Chapter 37: Above

At that moment, Liu Chengxu's eyes reddened. She rolled over and braced herself against Su Zhiluo, saying, "Didn't I rape you? Over the years, I've often relived it. Why don't you like me? I think about it every day, I reflect on it every day. You don't respond to me, so what's the difference between me and a rapist? Only I think about it, you never think about it! What's the difference?"

Su Zhiluo was surprised that she would reflect on these things, but she had not given any feedback, which was a problem between the two of them.

Su Zhiluo said, "Didn't I already call out?"

"That's a physiological reaction; people will moan whenever they feel comfortable."

Su Zhiluo opened her mouth, suppressing her embarrassment, and said, "I don't dislike it, I like it... I used to, if I were..." She was really ashamed. Why did she have to tell her this? But if she didn't explain clearly, it might leave her with bad psychological trauma.

“I just couldn’t get past that hurdle at first, so I was very restrained. Later, I didn’t hate it, and… I even had expectations. I’ve already given you all the food, and you’re pointing at me…” Su Zhiluo still couldn’t say it. “Do it, go to sleep, I don’t hate it afterward.”

She looked as if she had been boiled alive, her whole body flushed red, and she looked at Liu Chengxu with wet eyes, "If I didn't like you, wouldn't I have kicked you?"

This time, Liu Chengxu truly grasped the outline of love, no longer piecing it together from imagination. A surge of joy welled up within her, almost bursting forth as a cheer. But the words that came out were: "You were gambling! Gambling that I'd wag my tail and come back to you like a spineless dog! Su Zhiluo, you're too cruel... Now that I'm really back, you say all these sweet things. Why didn't you say them before?"

Su Zhiluo wanted to curse her for being heartless.

If I were heartless, I wouldn't support you. If I were truly heartless, even if you sent me messages cursing me and saying you hate me, I wouldn't have ended up at the police station with your parents several times.

Liu Chengxu clenched his teeth tightly.

They look so pitiful.

Su Zhiluo felt sorry for her. She closed her eyes and said, "I won't look at you. You can cry."

Liu Chengxu's tears fell into the pillow, and he could hear Su Zhiluo's voice in his ear. She said, "I asked you for your address, but you wouldn't give it to me. I think you want to cut off contact. I have no reason to look for you. I even offered to pay your rent, but you refused."

"You know I'm a Virgo, and these signals are all I know. I even asked you to go home and sign something. I'm already trying my best to find a suitable opportunity to contact you again and express my feelings."

Yes.

Summoning this courage is all Su Zhiluo has. She is a very passive person; if others take a step back, she will take two steps back.

"Do you think I'm throwing a tantrum?" Liu Chengxu asked.

Su Zhiluo said, "I really didn't give you a response."

Actually, aside from many other reasons, part of it is because of Liu Chengxu's parents. She just doesn't want to talk about it; it's too annoying. Those two are like demons. If they knew where Liu Chengxu was, his future would be very difficult.

Su Zhiluo said, "I didn't gamble. I just thought I'd come see you after I finished dealing with this."

"I also need time to think about how much you mean to me, otherwise why did we break up, otherwise I would just stay stuck in the same place and not be able to move on."

That's absolutely true. While the missed time is regrettable, it also makes us understand many things. If two people are inseparable all the time, they are more likely to fall into a cycle of mutual drain in the name of love; such intimacy is more like a gentle constraint.

Liu Chengxu's tears flowed freely outside. Su Zhiluo's eyes also hurt, but she endured it, her fingers trying to reach out, but finally landing on herself.

Su Zhilu remained silent, slowly pulling her clothes up with her hands, and puffed out her chest. "Hmm?"

Liu Chengxu's tears fell onto her skin, the cool touch making Su Zhiluo shiver slightly. She heard herself whisper, "Eat."

The aggrieved accusation disappeared, Liu Chengxu lowered his head, and the intimacy that Su Zhiluo hadn't experienced in two years made her hum softly.

Liu Chengxu's tears slid down his nose. When changing positions, he carefully used his palm to protect the other side, afraid that she would catch a cold. He rubbed his palm and tried to warm Su Zhiluo up.

"You...you..." Su Zhiluo couldn't help but raise her head, "Don't just suck, bite it instead."

But Liu Chengxu didn't get enough. She buried her face in it, and her nasal cavity was filled with baby bath wash. Su Zhiluo felt as if she had been soaked in milk. She kept swallowing, eating it bite by bite.

Su Zhiluo cried out when her teeth pressed against her flesh.

She placed her hand on Liu Chengxu's neck. Liu Chengxu looked up and said, "Have you thought it through? I don't want things to be like before, always so superficial. If you don't want to, then forget it."

Su Zhiluo closed her eyes to calm her breathing, and after a long while she opened her eyes and responded softly.

Upon receiving permission, Liu Chengxu immediately kissed her lips, while simultaneously reaching for the air conditioner remote. Knowing it would be cold if he kicked off the covers, Liu Chengxu carefully turned up the temperature and continued to suckle.

