Chapter 110 Chapter 110 I will not forgive.

At first, Zhang Jingxian really thought that Xie Yun’s “illness” was cured.

He appeared before her with a handsome and calm look, his dark robe solemn and dignified, wrapping up his strong and tall body.

He looked over, and his eyes, which had always been a little bloodshot during his bouts of illness, had returned to normal. The deep darkness, the ruthless coldness, reminded Zhang Jingxian of the perilous mountains and forests she hadn't seen in a long time.

This is the true Xie Envoy.

She sighed inwardly, feeling a heavy weight lifted from her heart. This was the best. She no longer had to worry about his "illness," fearing he'd do something alarming if she didn't respond.

"My dear, do you think it was the five-grain soup or the wine that, uh, cured your nightmare?" Zhang Jingxian sat opposite him and asked him calmly how he felt.

Xie Yun glanced at her, then calmly looked away. "Ah Xian, it's just a nightmare. It will end one day."

His tone was steady and calm, and didn't sound strange at all.

Yes, dreams come from the heart. Could it be that there is really something that can continue to bother the noble Envoy Xie?

Zhang Jingxian was finally relieved now. It had nothing to do with the five-grain soup and the wine. It was Xie Yun who solved his inner demons himself, or maybe he figured it out and let it go.

She smiled faintly and congratulated him sincerely, "My dear, you are a true hero, invulnerable to all things."

She no longer had to make up excuses for hysteria to look for a doctor and prescription, which was the only good news in many days.

Xie Yun's brows were calm as he stared at the smile on her face for so long that Zhang Jingxian showed confusion in her eyes. Then he moved his fingers slightly and touched her warm and delicate cheek.

Inexplicably, she felt a deep sadness from his actions, even more so than the day when she pretended to be asleep and listened to him talk about his childhood escape from death.

Zhang Jingxian's eyes widened slightly, and she suddenly held his hand.

Some ice, she thought.

Xie Yun paused, and traces of warmth came from her body. The restlessness that had been forcibly suppressed began to fight back wildly, clamoring, raging, and crying, as if another soul kept talking in his ear.

It’s Ah Xian, his Ah Xian.

The living Ah Xian, the Ah Xian who loved him.

Ah Xian, who cares about him, will forgive him.

No! She knew nothing! Not knowing was the best! Xie Yun roared at the voice fiercely, telling it to get out of his body. As long as she didn't know, as long as Ah Xian knew nothing... he still had a chance to breathe.

Xie Yun's eyes turned red, but only for a moment, fortunately she didn't notice.

Taking advantage of the fact that no one knew how timid and cowardly he was at the moment, he moved forward and gently placed a kiss on the back of her hand.

"Ah Xian wants to go hunting?"

Zhang Jingxian was not surprised that he would ask this question. She nodded and said, "Is it okay?"

Her tone was filled with anticipation, and her lips were full, like a fruit emitting a fatal attraction, sweet and fragrant. However, the voice did not disappear, it continued to echo in his ears, telling him not to agree, he would regret it.

This is her bait.

Xie Yun suppressed the fishy smell in his throat, lowered his eyes, and hummed calmly.

"Sure, Ah Xian can do whatever she wants."

Zhang Jingxian was stunned for a moment, then smiled with her eyebrows curved, "Thank you, my dear."

There is a small hill outside Changling City. Although it is not as high as a mountain, it has dense forests, quiet lakes, and deep valleys that no one has ever set foot on.

The weather had turned cold. When she left the city, she saw many people selling firewood, which was neatly tied into piles with hemp rope. Business was good.

"Grandpa, why are so many people buying firewood?" Zhang Jingxian, holding the pony, politely spoke to an old man.

The old man had gray hair and a hunched back. He looked like a farmer from the neighborhood. When he heard her question, his cloudy eyes looked towards a city wall.

"Notices have been posted in the city, and people have reminded us when we enter and leave the city that it's cold this year, and asked us to prepare more dry firewood at home."

"Not only that, they also built a fire pit in their house. I heard it was ordered by the envoy's wife. It will make the winter more bearable."

Someone next to him interrupted, saying that he was carrying a bundle of firewood on his back.

Zhang Jingxian looked carefully and found that in addition to dry firewood, he was also holding reed flowers wrapped in linen in his hands, which he should have stuffed into his clothes and quilts to keep warm.

