We met at eighteen, married at twenty-two. At twenty-five, her childhood sweetheart returned, and I proposed divorce.
Someone asked if I was willing to let go. I thought about it and said, ...
I met a really strange person today. He said he wanted to buy a coffin for himself to sleep in, and then he took me to a cemetery saying he also wanted to buy a burial plot.
I've been to that cemetery; it's so expensive. I felt sorry for him, so I decided to give him half of the secret hideout I'd kept for myself. If he really does die, then we'll be neighbors, and I won't be lonely after I die...
Of course, I hope he doesn't die, and I think he won't die, after all, he looks so healthy, and apart from seeming quite lonely and pitiful, he seems fine.
[By the way... his name is Xu Ruo, and it seems we've become friends!]
I have a boyfriend!
Normally, I might not feel much, and when I see such pretentious words, I can't help but say that they're crazy.
But now... I can't say it.
Yan Yin felt she had a friend, and I felt the same way, that I had gained another friend in my limited life.
I took a deep breath, trying my best to feel less uncomfortable, but even so, it took me a while to feel a little better before I continued scrolling down.
That's when I realized that these sticky notes were actually Yan Yin's diary.
She wrote down everything that happened in her past life.
June 28th, sunny.
Xu Ruo and Sister Qing Rong came. I was so happy to see them make up, but they have to stay here...
It's not that I don't welcome them; I just know why they want to stay—they want to keep me company. But I'm so scared, so scared they'll dislike me, because I feel increasingly unwell.
But they stayed anyway, saying, "From now on, we're family."
I love this feeling, I wish it could last forever!
[Oh right, from now on Xu Ruo will be in charge of housework and minding the shop, while Qing Rong and I will enjoy ourselves, hahaha!]
...
June 29th, sunny.
Today, Sister Qingrong started teaching me how to do makeup. I heard on TV that people become ugly after they die, and I don't want to be ugly, so I wanted to put on really heavy makeup. But Xu Ruo scolded me, saying my makeup was too scary and he didn't like it!
I know he doesn't actually dislike me; he just doesn't want to see me constantly thinking I'm going to die, but I really am going to die.
Forget it, I don't dare argue with him, and I can't win anyway! I'll just listen to him.
[Well... my head is starting to hurt again, and I secretly vomited a lot of blood while washing up this morning. I hope they don't find out...]
...
June 30th, cloudy.
Today, Sister Qingrong taught me so many things, but I'm so clumsy and kept making mistakes. Even though Sister Qingrong wasn't angry, I still feel so embarrassed. How could I be so stupid?
[I was afraid that I would make Sister Qingrong cry, so I said I wanted to go shopping. I hadn't gone shopping in a long time. We went to many places and ate a lot of food, but... but my body betrayed me again. I vomited a lot of blood. Sister Qingrong must have been terrified.]
I'm so sorry...
...
July 1st, sunny.
I'm vomiting blood again...
[I'm so tired, I don't want to write in my diary anymore. Anyway, thank you Xu Ruo and Sister Qing Rong.]
...
July 2nd, sunny.
[Ugh... I'm so useless, I've coughed up blood again.]
I won't write anything else today, anyway, I'm very happy.
...