The bed was warm, and Liu Chengxu slipped smoothly inside. She knew before that Su Zhiluo was particularly sensitive and loved being touched. She kissed that small, delicate lip—before, every time she touched it lightly, Su Zhiluo would find all sorts of reasons to stop.

The same applies now. Su Zhiluo turned her head away and murmured softly, "Don't do this... it's not appropriate... come out first, I can't breathe."

Then all of it turned into soft sobs.

The hum of the old-fashioned air conditioner was particularly clear in the night. Liu Chengxu's tongue teased rapidly, and Su Zhiluo, unable to bear it, punched him twice in succession.

Liu Chengxu's breathing became slightly erratic. He raised his head and gazed into the other person's flickering eyes in the dim light.

Su Zhiluo said in a trembling voice, "I'm on top."

Liu Chengxu was stunned for a moment.

The temperature was set high, and the air conditioner was blowing warm air directly on her, so she didn't feel cold. Su Zhiluo lifted the blanket and gently straddled her waist. Liu Chengxu's scalp tingled instantly. Su Zhiluo's hand touched her waist, and a strange sense of shame welled up, making her unconsciously tighten her abdomen.

Su Zhiluo lifted her shirt, her fingertips brushing against her abs, and asked, "You still run?"

“There are very few places to run in S City, so I got a membership card.”

Su Zhiluo did not retract her hand. She said, "One night, I went for a walk near Zhuhai. I regretted it at the time because when others were taking pictures of us, I didn't cooperate with you properly. You were the one who tried to smile."

"Then, I saw someone running over there, and that's when I thought about it."

Liu Chengxu listened to her quietly, his breathing becoming heavier with each breath.

"When I see Cheng Xu again, I only need to look at her abs to know how much she misses me."

Liu Chengxu swallowed, watching Su Zhiluo pull down her pajama bottoms. This time, it was clear she wasn't drunk, and Su Zhiluo pressed herself against him.

There's a lot of water in it.

Her sister-in-law was nagging her.

She scooted aside and pressed herself closer.

Su Zhiluo didn't have abs like hers, but her waist was very thin. When she used her hands, her fingertips could almost touch each other, and her waist swayed in her hands.

It feels so good, so comfortable.

Liu Chengxu stuffed the hem of his shirt into his sister-in-law's mouth and had her bite it; she wanted to see.

It's beautiful, and I'm very thirsty.

Su Zhiluo would also know she was thirsty and would bend down to feed her.

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When Liu Chengxu returned home that evening, she was deeply moved to see the table full of food. She ate a lot and was both shocked and satisfied by the late-night snack.

The lights were off, so it was hard to see clearly. Plus, she hadn't been back for a long time and wasn't familiar with the area, so it was difficult to get in. We had to turn the lights on.

Two years have passed and she still looks like a newcomer, which brought tears to Su Zhiluo's eyes.

“You can get a different style,” Su Zhiluo said. “They’re all in the drawer.”

"You went to buy it?"

Su Zhiluo hummed in agreement. Liu Chengxu really liked this feeling, he liked that she shyly went to buy it for herself. She said, "I'll bite you to death."

She buried her face in Su Zhiluo's neck, unable to bear it any longer, and bit her shoulder as she entered.

Su Zhiluo gently rubbed her head against the top of her head, and the two snuggled together, just like many winter days before. But there was a difference, because the past barriers had faded away, and they were now intimately close together.

Keep the noise down, because this house has no soundproofing at all, and any slight noise inside can be heard from the building.

Su Zhiluo thought that she still needed to buy a house, otherwise it would be uncomfortable to keep to herself like this.

Sometimes, listening to those sounds is a kind of enjoyment.

It took a long time, so long that both of their arms ached. After taking the things off their hands, Liu Chengxu was about to go to the bathroom when Su Zhiluo tugged at her arm and said, "There are wet wipes."

Liu Chengxu took it out of the drawer and said, "You prepared all this?"

Su Zhiluo said, "I've been waiting for you to come back. I've been going to the supermarket whenever I have free time."

Liu Chengxu took a tissue and wiped Su Zhiluo's face. She was used to it, but she couldn't stand Su Zhiluo helping her. She couldn't help but kiss her directly, capturing Su Zhiluo's lips in her mouth. It was very sweet.

Su Zhiluo said, "I'm a little tired."

"Um."

After tidying up, Su Zhiluo lay down on the bed.

Liu Chengxu hugged her from behind, and she instinctively buried her face in Su Zhiluo's arms. Su Zhiluo smelled even better than before. She said, "Did you think about me before I left?"

Su Zhiluo's voice was sleepy and tired. She said, "You go to sleep."

"I'll go to sleep if you answer me."

Su Zhiluo took a deep breath, and Liu Chengxu called out to her, "Su Zhiluo."

"I've thought about it."

Liu Chengxu tried to snuggle into her arms, his voice choked with emotion, and said, "Finally."

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Is it delicious, ladies?