"Yes, the envoy's wife is very thoughtful and only allows the chopping of crooked and dead trees... Hey, Alang, do you want to sell the reed flowers?" A woman also saw the reed flowers in the man's hand and immediately spoke enthusiastically.

"No, no, I need it for my own use." The man quickly refused, but told the woman that there was a hunter selling animal fur not far away, including rabbits and gray mice.

Taking advantage of their conversation, Zhang Jingxian bowed to the old man and led the little horse out of the city. On the way, she saw many hawking stalls and people coming and going in an endless stream.

In short, it's very lively.

This was a proposal that Zhang Jingxian had written down piece by piece, and after several days, it became a living reality before her.

Her mood was very wonderful, and it was undeniable that it brought her a kind of spiritual satisfaction.

She rode her pony in the hills outside the city for most of the day, and even though she didn't catch anything, she always had a smile on her face.

On this day, Xie Yun took Chao Xu to the barracks where the Northern Army was located at Chao Xu's request.

As expected, Chao Xu revealed his true intentions and used his father's position as Grand Marshal as an excuse to ask Xie Yun to hand over some of the elite troops to him.

"Changling is busy with affairs, and Qilang cannot be distracted. I will share the burden of resisting the Di people with you. This is also the intention of the Grand Marshal and His Majesty. What do you think?"

In front of everyone, Chao Xu was arrogant. He knew that with his father, the Grand Marshal, around, Xie Yun didn't dare to touch him at all, unless Xie Yun wanted to break the balance that had been painstakingly maintained for many years.

In response to his provocation, Xie Yun remained very calm, so calm that it made one's scalp tingle.

Gongcheng Yue was the first to notice the abnormality, followed by General Yu and others who trusted him in the army, because Xie Yun not only agreed, but also took the opportunity to care about Chao Xu's arm.

"Liu Lang has been in Jiankang for a long time, so he may not be accustomed to the weather in Changling. If it rains or snows, your arms will be easily injured."

A terrifying gaze fell on Chao Xu, or to be more precise, on his arm. Unfortunately, he was immersed in the complacency of having easily achieved his goal and didn't care at all.

Chao Xu thought that Xie Yun was quite sensible of the current situation. When his father conquered the world, it might be a good idea to spare his life.

"I heard that the Northern Army gained a new batch of soldiers some time ago. What are the origins of those people? Have they been investigated?" Chao Xu unknowingly stood in the position of a superior and started questioning.

Perhaps he was praised too highly when he was in Jiankang, and even the emperor in the palace looked down upon him. Xie Yun's concession at this time immediately made him return to his original state.

He thought Changling was still Jiankang where he could act tyrannically.

Gong Chengyue sneered silently and saw with his own eyes that his friend frowned, his expression cold and fierce.

"Our background has been investigated. They are commoners conscripted four years ago. There is no problem. It was only due to a minor incident that we were delayed and lost time."

Xie Yun replied calmly, with a perfect pause that hinted at the hidden meaning.

Chao Xu's mind was working quickly. When he thought of the sudden actions of the Xie family and Prime Minister Xie a while ago, his eyes lit up.

He had a premonition that if he could find out the so-called changes that Xie Yun mentioned, he would get an unexpected surprise.

Chao Xu curled his lips and smiled, "Since you are a newcomer, it is only fitting that you be handed over to me."

Xie Yun agreed again, his tone still calm.

When dealing with a dying person, there's no need to get emotionally involved. Gong Chengyue understood this clearly, as did General Yu and the others. Therefore, they all complied with Chao Xu's requests, behaving respectfully as if they were all under the command of the Grand Marshal.

Chao Xu was extremely satisfied. When he returned to Changling City that day, he moved into a luxurious and spacious manor.

When Zhang Jingxian returned empty-handed, she happened to see Chao Xu's personal followers moving things from the market town in a frantic manner, with carriages stretching out in front of her as far as the eye could see.

All the pedestrians retreated, and an old woman who walked slowly was a little late and was hit by a sword!

This powerful blow will definitely kill someone.

Her pupils suddenly shrank, and she rushed forward quickly, blocking the falling sword with the short bow in her hand. The old woman fell to the ground in horror, trembling with fear.

