than you. He won't give you a chance to escape, and your struggle will only anger him. Your fate will be dire. I don't need to tell you what he will do to you. Even if he leaves you disabled for life, you'll be lucky."

"You might encounter a paparazzi or a blackmailer who will take a picture of you naked, post it online, and make it go viral. He will become a vampire and haunt you."

"I'm not trying to scare you," Shen Chenian's tone was cold and gloomy to the extreme. "In the past, no one taught you to cherish your feathers, no one taught you to keep yourself clean, and no one taught you that life is important, so I will teach you."

"You can loosen your mouth now. Lie down with your hands behind your back and your shoulders on the ground."

He did as he was told.

"Have I made myself clear?"

"Um."

“I won’t be dissatisfied”

"Stop talking nonsense."

"Fang Ke, everyone must have at least one person who loves you unconditionally. Promise me that you will love yourself unconditionally, no matter what situation you are in the future."

Fang Ke was silent for a long time, then with a slight cry in his voice, he said with difficulty: "I understand."

I understand, Shen Cinian. But I think that person is you.

Shen Cinian stood for a while, then suddenly bent down, passed his left hand through Fang Ke's lower abdomen, and hugged Fang Ke's slender waist with one hand.

"It's going to hurt, but I'm here with you."

It was very painful, but with my waist being hugged, my whole body felt supported and I didn't feel so shaky.

When it hurt the most, Shen Cinian knelt on one knee, picked him up and held him in his arms. He then gave everything to Shen Cinian. He no longer forced himself, relaxed his body, and put all his weight on Shen Cinian.

No matter how painful it was, would it be as painful as when the consequences actually happened? He didn't know, he had never experienced it, but he thought of the collar around his neck that emitted high-voltage electricity.

Could the Security Bureau have caused him more pain?

He thought about the long time after the operation. The pain in his heart kept him awake all night, and he only slept for an hour and a half a day for several months.

Will it hurt?

Will he jump from the building and feel his brain burst in pain?

Impossible.

But those things will never happen again.

He suddenly remembered a poem he had read in a book. He was still young when he first saw it. Although he could not understand it, he was very shocked and remembered it for many years.

Fei Guang Fei Guang, let me offer you a glass of wine.

I do not know how high the blue sky is or how thick the yellow earth is.

I only see the cold moon and warm sun, which are burning people's lives.

Eating bear makes you fat, eating frog makes you thin.

Where is the God Taiyi?

Now he finally understood, but the price of understanding was that during those most painful days, he wore himself down to the point of losing his human form.

But that's all in the past.

Inexplicably, Fang Ke recalled the ice surface that day.

He imagined the face of the descending god to be Chen Ci Nian.

He threw the damn ghost god whose face he couldn't see aside and let Shen Cinian stand there.

It’s so suitable, this position should belong to Shen Cinian.

Damn divine favor, it’s not as real as a hug from Chen Cinian.

"Before I end, I'll make you another promise. This is what I have been doing and plan to continue doing."

"I will never easily deny you. I believe in you unconditionally. The memories that already exist cannot be erased, but I will always encourage you and believe that no matter how much pain you suffer, you can pick yourself up and keep going."

"Promise me that no matter how much pain you feel, you will talk to me and get back on your feet."

Fang Ke was still in pain and hadn't recovered. He took a long time to calm down, then whispered: "Promise is bullshit, who do you think you are?"

He did not promise, but he hugged Shen Cinian's legs and whispered: "Master..."

After a big fuss, even though I didn't get what I really wanted, I was happy enough.

Shen Cinian's two promises made him feel at ease.

"Is it over?" he whispered.

"You did very well and behaved very well. It's over."

Then he instantly returned to his original form: "Hurry up and pick me up, I can't get up, it hurts so much!"

It's really not the case. I shouldn't be so inconsiderate. But Shen Ci Nian still picked up Fang Ke's legs and picked him up.

"Go home! I don't want to come here again!"

"You can still come here occasionally," Shen Chenian put the man on the bed and helped the "young master" to put on his clothes, his tone lazy and casual, "Learn how others play, so that the young master won't be dissatisfied with me, an impotent old man, and come out to auction himself off when he disagrees with me."

"..." Fang Ke was speechless, his eyes widened with anger.

He couldn't defeat Shen Cinian, so he couldn't defeat Shen Cinian!

He twisted Shen Ci Nian's arm hard.

"I'll try my best to make sure the young master isn't lonely," Shen Ci Nian continued to mock him while gently picking him up again after putting on his clothes.

The young master didn't want to pay attention to anyone and nestled coldly in Shen Cinian's arms. He was carried all the way out. When he saw other people's gossiping eyes, he snorted disdainfully.

Look at shit, no matter how much you look at it, it will only be his.

Shen Qinian handed over the power himself, and Shen Qinian had no right to abandon him and find someone else.

His possessiveness was greatly satisfied, Fang Ke's nose was almost pointing to the sky, and he was as arrogant as a fool.

Shen Cinian couldn't bear to watch it, but he just chuckled.

If time could be frozen at this moment, Fang Ke would rather never experience what happened afterwards.

If I stop writing, will the painful music never be written?

Maybe in that way, he could still deceive himself and tell himself that he could live the trivial days with Shen Qinian forever in peace.