The sword-wielding Chao family follower scowled coldly and was about to deal with Zhang Jingxian as well, but he saw several people surrounding her with murderous looks on their faces, and they looked very difficult to deal with.

The long sword was violently overturned, and the matter was finally settled when someone who recognized Zhang Jingxian as the wife of the envoy came over and apologized hastily.

But no one cared, and this domineering follower died suddenly within two days.

Chao Xu didn't care. What was the life of a follower? He had personally killed many of them. Gradually, his reputation spread throughout Changling. Just like in Jiankang, his cruelty and his addiction to Wushisan (Five Stone Powder) were deeply rooted in people's minds.

Once at dinner time, Zhang Jingxian curiously asked Xie Yun what Wu Shi San was. She almost thought it was a medicine similar to Wu Gu Tang.

Xie Yun still drank a bowl of five-grain soup every night before going to bed. Zhang Jingxian sometimes slept on the same bed with him, and sometimes slept alone in the guest house, making sure his nightmares were truly over and she was not disturbed anymore.

"It's an addictive poison."

When mentioning the Five Stones Powder, Xie Yun's brows were filled with disgust. He instinctively rejected anything that could control a person's mind, and the Five Stones Powder happened to be such a thing.

There was a time when smoking Wu Shi San was very popular among the nobles. Someone wanted him to try it, but he secretly beat him up.

Prime Minister Xie also strictly forbade the Xie family from taking Wu Shi San, citing the reason that crying would be unbecoming.

Zhang Jingxian nodded as if she understood, and moved the five-grain soup towards Xie Yun's hand, but then she turned around and went to the market in the city to get some Five-Stone Powder.

The small porcelain bottle and flint were placed together.

Xie Yun seemed oblivious, seemingly back to normal, but every day he was still like a ghost, hiding from the light. He stared at the peasant girl after she fell asleep, kissed her pulse uncontrollably over and over again, followed her to the hills outside the city, and watched as she familiarized herself with the terrain and marked it...

He held his living lover in his arms with loving eyes, pretending not to know.

Finally, the good news that Zhang Jingxian had been waiting for for a long time reached her ears.

It’s snowing in Changling.

Chao Xu was not afraid of the cold because he had taken Wu Shi San. He was in high spirits and led a large group of people to the hills outside Changling City to hunt.

Coincidentally, the place he chose was a place Zhang Jingxian often went to.

There is a rumor that the wife of the envoy hunted a deer there, and the deer's antlers were magical. When she returned to Changling City with the deer in her arms, everyone praised her, saying that she had been blessed by the mountain god.

No one froze to death in this heavy snow, so people were willing to believe it, and the rumor spread more and more widely.

In fact, what Zhang Jingxian was holding in her arms were just fake deer antlers made of wood and rattan. After returning to the mansion, she gave them directly to the lazy yellow warbler to build a nest.

However, Chao Xu was intrigued and was determined to hunt a deer.

Of course there are deer in the deep mountains, but Changling is located at a slightly lower altitude, so if you go to places where there are few people, you will have a greater chance of finding deer.

Zhang Jingxian secretly followed these people and watched them scatter. She found a hidden place and ignited the Wu Shi San.

Only those who are addicted to the scent of Wu Shi San can't stop.

She waited patiently, her hands and feet frozen stiff by the ice and snow, her expression not changing at all.

She knew that there might be some followers protecting her in the dark, such as Yi Yu, Xie or Wei, but she didn't care and wasn't worried that they would stop her.

Xie Yun said that he also wanted Chao Xu to die.

It’s not that Zhang Jingxian is unwilling to “sit back and enjoy the fruits of others’ labor”, she just wants to take action herself and settle her own grudge.

I don’t think about anything else, nor do I want to think about it.

Suddenly, the sound of horse hooves pierced the air, shaking the white snow around her. She grasped her bow and arrow and looked toward the source of the sound. The colt was already familiar with the terrain here, often lying in the warm valley, so there was no way it could come running here like this.

When the figure on horseback came into view, Zhang Jingxian's heart beat faster. She had successfully attracted the prey she wanted.

Chao Xu also saw the lowly commoner. She had her head half lowered, as if placing a straw cage. Her fair profile was clearer than the snow on the ground.

Blessing from the mountain god?

Chao Xu took a deep breath of the scent that made him confused and actually believed the rumor. He licked his lips and raised the bow and arrow he carried with him.

We were originally planning to hunt deer, so it was appropriate to catch this commoner.

First he stabbed her in the shoulder and pinned her to the ground, interrogated her and humiliated her, and then killed her.

It will be done secretly, without anyone noticing. Even if Xie Yun noticed something, what would he dare to do to him? He is just a lowly commoner!

At this time, Chao Xu, whose head was dizzy due to the Five Stones Powder, did not notice at all that there was no one behind him, and the followers who were supposed to protect him had disappeared long ago.

But Zhang Jingxian noticed that this was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.

She seized the opportunity and suddenly pulled the straw rope in her hand, just like catching rabbits and field mice in Yangshan in the past. Chao Xu, the youngest son of Sima, who had forced her to death with just a flick of his finger in the previous life, fell into the trap she set.

The horse, with its huge size, got a chance to escape, while the high-ranking human became the prey.

The trap was very deep and was filled with dry, sharp wooden spikes. The moment Chao Xu fell in, his arms and thighs were pierced directly. He howled loudly and finally woke up from the confusion of the Five Stones Powder.

Zhang Jingxian walked over and looked down at his miserable condition. "General Chao, does it hurt?"

She remembered that she was in pain.

"You lowly bastard! How dare you harm me!" Chao Xu's face was twisted with anger and pain, looking ugly and disgusting.

"Didn't you want to kill me just now?" Zhang Jingxian stated the facts calmly, "Now it's my turn to kill you."

She had waited so long, planned so long, all she wanted was his life. What was his noble status? In the end, he was no different from a wild boar in the mountains.

She took out the flint that she had kept with her and pretended to throw it down.

Chao Xu panicked, but he suppressed his rage and said it was all a misunderstanding. "Madam, I mistook you for a wild animal in the mountains. We have no grudges against each other. If you are willing to rescue me, I will not hold a grudge against what happened today. I swear to heaven."

"On the contrary," he shouted excitedly, promising Zhang Jingxian wealth and glory, "I can ask my father to give you a good family background. My mother is the eldest princess, so how about adopting you as her adopted daughter? You probably don't know yet, but Xie Yun's father and my father have already arranged a marriage between our two families. If you become the Chao family's adopted daughter, no one can separate you and Xie Yun!"

Zhang Jingxian paused and shook her head when she heard this. "No, I'm going to kill you. Maybe you don't know it yet, but you owe me a life."

"I'm already dead, now it's your turn to die."

Her tone was calm, without any fluctuation.

The flint was thrown down and immediately caught fire when it hit the soft thatch. Chao Xu wailed incessantly and almost turned into a fire man.

Zhang Jingxian listened to the wailing and pursed her lips. Burning a person to death was the fastest way to destroy the body. She died in the rain, and Chao Xu, her enemy, should die in the fire.

However, perhaps out of unwillingness before death, Chao Xu actually picked up a long arrow that fell with him and stabbed it upwards.

Zhang Jingxian was in a trance and her reaction was a little slow. She was barely able to avoid it when a big hand grabbed her shoulder and pulled it hard.

The arrow stuck in the snow, and she stared blankly at the person so close to her, his handsome and sharp features always reflected in her eyes.

Xie Yun, he saw it and heard it.

Zhang Jingxian's mind went blank. Realizing this fact, she stopped moving.

He didn't move, just staring at her quietly, his eyes dark and lifeless. A deep sadness and despair overwhelmed him and also overwhelmed her.

Chao Xu's wailing gradually disappeared, and there was dead silence all around. Zhang Jingxian avenged her previous life, but she was not very happy.

She said to Xie Yun very seriously, "I'm doing this for myself, not for you."

Zhang Jingxian was very stubborn and didn't want him to misunderstand her. As for the reason, she had a vague idea and she didn't need to explain it to him.

She regained her composure, even indifference.

At this moment, the ghost saw the light and was exposed and could no longer hide.

Xie Yun slowly raised his lips and asked her softly with a last glimmer of hope, "Ah Xian, will you forgive someone who killed you?"

"Won't."

She shook her head honestly.

The next moment, Xie Yun burst into tears.

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